- Pan Suisui's ex-husband Cui Xun died on his way to the capital to take the exam.
- More than ten years later, Cui Xun, who was terminally ill, said to Pan Suisui, I have been thinking about you all these years, are you okay?
- Pan Suisui smiled and asked, who are you?
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1.
The weather in June is like a girl pregnant with spring.
Pan Suisui walked out of the grocery store, looked at the turbulent sky, turned around and hurriedly moved the items from the door of the grocery store into the house.
Before everything was collected, a group of people walked in. The woman headed by
was wearing a jade ring and looked very noble. There were several maids and women behind her.
The narrow shop was quickly packed.
Pan Suisui glanced at the visitor's clothes and frowned. Looking up, he saw an exquisite face.
Pan Suisui's eyes seemed to be stung, and they suddenly retracted.
Taking a deep breath, Pan Suisui raised a smile: "Ma'am, are you here to avoid the rain? Please sit wherever you want. The store is small and there is nothing to entertain."
The woman stared at Pan Suisui with a heavy gaze for a long time, then lightly opened her red lips: "I am Wen Shuyuan, the wife of Cui Shangshu, and I am also the daughter of Wen, the prime minister of the current dynasty."
Pan Suisui opened her mouth wide, and it took a long time to recover, and saluted with a look of fear: "I have met Mrs. Cui."
There was no trace of fear in his eyes.
Wen Shuyuan's eyes became colder: "My husband's surname is Cui Mingxun, from Xinye County . It is said that he once had a wife whose surname was Pan and whose name was Suisui."
Pan Suisui paused, patted the dusty hem of his clothes, and stood up straight with an expressionless face.
"So, madam, what do you mean?" Pan Suisui stopped pretending and said calmly.
Wen Shuyuan looked at the woman in front of her who was clothed in civilian clothes and had a hairpin. Even though time had stained her with wind and frost, she still couldn't hide the amorous feelings in the corners of her eyes.
Her hands were roughened by life, but her straight back did not make anyone feel the humbleness of a city woman.
Wen Shuyuan felt that even though she was dressed in fine clothes, this woman wearing only a coarse cloth skirt was not even inferior to her in magnanimity.
Pan Suisui watched Wen Shuyuan stare at her with a scrutinizing gaze for a long time without speaking, frowned, and asked repeatedly: "So, what is the purpose of Madam coming here?"
Wen Shuyuan seemed to wake up from her daze, and waved her hand to let the many servants exit.
Wait for people to retreat under the eaves.
Wen Shuyuan sat down on the wooden chair in the corner of the room: "It seems that you are doing well without Cui Xun."
Pan Suisui walked over and sat on the chair next to Wen Shuyuan, poured her a cup of hot water and poured himself a cup. After taking a sip, he said: "I also think I am doing well, so please don't disturb me, madam."
Wen Shuyuan's face became darker and she said coldly: "Cui Xun is sick."
Pan Suisui took a small sip of water and did not answer.
Wen Shuyuan's voice rose a bit: "I said, Cui Xun is sick."
Pan Suisui raised his head and said in a nonchalant manner: "What does it have to do with me?"
Obviously, this sentence choked Wen Shuyuan.
After a long while, she spoke again: "He wants to see you."
"No." This time, Pan Suisui answered very simply.
Wen Shuyuan's face froze, and after a long pause, she sighed softly and asked, "Do you hate him?"
Pan Suisui lowered her eyes. After a moment, she raised her head again and stared at Wen Shuyuan, saying word by word: "I used to hate him, but I don't hate him anymore."
Wen Shuyuan looked stunned.
After a long time, she said with difficulty: "Cui Xun has been thinking about you."
Wen Shuyuan thought she would see pride, disdain or pity on Pan Suisui's face.
however, nothing.
Pan Suisui said calmly: "Madam, you are joking."
At this moment, the things that had been blocked in Wen Shuyuan's heart for many years were released.
It started to rain outside.
The big raindrops fell down bit by bit, making a crackling sound.
Pan Suisui stood up quickly and hurriedly walked out the door, muttering softly as he walked: "It's over, it's over, I haven't finished collecting the goods yet."
Wen Shuyuan looked at Pan Suisui at this moment, who was full of market energy.
Such market energy made her look particularly bright and light for no reason.
It was like, a passing
Yes, just live.
Wen Shuyuan breathed a sigh of relief and walked slowly outside the house.
The moment she passed by Pan Suisui, she said softly: "I will come again. "
2.
Moved all the remaining things outside the house back to the shop one by one, and Pan Suisui breathed a sigh of relief.
Wen Shuyuan had already left, and her maid had also retreated cleanly.
But her fragrance seemed to still linger in the room.
It was a fragrance that was more fragrant than the county magistrate's wife.
Pan Suisui sniffed and turned to look at the rain outside.
The rain is getting heavier.
She looked at the rain curtain, a little dazed.
How many years has it been since she heard Cui Xun's name? Ten years, or fifteen years?
Cui Xun was once a scholar and her husband, Pan Suisui.
is just a cliché It’s just a drama about Chen Shimei.
She stayed in Xinye County, looking forward to her husband's return every day, and praying for her husband's safety every day.
Her husband is indeed safe and smooth.
He was the top scholar in high school and married the eldest daughter of the prime minister of the dynasty. He was very famous for a while.
Ten days before the good news was delivered to the Cui family, Cui Xun's divorce letter had arrived.
He buried all the past for the sake of his future.
not only doesn’t want her, he also doesn’t want his three-year-old son.
How embarrassed she was when she took the child away, it was as much hatred as she felt in her heart at that time.
However, God closed this door, but opened another window for her.
“Daughter-in-law, why are you standing at the door? Be careful of the rain splashing your clothes. "A loud voice woke up Pan Suisui.
When Pan Suisui raised her eyes, she saw Cheng Zhi who was soaked all over.
As she let Cheng Zhi enter the house, she complained: "It's raining so heavily, and I don't know how to avoid it. How can I get soaked like this? "
Cheng Zhi motioned for her to enter the house, and said with a smile: "Daughter-in-law, bring me some clothes first. There is no one around now, so I will change here quickly before going in, so as not to make the house dirty.
Pan Suisui glared at him: "What's more important, people or dead things?"
Cheng Zhi did not argue with her, but pushed her: "Go, go, go, my body and bones are fine." "
Pan Suisui knew that this man was always persistent, so he hurriedly entered the shop, went around to the back room to get a set of clean clothes, and then returned to the front door.
"Hurry up and change, I will make ginger soup for you. It's raining heavily, and there won't be any guests anymore, so you close the door for a while. "Pan Suisui warned carefully, turned around and walked to the backyard.
"Hey, okay. "Cheng Zhi promised very loudly.
Pan Suisui pursed his lips and smiled, feeling at ease.
Thirty-two days later.
It was another cloudless day.
Grocery store As soon as the door of the house was opened and Cheng Zhi had not gone out to hunt, Wen Shuyuan came.
Her carriage was parked in the distance and she walked into the shop alone.
Pan Suisui frowned slightly.
"What are you doing, madam?" "Pan Suisui stood in front of Cheng Zhi, with a hint of anger in her tone.
Wen Shuyuan did not answer, her eyes shuttled between the two, and finally fell on Cheng Zhi, and asked gently: "Who is this? "
Pan Suisui's hand hanging by her side tightened slightly and she replied calmly: "This is my husband-in-law.
After finishing her words, she turned around and said to Cheng Zhi softly with a smile: "Go quickly, I will introduce the goods of our shop to this lady." "
Cheng Zhi obviously felt something was wrong. He looked at Wen Shuyuan with fixed eyes, full of vigilance.
Pan Suisui smiled and pushed him again: "Go, go, I know this lady, you don't have to worry. I want to eat pheasant today, I don’t know if I will have such luck.
Cheng Zhi knew that he couldn't resist, so he reluctantly went out: "Daughter-in-law, I'm leaving then. If you have anything to do, go find the butcher Wang who sells pork next door. He and I have a life-long friendship.""
" Okay, ok, I'll just look at the shop at home. What can happen? Take care of yourself. Go early and come back early. "
3.
Seeing that Cheng Zhi's back was no longer visible, Pan Suisui turned back to look at Wen Shuyuan: "It's not appropriate for Madam to come here at this time.
Wen Shuyuan raised her eyebrows: "You don't want your husband to know my identity."
Pan Suisui replied calmly while tidying up the things in the shop: "Of course, I cherish my days now and don't want to cause trouble for nothing." But I really can't understand the madam's mentality.
Wen Shuyuan chuckled: "Initially, I wanted to see what kind of woman would make someone like Cui Xun never forget her." "
" I'm afraid the lady will be disappointed. "
" To be honest, when I first saw you from a distance outside the shop, I was thinking, how could such an ordinary woman make Cui Xun miss you for so many years? Looking closer, I feel a little more balanced. You are really good-looking, not only in appearance, but also in that magnanimity and pyrotechnics.
As Wen Shuyuan talked, she walked to the small table in the house and sat down, and poured herself a cup of tea.
"Until today, when we saw each other again, I suddenly felt that I seemed to understand Cui Xun's thoughts." I can't describe this feeling, but I just understand it. "
Pan Suisui paused for a moment, and then continued to fiddle with it while saying: "Madam is really good at talking. "
Wen Shuyuan sighed softly: "I know you don't believe me, and I don't need you to believe it. Pan Suisui, can you tell me about you and Cui Xun? "
Pan Suisui turned to look at Wen Shuyuan, her eyes full of confusion.
Wen Shuyuan smiled bitterly: "I have been married to him for more than ten years, and I have been in love with him for more than ten years. He never mentions you in front of others. If it weren't for the handkerchief embroidered with orchid grass and the "Lovesickness" sentence on a piece of paper that has been carefully stored for more than ten years, I'm afraid I wouldn't even know you. "
Pan Suisui lowered his eyes, his eyes seemed to be shrouded in smoke and he could not see his emotions clearly.
"He is sick now, quite seriously. I know he is thinking of you, and I can't help but come to see you. I also want to hear what happened between you two that could make him..." Wen Shuyuan did not continue.
Pan Suisui raised the corners of her lips at a slight angle and said sarcastically: "Madam, I am a businessman, and businessmen value profits. So, what do you want to buy my story for? "
Wen Shuyuan was stunned for a moment, and after a moment she slowly said: "Yinliang? Or jewelry?
Pan Suisui stared closely at the white jade hairpin on Wen Shuyuan's head, and said calmly: "Madam, just use that jade hairpin instead." "
When Wen Shuyuan heard this, she frowned tightly. She unconsciously reached out and touched the hairpin on her head: "This won't work. Can I use something else instead?" The bracelet on my hand? This is emerald , the color is much better than this hairpin. Or gold hairpins are fine, I still have quite a few.
Pan Suisui shook his head: "Madam, it's just that you can't bear it. Please go back." "
Wen Shuyuan bit her lip lightly.
She is a woman in her thirties, but she takes good care of herself. Her sad look is really endearing.
Pan Suisui didn't even look at it, minding her own business. It was time to get busy.
After a while, Wen Shuyuan followed Pan Suisui, took off the hairpin on her head, and handed it over reluctantly.
Pan Suisui looked at her with a half-smile: "Have you thought about it, madam? If you change this, you won't be able to go back.
Wen Shuyuan passed the hairpin in her hand forward: "If you want it, give it to you. Anyway, I got it from someone else." He didn't really give it. "
At the end, there was a hint of sadness.
Pan Suisui looked at her a few more times, took the hairpin, and then threw it to the ground.
With a "pop", the hairpin fell into pieces.
Wen Shuyuan stepped back in shock, then pointed at Pan Suisui and said angrily: "Pan Suisui! You dare! You broke my precious hairpin?
Pan Suisui smiled very brightly: "Well, didn't Madam use it to exchange stories?" Then it is mine, and it is my freedom to do with it how I want.What did Madam say? "
Hearing that Shuyuan was choked and speechless, she said after a while: "I thought you liked it..."
Pan Suisui said calmly: "I used to like it very much, but now I only hate it.
Wen Shuyuan was shocked: "Is this hairpin yours?" "
" was my mother's relic. When Cui Xun went to Beijing without any money, I pawned it. I was very reluctant to part with it at the time, but I thought it was great to be able to exchange it for some silver. Do you think I'm ridiculous? "Pan Suisui looked indifferent, as if telling someone else's story.
Wen Shuyuan felt depressed after seeing it.
"Don't you want to hear a story? Sit down, I'll make a pot of tea. I don't have many guests at this time, so I'll tell you this story. I hope Madam will not regret it after hearing this. "
4.
When the sun rose, the heat of June rolled in.
Pan Suisui moved the tables, chairs and wooden stools to the corridor, boiled a pot of tea, and then spoke softly.
She and Cui Xun were childhood sweethearts.
Her father was the only scholar in the town, and Cui Xun was his favorite student.
When Cui Xun was not selected as a scholar, her father arranged a marriage for them. tml8
Her father said that Cui Xun is not the best in the pool, and she must support him wholeheartedly.
She listened, believed it, and used it as a guideline from then on.
The early death of her mother made her a little more mature than ordinary people. She had already had other thoughts about Cui Xun in her father's daily chatter.
When she was seventeen, her father suddenly became seriously ill and handed her over to Cui Xun.
At that time, Cui Xun had a breeze in his sleeves and his family was bare.
But she was full of joy.
She was the only daughter in the Pan family. Before her father died, he handed over all the family property to her and told her to support each other as husband and wife.
On that day, my father passed away.
Cui Xun knelt in front of his soul and cried bitterly, and vowed that he would never let her down in the future.
Although she was sad in her heart, she calmed down again.
Cui Xun lost his father in his early years.
After that, her mother-in-law became weak and Cui Xun had to concentrate on her studies, so the burden of life fell on her.
Before getting married, she was also a girl who grew up pampered by her father.
She can read poetry, write, and embroider, but she can't make a fire and cook to earn money.
In the joy of the boudoir, the things she knows can make her husband treat her with special eyes.
But in the midst of daily necessities, the things she knows can only make her miserable.
Amid the ridicule of her mother-in-law, she learned to make a fire to cook, learned to read account books, and learned to use her limited dowry to earn more silver.
lived a difficult life, and a year later she became pregnant and gave birth to a son.
life is a little more difficult.
She suffered a lot from not being able to make ends meet.
She will argue with people over a penny, argue with people for a long time over a handful of vegetables, and give the meat seller an extra bone. He talks a lot of good things to people.
Cui Xun said, Pan Suisui, how come you have become so philistine and vulgar?
She just laughed, and at the end of the laugh she turned around and shed tears quietly.
But what can she do? The children at home are still crying for food.
When the child was one year old, Cui Xun was admitted as a scholar, and the family's life became a little better.
But only a little.
and then hospital examination , rural examination, general examination, and finally the palace examination.
Which item does not require money?
She spent all her dowry and savings and opened a grocery store on the street.
She is good-looking and has a sweet mouth. After the shop opened, business was very good.
Cui Xun didn't hear anything outside the window during those two years. As long as she could maintain a stable life, he didn't care about anything.
But just after Cui Xun passed the exam , he began to feel that she was embarrassing him by being in public, and ordered her to close the shop and concentrate on raising her son.
She felt bitter in her heart when she looked at the husband-in-law who had been sleeping with her for many years but became more and more unfamiliar to him.
She remembered what her father had said, and finally gritted her teeth and closed the shop.
Expenses for the whole family, expenses for returning gifts, expenses for socializing with colleagues, money is spent like water, and the money earned seems to be spent in the blink of an eye.
The day to rush for the exam has arrived.
Since there was no money to pay, she had no choice but to grit her teeth and sell the white jade hairpin her mother had left for her, and then piece together some more here and there. After
had collected enough expenses, he turned around and told Cui Xun to be careful on the road with a smile.
has never been seen again.
"He Lishu was given to me back then, and I regard him as dead." After saying this, Pan Suisui took a sip of tea.
She looked calm and relaxed. If it weren't for the red corners of her eyes, Wen Shuyuan would have thought she was telling someone else's story.
Wen Shuyuan had long known that Cui Xun betrayed Pan Suisui in order to marry her.
also roughly understands the beginning and end of the story.
But now that I heard Pan Suisui say it in person, my heart was still heavy and I felt like I couldn't breathe.
Wen Shuyuan breathed a sigh of relief, took out a stack of banknotes from her sleeves, placed them on the coffee table, said no more, and stood up to leave.
"Wait a minute, madam, what do you mean by this?"
"Just think of me as repaying this debt for him many years ago." Wen Shuyuan said calmly.
Pan Suisui sneered: "You are an idiot and have no regrets."
Wen Shuyuan thought she was going to refuse, so she said again: "Although money can't atone for his sins, I feel that such compensation is still necessary."
Pan Suisui picked up the banknotes and passed them one by one.
ten thousand taels. There are quite a few
, but not much.
"Then thank you madam. The past and the past are all just smoke and mirrors, so it's fitting that they complement each other."
Wen Shuyuan turned back in surprise: "You..."
Before she could say anything, she was interrupted by a clear voice.
"Mom, are you in a good mood today? Why are you sitting on the porch drinking tea?"
Wen Shuyuan looked around and saw a boy of eighteen or nineteen years old walking hurriedly towards this side.
Wen Shuyuan suddenly remembered the child in the story, and her expression was shocked.
Pan Suisui had already stood up and said quietly to Wen Shuyuan: "Madam, it's time to go."
Wen Shuyuan's expression was stagnant, but it returned to normal in an instant, and she walked towards her carriage unhurriedly.
"Mom, who is this lady?" The young man's voice was full of doubts.
"It's just a guest. Why are you back today? Come on, mother will prepare delicious food for you."
The conversation behind her came from far away, and Wen Shuyuan couldn't help but look back.
"Madam, the sun is too hot, why don't you call me slave?" The little girl trotted over with an umbrella.
Wen Shuyuan came back to her senses and smiled softly. She was really stunned.
5.
In the evening, Cheng Zhi brought back a pheasant and handed over all the money he got from hunting to Pan Suisui one by one.
Pan Suisui counted the coins seriously and narrowed his eyes with a smile.
Cheng Jin smiled: "Mom, you like money so much. How about I stop studying and learn to do business to earn money for you to spend?"
Pan Suisui replied with a smile: "Okay."
Cheng Jin and Cheng Zhi looked at each other and were stunned.
You must know that Pan Suisui wouldn't allow the two of them to have an affair in the past.
"Mom, what... happened to you today?" Cheng Jin asked anxiously.
Pan Suisui glared at them both: "It's not serious, right? If it's not serious, then I take back what I said."
"No, no, no, mother, take it seriously, take it seriously! Dad, help me find a master tomorrow, and I will learn the business with you." Cheng Jin was afraid that Pan Suisui would regret it, so he said immediately.
Cheng Zhi answered with a smile: "Okay, dad won't be going up the mountain tomorrow, so I'll go find someone to drink with."
Pan Suisui smiled and scolded Cheng Zhi: "I think you really want to drink."
Cheng Zhi laughed and didn't refute.
Pan Suisui looked at this, then that, and smiled very gently: "Ah Jin, mother suddenly figured it out. If you like to study, then study, if you like to do business, then do business, it's up to you. This person has to do a few things that he likes in his life. ."
"Mom, you're so kind. Dad, let's pack up the pheasants and make some soup for mom."
Pan Suisui looked at the two men walking away with a gentle expression.
Time flies by and disappears slowly like that.
has been a year in a flash.
On this day, Pan Suisui was sitting at the door of the shop knitting straw sandals.
Cheng Zhi likes to wear straw sandals when going up the mountain in the summer. Shoes are particularly expensive. When she has nothing to do, she thinks about knitting a pair that is thinner and stronger.
There is a big tree in front of the shop. The cicadas are chirping endlessly, which makes people feel a little restless.
Pan Suisui was knitting straw sandals, thinking that the weather was too hot, so she would send some iced watermelon to Cheng Jin's shop later.
After a while, he thought of the girl Cheng Jin mentioned again, and thought about letting someone test her. If it could be done, all kinds of etiquette would be prepared.
Suddenly, a shadow enveloped Pan Suisui.
Someone is coming.
Pan Suisui tied the knot in her hand and said with a smile: "Just take a look inside, guest officer. If you like anything, just tell me."
slowly raised his head as he spoke.
The next moment, the smile on Pan Suisui's face froze.
is him!
Cui Xun!
We met again after more than ten years. In my memory, the handsome man in green robes and long gown was always gray at the temples, his hair had grown prematurely, and his face was so skinny that he could not see the elegance he had back then.
But Pan Suisui still recognized him at a glance.
This figure was once engraved in her mind, rolling around day and night. She had loved and hated this person
. Until now, everything has come to nothing.
"Suisui, Suisui..." Cui Xun shouted several times excitedly.
Pan Suisui showed a fake smile: "What would you like, sir? My shop is small, so I may not have what you want."
Cui Xun smiled bitterly: "Suisui, I know you hate me, but I have... not had a good time these years."
Pan Suisui glanced at Cui Xun indifferently, then lowered his head to knit straw sandals.
Cui Xun sighed: "Suisui, I have been thinking about you all these years. Are you... okay?"
Pan Suisui raised his head and smiled very lightly: "Who are you? Do I know you?"
- To be continued -
