I only admitted that I was one year older after my birthday on the lunar calendar.
After tomorrow, I will step on my 30-year-old tail.
In my whole life, for what purpose? Whenever I feel that I am not motivated to live, I just ask myself this.
For this marriage without tenderness and love?
Is it possible for my parents to take care of an unsuccessful and unsuccessful daughter like me?
Is it possible for children to have a better life without lack of mothers?
Well, probably this is the reason why I try to live. Just to live for these, I feel that all my energy was wasted.
I have no dreams, I haven't had them since I was a child. When I was very young, I didn’t know why I wanted to live? Just ask yourself this often.
Or is it suitable to learn philosophy in the heart? I don't know, but occasionally my bigotry will scare many people. But more often I will compromise, hold back, and persuade myself to just do it!
So more often everyone thinks that I am a happy and talkative person.
Things that are not too troublesome, I can't justify and refuse things, and I will respond and do well in the end. So many people say that I am a good person.
But when I was very young, everyone thought I was indifferent and difficult to approach.
Now I feel that it is a pity that I lost myself at that time. If it keeps on, it would be nice to be the last one!
Don’t be someone’s wife, don’t be someone’s daughter-in-law, don’t be someone’s mother, just be Wu’s daughter, send them to die, and then be alone.
or live well to die, or if you want to say goodbye to this world, goodbye. There is nothing to worry about.
At that time, I thought I shouldn't get married, but I couldn't pluck up the courage to refuse. Everyone close to me knows that I will not refuse.
And he always advertised that he is a man who is good at seeing people's hearts, so at that time it was my weakness!
And me, where is the failure? Obviously ask friends for help again and again, afraid of getting married. In the end, I must compromise and comfort myself. Sooner or later, it will be the same. How can
be possible? How could it be the same day and night,There are obviously many roads.
A woman who is about to step on her 30-year-old tail. What do you have?
An idle job that is not enough to support me bravely to escape from the sea of suffering. Two sons that I didn't dare to resign and had to hand over to the old man, a husband who can make money but I always feel that he has nothing to do with me.
The eldest son leaned on my shoulder in the afternoon and said that he did not like his mother. At that moment, I really couldn't comfort myself: raising offspring is just to experience the process of life growth.
At the same time, I also remembered that when I was in elementary school or junior high school, I used to question my mother on the phone: What am I doing if you are not willing to raise me?
Now the second child is still very dependent on me, after all, he was born and separated from me for a short time. But when I think that I will be separated for half a year after the National Day, I feel the pain of being crushed.
What's going on in half a year, I can know with my eyes closed, avoiding me, holding my grandma and not letting go.
I don't have the courage to resign, and I feel that I don't have the courage to face it.
People always say that it is rare to have both sides in the world. Obviously we are not unable to afford a nanny, and the elderly are not too old to be able to carry them out, but it happens that I can't have both sides.
Every time he said that, he would lightly let me resign and bring it myself, but he didn't give me any confidence.
I often inadvertently look down on my job, dislike my cooking, or feel that the housework is not doing well.
I don’t feel happy at all. I often think, if it weren't for my child, I might not be happy to live! Not much meaning.
So my 30-year-old woman has no ideals, no pursuits, no high-paying jobs, no considerate husband, no parent-like mother-in-law, no right to bring her children around, the least of all is a positive pursuit .
I often need some inspirational stories, books, videos, music... you can use them to draw strength. Because I was so incompetent, I couldn't give birth by myself, and I didn't have any relatives or friends to give it.
can only be done again and again. When it is about to dry up, take the initiative to absorb some, otherwise I don’t know if I can survive!
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