If it were not for life, who would be willing to abandon his wife and children and go to a foreign land? Perhaps this is the helplessness of life. In order to break up a few taels of silver and to support the family, we have to carry our luggage and go to a foreign land, giving up dignity just to win back face. After all, in front of life, we have no dignity, and in front of our wives and children, we need face because we are the pillars of the family.
"Cuihua, I'm going to go out to work. I have been staying at home in the past few years and can't make money. Seeing that our family's conditions are narrow and small, looking around, everyone in the village has built new houses, only our family is still the original old tile house." I said to my wife.
Wife Cuihua looked at me, hugged the child on her body, and said, "You decide for yourself. I can't make a decision for you. Anyway, after you go, I will do whatever I can at home, and I can't do it if I really can't do it!"
I also know that once I leave this home, many things in this home can only be put on it. After all, there are some heavy and hard work. Cuihua will definitely not be able to do it if I leave me.
However, over the years, people in the village have gone out to work one after another. No one who stays at home has made money. I also want to make money when I go out. If I stay at home, it will only make the situation at home worse and worse.
In that era, in the countryside, there was a concept called "Top children and blessings", so I was less than 30 years old, and I had four children, three daughters and one son. The youngest son was less than two years old.
There is no way. This person lives in the world and needs to survive. Now it is not a single person who is full and not hungry, but a man with an elderly person above and a young man below, so I have to bear the burden of the family.
After thinking about it, I decided to go out and try it out. The next day, I found my parents and told them about my idea of going out to work. My mother asked, "Erzhu, what should Cuihua do after you go to work? What should your child do?"
In fact, this is also a problem I am worried about. The reason I looked for my mother is that I hope my mother can take care of my children with my eyes so that I can work outside with peace of mind.
But my mother's question made me hesitate, but I still said my heart. I said to my mother, "Mom, can you help me take care of the children so that Cuihua can do something!"
Mother looked at me and knew my mother's difficulties. After all, my parents are old, and I have an older brother on my head and younger brothers below. Several brothers are looking at my parents. I know my parents' difficulties.
I thought that if my parents didn't agree, then forget it. I was thinking of another way, but I didn't expect that my mother said at the end, "Okay, go, your dad and I will take the time to show you, don't plant your barren land in the future, just let Cuihua plant some fertile land!"
After hearing this, I immediately said, "Mom, I understand. I think so too. After all, those barren lands do not produce food. Instead of wasting time on those lands, it would be better to give up."
Just like that, after discussing with Cuihua and her parents, I embarked on the journey of working. To be honest, when I first went out, I was actually very concerned about the people at home, especially the children. After all, I went so far, but I still wanted to create better conditions for the children, but I still endured some hardships.
Sometimes in order to save money, I often work over night, so as to earn a little more money, eat a few dry steamed buns and drink some water every morning, and treat it as a meal. When I get my monthly salary, I will count the wages over and over again, then leave two or three hundred yuan for myself, and send all the money home.
Every time I talk to Cuihua on the phone, Cuihua told me that she had a very hard life, especially during the busy farming season, she asked for help, but no one else was willing to help. The reason was very simple. Because I was not here, everyone thought that they could not change jobs on the same page. Moreover, I have four children, and even if I could change jobs, others felt that they were at a disadvantage, so they were unwilling to help.
After listening to it, I did not blame the people in the village. After all, I put my heart in it. In fact, everyone is the same. So I said to Cuihua, "Wife, don't be too tired. If you can't finish some things, don't make them too carefully. Just make a little rougher, so as not to be very tired."
Cuihua listened to me and said, "I understand, but I also think that it's not easy for you to be outside, after all, it's difficult for you to make money."
To be honest, working on a construction site outside is indeed quite hard, but thinking about the happy scene of the family being together, I think everything is worth it. Sometimes, in order to save phone bills, I have not made too many calls to Cuihua. To be honest, I am actually quite at ease with Cuihua for so many years.
In my eyes, Cuihua is the kind of gentle and kind woman. I think she will definitely take care of the children. After I went out to work, Cuihua was too busy. In the next year, I did not go home. In order to earn more money, I chose to stay on the construction site during the Spring Festival.
Because no one helped, Cuihua did not grow crops the next year. She told me about this. At first, I felt that it was not like a rural person. However, thinking that it was not easy for her to take care of four children, I agreed later. Anyway, the little crops I planted were not worth much money.
So afterwards, I simply stopped planting it. Later, Cuihua took care of the children wholeheartedly. About a few months later, my mother called me and said to me, "Erzhu, there is something that I have to remind you, why don't you go home?"
was busy at that time, but my mother's reminder made me feel excited, so I asked, "Mom, why do you say that!"
Mother complained: "I feel something is wrong with this Cuihua. I often throw some children to us. I don't know what she is doing. Sometimes I come back very late. I wear rouge and dress up beautifully every day. I don't know what else to dress alone at home!"
When I heard this, I felt very strange. However, thinking of Cuihua's usual behavior, I still don't believe it. But since my mother said everything, I bought a train ticket and returned home. After I came, I didn't notice Cuihua's abnormality, but I still couldn't help but ask Cuihua.
I said, "Cuihua, I heard that you are rubbing with rouge every day. What are you doing!"
When Cuihua heard this, she immediately said, "Erzhu, who said it, who is chewing the root of the tongue, is it your mother!"
When I saw Cuihua angry, I quickly said, "No, no, I'll just make a joke!"
In fact, I was also worried about a good relationship between husband and wife, and it was broken due to a small matter. After all, everything was prosperous. I returned home for two months, but I thought I didn't grow crops and couldn't sit and eat the whole country! Although my mother's words make sense, I have to continue working hard for the family's livelihood!
Actually, I also know in my heart that Cuihua is not easy. After all, if you have to take care of your children alone, there is no one to help you, but there is nothing you can do.
So I embarked on the road of working again, but this time it took more than two years. When I came back, Cuihua was no longer at home and left all the children to my mother. I later learned that in the past two years since I went out, a middle-aged man who went to the village to sell pigs often came to my house.
I immediately understood that Cuihua had eloped with someone else. I was very angry, but I was also very glad. Fortunately, the children were all very healthy, and fortunately, they left me with four children.
I didn't blame Cuihua. I think since her heart is gone, even if she keeps her, she can't keep it. Instead of being able to keep it, it's better to let go, so I didn't look for Cuihua.
About seven or eight years later, the children have grown up. Cuihua returned to the village wearing a fashionable mink-haired top and wearing lipstick. She found me and wanted to get back together with me. When she came, she bought a lot of things for the children. To be honest, I was actually very reluctant to get back together with her.
But thinking about the children and giving them a complete home, I still compromised later. After all, Cuihua is the children's biological mother. Some people in the village look down on me and think that I am not masculinity. In fact, sometimes, people really have no control over themselves. If this world can do whatever they want, maybe I will choose to give up decisively, but some things are really no control over themselves.
Whether it is marriage or love, it is not that we cannot choose, but that there are things. When you have children and home, you are more thinking about family than individuals. I haven’t looked for Cuihua in the past few years since she ran away from home. The reason is very simple, it is that she doesn’t want the children to feel stressed.
I want to give children a sense of security and happiness, it’s that simple.
Fortunately, several children are very good and have been admitted to university. This is also a place where I feel more comforted. Although I have experienced emotional turmoil, I still feel particularly happy after having a few obedient children!
The novel ends here!
Finally, I would like to encourage you in one paragraph.
People do good deeds, but even though blessings have not arrived, misfortune has been away; people do evil deeds, but even if disasters have not arrived, blessings have been away.
As long as you are dedicated to goodness, you will always have blessings. As the saying goes, sow such causes and harvest such results.
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