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3 At the beginning of 2018, the company's annual meeting.

The company's performance last year was good, and the boss was very happy. The first time I booked a big hotel for an event, I also invited a little star to help sing.

At that time, I had been in the company for 4 years and had always been a transparent person in the planning department.

However, I don't mind, or I prefer this state. No one has noticed me.

Just come to the company to hold regular meetings every day, take on tasks, write plans, and do not do it once, and change it. If it doesn't work twice, please change it again. I am not afraid of being tired, nor am I afraid of overtime, typing, or brainstorm.

I am only afraid that in addition to work, team building, gatherings, and relationships.

However, the annual meeting that day, the last prize was won by Apple mobile phone and iPad. The boss and his wife went on stage. As the drums came out, the colleagues around him screamed.

Because it was me who won the prize.

spotlight shone over, as if through my pupils, it shone into my brain.

is bright and blank.

Then, I stood up, and under the warm eyes of my colleagues in various departments, my stomach was overturned and I vomited.

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It is about 5 o'clock in the evening. Zhu Wenrong, the department manager of

, called me. He is three years older than me and he usually takes good care of me.

In his words, it is called Xicai. On the phone, he asked me how it was? He took the prize on stage to collect it. He also explained to the boss that I had a cold and came to attend the annual meeting with illness, and attached great importance to company activities and other things.

I thanked him for helping me on the phone.

Zhu Wenrong said, what are you doing? I happened to go to your side and send your phone to you.

I said no, but he has come here.

Zhu Wenrong is the kind of person who can get on the table and put down his figure.

usually works seriously, but at the just-in-one annual meeting, he passionately changed his lyrics and sang "Borrowing from the Sky for another 500 years", wishing the company another 500 years. The boss made him smile.

But I felt a little sad when I listened. The song

reminds me of my grandma. The old lady with white hair at the age of 50.

Because of her, I was said to be a cold-blooded person by my relatives and friends since I was a child.

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When Zhu Wenrong arrived at my house, it was about 6:30.

was given at the door. I said to him, thank you.

He said, no, I just happened to go.

After Zhu Wenrong left, my mother poked her head out of the house and asked who it was. I knew it was the manager, so I scolded me. I didn't let anyone come in to drink water, I treated him as a courier.

That year, I was 26. My mother blocked the bedroom door and scolded me. How could I feel?

However, what my mom said is correct. I'm a little too rude.

Later, I said on WeChat, I'm sorry, the house is too messy and I didn't let you come in and sit.

Zhu Wenrong replied, you are still the same, you like to say sorry.

I was slightly stunned. He said this, and it seemed that he had known me a long time ago.

In fact, he only landed in our department as a manager a year ago.

But at that time I thought he was a bit familiar. But I can't remember where I've seen him.

I couldn't help asking, did we know each other before?

But Zhu Wenrong replied, I can give you time to remind you of me.

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I was born in a working-earning family in a second-tier city.

My parents are both employees of state-owned enterprises. In the past, state-owned enterprises were not a good job, and it was lucky to escape the fate of layoffs.

My father’s hometown is in the countryside, and he has four brothers. At that time, he was the only one who got into a technical secondary school, entered a factory, and became a city household registration.

After I was born, my mother also had to go to work, so she left me in my grandma's house.

My grandfather passed away early, only grandma was the only one.

Grandma has three daughters. My mom is the youngest. My aunt's children are all brought by my grandmother, and only my mother is not reliable in the in-laws' house.

Grandma used to be a textile worker and worked in a noisy environment all year round, and her ears were not very good for a long time.

So usually, she doesn't talk much, she just turns on the TV very loudly and sits there to watch.

Because she can't hear it, it is difficult to communicate with others, and she rarely interacts with others.

This led to my growing up environment since I was a child, and no one talked to me.

My parents live far away from grandma's house, and usually only visit me on weekends.

When I was over two years old, my mother realized that I couldn’t speak, but just simply called the name and the verb of the same word.

Then she became anxious and took me to see a doctor. In our small hospital.

Doctor said, why don’t you come early? Your daughter is autistic, which affects intellectual development, so you come.

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Later, my mom listened to the doctor's advice.

Every day after get off work, I run to my grandma's house, talk to me, tell me stories, and take me to the park to play on weekends.

is almost 3 years old, and I can finally speak coherently, but my personality seems to have been limited since I was a child. I am unwilling to communicate with others and I am slow to learn anything.

After I went to kindergarten, the teacher asked my parents, is this child a little stupid?

My dad was so angry that he had a fight with the teacher, and my mom was probably disappointed with me since then.

In fact, in my memory, my mother has always been quite cold to me. When talking, there is always a bit of disgust in his expression.

Of course, it may also be that after having a younger brother, she didn't have the energy to care about me.

My brother was born in 1997.

may have me as the "learning from the past". My mother kept my brother by my side and took care of him. Slowly, almost all my energy was put on my brother.

At that time, my dad had already come out of the factory to run business and was often not at home.

I have been living in my grandma's house. When I really returned to my parents, I was almost in junior high school.

Because my grandma had a stroke , she was half paralyzed after being rescued and was admitted to the nursing home and could no longer take care of me.

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The children of that era were not as spoiled as they are now, they all went to and from school by themselves.

I often walk after school, so I walk to my grandma's house. Thinking about it now, it's quite amazing. It's so far, it's more than an hour to walk.

No one lives in the old house, I do my homework inside, and the TV is turned on so loudly.

The old neighbor heard the sound of the TV and was quite surprised to see me, and then he would send me home.

But later, they started laughing at me and said I was not good at brains and a little stupid. My parents were even more angry. My mother scolded me, why are you so stupid? She likes to live there so much and don’t come back in the future.

Every weekend, regardless of whether my parents go or not, I will go to see my grandma.

At that time, her legs could no longer move, but her mind was very clear. She liked me to see her and told the aunt who took care of her that I was filial and it was not in vain.

The only fun she has is watching TV.

She especially loves watching " Kangxi Dynasty ". Every time I go, she tells me loudly that she likes Chen Daoming. The emperor acts well, just like the real emperor, with a very stylish look.

So, when Zhu Wenrong sang "Borrowing from Heaven for another 500 Years", I suddenly remembered my grandma.

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My grandma died in 2003.

Usually few people go to see her. But there were many people coming to her funeral. Everyone cried for a few times, then ate and drank.

Only me, I don’t feel particularly sad. It feels like she is about the same as going to a nursing home, and I can see her at any time.

That year, I was 11 years old, and I never shed any tears from beginning to end. My grandma lived in a nursing home for so long, and my aunt has been there once. But when she kowtowed in front of the grave, she cried like a play and had the tone, and I almost laughed.

Relatives and friends all say that I am too cold-blooded and have no feelings. Grandma raised you so big in vain.

In fact, it’s not that I don’t have feelings, but that I feel it too slowly.

It was a winter morning, and my mother called me to get up.

She lifted my quilt and told me to be more self-conscious and not let her scream many times.

The moment the cold air climbed onto my skin, I suddenly realized that death is not the same as going to a nursing home, and I will never see my grandma again in the future.

Before, my grandma always asked me to sleep for 5 minutes more and 5 minutes more. After

, nothing is left. She will never make braised fish for me again, nor will she make dumplings with leek meat stuffing for me.

When I thought about her, I could no longer take a turn after school and go to the nursing home to see her.

The thin old lady who took care of me since childhood, who doesn't like to talk, but only loves to watch TV, has left me forever.

That was the 12th day after grandma's funeral. I hugged in the quilt at 7 a.m. and cried silently.

I am not cold-blooded, I am just reflective arc for emotions.

Whether it is sad or joy, it takes time to reflect tears.

But the only person in this world who understands me is no longer here.

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Actually, I have been bullied by my classmates since elementary school.

Because I grew up strong when I was a child, I didn’t have the ability to understand and couldn’t express myself. I can't express my grievances and dissatisfaction in my heart.

First, my classmates laughed at me, were stupid, and later they scolded me, snatched my stuff, grabbed my hair, drew a turtle on my new skirt, and locked me in the toilet after school...

hurt too much.

Sometimes the teacher is caught by me and the teacher asks me what happened. My face turned red and I couldn't say a word.

Later, the teacher didn't care much about me anymore.

And I often go home and think of the day when I start to feel sad and cry with grievance.

I can only tell my grandma. She couldn't hear it clearly, so she hugged me, touched my head, and comforted me with her donkey lips.

says what do you think of your mother? Have you not done well in the exam?

Then he said it was okay, grandma just hugged her, touching her hair, she couldn't be scared. It will be great when I, Honghong, grow up.

When I was a child, I once believed that when I grew up, all the problems would disappear.

But in fact, bullying doesn’t mean it’s just a group of people.

Only my grandma disappeared.

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After getting to middle school, bullying will not be so naive, but it is more harmful.

Boys pass me through, I am stupid and take advantage of me, and I don’t understand.

A boy lifted my skirt, hugged my shoulders during class, and put his hands on my chest...

And I just won't resist. Sometimes I kept shouting and scolding in my heart, but only a few trembling hums would come out on my lips.

Before, even though my grandma lived in a nursing home, I could still see her and find comfort.

But by then, she had passed away. I have no one to talk to.

My whole body seems to be blocked. I didn't talk to anyone, and I didn't even speak to my family.

Later I didn’t want to go to school. Every morning when I went to class, I went to my grandma's old house, where I read books and watched TV. It took about half a month before my mother discovered it.

My mother said, forget it, if you don’t want to go, don’t go, your brain won’t work either.

My mother was about to drop out of school at that time.

My dad came back from business, and he firmly opposed it.

He said that it is not the past now. If a child does not have a diploma, he will not be able to do any job in the future. Why don’t we take it to the doctor to see if there is something wrong with it before treatment?

It was in 2005, and my dad took me to a big hospital.

At that time, there was also a special psychological clinic .

I still remember what the female doctor said to my dad.

She said that most autism is related to the genetic gene , but your daughter obviously is not. She is a psychological disorder that lacks external stimulation in the language learning stage and has a somewhat autistic tendency. Spend more patience and train with her and you will get better slowly.

My mother said that the doctor was cheating you of spending money and learning her training courses.

My dad said that if you cheat or not, you have to fight for your daughter once. We were delaying our children back then, but now we are not short of money.

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I think that course is still useful.

at least allowed me to return to society relatively normal.

Although I resist socializing, I can at least communicate with others. I just want to vomit when I am too nervous.

High school, seriously biased in subject matter, only admitted to Beijing third-tier university in college.

Fortunately, the family was endless at that time, and my mother nagged for nothing, but she still provided me with the study.

For me, what really changed me was in college.

participated in the psychological community. For four years, he has been doing psychological mutual assistance and made many friends. People also lose weight and become beautiful.

graduated and really wanted to stay in Beijing, but I don’t have that ability.

returned to my hometown, failed the business exam, and entered my current company. There was no improvement at first. Until a year ago, a new manager came to the airborne, Zhu Wenrong.

I didn't expect it to be valued by him.

Our working aura is very consistent. He felt that I would not strive for merit, I would not seize merit, I would focus on doing things, and I would be able to do things.

I think he can help me block everything except planning, making me feel extremely worry-free when working.

In my eyes, Zhu Wenrong has always been a good boss and has no other ideas.

But I didn’t expect that on the day of giving away the annual conference prize, he actually said, give me time and think of him.

That day, I searched hard in my mind, and he really seemed to look familiar.

I replied to him, your surname was Sun before, right?

He said, it seems, you are about to remember me.

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In fact, what jumped out of my mind was another person's name, Sun Wenzhe.

We met in the interactive project of the psychotherapy clinic.

He is thin and has a pair of particularly large eyes. Like to chew bubble gum. Chewing at any time, then blowing bubbles.

In memory, he is severe bipolar disorder . Both bipolar and depression.

At first, we had no contact until one day, everyone participated in the event and the teacher went out for a while if something happened. Zhu Wenrong suddenly got angry with the people around him, and then accidentally sucked bubble gum into the trachea, and his whole face turned red.

Everyone was frightened and didn't know what to do.

except me.

I said that my emotional reflex arc is very long. It’s not just about sadness, joy, fear, and tension.

When others are afraid, what I fly in my mind is the first aid steps that the teacher in the school has told.

I was very calm, walked over and hugged him from behind. Use Heimlik's first aid method to force his abdomen. Fortunately, he was thin enough at that time, and I was very strong again.

After a few times, the bubble gum was spewed out. After

, we become familiar with it. He was my first real friend after I went to middle school. When doing interactive training, we often have one group. Later, QQ was added. Most of them are said because I feel uncomfortable in my suffocation.

and Sun Wenzhe only likes to listen. He never talks about himself, as if there is a huge darkness hidden in his heart.

During the summer vacation, he asked me on Q if there is any place to live. He wanted to run away from home.

I remembered my grandma's home. Sun Wenzhe lived in.

I go to see him every day and bring him food. I joked that it made me feel like I was coming to deliver food to my boyfriend.

Sun Wenzhe said, then I'll be your boyfriend.

We were in love during that summer vacation.

Hold your hands while watching TV. When I was having a meal, I would wipe my mouth for help. On the sofa, I tried to kiss. But he said I was like a piece of wood and had no feelings.

Actually, I have it, it’s just slow. When I go home at night, lying in bed, and when I think about the daytime, I will blush.

Sun Wenzhe was my boyfriend for three months until the first session of the psychological counseling class ended.

Sometimes, I really don’t know if it was the course that saved me or Sun Wenzhe.

He was like a bunch of warm flames, lit up my heart.

However, after the treatment was over, he left the stage. At first, I said a few words on QQ, but later I stopped.

The person I told me at the end was his younger brother. My brother said, my brother has gone abroad.

Yes, Sun Wenzhe has a younger brother.

I immediately figured out the relationship between Zhu Wenrong and him.

He is Sun Wenzhe's younger brother.

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3 Go to work on Monday, and the company is a little embarrassed when it meets Zhu Wenrong again.

I felt that I was in front of him and suddenly became transparent.

After all, I was like a laughing stock in the past, and I was his brother’s girlfriend for three months.

was completely absent-minded when he held a regular meeting. If my colleague hadn't helped me remember any of the suggestions on revisions to the planning plan.

I was in a daze for a day and didn't get out of life.

Before getting off work, Zhu Wenrong called me to his office.

I entered the office and didn't close the door. My heart was like that door, leaving a gap for escape.

But Zhu Wenrong came over and locked the door with a click.

My eyebrows jumped. He poured a glass of water, then put a trash can beside me, and said, I am Sun Wenzhe's younger brother, Wenrong.

As expected, I was not wrong.

My stomach thrust and wanted to vomit again, but I didn't know what I was nervous about.

Zhu Wenrong said that our parents divorced when I was 10 years old. I followed my mother and changed my surname to Zhu.

and I didn't recognize him, probably because one of them looks like a mother and the other looks like a father.

It was not until that day that I learned about the secret in Sun Wenzhe's heart that I would never want to tell.

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Sun Wenzhe has never been able to accept divorce from his parents.

In the second year, my father married another stepmother. But Sun Wenzhe soon discovered that his father was with this stepmother before he divorced.

This made Sun Wenzhe hate his father so much. Later, he often ran to his mother and stayed for several days.

His father still attaches great importance to this eldest son.

asked his mother to send Sun Wenzhe back, saying that his mother already has one, don’t be greedy and snatch both.

In April 2003, Sun Wenzhe ran back to see his mother on the weekend. On Monday, his mother drove him back to her father's side and had a car accident.

Sun Wenzhe sat in the back seat and escaped. Mom died on the spot.

Since then, Sun Wenzhe’s psychology has been distorted, and he has a very serious bipolar disorder.

Zhu Wenrong said that their brothers have a good relationship. His brother goes to treatment, and he will go with him if he has time. When I saved Sun Wenzhe that day, he was also present.

I said, then how is your brother doing now?

Zhu Wenrong pursed his lips and said that he had never come back after he went to the UK.

I said, are there any photos of him? I want to see it.

Zhu Wenrong shook his head and said that he has never taken photos since he was a child.

I sat on the sofa, feeling stuck. How many past events fill the heart, like condensed water.

I suddenly remembered a detail that was a bit unbearable to scrutiny. Sun Wenzhe showed me photos of him and his fucking before. How could it be that there were no photos for so many years?

I said it was wrong. Wenzhe took photos before, so you didn’t need to hide them from me.

Zhu Wenrong saw that he couldn't pretend anymore, so he could only sigh and say that he... still committed suicide. I'm afraid of affecting your mood.

suddenly felt sad. It's like a patient who has been with you for many years, quietly leaving only an empty bed.

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Zhu Wenrong said that as soon as he entered the company, he recognized me.

But thinking that I have also participated in psychotherapy, I didn’t dare to say it out loud, for fear of stimulating me.

He read a lot of psychological books while accompanying his brother to treat him.

so I have some understanding of this.

At work, he often takes care of my social fear and will not let me give a speech in public. When colleagues get together, they will stop others from toasting with me. After the two plans were completed, he found that I was not only handsome but also very talented.

I was really moved by him. Apart from being in the psychological community in college, I have never met anyone in my life who is so careful to maintain my psychological state.

It turns out that working with him is so smooth because he has been secretly experiencing my state of mind.

I said, thank you.

He smiled and said, "What's the point of thanking me." I have an intention, too.

He started to tell me about his relationship. The first part was in school, and the second part was in talks for 4 years. When I got married, I found that my girlfriend had a spare tire.

My girlfriend told him not to be angry, she always regarded him as the first person.

Zhu Wenrong was so angry that he fell seriously ill.

In the past few years, he has been alone, and has no trustworthy people in his heart until he comes to a new company.

I found that over the years, my emotional reflection arc is still relatively long.

Zhu Wenrong all suggested to this level, and I asked foolishly, Who do you like our company?

Zhu Wenrong sighed softly and said, "You know you can't react." I'm talking about you.

I was stunned and suddenly picked up the trash can he gave me, spitting it out in one mouthful.

Then, Zhu Wenrong handed me the cup of water at hand.

For the first time, I think that someone is so handsome when handing over water. The kind of care that is calm and silently arranged for you to details instantly hit me.

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If I had a good impression of Zhu Wenrong before, then after listening to him telling the hidden story, all my favorable feelings in my heart became heart-warming.

Although we have only known each other for a year, we have a sense of familiarity that has continued since our youth. We have never even said a word before, but we seem to have experienced many things together.

But can we really fall in love?

Zhu Wenrong said, you think of my brother. If my brother knows, he should be blessed.

I don’t know if it’s because his eyes are sincere enough, but I want to give it a try.

In March 2018, Zhu Wenrong and I officially announced it. Before

, he only told the boss. He told the boss that he must marry me. If it does not comply with the company's regulations, he can resign first.

The boss said, I only look at the results, not the regulations.

So before getting off work, I made an agreement with him to post photos of holding hands on my Moments together.

Friend's blessing instantly squeezed WeChat.

Especially me, many old classmates and colleagues were surprised. For me, it's actually quite difficult. Never done such a remarkable thing.

Fortunately, someone is with me, so let’s face it together, and I don’t feel nervous.

doesn't want to reply, he helps me reply. I will handle my Honghong’s WeChat in the future. Just send me the red envelope, hehe.

Then he looked at me and smiled.

is unreasonable, a kind of responsible cuteness.

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The second weekend, Zhu Wenrong took me home.

Although his mother is gone, he doesn't go back to his father's side. I have been living with my grandparents all the time.

His grandfather is quite rich and has a round belly. His grandmother is not tall and thin. When he saw me, he said, Xiaorong said you also grew up with grandma.

My eyes suddenly turned red and I shouted, "Grandma, I couldn't speak." The word

has been away from me for many years, but I didn't expect to be back to me.

suddenly felt that my psychological disorder was really cured.

A girl who once never shed tears at her grandma's funeral can finally feel the joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness of this world.

Zhu Wenrong took my hand and said, "Go, I'll take you to see my room."

He is really a person who knows me and knows when I need to escape.

We entered his room, and he hugged me and said, "What's wrong, do you miss grandma?"

I nodded.

He took advantage of the situation and said, "Then you marry me quickly, and you will have grandma again."

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We registered in May 2019.

hesitated again and again, but he still didn't hold the wedding. I'm so afraid of being afraid at the wedding. It’s better to go abroad for a walk and go to Europe for an in-depth tour.

Zhu Wenrong has always supported me, and the Zhu family has no objection.

Only my mom is not satisfied with it.

She said, your in-laws don’t take you seriously, and you will definitely be bullied after marrying. But you, it would be great if you can get married.

She never says these harsh words to my brother. I raised my brother into a sunny and lively big boy.

But to me, there will always be only blows and belittlements.

But this time, I'm a little different. I listened to her calmly and said a word, oh.

Even my mother was stunned for a second, thinking that I seemed different.

Zhu Wenrong said that everyone learns to be parents, but there are some that they will never learn.

I think, my mom is it. I gave up on me so early and almost ruined my life.

But I don't want to hate her. Just like Sun Wenzhe, hatred cannot hurt his father's every bit of prosperity, but it just tortures himself and implicates his mother.

In September of this year, I became pregnant.

A small life was born in my belly, giving me pressure and giving me hope.

Zhu Wenrong has made several production plans, what should I do if I am isolated, what should I do if I have a close contact, what should I do if I can only enter the delivery room...

I listened silently, and felt a kind of real happiness in my heart.

The Zhu family rarely mentions Sun Wenzhe. It seems to be a little painful, and if you don’t mention it, you won’t be able to feel the pain.

If fate hadn't sent Zhu Wenrong to me, I might have forgotten Sun Wenzhe. Sometimes, fate is so wonderful.

Zhu Wenrong still said the same thing. If my brother knows it, he will bless us. That time you saved him, he told me that such a good girl should be happy and she was as sick as me.

Zhu Wenrong paused and said, even if I will protect you for him.

My eyes suddenly turned red.

In fact, I once thought that I would never be related to happiness in my life, so I would think that the little bit of happiness in front of me was made a profit. I'm very content.