"April is the cruelest month", this is a sentence written by the British poet Eliot .
According to relevant data, spring is the highest season for depression , and it is also the high incidence of suicide in patients with depression.
19 April Fool's Day, Leslie Cheung , hiding from depression, Hong Kong Mandarin Hotel , leaving the world that had been in decline for many years.
Who is Leslie Cheung?
He is the fool in " Farewell My Concubine ", who is obsessed with the person he loves but struggles with his bad luck.
is the miserable son of " A Fei's True Story ", who has been chasing his mother's life.
is also the Western Poison who gave up and despaired to the world in " East Evil West Poison ".
The role played by "Brother" throughout his life is unforgettable.
and even after his death, April Fool's Day every year became "Leslie Cheung's anniversary".
Still have tens of millions of fans, thinking about everything about him and wish him a good paradise.
Leslie Cheung's glory in acting and music scene is difficult to surpass.
What makes people wonder is how such a star with great achievements chooses to bid farewell to this brilliant world by hanging himself.
Perhaps, his first half of his life experience was the source of his departure from the world.
1. A miserable childhood
Leslie Cheung was born in Hong Kong in 1956. His father was Zhang Huohai, a famous tailor king in Hong Kong.
When Leslie Cheung was a child, she never received the love of her parents.
According to Leslie Cheung's own recollection, his father likes women very much.
often does not live at home, rents a house directly in a peninsula hotel, , and then dates a woman.
Mother loves her father very much, so her mother often hires detectives to find her father.
On one side is the mother's obsessed love, and on the other side is the father's unscrupulous freedom. Leslie Cheung's childhood can be said to be spent in the cracks.
Later, Zhang Huohai took the woman outside home and lived with him. His mother couldn't control her, so she could only spread her resentment on him.
The so-called stepmother is a black-hearted woman who once urinated Leslie Cheung for jealousy.
When Leslie Cheung was 6 years old, a friend of his father suddenly asked him if Zhang Huohai likes to drink tea.
Leslie Cheung subconsciously went home, and he was not familiar with his father.
You can imagine how bad the father-son relationship is.
Not only did his father rarely care about him, but even the mother who gave birth to him rarely communicated with him.
Mother’s hatred comes from her father, but she loves Zhang Huohai too much and can only transfer all her hatred to Leslie Cheung.
Mother was born in a wealthy family. Even if he hated others, he hated him tactfully without any trace.
She had no intention of taking care of her young son. Even if he fell down and was beaten and scolded by his stepmother, she just watched coldly.
Leslie Cheung remembers it very clearly that he has entered the entertainment industry to develop.
Once my mother came to her house, she would ask him politely if she could use the bathroom.
This unfamiliarity hit Leslie Cheung a lot. It seemed that he would always be a redundant person in his original family.
At the age of 13, Leslie Cheung ushered in a major change in life.
My father seemed to be even more disgusted with him at home and sent him directly to study abroad.
In that era, being able to go abroad was the dream of countless people.
But for Leslie Cheung, this is a nightmare.
He had countless fantasies in his heart, and it was finally destroyed. My father was tired of him, so he drove him to a distant overseas to live a free life with his new aunt.
In fact, my father sent him to study abroad, just thinking that he could return after studying, and then his son inherited his father's business and inherited the Zhang family's industry.
But what Zhang Huohai didn't know was that at this time Leslie Cheung had already suppressed a "monster" in his heart.
This monster will always swallow Leslie Cheung's consciousness.
Learn to study alone overseas, Leslie Cheung can only use listening to music to relieve his inner pain.
It took him a long time to receive a call asking him to come back.
When he returns, his father can only look at him with a pair of pitiful eyes.
Zhang Huohai was paralyzed because of stroke and could no longer stand up.
father hopes that Leslie Cheung can make his family business bigger, but Leslie Cheung is arrogant. He looks for a job alone, worked as a waiter, and has also wandered on the streets.
By chance, I stepped into the entertainment industry and became an artist.
But there is always a desire for love hidden in his heart.
02. Under the bright halo, he is always lonely and
21 debut, Leslie Cheung, who did not become famous in one go, but fell into the ups and downs.
According to Leslie Cheung's recollection, in his days when he became famous, he had a hard time getting through every day.
Perhaps it was the pain of the original family, which caused him too much psychological shadow.
Once when he was performing on stage, he threw his hat at the audience, but no audience followed.
, but in an instant, it was thrown back to the stage by the audience.
On the stage, he saw his hat lying alone on the ground. His heart was very painful and his coldness spread throughout his body.
He didn't know how he got off the stage, he just felt that his feet were as heavy as shot put .
However, his pain is more than that.
was cheated on a large scale and was chased off the stage by more than 2,000 viewers. When they went out, they received a large box of ghost coins.
Anything like this that will make people collapse has been endured by Leslie Cheung.
After entering the circle in 1977, Leslie Cheung received a drama and was very happy to see that he was the male lead.
can be found in the crew, and only then can I find out that I need to shoot many large-scale shots.
As an introverted boy, he is resistant inside.
But because I was an unknown newcomer and could not resist, I could only grit my teeth and take a picture.
Such a level 3 film was very popular in Hong Kong and Taiwan back then, and Leslie Cheung's filming was no exception.
movie received a good response, but because it attracted everyone's attention, it was banned soon after.
If someone else has suffered from bad luck for many years, he would have retired or changed careers long ago.
But Leslie Cheung has been persisting, looking forward to being accepted by everyone with a sincere and kind heart.
It was not until 1983 that Leslie Cheung signed a contract under the Chen Shufen that it became completely popular.
In this year, his singing " Wind Continues to Blow " became popular and became the most popular golden song of that year.
Later, at the award ceremony, the TV station asked him to sit in the first line, and Leslie Cheung actually sat in the first line, what a pure big boy.
Next year, Leslie released by Leslie , which was popular from Hong Kong to the mainland.
At the same time, the song "Monica" became popular and became popular in Hong Kong.
The song was later selected into the top ten Chinese golden songs of in , and since then Leslie Cheung has gained a foothold in the music industry.
At this time, he has a great career and his love is in full bloom.
Leslie Cheung was pursuing Mao Shunyun , and the two fell in love quickly.
However, after the passionate love, the relationship did not deepen, but instead became increasingly weak in character contradictions.
Until later, Leslie Cheung met Mao Shunjun again when he filmed "Happy Events in Family ".
However, the two people who met again did not reunite, but became friends.
In 1985, Leslie Cheung held ten consecutive solo concerts, and such numbers broke all Hong Kong singers at that time.
From 1986, Leslie Cheung's songs almost dominated the golden song list, and 7 of the top ten songs were sung by Leslie Cheung.
In the same year, the song "Have You Resonated with " also won the finale of the top ten golden songs.
not only became popular in China, but Leslie Cheung's songs were also spread abroad, setting off a wave of love songs in South Korea.After singing " Love " by Leslie Cheung went to Japan, South Korea and other places to hold concerts.
Every time, it is crowded with people, and I only see a steady stream of people coming to the stage, hoping to get a signature.
He is blooming in the music industry and is doing well in the entertainment industry.
1986, in " Heroes' True Colors ", he played the role of "Song Zijie" full of justice and sincere eyes.
Years later, in " A Chinese Ghost Story ", the role of Ning Caichen is even more innocent and stunning, and no one can surpass this image.
The popularity of Leslie Cheung in his youth was actually not a good thing.
Perhaps, the achievements of this career can only temporarily relieve the pressure of his depression. But covering up does not mean that it does not exist.
In 1989, Leslie Cheung announced his withdrawal from the music scene.
It is reported that this stems from the ranking dispute between him and Alan Tam, which led to the fight between the two fans.
There are also reports that when Leslie Cheung went out, he received a ghost money sent to him by others.
And, someone scratched his car many times, causing him to be unable to travel smoothly.
Even at a concert, there were countless audiences who rushed him off the stage directly.
Of course, these are not all fans of Alan Tam, and more people just follow the trend and commit evil deeds on him.
In the surging life, Leslie Cheung chose to retire and go to Canada to heal his wounds.
In fact, what fans don’t know is that Alan Tam and Leslie Cheung have always been good friends. The two have also drunk and chatted together, enjoying the moon and watching the scenery.
Although he left the Hong Kong music scene, he did not retire from the film scene.
In 1990, Leslie Cheung, who lives in Canada, participated in "The Legend of Ah Fei" by Wong Kar-wai.
, but he appeared again, changed his previous appearance and was no longer so innocent, as if he was always pressing on a big stone in his heart.
In the past, he played the upright and kind policeman, but his later roles were mostly sad.
For example, the character " Ah Zai " in "The Legend of Ah Fei", has been pursuing the love of his parents throughout his life. Isn’t the sadness under the character of
the sadness that Leslie Cheung has experienced? His eyes that long for love and doubt about love are the true nature of his performance. After
, Leslie Cheung brought wonderful works such as "Farewell My Concubine" and "East Evil and West Poison".
Although each story is different, the characters played by Leslie Cheung are surprisingly "sad and lonely".
Cheng Dieyi That desperate and heartbreaking life, Ouyang Feng's empty eyes were as deep as the waves, but without any affection.
Leslie Cheung, who entered the film industry, completely fell in love with this kind of use of the role and concealed his pain.
He put aside his idol burden and went crazy to play one classic role after another.
Perhaps, his ability to interpret so many miserable characters so vividly is to some extent due to childhood experiences.
03. The heart of death has never stopped
In a blink of an eye, by 2000, Leslie Cheung gave a unique concert to the world.
It’s a pity that his long hair and waist are as good as his strange makeup have not been liked by everyone, but are constantly public opinion.
Someone mocked him, he was always an actor, and now he has learned to dress up as a woman.
Some people also complained that he is as terrifying as Sadako.
Leslie Cheung sang with tears when she sang "Spending Together". Seeing everyone rejecting him so much, his heart felt like he was cut by a knife. After
, Leslie Cheung stayed alone in the room and had not come out for a long time.
According to the recollection of his agent Chen Shufen, Leslie Cheung's depression relapsed again because of this incident, and it was so serious that it was out of control.
He has been giving to the world, but he has never received a trace of kindness.
In 2002, Leslie Cheung was diagnosed with depression.
In the same year, Leslie Cheung refused to film and hold concerts.
html From 0 to November, I hang myself once, but I was finally rescued in time. After, Leslie Cheung completely disappeared from the public.
On March 8, 2003, he appeared at the charity concert of the Pepsi concert for the last time with his exhausted body.
If this is not a charity concert, he will not appear.
's brief appearance did not make him feel more about the world.
In just 22 days later, on April Fools' Day on April Fools' Day, Leslie Cheung jumped at the Mandarin Hotel in Hong Kong. The 24-story high-rise building was the end of his life.
That day was April Fool's Day, and he played the biggest joke with his life.
Since then, there has been no "brother" in the entertainment industry.
04. The heartwarming "brother"
Leslie Cheung is brilliant on the stage.
But in private, he is like a big brother, who will do his best to take care of others.
Perhaps it is because of his every move, which is so heartwarming, and everyone is used to calling him "brother".
Leslie Cheung likes this love name very much, which makes him feel an self-evident sense of intimacy.
Leslie Cheung likes to make fun of hardship and will also help his younger generations without leaving any effort.
Wang Kar-wai was filming "East Evil and West Poison", because the location was chosen in the desert, the shooting environment was very difficult.
But Leslie Cheung was having fun in his bitterness and found that the watermelon in the desert was big and sweet.
So he called all the people in the crew to chew watermelon together.
From then on, his life in the crew turned into buying watermelons and gnawing watermelons together.
Leslie Cheung also likes to play mahjong. He has played mahjong for 7 days and 7 nights with his friends, but he feels that this is not enough.
So, he directly invested in the mahjong competition. Unfortunately, his mahjong level is indeed not good, and he didn't even make the top three.
Not only loves life, he also always has a sincere help to his younger generation.
Today's Louis Koo , Zhang Weijian , Cecilia Cheung , Shu Qi , Wang Jie , Carina Lau , etc., almost half of the entertainment industry in the 1980s, were taken care of by him.
Especially Cecilia Cheung, when she was 43 years old, she recognized her as her godsister. After
, no matter what Cecilia Cheung had, Leslie Cheung would stand up to support her sister as soon as possible and take good care of her.
Perhaps, Leslie Cheung has always been alive, and Cecilia Cheung would not be so embarrassed when she encountered the nude photo storm!
Conclusion:
No matter how the world changes, Leslie Cheung is always Leslie Cheung, and he is always the truest self.
It is regrettable that the "love" he has been pursuing throughout his life has never been obtained, whether it is love or family affection.
The moment he jumped down from the 24th floor, perhaps Leslie Cheung's most relaxing moment, at that moment he finally didn't have to pursue other people's recognition and love.
He was freed and returned to that lovely paradise.
However, this choice brings permanent pain to those who love him.
, such as , Tang Hede, , is still single, like his agent Chen Shufen, who still burst into tears when he mentions him. # Stars post to commemorate the 19th anniversary of Leslie Cheung's death#
