On October 13, 1950, my mother wrote in her diary: She was sitting by the radio and listening to music. She accidentally heard something from a foreign woman. I stopped. After being a gay man translated, she knew it was the deeds of the Soviet teenage vanguard.

On October 13, 1950, my mother wrote in her diary:

A man was sitting next to the radio and listening to music. He accidentally heard something from a foreign woman. I stopped. After a gay man translated, he knew it was the deeds of the Soviet teenage vanguard.

I listened carefully. I was excited by the patriotic actions of those brave, selfless Soviet teenage vanguards. I naturally remembered how many children we had bravely sacrificed their lives to defend our motherland during the War of Resistance Against Japan. I remembered again how many people, how many cadres and comrades in the army, who sacrificed themselves and defended the motherland. Somehow, tears burst out from my eyes.

so he decided to write it out and dedicate this work to those warriors who sacrificed their own lives for their motherland. This thought sounded in my heart like a command. Some figures churned in their minds...

Mother secretly made up his mind to reproduce the images of these martyrs in his works and stay in the world forever.

June 9, 1951, she said in her diary:

In the past two days, I sometimes suddenly think that my health is always bad, so I might as well just use a lamp to finish my oil and do my best to write that novel, and then die if I die. It is better than the one who is not alive and accomplished nothing now. This is a desperate idea, of course it is not right. But this kind of life of recuperation is really annoying.

In September 1951, after reading "How Iron of ", Paul Kochakin 's behavior of writing books was greatly inspired by her mother and inspired her to write the manuscript that had been hovering in her mind for a long time. She wants to write boldly first, and she will write when she is well or is ready in all aspects. She will have no time to write.

She said to herself: Don’t be so cowardly, brewing all day long, thinking, preparing, just not writing. Paul A blind man or a paralyzed man can write, why am I hesitating about?

Yang Mo and Bai Yang sisters

When she was plagued by illness, she started writing. On September 25, she drafted an outline of the book. The original name was "Thousands of Hammers" and later changed to "The Unburned Wildfire".

Since she started writing, her whole body and mind have been immersed in the illusory world she created. All your energy is attracted, your attention to the disease is diverted, and your body becomes better. But she is still very careful and don’t get sick and affect her writing.

In order to prevent and treat leg diseases, she remembered that she had never had arthritis when she slept on the hot kang of her fellow villager during the Anti-Japanese War. She spent dozens of dollars to ask someone to set up a hot kang in the small west room. She didn't sleep with a steel wire bed, but she insisted on sleeping on the earthen kang.

took more than ten days, and she finally revised the outline of the book.

It was in this month, in September 1951, my mother received a letter from her anti-Japanese comrade Lu Yang. The letter evoked a wonderful memory in her heart.

Around 1941, the tenth district base area where my mother was located became an enemy-occupied area. Due to illness, my mother followed the Ministry of Health to the rear hospital west of the railway to recuperate. After getting better, Lu Dong couldn't go back, so he went to Lu Yang, the Propaganda Department of the Tenth District Political Department, to become a tabloid editor.

At that time, my mother always slapped her son ( malaria ). Dinner is mostly a tortilla. The comrades brought it to her, but she had no appetite to eat it, so she exchanged pancakes with the landlord's aunt for millet porridge. Unexpectedly, after several changes, some comrades reported that she was spoiled and did not cherish her precious food. When my mother learned about it, she felt very uncomfortable, but she was inconvenient to say anything.

Lu Yang knew about this and quietly came to comfort his mother and explained to his mother: Because of the enemy's three-light policy, life in the border area is very hard, and the food is very tight, and no one can get enough. What is the weight of a pancake for a often hungry gay man? You, a lesbian, may not be able to imagine. So comrades’ dissatisfaction with you is very natural… Lu Yang’s mother convinced her.

Since then, my mother has developed a good impression of Lu Yang. At that time, my mother and father separated, and there were emotional problems. My mother felt that my father didn't treat her as well as she was at the beginning. Although Lu Yang is younger than his mother, he is very well-educated and considerate to his mother.

In the mother's words, they had a romantic friendship. At that time, the mother was 27 years old and Lu Yang was 24 years old, so this friendship once made her mother very painful.

It was around the spring of 1943, and Lu Yang gave his mother a book "Selected Works of Lu Xun". By 1945, my mother had been taking it around for two years, climbing the blockade ditch, and hiding through the Qinghe River, and staying at ordinary people's homes. In the spring of 1945, when the enemy surrounded the iron wall, his mother held it in the home of a village chief named Yang in Xincheng County, or Dongzhao Village, Xiong County. Because the village later released a flood, the book was never found again.

In the spring of 1942, my mother heard that Lu Yang had privately left the army and arrived at the enemy-occupied area.

From this day on, when my mother thought of this friend, she felt ashamed and unwilling to think about it again, and expelled her past affection for him.

Later, after the rectification, my mother conducted a public inspection on the matter and completely eliminated the feelings for him.

General Lu Yang, director of the Military Commission Office,

However, in February 1949, when his mother was treating a hospital in Shijiazhuang, she accidentally met Lu Yang, who had not seen him for six years. That night, Lu Yang found his mother and explained the past misunderstanding between them.

He said that he did not go to the enemy-occupied area privately, but because he was sick, Commander Liu Bingyan approved him to treat the disease. When he got better in the future, the organization asked him and Liu Minying to work in the Baoding area.

Originally, after the rectification movement , my mother had eliminated her feelings for him. Unexpectedly, he raised this question again this time. He said that for the sake of his mother, he rejected Li ×× in 1942. Two years ago, due to the stimulation of marriage problems, he randomly found a wife and did not take it seriously. As a result, when the party school rectified the situation, others criticized him for not being serious about marriage problems.

He is currently treating a doctor in Shijiazhuang alone. I was very happy to meet my mother and said that I wanted to "resurrect" with my mother.

The mother has many inner conflicts. She now has four children, and the other party is still thinking about her for so many years, which touched her. In the end, reason still prevailed. She refused firmly, afraid that she would fall back into the pain of the past again.

Lu Yang left disappointed.

After the liberation, in September 1951, my mother suddenly received a letter from Lu Yang in July, which made my mother happy and surprised. The two had not been in contact for more than a year since they met in Shijiazhuang.

In his letter, he said that he has now accompanied the 19th Corps to the Korean battlefield and used his spare time to write letters, and he missed the people of the motherland very much. My mother carefully considered whether to reply to him. Later, I felt that he was an old comrade-in-arms for many years and was far away in the Korean battlefield and could die at any time, so I replied to him.

This way, the two people resumed contact.

The relationship between mother and father has already had problems at this time. Their personalities, interests and hobbies vary greatly, and they have to be quarrel. According to my mother's diary: In the early 1950s, once, my mother said to her father: I have now discovered the law of getting sick.

The father raised his neck and said unhappily: What is the rule? It’s been a year of regularity... The mother shouted angrily: What couple is not as good as comrades, friends, and neighbors! If you don’t even love your own wife, why do you talk about loving the people?

Mother felt that her father was indifferent to her.

Yang Mo's family took a photo when they settled in Beijing

She sighed in her diary on October 22, 1951: What is the solution? Not only did he treat me badly, but he was cold and cold to his children, his parents, and his friends... he might have such a personality.

He came back from get off work in the evening and read the book by himself after dinner. When we were sleeping, he was in the outer room and I was in the inner room. Although we lived together, our hearts were far apart.

According to my mother's diary, I was picked up by my mother from rural Hebei to Beijing on April 16, 1951. From the time I got home, my father and mother lived separately. My mother lives in the east house of the north house, and my father lives on the west side of the north house. There is a screen blocking the bed, and there is a large living room between them.

When my mother resumed communication with Lu Yang, this was the family background.

In October 1951, when she began to officially write "The Unburned Wildfire", she received a reply from Lu Yang. Only then did I know that Lu Yang is now the Minister of Propaganda of the 19th Corps and had served as the director of the Political Department of the 63rd Army for several months. The letter

caused her deep thoughts again. She already has a husband and a child. Lu Yang's feelings for her made her anxious. She felt that this was a hopeless feeling that would only make herself fall into endless pain. By chance, they couldn't be together.

She suddenly passed by a thought that although her relationship with him could not be "resurrected", she could write him into her book and let him live forever. Yes, this character should be written in the novel, showing his noble revolutionary qualities and touching deeds of life and death. By the way, he also wrote about his feelings for himself that had been tested for a long time.

Mother loves fantasy. Lu Yang, who was on the North Korean front, missed her so much, which was a sharp contrast with her father, giving her some relief and satisfaction. Her friendship with him was alienated for many years, and now it seems to have recovered from a corner of her heart.

Mother often thinks of him: He is fighting with US imperial in North Korea, will he sacrifice? What is he doing now? How to solve his personal problems?

Mother wanted to break up with him and no longer contact him. But considering that he was on the front line, he was born and died, and he really hoped to see his mother's letter. Out of concern and support for the front line volunteer army, his mother communicated with him.

Their specific emotional experiences are rarely revealed by the mother, but according to the mother's diary: Before the "July 7th" incident, she knew Lu Yang and had a friendship. But later they broke up because of a misunderstanding. A few years later, when the two met again in the Anti-Japanese Base Area, their mother was already married, and Lu Yang was not yet married. My mother felt a little guilty towards him and he was in pain. In this way, the two of them developed a relationship later, and then they had a misunderstanding because Lu Yang left the team to treat their illness...

The emotional storm accumulated by the twists and turns is finally given a chance to vent by writing a book. Lu Jiachuan in the novel

is shaped by his mother with deep affection for a front-line comrade and love for someone who can never be together, and with the most sincere feelings.

Although Lu Jiachuan is fictional, many people think that this character is well written and his mother writes him vividly. The hidden story is this friendship and love with Lu Yang.

The image of Lu Jiachuan in "Song of Youth"

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