Before leaving, she wrote her last words on her blog: "Don't say goodbye, to my friends. To this gorgeous and dirty world." She left the world with bone-cutting hatred and soul-eating pain.

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Winter of 2007.

A woman named Jiang Yan jumped from the 24th floor.

Before leaving, she wrote her last words on her blog:

"Without saying goodbye,

to my friends.

to this gorgeous and dirty world."

never returned.

She left the world with bone-cutting hatred and soul-eating pain. She was only 31 years old when

left.

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After she left, the whole network was shocked.

Especially women, after knowing her story, all of them felt indignant.

She is a top student.

A top student at the Law School of China Foreign Affairs University.

Beijinger.

was sent abroad and worked in Kenya for two years. Broad vision and strong ability.

It is not an exaggeration to say elite.

But because of her husband's cheating, deception and coercion, she was forced into a desperate situation step by step.

Her husband’s name is Faye Wong .

has the same name as the diva singer, but he is a mediocre person.

In 2002, the two of them were surfing on major BBS and chat rooms. We started chatting because of music.

is quite speculative.

At that time, Jiang Yan was 25 years old.

Faye Wong is 21 years old.

Jiang Yan didn’t know that this man who talked freely would give her a lifetime of nightmares.

She answered expectantly at the beginning of the story:

"How about we meet?"

"Okay."

After meeting, Faye Wong had long flowing hair, was tall, thin, and slightly handsome.

has only a junior high school education. But people are lively. He can speak well and is very smart.

Jiang Yan is not disgusted.

Jiang Yan’s intellectual temperament also attracted him.

approached naturally.

became a couple after that.

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The story seems to be going smoothly.

but not.

In the beginning, they were not favored.

5 years later.

They are falling apart.

Jiang Yan reunited with old friends.

An old friend said: "Do you know how Faye Wong is doing now?"

Jiang Yan's expression remained unchanged: "It is said that he is now very good with a 23-year-old girl in their company."

Friends also laughed.

had no idea that Faye Wong was already Jiang Yan's husband - the husband of a 23-year-old girl who was cheating on her.

In the eyes of relatives and friends, these two people are not the same kind, should not know each other, and should not fall in love. Coming together is a fantasy.

But the fact is that not only did they live together, Jiang Yan was also the payer.

Faye Wong had no money, so she kept supporting her.

rented a house and lived together, and Jiang Yan paid for it.

Jiang Yan pays for food and clothing.

Later, Faye Wong studied at adult college, . Jiang Yan still had to bear the burden of paying for school, treating guests to meals, and taking taxis to travel.

She is like a Virgin, Purdue this person.

She thought that such a kindhearted and hard-working person would be rewarded with his gratitude and cherishment.

but not.

After Faye Wong graduated from college and entered a famous advertising company, some things began to change slowly.

Even at this time, he still wanted money from Jiang Yan because of his luxurious food and clothing.

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006.

Jiang Yan is 30 years old.

Faye Wong is 26 years old.

The two have been in love for 5 years.

is not married.

Who said that if a man does not propose to you in the second year of falling in love, it means that he does not want to marry you at all.

Regardless of whether this statement is true or false, it came true when it was placed on Jiang Yan.

In 2006, Jiang Yan couldn’t wait any longer.

How many five years can a woman have in her life?

In the past 5 years, her love and expectations have all been devoted to Faye Wong. She hopes that there will be an explanation and an ending.

This ending, if he doesn’t give it to her, she wants it.

"Are you getting married?"

He refused.

And Faye Wong’s father also refused. The reason is that Jiang Yan is 4 years older, too old, and very strong.

Jiang Yan finally got angry.

She issued an ultimatum: Either get married or break up.

For some unknown reason, the Wang family compromised. Agree to receive the certificate.

She entered the marriage of her dreams.

But what kind of marriage is that?

"There is no wedding, no banquet, no wedding photos, no wedding trip, not even wedding candy, no notification to anyone, and no blessing."

exists in name only, which is suffocating.

In her own words:

"The surface is prosperous, but the inside is rotten."

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didn't even wait for the seven-year itch, in 2007, the second year of marriage.

Faye Wong rarely came home at first.

He moved to a new company and started saying he was busy.

said working overtime.

The company has many things going on.

always needs to be dispatched.

In fact, it is neither.

When a man says he is busy, nine times out of ten, he has a deeper meaning.

There is a person in his deep thoughts - 23-year-old Dongfang.

In May and June 2007, the two were already ambiguous.

Jiang Yan began to guard the empty room alone.

"In the dead of night, facing a desolate room, the pain gnaws away, inch by inch, leaving no room."

Sometimes when I walk out the door, I don't want to go back.

"An empty room with only one person is like a scary black hole. I dare not go back."

When I get home from get off work and walk downstairs, I will subconsciously look up at the 24th floor. I wish I had a light at home.

but not.

has never been available.

She vaguely guessed that Faye Wong might have someone.

but there is no evidence.

Speculations without evidence will be interpreted as random thoughts.

until October 21, 2007.

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October 21, 2007.

Pandora's box is opened.

Jiang Yan finally saw the late truth - he really had an extramarital affair.

0 days ago, on National Day in 2007, Faye Wong and her company went on a trip to Italy.

Because Jiang Yan often went to France for annual meetings, he took away Jiang Yan's euro savings and used the money to have fun in Rome and the East.

also took intimate photos. The photo of

was discovered by Jiang Yan.

She had a heated argument with Faye Wong.

Her years of forbearance and resentment were all poured out.

Faye Wong murmured and finally admitted to having an affair with Dongfang.

Jiang Yan was completely disappointed.

The pain penetrates into the muscles and bones.

That’s it.

She spent countless sleepless nights while they were together.

Every time she came home full of expectations and found that the room was "empty" and "breathing seemed to have stopped for a moment", they were together.

Every time she nervously sent "Please buy me something to drink" or "Please buy me a meal", they were together when the message fell silent.

She was in agony.

"I cried until I lost strength. I couldn't stop convulsing. My heart was beating rapidly. My chest felt like it was going to explode. The oxygen suddenly became thin. I couldn't breathe no matter how much I opened my mouth. I was almost suffocating."

But he downplayed it. , said: "I watched her cry in front of me, and she cried much worse than you."

You really can't imagine how heartless a man is.

Even if you die in front of him over and over again, he doesn't feel sorry for you and just wants to escape.

She wrote on her blog:

"There is no such thing as a banquet that never ends..."

The tragedy may have been foreshadowed at this time.

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October 22nd to October 26th.

In the past four days, Jiang Yan was on the verge of collapse.

She often "cryed until was out of breath and felt dizzy, her hands and feet were numb , and she fell on the bed."

"She fell asleep in a daze, and woke up at dawn in the morning. When I saw that I was still wearing clothes and half covered with quilt, I felt a stomachache."

But.

The injured were scarred.

Those who hurt others do not know it.

Faye Wong mentioned one word repeatedly: divorce.

He mentioned it loudly and without any guilt.

In his understanding, this marriage has broken down and must be dissolved. It was not because of the extramarital affair that hurt Jiang Yan and caused the marriage to break up.

He used innocent expressions, silence, and weakness to express this meaning step by step:

When he got married, he was forced. When

cheated on her, he couldn't help himself.

divorce, then there is no need to worry.

He felt that he was the victim of an unfortunate marriage, not the initiator of its destruction.

In the world, there is such absurd logic.

Jiang Yan will never leave.

A few days later, Faye Wong used a delaying strategy and lied that she had broken up with Dongfang.

"You confessed to her and said it was over, and she agreed immediately."

"I really don't want to be with anyone now, I just want to be alone."

In exchange for Jiang Yan's happy divorce.

Jiang Yan saw through this trick of concealing the truth the next day.

disagrees.

Why should we agree? !

"If there is really a disagreement, it will be easy for two people to resolve the matter.

But it will be different when there is a third person.

Why should you wrong yourself to fulfill other people's intentions?"

She doesn't want to .

So, the remaining days became a long tug of war.

stayed up all night.

She sang a painful one-man show,

He repeatedly recited the divorce sutra.

8th.

She began to count down her life.

"Two months later, it is the day I leave.

As I said,

go to a place where no one knows me and is a complete stranger.

There will be no need for a phone, computer, or Internet. No one can Find me, no one, no one."

But she wrote on her blog that she should still be looking forward to it.

hopes that Faye Wong will change her mind,

leave Dongfang, and

return to her.

does not.

What she was waiting for was not Faye Wong's return home, but him taking advantage of Jiang Yan's absence to pack up her clothes and move them away secretly. And took away the couple's joint bankbook.

She came home, inserted the key into the keyhole, turned it, and it was locked.

Something is seriously wrong.

"When I entered the room and took a look, it was indeed empty. My breathing seemed to have stopped for a moment."

She called Faye Wong repeatedly as if she were crazy.

passed.

No one answered.

keeps playing.

Still no one answered.

She stayed there, like a machine, mechanically pressing the redial button over and over...

I don't know if she dialed dozens or hundreds of times before finally giving up.

She can't wait for that person.

couldn’t hear a single explanation.

She tilted her head and collapsed on the ground, despairing.

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The incident has since reached an irreversible end.

She kept falling.

No one supports it.

He returned to his parents' house and never came back.

What is incredible is that Dongfang also moved to the Wang family and lived with Faye Wong. Instead of stopping her, Wang's parents welcomed her and called her a "cute little angel."

In the chaotic value system, Jiang Yan fell into an absurd trap from the beginning.

She ran left and right, unable to find a way out.

could not find a way out either.

She contacted Faye Wong in every possible way, but to no avail.

went to the company to find it, but there was no result.

She sent a message to Wang Fu to tell the matter. But what was waiting was the bombardment of information one after another from the royal father. Blame her, belittle her, demand a divorce.

finally.

Under all kinds of torture, her depression index has reached the peak.

She decided to leave.

"The geese passed by without leaving a trace, the leaves fell silently, the wind came without a trace, and the clouds disappeared without a shadow.

just left quietly.

died like an autumn leaf."

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After deciding, she made an appointment with important friends.

eat.

talk.

leaves no trace.

said in his heart, "No matter what, I have said goodbye to you."

was seriously ill for a week after that.

Faye Wong did not appear.

After getting better from his illness, he felt at peace inside. No waves, no waves, just determination to leave.

At this time, one month has passed since she issued a life countdown.

November 28th.

She found Faye Wong.

The two of them had dinner and he said some soft words.

She secretly reminded him: "My waiting has a time limit."

She even said, "My wish is over."

I hope he can understand.

But "walked out the door, turned around, and then turned around the corner. The empty street was just as imagined," he did not wait where he was.

She said:

"Farewell.

The last month."

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She counted the sleeping pills in her hands.

"There are about 70 diazepam tablets,

20 estazolam tablets."

and carefully searched for the lethal dose, waiting for the last opportunity. And the final twist.

2 months are here.

The streets are filled with Christmas lights.

The brightly lit night and the noisy joy have nothing to do with her.

She felt that the whole world was laughing at her, at her hesitating steps, her lonely back, and her fate of not being loved.

She was walking in the bustling traffic, lights and feasting.

Tears flowed down silently.

When I fall asleep at night, I feel restless and always wake up for no reason.

dreamed that he was dead.

Dream about disaster.

I dreamed that he hurt me again and again...

My stomach also started to hurt, I was upset, and I kept vomiting. Even though it was empty and full of water, I still couldn't stop vomiting.

While she was suffering in the world,

he was having sex with his new lover.

She was tossing and turning to death,

He was living in a topsy-turvy way.

What kind of life is she living!

But her pain was neither seen nor cherished.

A father-in-law has an affair and is supported by his family. If they fight hard, it can really kill someone.

Then,

she began to experience auditory hallucinations .

Although there is no one at home, I feel that there is a computer startup sound + knocking sound in the room. At first glance, there was nothing.

The turning point she expected never came.

Faye Wong just muddles along without watching or thinking about it, day by day.

"Work is very boring, and I don't think about anything else."

As for Jiang Yan's life and death, or the future of his marriage, he didn't care.

"When asked about ideas, just say no; when asked about plans, just say I don't know; when asked about the future, just say I haven't thought about it."

December 10.

It's snowing.

Snowflakes are flying all over the sky, like invitations to heaven.

Outside the window is a vast white snow scene.

There were people in the room in tears.

She said:

"There is nothing to miss. From now on, Xiao Lang is a passerby."

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December 26, 2007.

Jiang Yan unblocked the blog that had been locked for a while. Post intimate photos of Faye Wong and Dongfang.

Caption:

The last photo

also explained:

"I posted the last photo on the BLOG today,

just to commemorate my failed marriage and life,

cannot forget it."

On the 27th of the next day, she was in The blogger wrote his last words:

"Don't say goodbye.

To my friends.

To this gorgeous and dirty world."

Swallowed 300 tablets of "Suraval".

committed suicide.

The medicine will not kill you.

plus her sister couldn’t find her, so she contacted Faye Wong and rushed home together. Jiang Yan was awakened.

Her relatives tried every means to get her back from the hands of death.

But the "lover" pushed her back with another word.

suffered from side effects of the drug. She was emotionally disturbed, hysterical, and had a fierce quarrel with Faye Wong.

Faye Wong didn't know what she was thinking, but she actually admitted to her face, "Yes, I have sexual relations with her."

He used words to provoke her, hurt her, humiliate her, and make her angry.

He has no comfort, no sympathy, no understanding.

Jiang Yan collapsed again.

She cried and

wanted to die again.

She cursed this cold, heartless, dirty man, and this family...

My sister also cried bitterly.

held her and stayed with her.

Finally tired from all the hard work, she reluctantly fell asleep.

Faye Wong leaves.

Jiang Yan slept from the 27th to the 29th.

html When she woke up on the 129th, she promised her sister not to commit suicide again and burn Faye Wong's clothes.

7:30, Wang Fu sent her a text message.

Jiang Yan had gradually calmed down, but she didn't know what the text message said. After reading it, she became excited again and rushed to Faye Wong's company, where she had a fierce argument with Faye Wong.

The two scolded each other more and more fiercely, and

even started fighting.

In the chaos, Jiang Yan discovered that even at this time, Faye Wong was still texting with Dongfang.

In a rage, she snatched the phone away.

Faye Wong didn’t dare to face it.

is hiding.

However, the Wang family did not know that Jiang Yan had the phone in his hand, so they called repeatedly. Jiang Yan answered. Then, Father Wang quarreled with Jiang Yan again on the phone.

The quarrel became more intense.

Jiang Yan gradually lost control.

At 10 o'clock in the evening, Wang's father talked to Jiang Yan on the phone again.

At this time, sister Jiang Yan happened to go to the toilet.

Jiang Yan hung up the phone, turned around, jumped from the 24th floor, and died on the spot.

is 31 years old.

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This day is exactly 2 months away from October 28, when she said, "In 2 months, it will be the day I leave."

She is so punctual.

and knew that his end was approaching.

But she didn’t know if she had foreseen the Wang family’s more ruthless approach.

It was very windy that night.

After sister came out, the French window opened. The wind comes and goes. The house was empty.

Sister knows something bad.

scored 120.

hurried downstairs again.

An old man came over and said, "It seemed like someone fell down just now."

My sister collapsed on the ground at that time.

Someone set her up and went to confirm. Taking a look from a distance, it was Jiang Yan.

"She was lying there, with a large pool of black blood from her head to her waist. I knew I couldn't go any further, otherwise I would collapse immediately."

My sister cried bitterly and called Faye Wong's father and said: "You are satisfied, you finally forced her to death!"

But from beginning to end, Faye Wong never showed up again.

is like Jiang Yan who has nothing to do with him,

is like an outsider,

is patted on the butt, and everything is fine.

Because he did not come forward or sign, Jiang Yan’s body was not cremated.

It was not until January 25, 2018, that she was cremated and laid to rest after lawyer negotiations were completed.

Jiang Yan has since left forever.

With years of pain,

with the pain of the Jiang family’s parents’ white-haired people giving away their black-haired people,

with the shadow of my sister for the rest of her life,

with heavy grievances and resentment of being unable to redress,

suddenly closed her eyes .

Faye Wong remained in the world, but when her body was still cold, she went to work, played around, and played games with Dongfang. Like nothing happened.

After that, Jiang Yan’s story became known to everyone.

netizens were furious.

Someone launched a human flesh search, revealed his identity, phone number, and company, attacked Faye Wong, and called on the industry to expel him.

And on the door of Wang's house, he wrote with paint: Force the good wife to death.

Faye Wong sued several websites, claiming that they leaked personal privacy, and received compensation of 3,000 yuan and 4,000 yuan.

After that,

changed cities,

changed jobs, and

continued to prosper.

It’s a pity for those who left in the winter of 2007.

She once said:

"I just want to lie down and never wake up again..."

Now, she has slept forever as she wished, no longer opening her eyes.

I wonder if there will be betrayal, harm and use in heaven?

I wonder if angels will sit down gently and wipe away the raging tears of sad people?

There is a poem engraved on her tombstone:

"If there is an afterlife, I would like to be a tree and stand for eternity.

There are no gestures of joy and sorrow.

Half of it is peaceful in the dust, half of it is flying in the wind, and half of it is covered with coolness. , half bathed in sunshine.

is very silent and very proud. "

writes about his disappointment in relationships.

yearning for self.

How great it would be if every woman could live freely in this life.

still remembers that time.

She drove a Mercedes-Benz Jeep and traveled across the African continent. The wind blows through my long hair, the wilderness is low, the heat is rolling, and large wild animals appear and disappear outside the window.

She smiled, stretched out her hand, and blew through the passing wind.

At that time, she was still young.

At that time, she didn’t know a person named Faye Wong.

Passionate and hateful since ancient times.

If I could start my life all over again...

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