Understanding life - Memories of 70s
Author: Sun Denggao
I would like to dedicate this collection of books to parents who have worked hard to give birth to me and raise me, to all the relatives who have raised me and grown up, as well as classmates, colleagues, friends and village neighbors who have helped me in times of crisis. I just try to describe my life experience as accurately and appropriately as possible in the form of an autobiography, and ruthlessly dissect myself with a scalpel with a rational thinking. Because there are too many regrets and guilt, in order to seek truth and truth, even if you dissect yourself to the point of being decent. I hope to give myself a pertinent evaluation rather than to embellish my mistakes, and I also hope to give objective and fair explanations to those who have passed away and even know me in my lifetime. I also hope to warn and inspire when writing a new chapter for future generations, and hope that "Insight of Life" will become a mirror of my life.
Chapter 7 In the most difficult days
(II)
The economic debt and the continuous loss of two relatives hit me with huge blows. However, what is even more terrifying is that the subsequent civil strife between relatives and the slander of people with ulterior motives caused me to be attacked from both sides.
The second sister fans were all young and ignorant, and they may have admired their reputation and yearning for the great capital, so they went to Beijing willingly. But sending 30 kilograms of general food coupons per month has really made me suffer. At that time, the food coupons were not exchanged casually, and they had to be issued certificates by organizations at all levels. Although I had the identity of a teacher and was quite familiar with the cadres of the brigade and commune, it was not a problem to issue a certificate once or twice. But if it is full of every month, it will be difficult, and no one wants to take this responsibility. Second, when you go to the grain station to exchange, you must get 70% of the fine grain (wheat), 30% of the miscellaneous grain (corn), and three taels of cooking oil for every 30 kilograms of exchange. At that time, each person in the production team had a maximum of more than 80 kilograms of wheat per year. Where can I get so much wheat to exchange? Sometimes this is earlier, and sometimes it is a little later, and sometimes my uncle is a little unhappy.
Liuzhi Fengliang Village Photo by Liu Huanmin
Big girl fan hero is only one year younger than my wife Cuiyan, and can work in the team. But after losing a relative, I was in a bad mood and reached the age to talk about marriage. Naturally, I felt that being with us was for us and I was unwilling to accept it. This gives others the opportunity to sow discord. In fact, Cui Yan and I had not considered the marriage of the big girl fan hero before, but the subsequent events made me unable to put it into practice. When my uncle returned home, he carried me to find a partner for his eldest sister in the adjacent Fuzhong Village. He basically agreed to tell me before getting engaged. After I got to know each other, I felt it was a bit inappropriate, so I talked about my own opinion. And expressed full respect for the big girl's opinions. After my eldest sister agreed to engagement, Cuiyan and I still arranged to attend the engagement banquet. This family has a normal different view, but it was exaggerated and exaggerated by people with ulterior motives, and even made things happen out of nothing, sowing discord in front of my younger brother and sister-in-law and uncle.
It may also be due to information aberration, or it may be because of rumors or unintentional misunderstandings. While my uncle asked this and that in his letter to me, he said that he was grateful for my filial piety on his behalf, he also virtualized the sending address of "Shijiazhuang, Hebei Province" behind me, and wrote eight letters to the big girl fan hero in a row with the fake recipient "Du Dongfang Received in Anbao", carefully planned the farce of provoking trouble and splitting up the family.
In the letter, he analyzed the situation to his eldest sister: "Your father and your milk have just passed away. Your brother and sister-in-law still have to consider face. Worry about the bad impact. Don't be afraid of anything when you are young, just make a fuss with them. The bigger the quarrel, the better." He even wrote: "Don't do anything at home, help your neighbor and yourself, and get along with your family..." He also tempted with material things: "When you get married, your uncle and I will give you a quilt and a pair of pillow towels..." In the letter, he made specific plans for the separation plan: "When you separate, the home will be distributed to your milk, and the remaining front room and Xiamen room, your father and I will share the remaining front room and Xiamen room. In the end, you brother and sister will share your father's three Xiamen room. At that time, your brother will not even be divided into one Xiamen room."
At this time, the relative who also wanted to get a piece of the pie. The daughter of the uncle (grandmother's sister-in-law) of Fengguangtai (neighboring village) worked in another place. The old couple had no one to take care of her and wanted to go to her daughter's place but no one to watch the door. So they wanted to let the eldest sister go to his house to watch the door after the family split. Some of the clan members also added fuel to the fire and wrote a letter to the Tang Master who was far away in Lanzhou, asking him to go home to ask me to ask for a house. At this time, one party was provoking trouble, and a situation of response from multiple parties had already formed. The storm was about to come and the wind filled the building. .
But the sky has eyes. Just when I was foolishly made up and was plotted by someone, an unexpected discovery exposed these plots.
When I changed the kang surface at home (the kang surface made of soil and wheat straw broke for a long time), I accidentally found these eight letters hidden under the kang mat. After reading these letters, I woke up from the farces that have happened in the past few months.
I had a long time without a chat, and I talked calmly and emotionally. I sued I have read all of these eight letters from her. She is young and ignorant, so I don’t blame her. My parents are gone, and we are the closest people. I advise her not to be fooled, not to believe in other people’s provocations, and not to be tragic. The big girl fan agreed with me. I accidentally said that as long as I knew I was wrong, I would never use these letters to talk about them. Family scandals should not be made public, and I will destroy these letters in person.
In order to do a good job in transforming my big girl’s thoughts, I asked my best friend, high school classmate Hui Shiji, from Xiamiao, twenty miles away, to help me do the big girl’s thoughts. , and walked five or six miles overnight to the eldest sister's most trusted aunt (Li Yuqin, the daughter of grandmother, who left him at home and hired a son-in-law after her death). We told the story of the incident, let the couple read these letters together, clarifying the false statements of misinformation. I hope they can do more ideological work for the eldest sister in terms of the relationship with their mother and sister. Then I burned these letters in person and burned them in person.
Liuzhi Fengliang Village Photo by Liu Huanmin
Things just passed, and I still thought nothing happened to my uncle, wrote a letter of greeting and sent food coupons. In the later correspondence, I still felt that my uncle was unnatural. The eldest sister was still influenced by the outside world and driven by interests. My younger sister and my younger sister lived together with Dengfeng. She lived at the uncle's house outside Fengguangtai to serve the old couple. She decided to get married with Fuzhongcun, but for some reason, she broke off the engagement.
Image and text source: "Insighting Life"
Original author: Sun Denggao
Organized and edited by Huazhou Literature and History Collection
