"The cats in the alley are very free, but they have no home. The dogs in the wall have their home, but they have to bow their heads for life." There are regrets in choosing this multiple-choice question in life. But at the age of a dilemma, I can't see the lights of thousands of

"The cats in the alley are very free, but they have no home. The dogs in the wall have a home, but they have to bow their heads for life." There are regrets in this multiple-choice question in life, but I am at a dilemma, but I can't see the lights of thousands of families, and which one is lit for me!

36 years old, it’s like a big dream. Today, too many things go against their wishes, and half of their lives have passed. I am from Handan, Hebei, and my husband is from Beijing. This year we are together this year, and we have been staying at this time point for six years.

My husband and I met him through the Internet. I fell in love with him at first sight, and he also had a good impression of me, but my family strongly opposed me being with him, for fear that I would be wronged in the future because my husband had no job and just played cards and had fun all day. After all, the family gap was too great, but I insisted on choosing to be with my husband. In the end, my father said harsh words, if he dared to take his own initiative, don’t call him again. I ran out of the house in tears and never went back in these years.

I once remembered that three days before my marriage, I choked up and called my father to ask my parents to attend my wedding. My father said fiercely that he had severed relations with me. My mother took the call and said to me one sentence, "A person's life, choose the wrong person, get married, make a wrong step, and get the wrong step." My phone number was already hung up there.

On the wedding day, I held the wedding with a heavy heart. In order to choose the love I think, I went to such a disdainful relationship with my parents. Whenever I think of this, I feel a little desolate. My mother's last words have been circling in my mind for many nights.

The third year after marriage, my husband and I had our children. It was also from that point on that, my husband began to be cold to me. He started to quarrel with me after a few words were wrong. He complained about me and that, except for being a little patient with the children, in his opinion, I was useless.

I asked him to find a job and work hard. When the child was a little older, I would go out. It was because of this that he hit me twice, but for the sake of the child, I still compromised. At that time, I was even deceiving myself. Every family had difficult sutras. This was just a normal conflict between husband and wife. I didn’t know that I was wrong and went to the end of the marriage step by step.

In the fifth year after marriage, he ate, drank, gambled all day long, and quarreled and started fighting whenever he had disagreement. My compromises became his capital for him to become stronger. Even if I called him with a high fever of more than 40 degrees, I got more hot water from . In his eyes, I was not even as good as his friends.

My mother-in-law is okay to me, but many times she still looks to her son. No matter right or wrong, it is largely due to her mother-in-law's spoiling of his misconduct outside. What I regret most about this marriage is that I did not listen to my parents and walked to this day by taking my own initiative. Looking at the sleeping children, I compromised and settled down again and again.

It was the sixth year. It was just the beginning of winter and it was already cold. My husband called me and said that a child was going to visit my house and asked me to cook for me. My mother-in-law helped me take care of the child. I cooked a full table of food. At about six o'clock in the evening, my husband brought a slim girl to the house and introduced me. My mother-in-law next to me pulled him over and asked, "Why haven't I seen you, a child?" I heard my husband say with my own ears, "You will know you later." I had an ominous premonition in my heart. After the meal, I was absent-minded. After a few simple bites, I went to see the child. Through the crack in the door, I saw my husband picking up food for her. My mother-in-law also happily greeted her, and my heart suddenly felt extremely sad. How many times have he picked up food for me over the years? There are only a few, what do I really think of in his eyes? At this moment, I am more like an outsider.

At nine o'clock in the evening, he sent his childhood friend downstairs. I stood on the balcony and saw them hugging next to the car with my own eyes. I don't know when, my mother-in-law stood behind me. In fact, my mother-in-law also saw it, but he told me not to think about it. It was just a way of separation for them, purely friendship. From now on, I no longer have the mentality of making myself compromise.

Everyone in this family thinks I am stupid, and my mother-in-law also uses such absurd words to perfunctory me. Perhaps this relationship I think should have ended long ago, but I am just blindly lying to myself.

When the Chinese New Year is approaching, he often brings the woman back for dinner. I couldn't bear it anymore and filed for divorce. What I never expected was that he agreed very simply. He said to me in person, "It's enough, take the child away. This is not the place where you can continue to stay. I have never loved you, but your existence has affected my current romantic relationship.

I cried and hugged the child and left there. I lived in a small hotel that was 41 days old, my heart was like a knife. For so many years, there was no one around me. I thought of ending my life, but looking at the child, I was reluctant to leave.

The next day we went through the divorce procedures. For me, I only have one child, which is the spiritual support for me to continue to live. For love, I lost miserably, "I can't go back to my parents' home, I can't stay in my in-laws' home, and I can't keep him. Where is the lights of thousands of families? "After all, I paid a heavy price for my wrong choice!