I thought we could finally be together, but in less than a month, Song Yiyan's goddess suddenly came back from studying abroad and said she was going to stay in Shanghai to develop in the future. That night, his heart was in chaos.

1.

When Song Yiyan tried his best to send me to another man's bed, my feelings for him disappeared completely.

I chased him shamelessly for nine years, and he finally agreed vaguely.

I thought we could finally be together, but in less than a month, Song Yiyan's goddess suddenly came back from studying abroad and said she was going to stay in Shanghai to develop in the future. That night, his heart was in chaos.

He never smoked, but that night, he locked himself on the balcony, smoking and coughing, which made the neighbors next door knock on the door and asked me if something was burning at home.

Song Yiyan stayed on the balcony for as long as I stayed with him in the living room.

I know he is in chaos, but why am I not?

I didn't know how I came here that night. My heart seemed to be dug up by someone. The place was so empty, and the cold wind swayed in, and even the breath was filled with blood.

has never tried so many complicated emotions to penetrate into my mind at once.

Lost, hesitate, hesitate, and even fear.

Thinking about it now, I was so humble at that time.

It was almost morning when Song Yiyan walked out of the balcony.

His eyes were covered with red bloodshots and his throat was hoarse.

I looked at the cigarette butts on the ground behind him, and I felt ridiculous for no reason.

The first sentence he saw me was, "Xu Feifei is back."

My throat seemed to be strangled, and I couldn't say a word.

Actually, I have prepared a lot of things, and I should even ask him, do you want to break up?

But in the end I didn't say it, break up? Perhaps in his heart, we have never been together.

From junior high school to high school, and later in order to study with him, I traveled thousands of miles from Yunnan to Shanghai.

The whole world knows that I like Song Yiyan.

In order to chase him, I don’t want anything else.

I thought I was about to succeed, but I didn't expect that after all, I could not compare to her white moonlight.

gritted his teeth heavily, his mouth numb, and finally squeezed out those few words, which made me feel ridiculous.

"Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something first?"

2.

As soon as Xu Feifei returned to China, she invited a bunch of friends, rented a small villa, and held a lively party.

But what I didn't expect was that she even invited me specifically.

It would be fine if he asked Song Yiyan, but there was no friendship between Xu Feifei and I.

I still went, I want to see what attracts the white moonlight that has made Song Yiyan miss day and night for so many years.

party is very lively, and there are many people coming, most of whom I don’t know. My attention can only be on Song Yiyan.

It's been a long time since I saw him laugh so happily, and he can chat and laugh with everyone. He seems to have never treated me like this.

What am I doing here? Do I bring shame on myself?

Just as I was about to leave, Xu Feifei walked up to me.

Before she could speak, someone was anxious.

Song Yiyan emerged from somewhere and stood between us.

He said lightly, "Luo Qing and I are just friends."

I just sneered and felt the eye knife handed over by Song Yiyan.

is just a friend.

Did he forget that I was by his side during many lost nights. Just after graduation, Song Yiyan joined an Internet company and had to socialize all day long due to business needs.

Just his slack drink, he would fall a little after a few glasses. I went to pick him up no matter how far away.

In the end, I got it, it was just a friend.

I'm like a joke.

I replied, "Yes, we are just friends."

The villa is in the suburbs and it takes two days to have a party.

I want to leave, but it seems that I don’t even have a bus.

There are only a few rooms in the villa. Most of them know each other, some play cards and some sing, but what about me?

I just agreed after being so confused.

In the evening, Song Yiyan pulled me aside and gave me a key, "There is a room on the third floor. If you are tired, go and have a rest."

I didn't know what to say, but after taking it, I stood there in a daze.

Song Yiyan opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't speak in the end.

I think he should feel guilty towards me. After so many years, I have been wandering around him. Even a dog should have feelings.

3.

My mind is very confused and I feel very upset.

always hung his head when he went upstairs.

I am really a shame, why should I join in the fun?

When I arrived at the third floor, I opened the door with the key, and I touched it for a long time but couldn't touch the switch of the light.

just feels annoyed, and even this room has to go against me.

simply stopped opening. I walked towards the big bed and lay down face down.

Only one man's humming was heard.

scared me so much that my heart was pounding.

I fell from the bed and sat heavily on the ground, , and the vertebrae of were all in pain.

I believe it. When people are in trouble, even drinking water will get stuck between their teeth.

The man turned on the bedside light , and his sharp eyes looked at me leisurely.

That face is handsome and handsome, not at all inferior to Song Yiyan. The more I looked at him, the more familiar I looked, and finally I remembered it.

Isn’t he just a senior who is two years older than us, the recognized school grass, Yan Yiyu.

Looking closely, he only wrapped a bath towel on his lower body, and his wheat-colored skin on his upper body was exposed to my eyes.

I stood up with my butt covering my butt and went to find the door in panic.

"Sorry, I went wrong." Yan Yiyu behind

said lightly, "The whole third floor is just one room."

I held the key in my hand, looked at it again and again, thinking about what Song Yiyan said to me.

I really can't help but doubt it. He took great pains to send me to another man's room in order to clear his relationship with me.

Suddenly, there was an idea in my mind that I had never had before.

There are thousands of men in this world, what do I ask is Song Yiyan?

I suddenly remembered a rumor that the reason why Xu Feifei refused to agree to Song Yiyan was because the person she liked was Yan Yiyu.

I turned my head and looked at Yan Yiyu, a school grass-level male god.

I asked him, "Can you lend you half a bed tonight?"

4.

1

Yan Yiyu's face was silent, but I clearly saw that his ears were red.

He hesitated for a full half minute before getting out of bed.

He is very tall. When I looked up at him, cervical spondylosis was almost suffering from it.

watched Yan Yiyu leave the room, and I didn't know what to say.

is simply too embarrassing today, and I don’t care about throwing one more.

This night, I thought a lot. In the nine years since I met Song Yiyan, I have long lost myself. I am like a satellite, surrounding him forever.

. I always have times when I am tired. This time, I have no worries at all. Maybe I should have given up long ago.

The next morning, I went downstairs with a messy hairstyle and saw Song Yiyan standing among a group of strange faces.

His eyes dodged, and because of this, I had the answer in my heart. What happened last night could not be a coincidence.

Xu Feifei and I greeted me and prepared to leave.

As soon as I walked to the gate, I saw a car parked there.

The car window fell down, Yan Yiyu pushed his sunglasses and said lightly, "It's not easy to call a car here, will I give you it?"

I should refuse, right?

But when I turned my head, I saw Xu Feifei and Song Yiyan staring at this place tightly. I made up my mind and opened the car door.

In the rearview mirror, Song Yiyan frowned and clenched his fists.

But I didn’t feel any trouble in my heart. If I had not been tactful at this point, wouldn’t I be a little naughty?

Everyone knows that I like Song Yiyan, but he naturally enjoys my efforts.

I don’t blame him, after all, the person he likes has always been Xu Feifei.

In this world, the most unforgettable thing is probably feelings.

When the car started, I saw Song Yiyan walking to the door.

But as the car got farther and farther away, his expression became more and more blurred in my eyes.

finally became a point, which looked very similar to the position of Song Yiyan in my heart.

5.

Yan Yiyu didn't talk much. On the way back, he just asked my address and never spoke again. After getting off the bus, I said thank you to him and turned around and left.

The education of my parents since childhood made me know that this is impolite, but what happened in the past two days made me unable to maintain my grace.

I thought he and I were just meeting him, but I didn’t expect that half a month later, Yan Yiyu and I met again.

He is actually the supervisor of my new company.

This is a very good job opportunity. The company is very capable, but before, I gave up this opportunity because I was too far from Song Yiyan’s family. I didn’t expect that the Human Resources Department would keep my position for me.

I won't miss it this time.

The first meeting after joining the company, when the supervisor walked in, I was stunned.

glanced at each other, and Yan Yiyu's expression did not change at all.

I even thought that he might have forgotten me.

But throughout the meeting, his ears kept red, red like blood.

I only realized a long time later that whenever he is nervous or shy, his ears will turn red and he will not be able to control it.

Yan Yiyu is very powerful. Although he is only two years older than me, he has become the head of a large company at a young age.

He has clear ideas and clear organization in his work, and takes good care of newcomers. Soon, I found that the two of us were getting closer and closer.

We have lunch together, and after get off work he will drive me to see me off, and sometimes we will video chat about new projects at night.

After work that day, Yan Yiyu sent me a message: The parking lot is waiting for you.

I finished packing my things and went down, but I didn’t expect to see Xu Feifei.

She dresses very beautifully, with a red dress, high heels with big waves, and a convex figure.

Yan Yiyu on the other side leaned against the car door, and the expression on her face looked very gloomy.

6.

is too far away, and I can't hear what they are saying. I'm very cramped and don't know if I want to go up.

At this moment, Yan Yiyu saw me.

He walked straight towards me, grabbed my hand naturally, and pulled me to Xu Feifei.

Before I could figure out the situation, he said to Xu Feifei, "I will introduce my girlfriend to you, Luo Qing."

I looked up at him in surprise, Yan Yiyu said seriously, but his ears were red and bloody.

held my hand tightened a little.

Xu Feifei's eyes were red, and the things in her hand were thrown to the ground, and she turned around and ran away.

Yan Yiyu didn't care about it, kicked the thing aside, opened the passenger's door, and stuffed me into the car.

He remained silent along the way, and I didn’t know what to say, and the atmosphere in the car was a little strange.

After I arrived at my doorstep, I was about to get off the car, but Yan Yiyu spoke just now.

"What I said just now, please think about it."

Just now? Which sentence?

I was silent for a long time, lowered my head and said, "You should know..."

In college, I'm afraid no one doesn't know about Song Yiyan and me.

In order to attend the same university with him, I traveled thousands of miles from Yunnan to Shanghai. My parents felt sorry for me, so they moved here and settled here.

In order to chase him, when he was in college, he skipped class in the dormitory, so I went to the cafeteria to help him buy food as soon as I got get out of class. When he joined the school basketball team, I became the captain of the cheerleaders.

In short, where there is Song Yiyan, I must be Luo Qing.

The same school, Yan Yiyu should know all these things.

After I got out of the car, he said with a knot, "If you don't speak, it's the default."

said, and kicked the car away with a foot of the accelerator.

I don’t know what’s wrong, but a smile appeared inexplicably on the corner of my mouth.

I have never seen him so restlessly.

and Song Yiyan have been separated for almost three months. I know that the scar is slowly healing, but every time I turn it open, it still hurts severely.

When Yan Yiyu confessed his love, I couldn't help but think of Song Yiyan.

I saw it in the class group a while ago and said that he had also changed his job. The class monitor even deliberately said that he was very close to my company.

I didn't reply.

7.

The best way to forget your ex is to start a new relationship.

It is undeniable that Yan Yiyu is a good object, but is it not fair to him if I do this?

While I was still hesitating about this relationship, Yan Yiyu seemed to have accepted this setting.

He began to go from just sending me off work to picking me up and dropping off. He would bring me breakfast in the morning because I had a bad stomach and during the meeting, he would change the coffee on my table.

All he did was without any concealment, and he never stings with his preference for me in front of his colleagues.

When I got off work, I was packing my own things. Cici from the project team walked to me and said teasingly, "Do you go on a date with Superintendent Yan?"

My face felt a little hot, so I had to evade, "It's nothing, he just took me home by the way."

Cici looked disbelief.

"On the way? Miss, his home is in , Hongkou District, , your home is in , Minhang , which is almost half of Shanghai, why did you go along the way?"

I really didn't think about this.

On the way off work, the car was playing songs as usual. It was my favorite singer Chen Li . Yan Yiyu was as quiet and taciturn as usual.

I looked out the window, was stunned for a while, and suddenly spoke.

"Starting tomorrow, you don't need to pick me up."

Yan Yiyu, who has always been calm, suddenly braked suddenly, scaring me so much that I was so scared that I was flying.

He parked his car in the middle of the highway, turned to look at me, and said three words in a low voice, "Why?" The cars next to

were flowing, and there were people who were asking around from behind, but Yan Yiyu was always indifferent. He stared at me tightly, as if waiting for my answer.

I was so nervous that I grabbed his sleeve and said, "Park the car to the emergency lane first."

Fortunately, he didn't completely lose his mind.

Yan Yiyu is more stubborn than I imagined.

Looking at his hand holding the steering wheel, the veins burst out, but I felt that it was a little cute.

I leaned on the back of the chair, looked at him, and said with a smile, "I just don't want my boyfriend to work so hard."

8.

1

1, and his ears turned red again.

I haven't seen this scene for a long time, and I almost forgot that he has this special skill.

He didn't answer the conversation, and he didn't know where to put his eyes.

I heard before that Yan Yiyu had never been in a relationship, and thought it was a joke, but I didn't expect it to be true.

Such a handsome school grass-level figure and has such a young side.

After saying that, he remained silent and started the car silently.

It's really strange to say today. The seat belt that has never had any problems has actually gotten stuck.

The car arrived at the entrance of my community and couldn't unbutton the seat belt. The button inside seemed to be loose, and it was useless no matter how hard it was pressed.

Seeing that I was a little anxious, Yan Yiyu grabbed my hand and lowered his head to help me.

In this cramped space, we are almost a few centimeters apart.

I can even hear his breathing.

His hands are very hot, thick and powerful, with a thin layer of fluff on the back of his hands. When they touch it, it feels like it scratches my heart, it feels itchy. When the

button was unbuttoned, Yan Yiyu looked up and collided with my eyes.

I clearly felt his breathing suffocation.

There seemed to be a big magnet on his face, which inexplicably pulled the distance between us.

When the tip of my nose touched, I suddenly retracted.

I opened the car door anxiously, ran down quickly, and returned home at a 100-meter sprint speed that I had not achieved in the exam that year.

ran too fast. When I was downstairs, I seemed to see a familiar figure, but I didn't stop either.

The man was wearing a long black windbreaker with his hands in his pockets.

looks very much like Song Yiyan.

9.

Yan Yiyu is professional and strong at work, but in private he has become a completely different person. He is actually young and shy.

When we were together for a month, we never held hands. Every time we took me home, he looked like he wanted to speak but stopped before I got out of the car.

I couldn't help but tease him. Whenever he was about to speak, I would change the topic.

After a few times, he was like a deflated ball.

I got off the car that day and before I could get home, I received a message from Yan Yiyu. It was a very long paragraph, a very short essay.

roughly means that he took the leave of both of us by himself.

There are many projects in the group now, and I can’t spare time. With the double break, there are only three days in total. He wants to take me out for a relaxation.

but without my consent, I did it.

He also carefully prepared the surrounding routes and carefully made them into ppts, asking me where I like them.

Finally said that if I don’t want to, he will cancel the holiday.

Yan Yu was very happy and wrote hundreds of words.

Before that, no one except my parents had ever cared about me so much. I have written countless short essays like

before and sent them to Song Yiyan.

But he usually only has one word to reply to me: Yes. Sometimes I simply don’t reply, and since the moment the news was sent out, I was like a fool, keeping my phone blankly.

On the dialog box between Yan Yiyu and I, the other party was typing. Thinking of this stupid guy, he should be constantly organizing language.

I replied to him: Let me take a look first.

was afraid that he would wait in a hurry, but he didn't expect that he would reply a good word in seconds.

10.

I looked around and finally decided to go to Wuzhen .

is not far away, it is relatively quiet, three days are enough.

Yan Yiyu immediately booked the ticket and the hotel, and told me that he had booked two.

Before going to Wuzhen, my mother used up her moxibustion.

She is used to using the old brand of Suzhou , and I will buy some for her every few months.

So I told Yan Yiyu that I would go to Suzhou to buy moxibustion in the morning, and then go to Wuzhen to meet him in the afternoon.

Yan Yiyu said he wanted to accompany me, but his aunt from Suzhou said he wanted to bring something to my parents and asked me to take a trip.

I didn't think that Yan Yiyu would appear in my relative's sight so soon, so I refused.

But I didn't tell him this reason directly, but just made an excuse.

I just didn’t expect that before I set out to Suzhou, I received a call from the hospital.

Song Yiyan suffered from stomach bleeding and was rushed to the hospital. The quick contact person set by his mobile phone was me.

He has had stomach problems since he was a child and he never cared about it.

I have always had stomach medicine in my bag. I used to check everywhere about which diet therapy can nourish the stomach.

But he never remembers that my stomach is not good either.

I remember one time I went out for a dinner, and a friend kept calling him to drink. Song Yiyan made excuses for a long time and finally said, let Luo Qing drink for me.

At that time, my heart tightened and my whole body was occupied by loss.

Although it is not as serious as him, as long as you eat something irritating, you will have stomachache , and once is no exception.

I didn't say anything, so I bit the bullet and drank the wine.

After returning home, my dad carried me to the hospital in the middle of the night.

I still remember that when I was having a drip in the hospital, my dad asked me, "Daughter, do you like him so much?"

I nodded.

11.

I still called him, and I always put Song Yiyan’s medical insurance card and cases.

Maybe because of his illness, his voice was very haggard.

I told him that the case report was placed in the second drawer in the wardrobe and was about to hang up the phone, but Song Yiyan called me.

"Luo Qing."

waited for a long time, but he didn't say anything. I also glanced at my phone and made sure that I didn't hang up.

I thought about it and said, "You have a good rest and take care of your health."

Song Yiyan asked me if I was still in Shanghai, and I responded.

He was reluctant to speak, I wanted to hang up, but I felt it was rude.

asked tentatively, "Are you...got something?"

Song Yiyan said, "Are you with Yan Yiyu?"

I was silent for about five seconds and replied, "Yeah."

"That night..." He hesitated, wanting to speak but stopped.

It started raining outside, and it was too late.

I hung up the phone in a hurry. After the call of

, I was surprisingly calm, so calm that I was even surprised.

For so many years, I have never been so surprised in front of Song Yiyan.

It seems that what he did can no longer stir my heart.

I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.

I only know that everything between me and Song Yiyan is already a past tense.

12.

It rained heavily, but I missed the high-speed rail.

change of signing on weekends is really a headache.

The phone is out of power again, and you can't even borrow a power bank.

waited for a long time at the high-speed rail station, and finally got a ticket to Wuzhen at 5 pm.

Fortunately, Yan Yiyu is relatively straight and doesn’t have any surprises. I know the entire itinerary of this trip, including which hotel I stay in.

It takes a long time to walk in the hotel in Xizhali, and the bluestone road is now a flood of water.

After arriving at the hotel, as soon as I walked into the hall, I saw the man squatting in the corner.

He grabbed his phone dejectedly, with a gift box next to him.

The tall man who is about 1.9 meters tall can't be described as cute, but the moment I saw Yan Yiyu, my heart was transformed.

I walked up to him and reached out to rub the top of his head.

His hair is very thin and soft and has a good feel.

The moment I looked up, I clearly saw the light in his eyes and it suddenly lit up.

Yan Yiyu stood up and pulled me into his arms. He had never seen him look so bold.

He pressed his chin against my head, and as he spoke, his low and hoarse voice poked my celestial cover.

"I thought you were not here."

This fool just waited for me in the hotel lobby and didn't check in. He didn't come, so he didn't eat or drink, and kept calling me.

When I pulled him to check in, I was told that there was only one last room left.

The front desk lady looked at Yan Yiyu with surprise, her tone was full of questions.

"Sir, I made more than a dozen calls to confirm whether I wanted to keep the room. I didn't expect you to be in the hotel all the time."

I saw Yan Yiyu's ears turned red again.

I smiled and said, "Then let's open one."

13.

He didn't ask me why I was late, nor did he blame me. He even apologized to me, saying that he had arranged a holiday, but did not look at the weather forecast in advance.

After a long time later, at the celebration banquet of our project, this silly man got drunk in order to block the wine for me.

After taking a taxi to take me home, he stood downstairs in the community and told me.

was in Wuzhen that day, and he thought I wouldn't go.

I asked him why?

Yan Yiyu stood straight and looked at me seriously.

He said that on the day Song Yiyan was sent to the emergency room for gastric bleeding, someone asked me for contact information in the alumni group.

The whole world thinks that I should be with Song Yiyan for granted.

So after I couldn't get through my phone that day, he became anxious, but there was no other way, so he had to sit in the corner of the hotel lobby and wait.

When I said this, I kept looking at Yan Yiyu.

He is two years older than me, mature, steady and responsible in front of outsiders, but in front of me, he always looks like a child and is careful in everything he does.

But I can't be familiar with all this.

I remember that when I faced Song Yiyan, I was walking on thin ice. I was afraid that something I did not do well would make him unhappy, and I also hoped that I could live a little more weight in his heart.

Such emotions make me worry about gains and losses and lose myself.

We have been together for almost three months, and except for our family, the company already knows our relationship.

, but Yan Yiyu has been careful.

After he said those words, I pulled the collar of his shirt and forced him to bend down.

I stood on tiptoe and kissed.

This time, Yan Yiyu not only had red ears, but also had bloody cheeks like a ripe peach.

14.

The three words Song Yiyan should have become less and less diluted with time, but unexpectedly, he still appeared in my world. After the

project was completed, Yan Yiyu and I were assigned to two project teams, and the person in charge of the company I had contacted in the newly-connected chip project was Song Yiyan.

Because of a deviation in the plan, he asked me to meet at the cafe. After thinking about it, it was just a job, so I agreed.

On WeChat, I asked Song Yiyan which company to sign up for.

He replied to me: Just the linefriend you have been mentioning before.

This is a cartoon-collaborated cafe, which was very popular when it first emerged in Shanghai. I mentioned it a few times and wanted to go, but Song Yiyan refused, feeling naive.

has been rejected many times, so I have become more aware of the qualities.

I didn't expect that he would choose there.

Anyway, it’s work, I don’t want to be too involved by my personal emotions, so I simply made this cafe next to the company. I agreed to him and went there after work.

But just as it arrived, I suddenly received a call from Yan Yiyu.

said he was waiting for me on the rooftop of the company.

The entire building is our company. Now it is time to get off work, no one will run to the rooftop.

Take the elevator to the 28th floor, climb two more floors to the rooftop, and as soon as I walked in, my wrist was caught.

Yan Yiyu pressed me against the wall, lowered his head and kissed him.

His kiss was very strong, very strong, with a full possessive desire.

I have never seen him like this before.

After kissing for a long time, he finally let go of me. I saw his bloody earlobes. God knows how much courage he had just plucked up.

I looked at him foolishly. This school grass-level male god is very pleasing to the eye no matter how you look at it.

"What's wrong with you?"

Yan Yi's eyes dodged, like a child who did something wrong.

"No... I just miss you."

He joined a key project team as the director and has been working overtime recently, so he can't send me most of the time.

The sound he said when he was like a soft feather shaving against my heart.

15.

We stayed on the rooftop for more than ten minutes, and he went to work overtime.

I was going to the cafe to meet Song Yiyan later, but I didn't tell him about it.

I was late, and Song Yiyan was already sitting there in the cafe.

From what we know that whenever we go on dates, I arrived earlier than him, which is the first time that I have been on an unprecedented date.

As soon as I sat down, Song Yiyan's eyes fell on my lips. His eyes flashed, and the micro-expression on his face became unfriendly.

"Are you with Yan Yiyu?"

He had asked me this question last time. Why, does he think we have broken up this month?

I responded firmly, "Yes."

Unexpectedly, Song Yiyan became irritable, he frowned, and his words became louder.

In my heart, Song Yiyan has always been a person who does not show his emotions. His emotions have always been hidden very well, and he is cold and indifferent.

Back then, I was also fascinated by his personality.

"Luo Qing, what happened in the villa that time was a misunderstanding.”

misunderstanding? Where did the misunderstanding come from?

I reminded him, "Manager Song, we are here to discuss the project today." The name

made him stagnate.

I was a little irritable just now, and suddenly I felt a little disappointed.

Song Yiyan lowered his eyes, "Luo Qing, do you have to be so cold to me?"

When talking about this word, he should have a deeper understanding than me.

I have been chasing him for so many years, and Song Yiyan's attitude towards me has always been cold.

The first time I saw him was so sad.

The sadness is engraved into my bones. When Xu Feifei went abroad, I didn’t see Song Yiyan’s eyes like this.

At this moment, he seemed to have been abandoned by the whole world.

He was my whole life, so every subtle expression and every emotional change in me deeply penetrated into my heart.

Over time, it becomes a habit.

He frowned and I could guess what he was thinking.

It's ridiculous to want it. In the past nine years, I have lived myself as an accessory to Song Yiyan.

16.

Later, my best friend asked me if I still miss him.

is not moved at all, that is fake.

I have liked him for so many years, and Song Yiyan has long been a habit for me.

But not loving him, it was not the impulse at that moment.

Perhaps it has already saved up enough in those years of disappointment.

I still remember when I was in college, there was a Keigo Higashino drama touring in Shanghai. Song Yiyan always wanted to watch it, but it was hard to buy it.

I stayed for several nights to check my tickets and finally got my order.

That night, I dressed up and waited for him at the entrance of the theater.

waits from six o'clock to eleven o'clock.

It turned out that night was Xu Feifei's birthday, and they went to KTV. Afterwards, he told me lightly that the KTV was too noisy and I didn’t hear the ringtone of the phone.

This is probably the one who is favored, so you are not afraid of being afraid.

His parents divorced very early, and Song Yiyan grew up with his grandparents since childhood. Every year when his grandmother celebrates her birthday, I will knit a sweater and send it to her, just to fulfill her filial piety for him.

And this year, I didn't do that.

Today's atmosphere is really not suitable for discussion work, so I got up and left.

Unexpectedly, Song Yiyan chased after him.

He reached out and blocked my way.

"Grandma called me a few days ago and asked me about your recent situation."

I saw a trace of expectation in his eyes, and the position of 's heart was pulled.

Just as I was about to speak, I looked behind him and saw Yan Qiyu waiting there.

It turns out that he knew I was here and was waiting for me.

's emotions that have nowhere to rest have finally been soothed.

I said to Song Yiyan, "Say hello to my grandma, I will take time to call her in a few days."

said, and I pointed at Song Yiyan and signaled to leave.

I didn't expect that he grabbed my wrist and just faced Yan Yiyu in front of him.

I looked at Song Yiyan, but I felt Yan Yiyu coming over behind me.

Song Yiyan's Adam's apple rolled, his lips twitched.

"Luo Qing, I regret it."

17.

In this regard, Song Yiyan has absolute confidence. He probably didn't expect that I would reject him.

Before, I heard him say such words, I would have cried with joy.

But in the end, I broke free from his hand.

"Song Yiyan, not every time I look back, I will stand in place. It has passed between us."

said these words, I felt particularly relaxed.

In nine years, almost occupied most of the youth, which can be easily removed.

I also thought about it later that I may have more obsession with Song Yiyan. He is the person I fell in love with from the beginning and my initial longing for love.

Maybe I didn’t love him anymore, but I just couldn’t pass my own level.

I should thank Xu Feifei for letting me sort out all this.

Yan Yiyu didn't ask me about Song Yiyan, nor did I ask him why he was at the entrance of the cafe. Regarding this matter, I think we should have had a tacit understanding.

got downstairs at home. I just got out of the car. Before Yan Yiyu drove away, I knocked on his car window.

"Today is the weekend. Do you want to go to my house to sit?"

His ears suddenly turned red.

The hands that were originally placed on the steering wheel began to touch everywhere, and I knew he was nervous.

, Yan Yi mentioned it before, want to see the parents.

I don’t agree, it’s just that my parents have been worried about my parents for a long time, and I don’t want them to worry about me anymore.

made this opinion on an impulse, but I also felt that it was time for my parents to see him.

18.

arrived at the door of his house, and Yan Yiyu stood still.

I turned to look at him, and the expression on my face had not changed much, but fine beads of sweat had appeared on my forehead.

It's been November now, and he doesn't wear much.

He grabbed me before I was about to open the door.

"Wouldn't it be bad if I come here empty-handed?"

I smiled and said, "Then you think it clearly. If you missed this time, I don't know when I will have another chance in the future."

Yan Yu took a deep breath, as if he was cheering himself up.

I took him home, and my parents were really stunned. In their perception, I seemed to be still pestering Song Yiyan.

That night, my dad opened a bottle of red wine that he had treasured for a long time. I persuaded him several times and said that Yan Yiyu was driving here, but he had already put all the wine glasses up.

Although my dad didn't say it, I could tell that he was very happy.

They always felt that I would be trapped in that vicious circle and couldn’t get out, and now I’m starting a new life.

Knowing that we graduated from the same university and now in the same company, my father's chattering was completely opened. After dinner, he pulled Yan Yiyu to chat for a long time.

When they finished chatting, it was almost 12 o'clock.

He couldn't drive after drinking, and my mother felt it was too late to go back, so she insisted that Yan Yiyu stayed.

And my family has two rooms in total, one for my parents and one for me.

Yan Yiyu took a shower and came to my room, his face and neck were still red.

I don’t know how much alcohol they drank, Yan Yiyu always beats the air when walking.

I looked at him and found it a little funny.

"How about you sleep on the bed, I sleep on the sofa."

The sofa in my room is not big, he is only 9 meters tall, so he shouldn't be safe when he falls asleep.

I got up from the bed and wanted to give him the place.

When he passed by Yan Yiyu's side, he grabbed my arm.

He hugged me and rolled onto the bed with me in his arms, and his body pressed on me.

19.

The smell of alcohol on him is very strong, and it seems that he is really drunk, otherwise Yan Yiyu would never have been so bold.

He closed his eyes and almost stuck with my face.

His arms wrapped around my waist and wrapped me in his arms.

I pushed him, "Yan Yiyu, you are drunk."

Yan Yiyu withdrew his arms and hugged me tighter.

His face was buried in my neck, and his hot breath sprayed on my skin.

Somehow, my heartbeat started to speed up.

I turned my head and pushed him again, "Yan Qiyu, please let me go."

Unexpectedly, he not only refused to let go, but also muttered, "That night, you asked me to borrow half of the bed, and today you borrow half of me."

He said so comfortably, but it made me bump into the deer.

The breathing sound in his ears is getting heavier and heavier, Yan Yiyu should be asleep.

I calmed down for a long time and turned to look at him.

His eyelashes are long, his eyebrows are thick, and his facial features are clear.

Yan Yiyu always looks cold outside, but in front of me, she is as childish as a child. What’s different from Song Yiyan is that no matter when, he will take care of my emotions.

After coming to my house, Yan Yiyu took me back to his house not long after.

His parents are very enthusiastic and are not good to me. I think so, because he has such a personality, he must have a very good family.

We have been together for less than half a year, but the parents of both sides have actually started urging them to get married, which has made Yan Yiyu and I very upset.

20.

After that cafe, Song Yiyan didn't appear in my sight for a while, and the ones who connected with my project were all replaced.

I thought he would give up because in my relationship with Song Yiyan, we have never been equal.

He has been enjoying my efforts and initiative. He has lost such a sense of superiority and will definitely not be able to adapt.

But I didn't expect that he would be so persistent.

More than half a month later, Song Yiyan suddenly started calling me every day, and would appear downstairs from time to time.

He lost a lot of weight and his dark circles were also very heavy.

That day I went home by myself. As soon as I arrived at the door, Song Yiyan came out of nowhere and grabbed my hand.

The moment I saw him, I was stunned.

He used to be handsome, but now he looks decadent.

He told me that he resigned.

Song Yiyan grabbed my hand and kept saying, "Luo Qing, can you stop being angry with me?"

being angry?

Did he think that after so long, what I did was just annoyed with him?

I threw away Song Yiyan.

"I have said it many times, I have a boyfriend. Song Yiyan, wake up."

His condition today surprised me.

I never thought that this would have such a big impact on him.

I always thought that in Song Yiyan's heart, I have always been dispensable.

He was silent for three minutes, staring at me dumbly.

I even feel that the person in front of me is a little strange.

I think, Song Yiyan might just be unable to swallow this.

After a while, he suddenly squatted down with a look of pain.

I retreated and frowned and looked at him.

"What's wrong with you?"

seems to be a stomach disease.

I wanted to hit 120, but Song Yiyan stopped me. He asked me to take him home and just have a rest.

I thought about it, but there was no reason to refuse.

Although he and I are already in the past, as a classmate, I can’t watch him like this. I hesitated for a while and took him back to the apartment.

21.

But this is the decision I regret the last time.

When I arrived at the apartment, I poured him a cup of hot water and prepared to leave, but Song Yiyan changed his painful appearance just now, blocked me, and locked the door.

"What are you going to do?"

I realized something was wrong. When I took out my phone, I was taken away by him.

I began to be scared.

I never knew that Song Yiyan had such a side.

I scrambled for a while, and Song Yiyan took out a rope and tied me to the chair.

I couldn't calm down for a long time and looked at him in shock.

Song Yiyan squatted down and looked at me affectionately.

"Luo Qing, do you have to be so cruel to me?"

At this time, Song Yiyan made me feel strange and scared, and my voice began to tremble.

"Song Yiyan, what exactly are you going to do?"

He touched my hair with his hand, and I subconsciously avoided it, but his hand stayed there.

His eyes became darker little by little.

"It's been nine years, how could you turn to the arms of other men so quickly? Luo Qing, you are too cruel!"

He almost shouted out the last few words.

Tears were rolling in my eyes, I had never encountered such a thing before.

I forced myself to calm down and said to him, "It's over between us, Song Yiyan, it's been nine years, you didn't give me any response."

Song Yiyan was anxious. He grabbed his hair, stood up, and walked around the room.

I looked around and saw if there was anything that could untie the rope. On the coffee table not far away, there was a small fruit knife.

At this time, Song Yiyan suddenly turned around, he grabbed my shoulder, and his attitude became humble.

"Can't I regret it? Luo Qing, let's start over."

I asked back, "What about Xu Feifei? Isn't you always like Xu Feifei?"

22.

Song Yiyan frowned, "Don't mention her."

I was very scared, but I also knew that I couldn't stimulate him now.

Song Yiyan is no longer rational, otherwise how could he do such a thing?

I tried to divert his attention.

"The person you like has always been a senior sister, you never like me."

Just as Song Yiyan was about to calm down, my phone ringtone rang, and it was Yan Yiyu who called it.

He turned his head and looked at the caller ID on the phone screen, and his emotions broke out of control again.

He smashed my phone and turned around and said fiercely, "You are mine, you used to be, and now you are!"

After saying this, he locked me alone in the room.

I am very familiar with him here. I often come to his apartment, but now I feel extremely strange and fearful.

I would never have thought that Song Yiyan would become like this.

I was tied to a chair and my mood became lower and lower.

Thinking of his fierce appearance just now, he was still a little scared.

I can't help but think about those nine years, how devoted I was to Song Yiyan.

Now think about it, how ridiculous this relationship is.

Because I like him, I even helped him give advice to chase Xu Feifei. Help them book movie tickets and search for date locations online.

In front of Song Yiyan, I played the clown who has been playing for so many years.

In fact, I may not like him for a long time. What I can't let go of over the years is just my persistence.

Maybe it was Yan Yiyu's appearance that saved me.

He let me know that feelings require two people to pay, and no matter how enthusiastic one person is, it is useless.

He filled my heart with holes and made me feel the feeling of being cared about.

I fell in love with Song Yiyan. I was 17 years old. It took me 9 years to give up on him, and it never happened overnight.

23.

I fell to the ground with my chair, crawled over and picked up the fruit knife.

cut off the rope on his hand, scratched his palm, leaving a lot of blood.

When I opened the window and lay down from the second floor, my hands and feet were shaking.

But I dare not think about what else Song Yiyan would do if he didn't run away.

I ran desperately. When I got home, I saw Yan Yiyu who was anxious to come out to find me.

At that moment, my hanging heart was finally able to rest.

When he saw that I was in a mess and my hands were covered in blood, his voice changed.

I noticed his nervousness and concern.

Finally, with my parents' insistence, I still called the police.

The police came to my door and asked a few questions before leaving. During this period, Yan Yiyu was always by my side.

As for how Song Yiyan was going on later, I didn't ask and didn't want to know.

He is my youth, no matter what the ending is, it is my own choice.

I never hate him. It is not wrong to not love someone.

I just hope to live the life I want in the next days.

On the first anniversary of Yan Yiyu's relationship, he proposed to me.

The marriage proposal ceremony was extremely grand. He invited all my friends and parents, and set up a surprise in the city center without telling me.

On the big screen on Nanjing Road, each photo of the two of us is placed.

Yan Yiyu was wearing a decent black suit and knelt in front of me with a diamond ring in his hand.

He said that he would treat me well for the rest of his life and give him a chance.

I nodded.

When he held me into his arms, Yan Yiyu attached himself to my ear and said.

"Luo Qing, I love you, far earlier than you thought.”

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