Sanmao and Jose have been married for 6 years and have no children? Why did she frequently say she saw the child before she died

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I believe that seeing the name of Sanmao, many people must be like the author. The first thing that comes to mind may be the movie "三毛从军记" The child with three hairs in the middle, of course, if you start reading a novel, you will know that there is another Sanmao, a great Sanmao!

San Mao, a famous female writer, originally named 陈懋平, English name ECHO, representative works include "Story of the Sahara", "Crying Camel", "Scarecrow's Notes", "The Rainy Season Is Not Coming", " Billowing Red Dust" . Born in Chongqing on March 26, 1943, he moved to Taipei with his family when he was a child. At the age of 21, he was an auditor at the Department of Philosophy of the Chinese Culture University, and then studied at the University of Madrid in Spain and the Goethe Institute in Germany.

At the age of 24, Sanmao went to Spain alone. In 1973, he married a Spanish man Jose, and lived in the Sahara Desert after marriage. In 1979, Jose died diving and Sanmao returned to Taipei from his wandering life.

三毛跟荷西 have known each other for 12 years and married for 6 years , until the death of her husband, the two have no children? Maybe we can find out from her emotional experience.

六年之约

The third year of the University of Madrid in Spain, Sanmao met Jose, who was less than 18 years old, and Jose at that time It’s just a student at a high school near the University of Madrid. On Christmas night, Jose suddenly gave Sanmao a gift. A kid in a foreign country gave her a gift. Sanmao naturally knew what it meant, but she didn’t care. , That was a boy who was 8 years younger than her, sister and brother love, San Mao shook his head in his heart.

Until one day, Jose said seriously : ECHO, will you wait for me to get married? Six years! Four years of university, two years of military service! good or not. Sanmao pretended to be angry and said, I have a boyfriend. For the first time, Sanmao took a serious look at the Spanish boy, but it was obvious that Sanmao's words hit Jose, so Jose never took the initiative to find Sanmao. When Sanmao returned to Spain again due to the sudden death of his fiance, when Jose picked up Sanmao from behind at a good friend's house, their love story also kicked off.

I want to go to the Sahara Desert to see

In 1973, San Mao and Jose came to the largest desert in the world- The Sahara Desert , and the reason why Sanmao came to the Sahara was the attraction of a geography magazine.

The life in the desert constantly inspires Sanmao’s creative inspiration. She integrates her experiences in the desert and the stories of her friends into her own works. Her first work collection 《萨哈拉的故事》 It was officially published and distributed in May 1976.

In "The Story of Sahara", Sanmao wrote: " Every time I think of you, a grain of sand falls from the sky, and the Sahara is formed. Every time I think about you, a drop of water falls from the sky, and it is formed了Pacific .” It can be seen how deep her love for Jose is.

儿童

Sanmao has been a lonely person since she was a child. Before marrying Josei, she suffered a series of emotional frustrations, which made her completely completely after marriage. Put your love into Jose, even if it is your own children to share the love of your husband, the children may be the third person in their love. She herself once said : It’s okay to raise a villain, but she can’t afford the love of her life.

In addition, Sanmao was just 30 years old at that time, and Jose was European again, and his thinking mode was different from that of Orientals. Children are still very far away from them, and they don’t have to be. of. At that time Jose was also very busy. Jose worked as a diving engineer and often worked in the university.Outside Canary Island performs diving mission and only goes home once a week.

After gathering Shao Li Duo, San Mao suddenly longed for her child to come. Fate seemed to make a joke with her. On September 30, 1979, it was the second day of the Mid-Autumn Festival that year, 1:30 in the evening, Sanmao received the bad news that Jose died due to diving.

Sanmao’s lover, Hexi, is gone. She returned to Taiwan, which was 12 years away, and became one of the favorite professors of Taiwan Cultural University students. Sanmao once said that in the first few years after Jose's death, she spent all day growing vegetables in the garden without reading or writing. From buying seeds and turning the soil to watering the harvest, she used physical labor to distract mental decadence. Until one day a few years later, when she was working in the vegetable garden, she started to hum a song. She was startled, and then she sat in the vegetable garden and started crying. "I am alive again".

Since then, Sanmao seems to have fallen in love with the child. During her travels in the mainland, we can often see pictures of her and her child. From these photos, the author sees Sanmao's eyes full of love.

西歌王

San Mao has loved singing since childhood "In That Faraway Place", "The Girl of Daban City" , she sang these Chinese folk songs from Taiwan to Spain, from Spain to the Sahara, and until Jose departed. When she was traveling in the mainland, San Mao made a special trip to visit Wang Luobin, the king of Western Songs, and at this time 王洛宾 was already in his 70s and .

3 months and 6 letters, Sanmao’s sleeping heart seemed to be fantasised again, but Wang Luobin wrote and told Sanmao: I was like the broken umbrella of Bernard Shaw, only The left umbrella handle can be used as a walking stick . After that, Wang Luobin responded very slowly. Sanmao wrote in a hurry: "You are so cruel, that made me lose the crutch of life."

It is already a few months since Sanmao came to Xinjiang again. She no longer cares about the secular vision, Living in Wang Luobin's home, longing for a sincere feeling. But the two were born at different ages, and the strait in the Taiwan Strait was destined to be a gap they could not cross. Just like what the lyrics say: You and I are on both sides of the river, separated by a river forever. Sanmao understands: They cannot come together. With unspeakable sentiment, Sanmao returned to Taiwan lonely with his luggage.

天使

Less than a year after returning to Taiwan, on January 2, 1991, Sanmao factor palace disease was hospitalized in Taipei Rong General Hospital , It is reported that the consequence of this disease is infertility . On the 4th, she hanged herself in stockings in the bathroom of the ward . The police immediately went to the scene to investigate and collect evidence, and determined that Sanmao committed suicide.

January 4, 1991 , homonym "一死" , Sanmao was reluctant to stay alive for a day, she was bored of living, she first came to Madrid for three years and then returned Taiwan, the fiancé went; the six years of love in the Sahara Desert, the husband Jose went; when the year-end love came, he couldn't touch it after all. San Mao is really tired!

On the night of his death, Sanmao called her mother and said that she had seen the faces of the children, and the mother could only console her that those children were angels. Those children may be the ones who took photos with Sanmao. They are the last memories of her death, but as a reader of Sanmao's works, I hope she sees the crystallization of her fantasy and her 爱人荷西的爱.

A generation of talented girl, Xiang Xiaoyu died , but the works left are warm. Sanmao has never been a mortal like us. She loves ardently and does not need children. She is too tired to live and see angels.Face!