I will also have a warm home, with a loving husband, my daughter’s considerate and sensible, and laughter in the house, but it’s too late, my daughter is separated from me, and the whole family will be separated!

confession

I regret sending my eldest daughter away. I often think that if I hadn't thought about it for a while, nothing else would have happened.

I will also have a warm home, with a loving husband, my daughter’s considerate and sensible, and laughter in the house, but it’s too late, my daughter is separated from me, and the whole family will be separated!

Because

My name is Zhao Meixiang (pseudonym) I am 46 years old this year. I could have a happy home, but I was ruined by myself.

I was older when I got married and was already 35 years old! After marrying my husband, I immediately put having a child on the agenda.

Because of my physical condition in the early years, my chances of getting pregnant are smaller than that of ordinary people, and my husband also has insufficient sperm activity. But we did not give up and were actively treating.

We really paid too much to have children, doing exercise to regulate our bodies, doing acupuncture, drinking those bitter Chinese medicines, and we are willing to have a child. But God has not favored us. After 5 years, all we have received are disappointments again and again. We have also tried

test tubes, but they have not succeeded. Our conditions do not allow it to be done again, so we had to give up the test tube method.

Seeing that I was getting older, I prayed in my heart countless times: Give me a child, even if I can make me short of my life!

The turn of things came. Once, my cousin in the village was having a drink. When I went back, my sister-in-law told me that there was something to say in my hometown, and I would hold a child by my side, and the fate of children came.

I know this statement, but I am very worried that I can’t raise other people’s children. So my sister-in-law told me that I could register in the welfare home in the village, and raising a girl is relatively simple.

for so many years, I have done all my attempts and failed. So let’s try again. Whether it will be successful depends on God’s will. My husband and I also had some idea of ​​giving up at this time, thinking of giving up one last time. If it fails, it is better to raise a child you brought to you well than to see him in his later years. After registering

, news came from the welfare home soon. There was a 1-year-old girl who met our conditions very well. My husband and I took the time to go there.

The child is really beautiful, with big watery eyes, white and tender. I don’t know how cruel parents are willing to abandon their children.

Almost the moment I saw the child, my husband and I decided to adopt the child. She is our daughter. We happily took her home.

The arrival of our daughter has injected vitality into our originally deserted home. Originally, my mother-in-law was reluctant to adopt the child, but she didn't say anything when I said it could bring fate to her children.

The process of raising a daughter is very happy! It was so happy when my daughter stumbled into my arms.

I gave my maternal love to her without reservation, and my daughter slowly accepted us. When my daughter shouted "Mom", I even shed tears of touch.

The first year my daughter came to us, I was still not pregnant, but the loss in my heart was much less than before. Sometimes, thinking about it, don’t be obsessed with having your own child, just raise this daughter well.

My husband also comforted me and said:

"Don't be persistent, we will all relax! Cultivate Niu Niu well and let her take care of us for the elderly and see us off in the future." I nodded and agreed.

As the saying goes, "If you are willing to plant flowers, you will not bloom, but if you are unintentional, you willows will become shade." I gradually calmed down. I wouldn't have the chance to be pregnant for ten months in my life, but I already have the opportunity to be a mother, and my daughter has given me it. Just when we all gave up, I suddenly had a bad appetite and vomiting. I thought it was a problem with my stomach, but when I went to the examination, it was OK.

The doctor suggested that we hang out to the obstetrics department for examination. When I found out that I was pregnant, I was confused. Then I was ecstatic. I was finally pregnant and I wanted to have my own baby!

I quickly told my husband and mother-in-law about the good news, and they also jumped up in surprise.

Next I was immersed in joy, and even though morning sickness was severe, I was very happy.I am 43 years old and older. After I get pregnant, I can’t keep up with my energy and care less about my daughter.

But my daughter is very sensible. She will pat my back and take a towel when I feel sick. She will often touch my belly and say:

"Brother, you have to be more behaved! Don't bother mom, otherwise my sister will slap you in the butt!"

Every time I see such a picture, I will happily raise the corners of my mouth.

"You are pregnant, don't raise Niu Niu! You don't have the energy to raise two children now." One day, my mother-in-law suddenly told me.

I didn’t expect that my mother would have such an idea. She said that she would definitely give all the good things to her grandson in the future. Niu Niu is not a biological child, so she should not waste time and money to raise her.

I naturally refused. Niu Niu has been by my side for 4 years and has brought me so much happiness, but I really don’t have the energy to raise two children at the same time.

One day I was at home and was very sleepy and fell asleep! A sudden "bang" sound woke me up, and I hurried to the kitchen to see it. It turned out that Niu Niu was worried that I was overslept and hungry, so she put on a stool to cook noodles for me and accidentally fell off the stool.

I quickly pulled my daughter up to see if she was injured. I suddenly felt very sorry for Niu Niu. Since I got pregnant, I have devoted all my energy to the child in my stomach and obviously ignored Niu Niu.

I am very worried about myself, and I will not care about having a child in the future. For the first time, I had the idea of ​​sending Niu Niu away.

It seems that Niu Niu also felt my mood change and became particularly clingy. I didn't even hug my father, just wanted me to hug me.

Once she acted coquettishly and asked me to hug her. I got up and hugged her, and almost frightened my husband and mother-in-law to death. This time, mother-in-law insisted that we send Niu Niu away, and my husband also disagreed from the beginning to now.

"Otherwise, send Niu Niu away and find someone with better family conditions for her, it's better to suffer with us. I'll have a lot of money to raise children in the future." I discussed with my husband, but my husband was still a little hesitant. I know the meaning of Niu Niu to him. He loves Niu Niu very much.

Niu Niu may have felt the change in the atmosphere at home. One night I was angry and ran out. I chased me out and almost fell down on the empty stairs. Fortunately, I held the handrail in time.

After this time, I also firmly decided to send Niu Niu away, so I told my sister-in-law about it and asked her to help me see if there is a suitable family willing to adopt Niu Niu.

Soon my sister-in-law came to the news that she had found a suitable family for Niu Niu. So I lied to Niu Niu and said that I would take her to my grandmother's house in the countryside to play for a few days. She happily packed her small suitcase.

Looking at her happy look, I was reluctant to let it go, but I still made up my mind to send it away. After sending Niu Niu away, I often couldn't sleep. My husband also comforted me and said, since I have made a decision, don't worry, think about the child in my stomach. So I had to let go of my longing for Niu Niu.

"Ah Mei, did Niu Niu go to your house!" One night I received a call from my sister-in-law and said that Niu Niu was missing and asked if there was any possibility that Niu Niu had run back.

When I heard this, my heart beat faster and asked them to call the police. In the middle of the night, I called my sister-in-law to ask if I had found it. My sister-in-law said she had found it and the child ran to the back mountain by herself. I finally felt more at ease.

Two more months passed, and I was still very worried about Niu Niu, so I dragged my big belly to the countryside, thinking about seeing whether Niu Niu was doing well from a distance.

So I bought a ticket and went back. I saw Niu Niu outside the fence. She looked very well and I couldn't help but shed tears.

She seemed to know that I was outside, so she looked at me for a long time, then turned around and ran back into the house. Her eyes were attached and complained. I quickly left. I didn't pay attention on the way home and fell down. When I woke up in the hospital and was told that the child was not saved, I was really desperate and I couldn't say a word.

The mother-in-law cried and robbed the world, and her husband scolded me, and she sent me away, so why did she go to see her again?

I often think, is it actually my retribution? Because I saw Niu Niu away, my child was not kept. If I kept Niu Niu at that time, she would be a little naughty, but if I teach her well, she would definitely be sensible.

Niu Niu was sent away, the child was no longer there, and my husband was no longer talking to me. Thinking that this family was still laughing and cheering not long ago, I couldn't help but regret it in my heart, and I didn't know what to do!

I wonder if I will take Niu Niu back and everything will return to its original state?

Conclusion

Everything in the world is caused by cause and effect. Because you want a child, you adopt the child and you get what you want. You should treat the children you adopted well, so that you can bring you endless blessings.

The old saying goes, if you adopt a child, you will be pregnant yourself. It is because the child has siblings. She brings it, you should cherish it, otherwise you won’t get it.

Finally, I hope you can take care of yourself, after all, life is still something you can live. If you can clean up your mood, you can consider adopting another child by your side. As for Niu Niu, don’t disturb you.