But the problem is that I am overly anxious about data, so I stay away from the original intention of "love", and start to imitate others, and even write some content that I don't like or even have contradictory opinions. It is just because this kind of opinion can cause more com

This is also a problem that has been puzzled by me for a long time. At the beginning, my writing was purely because of my liking; but after seeing that the number of readings, comments and likes obtained by other people on the same platform far exceeded that of me, my mentality began to shift.

I began to worry about data, anxious about what to write to get clicks, and even began to imitate other people's writing scope and style. In fact, it is a positive thing to have anxiety and learn from others to improve your level.

But the problem is that you are overly anxious about the data, so you stay away from the original intention of "love", start to imitate others, and even write some content that you don't like or even have contradictory opinions, just because this kind of opinion can cause more complaints from the public and thus get more comments.

I have been doing this for a while, and the side effect it has been:

racks my brain every day to piece together something. Not only does the data not go up, but I also make myself more and more annoyed to writing.

I began to feel depressed and confused: Maybe I am really not suitable for writing? Is it necessary to persevere?

Until one day, I saw a passage from Yu Hua :

A real writer always writes for the heart, and only the heart will tell him truly how outstanding his selfishness and nobleness are. The heart lets him understand himself truly, and once he understands himself, he will understand the world.

and writer Feng Tang also said: I empathize with this principle, just write for my own heart, and should not cater to it. The most amazing writer is never responsible for himself and will not write for the sake of the market.

I think writing was my favorite at the beginning. I am willing to share, write it out, and review my life and opinions again. These are the cornerstones for solving life problems in the future. The reason why I hate writing now is entirely because I go against my heart and want to cater to the market.

so I started writing for the sake of my heart again. The data was indeed not very good at the beginning, but compared with others, I really lost it. Sometimes I wonder if I insist on writing for the sake of my heart, can I really gain the recognition of others? After all, now is an era where entertainment is paramount.

Here I will mention another teacher I like: Luo Xiang.

At that time, he had a video that gave me the answer to "persistence":


If you believe that hard work is rewarded, my life is my fault, and of course, he will give you a burst of augmentation to make you believe that you will work hard, but the final result of your efforts is success or failure.


If you fail, you will be trapped in nothingness, and you will feel that all ideals are lies. Why does my hard work so hard, and the way of heaven will not reward hard work? Why do I work so hard to change my destiny, but I can’t change it. Idealism will eventually become nihilism , cynical , and become indulgence.


Of course, another aspect is "fatalism". What are you doing? You don’t need to do it. You are destined to be able to enter Peking University . What else do you need to work hard? But in the end you will definitely not be able to go. What does


mean?


Do what you should do and accept it backfired. We need to work hard, but maybe if we work hard, we will still be in vain in the end. This is possible, but it does not mean that we should not work hard, because if we don’t work hard, it will be in vain in the bamboo basket. I was deeply shocked by this passage of

. It was also from that time that I began to stick to my original aspiration and write. I think: in the vast crowd, there will always be readers who share the same interests with me, and they have a slightly similar viewpoint. There are not many people with the same frequency. As long as there is one, it is a kind of luck.

Slowly, I began to gain recognition from some friends and have a small fan circle.


Until today, I still often take out the words of the two teachers and read and experience them repeatedly. I think: When we do something, we must follow our hearts. At the same time, we must have the determination to persevere and work hard, and the indifferent heart to accept that things go against our wishes.Only by persisting as an interest can one have a day of hope.