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Before the epidemic, I felt that the epidemic was quite far away from me. In January 2021, Wuhan, because of the new crown When the pneumonia epidemic began to lock down the city; although I saw various reports on the Internet, I caught a cold because of taking a shower on New Year's Eve, and later had a fever, but I was not panic at all, because I am a stay-at-home person, and I felt that as long as I did not go out, I would not be infected.
After the Spring Festival in 2021, the epidemic in Zhejiang began to become serious. Delivery workers in my community could not come in and out at will, which made me feel a little inconvenient.
I have ankylosing spondylitis, which hurts my waist. I am basically bedridden 24 hours a day. Because my legs and feet often hurt, I don’t go out. I buy all my daily necessities online.
Delivery people and couriers can't deliver to the community. For people like me who have to buy things online every day, it's really inconvenient. Fortunately, it happened to be the Chinese New Year. I still stocked up a lot of food and drink before the year, so the community closure shouldn't last long.
Things are pretty much what I expected. In about half a month, takeaways and couriers will be able to deliver goods to my door. Although I have been living on instant noodles and an egg for several days in the past ten days, I don’t think it’s a big problem. Anyway, I’m not hungry.
With this experience in the closed community, I started to have the habit of stocking up. I must have a pack of unopened salt, a 400ml small bottle of oil, a bag of sugar, about 5 pounds of rice, some instant noodles, mushrooms in meat sauce, pickles, mustard core oil, braised spring bamboo shoots and other side dishes that are ready to eat out of the bag.
To be honest, apart from the habit of stocking up and buying various kitchen supplies, my life has not changed much in the past three years since the outbreak, because I am a person who never leaves home.
Because of ankylosing spondylitis, I have complications. My heart is not very good, and I have chest tightness and shortness of breath. The year before last, I was hospitalized because of a bad heart, so I have not been injected with the vaccine .
Because I haven’t been out for a long time and haven’t been in contact with people, I started to suffer from social anxiety. When I go to crowded places, I will gasp and feel like I can’t breathe, and my legs and feet are not very good. I don’t go out anyway, so I have never done a nucleic acid test .
I am not in good health, and the police in my community also know that I have not been vaccinated or tested for nucleic acid. They know my physical condition and have not forced it on me!
In May 2022, my city experienced a round of epidemic. It was closed down and the whole city came to a standstill. Downstairs, I could hear community workers calling for nucleic acid tests every day, and my mobile phone also received notifications for nucleic acid tests.
In those days, our entire city was required to do nucleic acid tests every day for five consecutive days. I also tried to go downstairs to do nucleic acid tests, but when I saw people queuing up so densely, I broke out in cold sweat, turned pale, and kept vomiting. The landlord saw me like this and didn't dare to let me queue up anymore.
At that time, I would want to take a nucleic acid test. There is a very important reason. I read on the Internet that not taking a nucleic acid test will be considered a crime. As a law-abiding citizen, I am afraid. Even if there is fear in society, I don’t want to be a criminal!
Because I still didn’t do the nucleic acid test, I was still a little afraid that I had really committed a crime. I consulted my community police officer on WeChat. The police officer comforted me: "I know your situation. It’s okay. You don’t go out. If you need to do the nucleic acid test, we can ask the staff to come to do it."
In the end, I chose not to do the nucleic acid test.
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I moved in July last year. I chose a one-bedroom, one-living house with a balcony, a kitchen, and a first-floor apartment. I used to live in a single apartment. Although it had one bedroom and one living room, it didn’t have a kitchen. I could only cook some instant noodles and some stews, but couldn’t cook stir-fries, so I ate takeout most of the time, which was even worse for me who was already in poor health.
After moving to a new home, I bought more small kitchen appliances. Because I only had a small refrigerator, so in order to stock up on food, I bought a small freezer.
There seemed to be no autumn in our city last year. Other cities started to get colder. Our high temperature was still in the 20s. On November 27, the temperature dropped suddenly. It was 28℃ the day before and 5℃ the next day.
Because the temperature difference was too big, my physical condition was not very good. I suddenly fell ill with a cold, and a day later I had a fever and a cough. Although I had a fever, I didn't panic because I didn't go out to buy takeout or express delivery (all of which were nucleic acid tested), and I was also disinfected.
The fever subsided in three days, but the cough was intermittent and lasted for many days. On December 5 last year, Zhejiang fully relaxed its policies. I was not very worried, but there were fewer and fewer people chatting under my window sill. Everyone was still wary of the restrictions.
Later, when I saw many people saying that they were positive on the headlines, I was still thinking, was it just a matter of popularity? Before it was opened, there were very few people saying they were positive on the headlines. How come so many people were positive once it was opened?
Unexpectedly, a few days later, someone in the group said that he had a cold, fever, and felt positive. He took the antigen test and got two lines. Then, more and more people came to the group with positive symptoms, which made me a little panicked.
I live alone with no one to take care of me, and I haven’t stocked up on medicines. My Ibuprofen , Lotus Qingwen, Compound Licorice Tablets and other medicines are what I always have on hand. I often have colds and fevers, and I don’t have any antigens at all. I started trying to buy the antigen online, but couldn't find it.
03.
I had a cold a few days ago, but I didn’t take it seriously. On the morning of the first five days, after breakfast, I was fine. After a while, I felt my throat was itchy and wanted to sit up and cough.
Before I could do it, I coughed badly, and something happened that made me feel very ashamed. Because it was too late, I coughed and leaked and peed on the bed.
The cough became more and more serious. I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. As a result, I almost vomited out my lungs and all the breakfast I had eaten.
It wasn’t until all the contents in my stomach were vomited that I felt a little more comfortable. After taking a shower, I felt a little more awake. Thinking about my embarrassing actions before, I had to clean up the mess quickly!
I changed the quilt cover and threw it into the washing machine to soak. For someone as big as me, I leaked urine. To be honest, I felt quite embarrassed. But at that time, I had already started to feel faint and had a fever, so I fell asleep without thinking about it.
After sleeping for a while, I felt like coughing again. I was afraid that something embarrassing would happen to me again, so I thought about getting up quickly, but my cough came faster than the thoughts in my mind, and I coughed again and leaked urine.
Well, to be honest, at that time, my limbs were weak, my whole body was sore, and my temples were so swollen that I really didn’t want to move at all, but it was impossible to continue lying like this. I had no choice but to grit my teeth and get up and take care of myself.
After I packed up, freshened up, and changed my clothes, I felt like I was going to be paralyzed. When I was chatting with a few classmates, one of my classmates mentioned the embarrassment of leaking urine after giving birth.
I was secretly glad that after giving birth, I listened to my mother’s advice and did postpartum repair exercises. I didn’t have any urinary leakage after giving birth, otherwise it would have been too inconvenient to go out.
I didn’t expect that after I became masculine, I would have such an embarrassing thing as leaking urine because I kept coughing. When it happened on the first day, I didn’t know if I was confused because of the fever. I didn’t think about buying diapers. I only thought about changing the sheets. [face covering]
The embarrassing things that day continued. Although I kept reminding myself to be careful and careful, and even put a sanitary napkin on myself, it was inevitable that I still leaked urine because I coughed too much.
I have a total of four sets of sheets at home, and I used them all that day. I was so embarrassed that I suddenly thought that I should search online to see if there is any good way to treat urine leakage.
I consulted a doctor online, and the doctor said: has symptoms of urine leakage when coughing, which is also called stress urinary incontinence. It can be treated with traditional Chinese medicine or pelvic floor muscle training. Traditional Chinese medicine mainly involves acupuncture at acupuncture points such as Guanyuan, Daheng, and Dahe to strengthen local muscle strength.
Because sometimes nighttime sanitary napkins still cause leakage, so I can only go online to buy adult diapers. I have always been in a daze after becoming impregnated.
It seems that after I became masculine, the only good thing is that my sleep has improved a lot. I used to have insomnia and could not sleep for more than 30 hours. Now I feel like I am 24 hours a day, and I am asleep for at least fifteen or six hours.
I also put on adult diapers so that I could sleep peacefully, regardless of whether I was still coughing when I fell asleep. I could only comfort myself and experience the days when I could no longer take care of myself and could only wear diapers.
Today is the fifth day since I became positive. I still have no appetite, my limbs are still weak, I still have a headache, I still feel cold, I still have a fever, I still leak urine when I cough, and I still wear diapers.
I hope that I will get better soon, no longer have a fever, no longer cough, can lie in bed comfortably instead of lying in bed in fear wearing diapers, and return to my previous peaceful life.
