Three months later, he could no longer hide in Beijing, so he took advantage of the night to the educated youth to go to the train station. When he arrived outside the village, he saw a fire burning in the field. There was a very beautiful woman kneeling beside the fire. At a glance, he knew that she was also an educated youth, but in the past he had only nodded. At this moment, Qian Jun didn't know which relatives she was paying homage to in front of the pile of fire papers. When Qian Jun approached, he saw the big words "Qian Jun's Dead's Hundred Days of Memorial" clearly written in front of the woman. He was so scared that he said "Oh". The woman looked back and was almost scared to death. Then she suddenly realized everything in front of her. She covered her eyes with her hands and stood up and flew.
Qian Jun sat next to the pile of fire papers commemorating his undead for a long time, feeling a happiness that he had never had in his life - there was such a good woman thinking of him...
The woman later became his wife. They both took root and Qian Jun became a famous painter.
In a blink of an eye, more than ten years have passed. His wife gave birth to two girls for him. The eldest was in junior high school and the second was in elementary school. His life was very peaceful.
One day in 1988, Qian Jun went to the Nanqiaotou barber shop to get a haircut. He discovered the natural beauty of this girl with the eyes of a painter. In his opinion, the girl Xu Yun is an excellent piece of purebred body, and can be made into jade with just a little carving.
A full hour of haircutting, every cell of his cell was activated, his brain was extremely clear and excited, and his language was like Yangtze River Yellow River, surging endlessly. Their eyes met in the big mirror on the wall, and their hearts were quietly communicating with the impact of language.
Xu Yun was born in an ordinary working family. Because her academic performance is average and she has not taken the college entrance examination after graduating from high school, her parents have a background to let her find a way out. She will be like a certain way to get to the point of her in the future. Anyway, her family doesn't rely on her. When she gets married at the age, her parents will fulfill their obligations.
Since Xu Yun met Qian Jun, she suddenly felt that she had sat in a dry well in the past, unable to see the sky or the earth. It turned out that there was a life between heaven and earth as colorful as Qian Jun said.
In her spare time, Qian Jun was chewing a bubble gum in his mouth. He remembered that Xu Yun was a strange woman. The strange thing was that she had not suffered any trauma in her heart. She had neither the sensitivity, jealousy and imbalance of competing everywhere, nor the willfulness of being behind and not seeking progress. She had a gentle temperament and did not lose her own opinions. She was full of strong curiosity about everything, but had no extreme ambitions. Coupled with her beautiful figure and natural carved face, it is an excellent work of art in itself. He suddenly remembered that Xu Yun should be the seedling of a good actor, and it was a pity to go to the barber shop.
In the evening, Qian Jun rode his bicycle and rushed to the home of President Dong of the Municipal Art School. He recommended a student to President Dong. President Dong agreed to put Xu Yun in the dance class and treat him as a student in class.
The day before Xu Yun reported to the art school, she asked her to buy Qian Jun a gift according to her parents' wishes to thank him for his strong support. Xu Yun walked on the street with money in her hand for a whole morning. She didn't know what gift to buy Qian Jun to make him most satisfied and to express her wishes best. Later, she bought a square inkstone from the Four Treasures Store of the Study and sent it to Qian Jun's studio. Qian Jun placed the square inkstone on the desk and cherished it very much.
Qian Jun was 41 years old at the time, and Xu Yun was only 18 years old, which can be regarded as a standard friend of age.
One day, after she left, Qian Jun found a letter under the inkstone. He glanced at him and his heart was beating. In the letter, Xu Yun said that she loved him, and she would always love him no matter how much resistance she encountered. And said she would never destroy his family.
In order to avoid the development of the situation, Qian Jun always went out on weekends for a period of time and deliberately avoided her.
In a blink of an eye, it was time for Xu Yun to graduate, and Qian Jun indeed opened up the joints in the singing and dancing troupe. The singing and dancing troupe and the art museum are separated by a wall. Xu Yun frequently goes in and out of Qian Jun’s studio while performing. His colleagues always joke with Qian Jun: Your studio is so brilliant!
Xu Yun’s relationship with Qian Jun attracted Mrs. Long’s attention.
She did not do the housework as hard as she used to do.
The wind outside was getting louder and louder, and Qian Jun began to feel a kind of pain, unconsciously revealing his unhappy family life in front of Xu Yun. Xu Yun tried her best to take time to accompany him for a walk in the wild. Once the chances of are more, the two of them break through the last line of defense between men and women.
One day in 1992, Xu Yun insisted on Qian Jun going to her house for lunch, so Qian Jun made up a lie for his wife. After lunch, he spent the whole afternoon at Xu Yun's house. Xu Yun lived alone in a small room. When there was no one at home, he sat on the bed in the small room with Xu Yun. Later, they couldn't bear it anymore and had sex.
The door of the cottage was locked, but at this time, Xu Yun's mother came back from get off work and walked outside the cottage door and heard a strange sound inside, which was the sound that she, the person who had experienced, understood as soon as she heard it. The sound shocked her and made her face lose its blood. She stayed there for a long time, and later she ran out of the house and couldn't find any solution. She pounced on her head, pounded the door panel with both fists, and shouted, "Old Dragon, Lao Long, it's all good things you did. Now I'll hand over my daughter to you. Life is your man, death is your ghost, you can't be without responsibility!"
She fell down almost powerlessly, and then roared like a lion: "Get out, you all get out of here, don't go to my door, I didn't give birth to a daughter like you."
She forced the wooden door open and drove them away, Qian Jun looked embarrassed. He didn't know what to do in the future.
Xu Yun's mother is one year younger than him.
Qian Jun was unhappy and had no shame to walk into the Ye family's door for a whole month. Before the incident, he was a regular guest and guest of honor of the Ye family.
The wind quickly reached Mrs. Qian Jun's ears. After a fight between Mrs. Long, she became extremely calm again. She cried and said, "I know that there will be such a day sooner or later. At that time, I was unrequited and you pity me and sympathized with me, so we got together. Now that things have come to this point, you will do whatever you say, and I will fulfill you."
Qian Jun's heart suddenly hesitated. His wife had no credit and worked hard. She had been with him for many years. His fame and family was at the expense of his wife's time. How could he kick her? When she married herself, she was a yellow girl. Now that MILFs are old, she abandoned her. What's the reason? Where is the conscience? What's more, the two daughters are very cute. They are not only good at studying, but also very sensible. They always reconcile between him and his wife. I hope they don't have conflicts and don't have any unexpected situations.
At this moment, Qian Jun was discouraged.
Qian Jun has not been to Ye’s house for a long time. Xu Yun’s mother was afraid that Qian Jun would dump her daughter, so she sent Xu Yun to take Qian Jun over.
Xu Yun's mother's anger has long passed, and the fact that raw rice is made into mature rice has made her unable to change it. She cooked a delicious meal, prepared good wine, and said at the table: "Xu Yun is my only daughter, and it is reasonable. I can't let go, but I can't control it now. You are her father in terms of age, and you will be your daughter in the future. Treat her well. As long as you live a happy life, I will be happy when I die."
Qian Jun knew that this tone that was not blocked at all was putting pressure on him, which not only gave him no room for change, but also made him divorce his wife quickly. Of course Xu Yun was happy to hear it, Qian Jun complained secretly, why did he get this point in an instant?
Qian Jun has been silent during this period.
In terms of feelings, he patted his conscience and asked himself, it was voluntary that he had no intention of coaxing or playing with girls at all. It was entirely due to love to get to this point, and he really loved Xu Yun.
Thinking of the future, he will have such a beautiful girl as his wife, and he admires him to the point of being proud of him. Happiness is self-evident, and he believes that they have an emotional foundation. But in terms of facts, Xu Yun is only two years older than her eldest daughter. Not only her family opposes it, but even her daughter will not accept this fact.
He had envisioned a variety of solutions, but he could not bypass the iron fact: not getting married with Xu Yun was equivalent to deeply hurting this simple and kind girl, and getting married with her naturally betrayed his wife and children and became their eternal sinners. He would always be condemned by his conscience.
One night, he finally showed up to his wife.
He said, "Let's get divorced, you have pity for me."
"What conditions?" His wife answered surprisingly.
"I won't take a single chopstick from this house, I will leave it all for you. My monthly salary and bonus belong to you and your children as my compensation for this house."
"Writing an agreement is empty."
"I have written it."
The wife took over his agreement and saw that all the conditions were his only conditions, but one of them was that the divorce was not known for the time being. Before he and Xu Yun officially got married, he still had to live at home and asked his wife to give him face.
The wife wrote down her name without saying a word.
Qian Jun held this agreement and suddenly felt lost. The couple's love for many years disappeared.
, especially his wife signed generously. If she would rather die than sign and make a big fuss, his conscience would be calm, but her generosity would make him unable to admit this fact. Only when Xu Yun hugged him for a long time and was fascinated by his arms for a long time could she feel a little relaxed.
Knowing that Qian Jun and his wife were divorced, Xu Yun cried happily.
She cried for happiness.
Qian Jun will no longer blame himself too much for his original wife. In order to be responsible to Xu Yun to the end, he needs to cheer up and try his best to get the funds. He often thinks that Xu Yun can't marry him hastily. If you rent a farmer's house outside, then the shabby will make friends laugh and will be sorry for Xu Yun's parents. So he tried his best to paint, asking his friends to sell all his works and collections to Beijing, Shanghai, Guangdong and other places for money.
At this time, the Provincial Artists Association sent a notice, recommending Qian Jun to study at Yinchuan Painting Academy in Ningxia for one and a half years. During the study period, his salary will be paid and he will take care of other people.
Qian Jun read the notice and knew that the salary would be paid. He could comfort his ex-wife and children, and take care of himself, which undoubtedly increased his life burden.
At this moment, Xu Yun also came to Qian Jun with a page of notification, saying that the song and dance troupe also recommended that she wait for three actors to go to Beijing Song and Dance Academy to study for two years.
Qian Jun was very happy for a moment, but after thinking about it, both of them went to further study, one in Beijing and the other in Yinchuan. Not only was it difficult to take care of his life, but his financial burden was increased.
In 1993, there was a northern man selling balloon . His name was Qian Jun. He often goes out to sell balloons in his spare time, for himself and for his unmarried wife. He remitted 350 yuan to Xu Yun from the post office every month, and also asked for the remaining road fees and daily expenses. Selling balloons is very profitable, but they are often fined because there are no procedures. He simply rode a shabby bicycle to find a familiar painter, borrowed someone's territory and began to copy famous works by famous artists, trying his best to make the fake and sell them on the market for some pocket money.
Qian Jun's dormitory is getting dirty and dirty, and his life is getting more and more frugal. Her hair allowed her to develop, she rode a bicycle that didn't ring and ran around the streets, and she returned to the dormitory very late at night. She read Xu Yun's letter without washing her face, and then sat down to her and sent her back. She often slept at one or two o'clock in the morning.
Starting from the second semester, Xu Yun's letters gradually decreased, and the letters he came from changed from four or five pages to one or two pages, and later became half a page. She also said she was busy, she was annoyed, and she also said she was in a bad mood.
Xu Yun arrived in Beijing. In the first semester, everyone was not familiar with each other. They were all in love with Qian Jun. There were always endless words to write. At the beginning of the second semester, she suddenly felt: there was a big gap between her and Qian Jun. Her boys of the same age were so active in their minds and how similar their feelings about life were to her. Qian Jun was more and more like his father, and he considered things in life so meticulously and thoughtful. He treated her as a child. He was simply a mother-in-law and mother, endlessly.
If you think about it like this, you will have a fear. You will live with an old man who is rigid than your own thoughts. He regards himself as a teacher in everything. She admits his labor efforts, but can't stand his strong self-esteem. Whenever you see young people in pairs on campus together, she always wonders what kind of image she will be with Qian Jun.
Qian Jun always thought that the prices were soaring. Xu Yun’s 350 yuan was not enough, so he started sending 400 yuan every month. By the third semester, his income was in crisis, and the graduation works of the painter class were effective new works that were created during the internship period.
Qian Jun entered the most difficult historical period of his life. He often painted on hungry and generated income from exhaustion. In order to save money, he moved out of the single dormitory and lived in the large dormitory of an ordinary class, running non-stop every day.
Qian Jun returned to the unit six months earlier than Xu Yun. But he did not plan to work in his original unit because his salary could only be paid to his ex-wife and children, and his life and Xu Yun could not be solved. He asked his leader for a long vacation, but in fact he only had one month. He wanted to try to work in Shenzhen. When the leader saw that he was uneasy, he said: You might as well stop working and go outside to grab it and come back.
Qian Jun shook his head and couldn't speak, so he gritted his teeth and set off on the road.
However, during the time he returned from graduation, he only stayed at his ex-wife's house for one night, gave the children a comfort, and moved to the public office to live.
Xu Yun met a director Cai in the third semester.
She often compares Cai and Qian Jun, and there is a world of difference between them. Qian Jun is a simple and poor painter after all, while Cai is just in his early 30s and has extremely liberated thoughts and has made new breakthroughs in film art.
He is very rich, has a house, a car, and has a broad future for his career. He often goes to the Song and Dance Academy to discover talents. He doesn't like the charm of the women in the city. He likes the country girls who are as simple and natural as Xu Yun. It was because of this that Xu Yun was attracted by him that their relationship was heating up quickly.
Qian Jun went south to work and was in a bad mood. He received two letters from Xu Yun in succession, asking him to reconsider their relationship. She felt that there was a gully between them that was difficult to cross, but she felt that she could not speak because she owed him too much.
Qian Jun is a experienced person after all, and he is not panic and short of breath. He knows that changes in people change with the changes in the environment. He has cultivated people more into scholarly spirits in school, and in society, he has turned people more into philanthropy. He believed that when he turned himself into a rich man, his wife would still be extremely beautiful.
Aren’t those beauties hanging on big guys a good example? Besides, they have a deep relationship!
Qian Jun did not reply to her.
He stepped into the land of Shenzhen with a huge desire for money.
Shenzhen is a place where there is no pure art. All units that need painters are mostly for advertising design, but in fact they are mainly for advertising business. He waits for his own opportunities under the recruitment card every day, and his money is drawn one by one, and he gets less and less, and he becomes thinner and thinner. He couldn't see his own scaffolding and could not find his own place.
In early winter of 1995, Qian Jun's last night in Shenzhen, the only 500 yuan he had on his body was stolen by a thief and his ID card. He was furious and returned from the tickets all the way. He was driven out of the car three times on the way. He was so embarrassed that he never forgot his life.
The first thing Qian Jun did when he came back was to go to the studio to find Xu Yun’s letter.
According to his inference, at least three more letters were lying there, waiting for him to open it. However, only a thin pale envelope was thrown into the crack of the window, without any sense of peace.
He opened it and saw that the letter read: "I can't tell you against my conscience, I already have something else." The signature is "Xu Yun who will always make you hate you."
Qian Jun collapsed on the chair, unable to breathe for a long time.
I don’t know how long it took, but he felt cold all over, without any strength, and his feet and hands were constantly shaking. He remembered that he hadn't eaten anything for 26 hours. The bag also contained two clothes he bought for his ex-wife and two daughters.
Qian Jun finally stood at the door of his home where he had been in and out for decades. But he couldn't step in.
The house vaguely exudes his familiar and kindness. A faint ray of light emerged from the door, leaving his eyes nowhere to hide. When he pushed the door open, his wife sewed him the winter cotton jacket in front of the sewing machine. She had never seen the shining shining light on the reading glasses she had worn. There was no expression on her face, nor did she look at him, but she just stepped on the machine and made a loud noise.
My daughter is doing her homework under the same lamp. She didn't call him dad, but also pretended to be nothing.
Qian Jun said, "Mi'er, what are you writing?"
Mi'er replied in a panic: "I'm writing my winter vacation homework."
Qian Jun felt very uncomfortable. The winter vacation has not come yet, so he said that she was doing her homework during the winter vacation. Your mother hates me, you all hate me, a cold wind penetrated his entire backbone.
He moved his eyes to every corner of the room and found that the place where he used to put his big shoes and socks was occupied by his daughter and her mother's shoes. There is no smoke inside, no smell of men's sweat, no masculine garbage or traces of men. My wife's figure was a little hunched, and was pulled by the light, and stuck to the wall. It was a lonely painting.
That night, he walked into the kitchen to find something to eat, took a heart-wrenching bath by himself, climbed onto his wife's bed quietly, and slept.
That night, Xu Yun, who was far away in Beijing, was sleeping on the same Simmons bed with Cai. Xu Yun took off her naked, wrapping her arms around Cai's neck like two ropes made of flesh. They had a party in the middle of the night, and Cai received a call from his wife from Guangzhou in the middle of the night: She said that her son was sick and was in the hospital for treatment. Xu Yun suddenly lost interest. She asked Cai, didn’t you say, your wife is not good to you? Do you say you haven't had any contact for two years?
Cai turned over, Xu Yun refused to give up. When asked again, Cai said, "You are also a person with love experience. The emotional things can't be explained clearly in just one or two sentences."
Xu Yun was silent.
Several months later, Xu Yun, with the great pain of breaking up with Cai in Beijing, sent Qian Jun an urgent telegram: told her to arrive in Linyi at 6 pm on May 27, asking him to pick him up on time and prepare for marriage.
At around 1 a.m. on May 28, 1996, Qian Jun stabbed Xu Yun to death in the studio, called the police, then slowly lit a cigarette, spread the canvas and leisurely started his own painting...
The shadow of extramarital affair is rolling out the doors of more and more families. So what exactly does extramarital affair provide for men?
First of all, the feeling of youth. People usually think that only women care about their age, and in fact, men also care about whether they are still young, energetic and attractive. These things are also a kind of competitive capital for men. It’s just that their desire for eternal youth is much more secretive than that of women. Why do most men find young and beautiful beauties as lovers? They want to prove through this incident that they are still charming and should not be underestimated.
is secondly romantic. Many men emphasize that the reason why they fall in love with their lover is because she is gentle, beautiful and caring about themselves than their wives, which means they want to find a better woman.In fact, what men look for in lovers is the femininity, style, and style that is different from their wives. They like their partners to have a little mystery and temptation. Because their wives live together for a long time, they are already quite familiar with each other, and the lover just meets their psychological needs. Of course, there is also physiological satisfaction, which is undeniable. It is the biggest "reap" of men in extramarital affairs. There are certainly some men regard their lovers as better marriage partners, but this group of people accounts for a relatively small proportion.
Marriage in the era of extramarital affairs will be a priceless situation, causing modern men and women to fall into the vicious circle of gender relations. The marriage system is a legal constraint imposed by humans to ensure racial reproduction and social stability. Monogamy is recognized as the most civilized marriage system in history. If marriage is rejected, the history of human civilization will undoubtedly regress back to the wilderness of hybrids and group living. If we want to preserve our marriage and cannot be wronged by human childish love of the new and old, then what about polygamy or polygamy ? If only satisfying men, women will rise up and rebel; if only satisfying women, men will regard them as a great shame. If both genders enjoy equal treatment, the world will become a "paragraph" that has caught fire, and all men and women in the world will rise and fall in the sins. The ending is that human beings have lost their shame and the devastating disaster of civilization may be not far away.
