Yu Huai and I grew up together. Whether it is his or my family, we think we will be together in the future, and I have always thought so.
Until Yu Huai stood in front of us with a girl, he said, "Qingluo, I have never liked you before, I always treat you as my sister."
In front of him, his girlfriend introduced me to a boyfriend.
But when I was really with this man, Yu Huai came to me and he said angrily: "Lin Qingluo, you are obviously me!"
And at that time I no longer loved him.
1
I am Yu Huai's fiancée. This matter was decided since childhood. How young is it? At that time, I was just an embryo with fingernails and . Yu Huai is better than me. He can already lie on the bed, staring at his ignorant eyes, gnawing at his fingers and babbling.
Mother Yu pinched her son's face and said, "Son, how about mom ordering you an doll and kissing ?"
My mom said, "We don't build an arranged marriage."
The little Yu Huai was like a little fool, giggling with his mouth, which made his mother laugh next to him, and said, "Look, my son agreed."
Hey, Yu Huai can still express his attitude. Poor, I was determined by these two unreliable mothers before my eyes and nose were even grown.
If I ask for my opinion, I don’t seem to have any opinions. I can be with others, and I don’t seem to be disgusted with Yu Huai.
My mother often says that I have a gentle temperament. I ask her if she is good or bad. She didn't reply to me directly, just saying that I don't look like her at all.
I think this should be a tactful negation.
I always thought Yu Huai had the same idea as me. It was not until I was in high school that I realized that he might just regard me as my little sister.
He began to be particularly disgusted with relatives and friends around him making jokes about us. At a dinner party, he even started anger with his parents.
At that time, just after the college entrance examination, the two families were discussing our future application for college. The two parents agreed that we should apply to the same school.
Yu's mother: "When there is a response, Yu Huai will lack Qingluo to take care of him."
My mother said: "Qingluo is not likes to talk and has no friends. I don't have any friends. I can rest assured if I have Xiaoyu."
Anyway, the two parents insist on writing what their children say.
is getting excited, and Yu's mother looked at us pamperedly and said, "I'll get married as soon as I graduate, and the newly bought house here should come in handy."
My mother nodded, "I have to prepare for the dowry."
I got used to it, and I didn't feel strange at all. Maybe I'm really as my mother said, with a gentle personality and a little slow reaction. In short, I was not shy, I just buried my head in eating. Even when my mother was holding me a food, she even said thank you politely.
But Yu Huai stood up suddenly, getting up too fast, and the chair behind him rubbed against the ground, making a harsh sound, which made me concentrate on eating, and I had to turn my head and look over.
Yu Huai was blushing with anger on his red face. Well, he was both ashamed and angry, and his reaction was a little normal than me.
He said, "Don't say anything more, okay? I won't enroll in a school with her, and I won't marry her!"
My mother was embarrassed and angry for me, my father was angry for me, only I was confused, as if I didn't understand what he was saying at all.
Yu Huai's mother and father taught their son a lesson: "What are you talking about by a bad boy?"
Yu Huai simply left the table, "I have someone I like, I don't like Lin Qingluo at all, so please don't say these words in front of us."
Maybe I felt that my words were not too convincing, so he took me out: "Since I was young, have you ever asked Lin Qingluo about your opinions? Ask her, have you been annoyed by your tricks for a long time."
Mom looked at me, Yu's father and mother looked at me, and suddenly I felt my importance. Five people and 10 eyes were staring at me. Both parents were confused. Yu Huai's eyes were so cold, as if they were talking about Lin Qingluo, I've been annoyed by you for a long time. You are like a burden. You should leave me quickly and stop pestering me.
I suddenly felt a pain in my heart. Most of what he said was just in my mind. The only thing passing by was the sentence I had someone I liked, which penetrated deeply into my heart.
They were all waiting for me. I heard my heartbeat and my rapid breathing. I felt that I was lacking oxygen. Then I lay on the table and fainted. At the moment of falling down, I saw the sarcastic smile in Yu Huai's eyes.
Maybe, he thought I did it on purpose, maybe my parents also thought it was too I did it on purpose.
My fainting caused them to think that I was unrequited to Huai. My parents dared not bring up this matter in front of me anymore. Even Yu Huai's parents felt guilty and didn't know what to say in front of me. In the past, they would make jokes and talk about Yu Huai's embarrassing things, but now that I have left Yu Huai, my parents and I don't seem to have anything to say.
Before filling out the application form that year, Yu Huai came to me once. Maybe his parents scolded him, or maybe they heard that he brought some nutritional supplements because of the malnutrition of the college entrance examination.
In the small bedroom of a dozen bungalows, I sat upright in front of the desk. He leaned against the desk as before, just as he used to be, but this laziness was a little bit deliberate.
The door was open, and the sound of parents' footsteps came from outside the door from time to time.
"Lin Qingluo, your physical fitness is really poor. "
He smiled, I knew he was pretending to be relaxed.
But I didn't joke, I said, "The physical education teacher said I'm pretty good. "
He stopped talking, stopped smiling, leaned over there and looked at me seriously, making me embarrassed to look in his direction, and looked down at an extracurricular book on the desktop.
"Lin Qingluo, I didn't mean it that day. "
" I know. "I forgive him.
He said, "Let's apply to a school." ”
I raised my head, smiled, and said, “Okay. "
He felt much more relaxed, and finally smiled on his face. He picked up the book on my desk casually and scolded me like before: "I read these useless books again, be careful I will tell you mother. "
In the past, he skipped classes, because he was afraid that I would tell his parents, so he would pull out these extracurricular books from my schoolbag and said proudly: "Lin Qingluo, let's be even. Don't tell my mother that I skipped classes, and I won't tell you to be a break in class. "
I followed him and didn't refute him. In fact, we have grown up, and my mother will no longer scold me for reading extracurricular books, and he will no longer have the opportunity to "threaten" me with such things.
Before leaving that day, I asked him: "Will that girl also enroll in a school with you? "
After all, he is a half-aged man. He is still embarrassed to talk about the girl he likes, but he still nodded at me.
I said, "Congratulations to Yu Huai. ”
He said: “Lin Qingluo, thank you. "
I understand the meaning of this sentence, probably thank me for helping him.
2
I did not apply to the same school as him in the end. The city was very far away. He applied to the south, and I applied to the north.
He was quite shocked when he knew it. It seemed that I regretted the matter we had discussed. He lost his temper at me: "Lin Qingluo, you traitor. "
I just laughed, and he had no choice but to do anything to me, and finally said, "My mom must think it was me who made trouble. "
Oh, it turns out that what he is afraid of is this. I kept a smile and comforted him: "I will explain to my mother. "
He didn't speak, looked at me, looking very seriously, which made me dare not look at his eyes.
He said, "Qingluo, are you..."
"No," I knew what he wanted to say, but I was too eager to deny it, but instead seemed deliberate. I cleared my throat and looked at the green belt on the side of the road: "The school I chose is better."
3
After entering university, our contact became weak. At first, he would send text messages to ask about my life in school, but my reply was very simple, it was basically good, it was pretty good, and it was OK.
Maybe he thought it was boring, but later he didn't ask much, except during holidays, he would ask me if I would go home.
During holidays, he would often touch my head like a big brother, saying that Qingluo has grown taller, or Qingluo has become thinner.
In fact, he is only older than me for a year. I don't accept it, and there is nothing good about replying to him. It either says he has turned black, or he is as tall as a bamboo pole.
He is still like before, staring at the corner and said, "Lin Qingluo, be careful not to find a boyfriend with your mouth. "
I didn't care, and suddenly realized that my boyfriend was actually an optional thing.
During the summer vacation of my sophomore year, Yu Huai brought his girlfriend home. I have seen that girl in his circle of friends. She is very delicate and she is in the same city as us. She is single and has poor family conditions, which aroused strong opposition from Yu's father and mother. She expressed her opinion on dining table .
What’s funny is that I was also present that day. I was always a little slow. Both sides had crossed my eyes, but I was just concerned about eating.
. My mother may have thought of the past dinner. In order to save me, I asked me to check out, so I took the card and walked out of the box. When I came back from
, I heard the quarrel inside.
. Yu’s mother said, “Where is Qingluo not as good as her? "
I wanted to leave. I turned around and saw Yu Huai's girlfriend Luo Xiaoxiao in the corridor. She bit her lip and looked at me with a glittering eyes, showing a sad smile.
I heard Yu Huai reply angrily: "Qingluo is very good, but I don't like her. No matter how good she is, I just treat her as my sister. "
I smiled at Luo Xiaoxiao. For some reason, I explained to her and said, "I just treat him as my brother. "
Yu Huai came out of the box and saw Luo Xiaoxiao and me. He was stunned for a moment, then held Luo Xiaoxiao's hand, and they stood shoulder to shoulder in front of me.
Yu Huai said: "Qingluo, go and explain to my mother. "
I was mum, Yu's mother came out, and my mother came out too. She wanted to take me away, but I didn't listen to her. I said, "Aunt Yu, I don't like Yu Huai, I actually already have a boyfriend. "
For a moment, everyone's eyes turned to me, and even Yu Huai looked at me in shock. I was quite surprised by his expression. In my heart, he should be happy, but his expression was very complicated.
I smiled and continued, "So don't make things difficult for him again in the future, okay? "
Yu Huai's mother looked regretful. She saw me growing up since she was a child, and she almost regarded me as her daughter. Maybe from her heart, she would be relieved only if Yu Huai married me.
But the weather is always unwilling to do so.
I got sick that night and was so chaotic that I heard my parents talking beside me.
"This child must be very sad. "
Dad was more angry: "I think Yu Huai is just like that. My daughter must be better than him. "
Mother sighed: "What do you know? Your daughter is so mean. I think she will suffer from Huai... in the future. "
I turned over, they stopped and walked out carefully.
I opened my eyes and saw the dark sky outside the window. When I remembered the daytime things, my heart suddenly felt like a needle-like pain.
4
After recovering from the illness, Yu Huai asked me and I pushed me. He ran to the place where I worked part-time to find me. His upper body leaned under a large piece of glass in the mall, like a model in the window.
Luo Xiaoxiao ran over from the side, holding a half-eat ice cream for him to compensate. He smiled, grabbed the person into his arms, lowered his head and kissed the butter on her lips.
If it were only Yu Huai, I would reject his invitation, but Luo Xiaoxiao was there, she said shyly: "I asked Ah Huai to ask you. I want to thank you. Don't refuse, okay?"
I can't refuse, I want face, I don't want Luo Xiaoxiao to think that I was telling a lie. In fact, there is no need to prove this thing to others, but at that time I felt that it was related to my self-esteem, which made Luo Xiaoxiao believe, Yu Huai believe, and the most important thing was to believe myself.
On the dining table, Luo Xiaoxiao said: "I heard Ahuai say you don't have a boyfriend at all. You said that just because you wanted to help us."
Yu Huai knows me, but I would rather he keep this understanding in his heart than he would tell Luo Xiaoxiao bluntly.
I smiled to maintain my fragile self-esteem.
Yu Huai said, "Thank you Qingluo."
I shook my head and smiled numbly.
Luo Xiaoxiao has been complimenting me. Her attitude is so exaggerated that I realize her vigilance towards me. I think my identity makes him feel uneasy.
dishes were not served, and she was already anxious to reveal the purpose of the trip.
"Ahuai, let's introduce Qingluo to a boyfriend?" She looked at Yu Huai with a smile, as if she was temporarily thinking: "Just the distant cousin I told you, he is in the school in Qingluo."
I was stunned, and Yu Huai was also stunned. I wanted to see what he was going to say. As Luo Xiaoxiao smiled and urged, he nodded to her.
I don’t want to open my face and go to see a couple who are playing cakes together at the table. It’s suitable for dates, but I am like a third party here, which is annoying.
Luo Xiaoxiao took out WeChat and asked me to scan the QR code above. Yu Huai did not stop me. He did not ask me if I was willing or not. Maybe he was the same as Luo Xiaoxiao thought, as long as I had a partner, I would not disturb them again.
The couple at the table sang a birthday song in a low voice. I smiled, took out my phone and added Luo Xiaoxiao's distant cousin's WeChat.
That night, Yu Huai, who left with Luo Xiaoxiao, suddenly turned back again. In the middle of the night, he called me down by phone.
He stood under the street lights and smoked. The light pulled his shadow very long, and the swaying light and images were illusory images in his dreams.
When he saw me come out, he pinched out the cigarette in his hand.
"It seems to be thin." He said with a smile.
It seems that the incident didn't happen that night, and I was the only one who scratched my heart and lungs. It's him that I have taken adult jokes since I was a child and was deeply involved in it.
"Have you recovered from the illness?" he asked me again.
It seems that after leaving Luo Xiaoxiao, he dared to show his concern for me a little. He really cared about Luo Xiaoxiao and was unwilling to let her misunderstand the relationship between us.
I nodded, he came up and took two steps back before his hand reached towards me. He was stunned, then smiled, his hand fell in the air and said indifferently: "Don't blame Xiaoxiao, she has no sense of security..."
It turned out that he knew everything, knew Luo Xiaoxiao's purpose, and knew that I would be unhappy, but my unhappiness was far more important than Luo Xiaoxiao's sense of security.
"That WeChat, you don't have to pay attention to it." Yu Huai said again, "Just delete it."
I held my phone tightly and raised my head, I had already made myself laugh. I can't lose, at least I can't lose at this time.
I said, "It's okay, I should find a boyfriend."
Yu Huai didn't make a sound, and he looked at me through the shadow cast by a leaf.
He said, "Qingluo, I'm sorry."
I turned my face away. The wind was cold at night, blowing my tulle-like coat. I felt cold. I held my shoulders with my hands. He felt something, walked over, took off my coat and covered me.
I raised my hand to block it.
lowered his head, and I tried my best to stop him from getting closer. I wanted to tell him that if he didn't like me, please stay away from me. If he doesn't like me, don't give me the tenderness that does not belong to me. I said, "Yu Huai, don't let me misunderstand it anymore, okay?"
He didn't answer me, stared at me for a while, and then retreated silently. Maybe this was his response, and he admitted in disguise that I misunderstood our relationship.
This is very good, we can each place it in the future.
5
Since that year, I have not gone back much during the holidays, and even when I go back, I often get along with Yu Huai.
This was tacit, he should understand what I mean, but I didn’t go to the two families for dinner during the New Year, but he came to my house.
That day I was drawing in front of the computer and fell asleep for some reason. When I opened my eyes, I saw Yu Huai with a face in front of me. I was startled and raised my head suddenly, but he was not careful that the two of them would touch each other.
He said dissatisfiedly, "I said Lin Qingluo, what's wrong with you?"
He always did this. When I thought we were already having a quarrel, he came to joke with me like nothing happened.
I looked at him with a confused look on my face, and he suddenly laughed, looking very happy: "Are you stupid?"
I didn't make a sound, touched my forehead, it hurts a lot.
Yu Huai didn't know what was going on, but he suddenly came over and blew on my forehead. I was so shocked that I forgot to hide. He lowered his face and said, "It doesn't hurt to blow."
I only remembered to avoid him after he finished speaking.
may have been too big, which made him feel embarrassed. He said, "Lin Qingluo has grown up, but he actually understands how shy he is?"
He smiled and always treated me like a little sister.
I didn't make a sound, and I still kept my distance from him. He was still laughing at first, but later he was a little unhappy and said in a heavy voice: "What? Do you ignore me after finding a boyfriend?"
I looked up at him, and he said dissatisfiedly: "Lin Qingluo, I have not neglected you in love."
So between us, I lost, I have always been me, just think I can't afford to lose, I whispered, "I am different from you."
He was stunned for a moment, maybe he saw that I was serious, but he laughed and asked, "Are you really looking for a boyfriend?"
seemed to be looked at by him, so I simply gave up. I said, "It was you and Luo Xiaoxiao introduced me."
He was stunned for a moment, his face changed again and again. I suddenly realized that what my mother said about him and Luo Xiaoxiao breaking up might be true, but just because of his breaking up, can't even mention Luo Xiaoxiao's name?
He really cares about her.
I held my clothes and said coldly: "I should thank you."
He looked at me seriously, and finally said coldly: "Lin Qingluo, when did you become so obedient?"
I lowered my head and didn't speak. Isn't this what he wants to see? I don't understand why he has this attitude.
He left, and I stood in front of the window and watched him go out of the corridor.
He had learned his driver's license long ago, and he drove Uncle Yu's car and got into the car at this time.
I was afraid of being seen by him, so I retreated from the window.
I think it's all. If it's impossible, let him slowly leave my life.
6
In my senior year, I really fell in love with the cousin introduced by Luo Xiaoxiao. His name is Lu Tang, a very gentle person with a stable temper, unlike Yu Huai, who is happy and angry for no reason.
I don’t know why I should compare him with Yu Huai. When facing Lu Tang, I always compare his strengths with his weaknesses.
Mom was quite satisfied. The only regret that Lu Tang is a native of the north, but she was open-minded and everything was as I wish, and she would follow me.
I said, "I haven't thought that far."
Mom said, "It's good to stay there, and my parents often come to see you after retirement."
The Yu family has a good relationship with our family, and it looks like a family. Although Yu Huai and I have not succeeded, it has not affected the relationship between our two families.
As usual, the Yu family also set the Xiaguan for me and took Lu Tang to show Yu’s father and mother that I realized that Yu Huai and Luo Xiaoxiao had broken up.
My mother always feels a little regretful when she looks at me. Although Lu Tang is excellent in all aspects, she still feels not enough. She said, "Xiao Lu must treat us A Luo ."
I went to see Lu Tang with a smile, but he turned around, his eyes met, and we smiled similarly.
Lu Tang held my hand and promised, "I will definitely do it."
Yu's mother sighed, "You are a child with vision."
said and sighed again.
's words meant something, Lu Tang didn't understand, but I knew very well.
went to see Yu Huai who was sitting in the corner and didn't speak much, but found that he lowered his head slightly, not knowing what he was thinking.
I don't know if it was because of a broken heart, or because he was really mature, Yu Huai became gloomy and silent like a different person.
no longer looks like a brother next door.
Maybe I have changed too, but I didn’t notice it myself.
We have all become mature.
went to the bathroom in the middle. When I came out, Yu Huai stood in the corridor, leaning against the wall, holding a cigarette in his hand, looking very idle.
From me, he kept looking at me and kept looking at me. When I walked up to him, his eyes still didn’t look away.
I said, “Why don’t you go in? ”
He replied concisely: “Waiting for you. "
But I waited for a long time, but he didn't say anything. When I raised my wrist to look at the watch, he curled his lips and said, "I've grown up." "
A mindless sentence, I looked at him, and he looked at me, maybe because I was wearing a slim dress, he made him sigh.
I smiled and didn't say anything, and he said again, "He is not worthy of you. "
I was surprised that he would say this. Perhaps, over the years, he has regarded me as his family. People always feel that their family is better and no one is worthy of it.
I still haven't said anything. Maybe I'm silent for too long, and he actually said, "Lin Qingluo, why are you still so untalking? "
can't understand it. Is this disgust or complaining, but it doesn't seem to matter.
We were silent for a long time.
He looked at me and asked a little jokingly: "Do you really like him? "
I don't like his attitude, and I even feel a little disgusted, and my malicious smile makes me feel unrespected.
I said, "I heard that Luo Xiaoxiao is getting married. "
A sentence broke all his smile apart. He still cared about the girl after all. I raised my footsteps in his cold eyes. When
walked up to him, he suddenly held my arm and sneered, "Lin Qingluo, you are quite protective of him. ”
Of course, my boyfriend needs to maintain it.
Lu Tang walked out of the room and broke my arm away from Yu Huai's hand.
7
Lu Tang said: "You don't seem to have a good relationship with Yu Huai." ”
I smiled and said, “I have a disagreement since I was a child. "
Lu Tang also smiled, shook my hand, and said, "I am quite envious of your relationship. "
I didn't make a sound, leaned against the window and looked at the lights on the roadside.
A car whizzed past us, and the deafening sound made my heart feel uncomfortable.
"He doesn't seem to like me very much. "Lu Tang said.
I went to see him, and he suddenly coughed twice. He had a cold recently and was not good.
I shook his hand back and asked with a frown, "Have I taken the medicine I prepared for you? "
He laughed when he heard this, and his hand grabbed me tightened.
Lu Tang took me downstairs. I had gotten out of the car, but he chased me out again.
I have never seen him as clingy as today and asked him what happened.
He said, "Qingluo, I'm a little worried. "
I don't understand, I looked up at him, and he sighed.
I suddenly understood.
I didn't expect that Lu Tang, who has always been mature and steady, is even nervous about meeting his parents.
I laughed at him for being stupid, but he was not angry at all. I smiled with me, probably feeling that I was indeed a little stupid.
I said, "You don't have to worry at all, my parents are very satisfied with you. ”
He played with my fingers and sighed, “Aluo, you don’t know how outstanding you are. ”
From childhood to adulthood, whether it is parents or Yu Huai, the most common adjective they put on me is being well-behaved.
This mediocre word has accompanied me for more than 20 years.
No one has ever said that I am excellent.
only him.
Does he really like me, right?
So even though he is already very good, he always feels that he is not worthy of the person he likes.
always lacks such a sense of security.
Lu Tang is like this, and I used to be like this.
I can't do anything, the only thing I can do is hold him tightly.
8
that night I went home, Yu Huai was in my room, standing in front of the window, looking out of the window to be in a state of consciousness.
I knocked on the door before he came to his senses.
He looked at me and said, "I thought you didn't plan to come up."
I was puzzled, but ignored him.
He didn't say much, and walked to the table and flipped through the book on my desktop.
The house is very quiet, and parents both entered their rooms, afraid that we would say something they could not listen to.
fingers across my row of books, and he said, "Lin Qingluo, why have you been reading unnutritious books for so many years?"
He looked up at me, with a three-point smile in his eyes: "I can't pick books, and I don't have the vision to pick men."
I don't understand what happened to him today, it seems that I'm always looking for trouble for me.
I said, "I'm going to rest, you go back."
"Drive me?" He was a little unhappy.
I raised my eyelashes and looked at him, a little confused.
He didn't bother with a single problem, but he didn't say he left. Not only did he not leave, he sat down instead. Maybe he was bored and opened the drawer with his fingers.
I was stunned for a moment, then walked over instantly and pressed it on his hand.
I was very angry, took his hand away, and said angrily, "Yu Huai, are you sick? If you don't go home to sleep at night, why do you come here to do?"
He seemed a little surprised, and was stunned for a moment, and suddenly laughed out loud. He said, "Lin Qingluo, this is like you. I really hate the virtuous and kind appearance in front of him."
But I couldn't laugh. , my chest was filled with anger, but I couldn't find the reason for this anger. I said, "What does it have to do with you? I would like to do that, I would be the way he likes."
He pursed his lips and said coldly, "Why are you changing for him?"
These words were simply inexplicable. I couldn't find any words to refute. We stood there like roosters with a hurry, and no one could speak.
Finally, I was depressed, I pushed him away from me, and locked the drawer.
I regained my sanity and lowered my head and said, "You go back, I'm going to rest."
Yu Huai looked at me coldly, and I had turned around to sort out the books he had flirted with.
Later I heard from Yu's mother that he went back to the south that night. He started a business there and didn't have much time to stay at home, so there was nothing strange about going back.
Later he went on a business trip to my city and asked me to go out for a meal. It seemed that he had just come out at a dinner party and was wearing a suit. He was tall and stood there with a handsome personality.
The appointment was in a hurry, and Lu Tang couldn't take time, so I was the only one who went to the appointment. Compared with that time, he changed a little. I wonder if it was because he was too tired and looked even more depressed. When I went there, he stood in front of the window and smoked.
He said, "I thought you wouldn't come."
I smiled. In the past, I always seemed to be in a silence with him, and I was unwilling to look for him when I quarreled and had a bad time, but now it's different.
If he doesn't remind me, I've forgotten about his unhappiness.
He and I both understand the meaning of this.
He smiled, with a bitter smile.
helped me open the chair. I smelled the faint smell of alcohol on his body and raised my head to ask him, "You have drunk."
He was stunned and flipped through his coat: "Does it smell very strong?"
took off his coat as he said, "You have become considerate."
He just curled his lips and sighed, "You used to hate the alcohol on others."
Yes, my father doesn't drink, and Lu Tang doesn't drink either. They are representatives of good men in my heart. Whether to drink or not has become a condition for me to determine whether a person is good or bad.
But that is the person I care about, Yu Huai no longer counts.
I joked with him: "It doesn't matter, as long as your girlfriend doesn't hate it."
He didn't say anything, his face became cold, and he sat opposite me and looked at me, making me feel a little furious.
I had nothing to say and said, "Lu Tang may not be able to live today."
He was still silent, and I smiled and said, "Don't blame him."
He said, "Qingluo, can we not talk about him tonight?"
I don't know why he is so hostile to Lu Tang. Is it because he is not worthy of me?
I said, "Lu Tangren is pretty good."
"Where is good?" He smiled. This smile always made me feel that he did not respect people, so I also turned cold.
"When you were with Luo Xiaoxiao, I never disrespected her. Why can't you respect Lu Tang like me?"
I don't know if it was because of the mention of Luo Xiaoxiao, his temper became very bad, and he said sarcastically: "I am not as hypocritical as you."
I really don't understand him anymore. I belittled Lu Tang and belittled me, which made me unbearable. I took my bag and stood up from the chair. As a result, before the person could reach the door, he pulled him back.
He was even more angry than me. He said, "When we were together, why do you always mention others?"
I found it funny and asked him, "Are you talking about Luo Xiaoxiao or Lu Tang?"
He pursed his lips and said nothing, his jaw line collapsed tightly. I knew he was angry, but why? I said, "If you can't let go of Luo Xiaoxiao, go and get it back. If you think I don't like you, don't interact with me anymore. We are just ordinary friends. There is really no need to go back so unpleasant."
"Ordinary friend?" He sneered, "That's how do you think?"
I think it's so boring. I've been annoying since I was a child. If someone I like, go to fall in love. What did I do wrong? Since childhood, people around me have said that I am his future wife. After a long time, I became concerned, but he said he didn't like me. If you don't like me earlier, why did you say that you didn't like me before you were so old? Let everyone think that I am wishful thinking, but I am wishful thinking, so let’s have a good time. Why did he break up but feel dissatisfied with the saying “Pu Neng Friend”?
"What else can it be if you are not an ordinary friend?" I sneered and said, "Or do you think it's better to be my brother?"
I nodded, "That's fine, you have always regarded me as your sister since you were a child. Is it Brother Yu Huai? I..."
Yu Huai suddenly pulled me into his arms, then lowered his head and kissed me.
This action scared me. I didn't react at first. When I reacted, I pushed him away with all my might, and then raised my hand and slapped him heavily in the face.
He was not annoyed, and even smiled, touched the corner of his lips, and said shamelessly: "Lin Qingluo, I think there is nothing wrong with our baby kissing now."
I felt too angry. I wanted to hit him, but I also found it ridiculous. I couldn't say a word when I stood there, and tears were surging in my eyes.
He was a little panicked and walked up to help me wipe my tears. I stepped back and said, "Yu Huai, how could you say such things? I don't want you, and now I want you again, why do you?"
"Qingluo..."
I wiped off the tears from my face and told him not to get closer. After calming down, I looked at the corner of the table beside me: "Yu Huai, I'm going to get engaged."
He smiled, "Who with? Is that man who adds WeChat?"
I pursed my lips and looked at him, and his smile remained unabated: "Qingluo, do you love him? Or do I want to say this because I was angry?"
"Of course I love him." I almost replied immediately.
He hasn't spoken for a long time. When I lowered my head to clean up the fallen bag, he said, "Is that right?"
He had changed his mood and smiled casually: "Then I should congratulate you."
I didn't respond to him, lowered my head and concentrated on tidying up the bag. He carried his coat and walked over to me like a gust of wind.
However, when I walked to the door, I suddenly stopped. I looked up and found Lu Tang standing there.
Lu Tang said, "I'll pick up A Luo."
Yu Huai curled his lips and said to me, "Luo Xiaoxiao probably wouldn't have dreamed that you would be together."
paused and said as if he was self-deprecating: "I didn't expect either."
He stepped away, Lu Tang called him from behind, and my heart suddenly rose to my throat.
I don't know what Lu Tang wants to say, and I don't know if he heard the conversation between me and Lu Tang just now.
But Lu Tang just came over and held my hand, and then said to Huai: "When Aluo and I are engaged, Mr. Yu must come over. "
Yu Huai looked at our hands holding each other, raised his eyelids and glanced on my face.
"Of course," he said, "as long as you can get engaged smoothly. "
Lu Tang held my hand and suddenly tightened. I went to see him nervously. He smiled and said, "Of course. "
9
I thought Lu Tang would be angry, but not. He was as gentle as usual and was still gentle to me. When he got home, he even went to the kitchen to make me a bowl of noodles.
He said, "Only when you are full can you have the strength to sulk. "
Although he was smiling, I knew he had misunderstood. He heard Yu Huai's words and he thought I was depressed because of Yu Huai.
But that's not the case. I was just worried about what Yu Huai said before leaving.
I wanted to explain, but he reached out to press my lips. He looked at my nervous face, shook his head, and said, "A Luo, there is no need to explain between us. "
The gentle but very firm tone made me feel guilty inexplicably.
I said, "Lu Tang, why do you trust me so much? "
He smiled, as if I asked a very silly question, stroked my cheek, and said, "A Luo will be my wife in the future. I naturally believe her. "
I suddenly wanted to cry.
What kind of virtue can I do? Meeting such a good man?
He will be afraid that my parents don't like him because they care about me, and they will be nervous because other men approach me.
He loves me, so he trusts me.
never a man treats me like this.
never.
10
On the day of engagement, my parents rushed over from the south, and Yu and his mother came with him. They saw me growing up and saw that I was engaged, they were even more excited than my parents.
Yu and Mom Holding my hand, I had already put a bracelet on my wrist while speaking.
I was flattered because I had heard the story of this bracelet from Yu Huai. This was left by Yu’s grandparents, and it was something she planned to give to her daughter-in-law.
Once upon a time, she wanted to give it to me, and at that time she and I thought I would marry Yu Huai.
Only Yu Huai firmly believed that I would not be with him.
He was like a bystander who was not involved in anything, sitting in the corner, looking at me coldly.
Yu’s mother said, “This bracelet has been passed down for several generations, you must keep it well and hand it over to your children in the future. "
I smiled foolishly.
Yu Huai sneered and asked, "Mine or hers? "
My mother and I didn't understand what he meant.
He was patient and explained: "Mom must explain clearly whether it is for Qingluo's children or for my children. "
Yu's mother was confused by him: "What's the difference? "
Yu Huai smiled and said, "Her's is hers, mine is mine, there is a big difference. "
Mother Yu understood, and I also understood.
I lowered my head and played with the green bracelet with good quality.
Mother Yu taught her son a lesson: "Are you itchy? "
Yu Huai snorted, not speaking.
When the adults were talking that day, Yu Huai suddenly came to me and whispered, "Lin Qingluo, can you have some opinions? "
The breath of the big boy spread on my face, making my skin hot, but he said angrily: "I hate you listening to parents so much. "
I looked at him ignorantly, and he looked ahead, as if what he said just now was not what he said to me at all.
I silently put the bracelet back in the packaging box.
Sometimes I think that it is probably because of my obedient personality that Yu Huai dislikes me so much.
After all, it is my docile personality, not the type he likes.
Now that he is ready, he finally gets free.
11
I want to take off the bracelet, but Yu’s mother didn’t let her go. She said with red eyes: “This thing was originally planned to be given to you.”
I have always been stupid and don’t know what to say.
Yu's mother lowered her head and said, "It's that boy who is not lucky, he deserves it."
Yu Huai, who deserves it, suddenly arrived when the banquet was about to end.
At that time, I stood in the lounge and hid lazily, leaning on the balcony, looking at the green bracelets on my wrist facing the light.
Because of concentration, I never heard the door ringing. It was not until the person who came in spoke out that I turned around in surprise.
Yu Huai stood in front of the door and said, "Lin Qingluo, you shouldn't have gotten engaged to him."
His face turned red, as if he had drunk a lot of wine.
I stood in front of the fence on the balcony, looking at him quietly, watching him slowly walking over.
He said, "Follow me, it's still time."
He stretched out his hand to me.
I looked at the hand in the air and found the scene very funny.
Of course I wouldn't hand over my hand. I raised my eyelashes and looked at the drunk man in front of me.
I said, "Yu Huai, since I was sensible, everyone said that I had a baby marriage with you. Your parents, my parents, and my neighbors and friends around me all thought we would be together. Gradually, I felt that I would marry you. At that time, I didn't know whether to like or not, but later I understood, and found that what you thought was different from me. You never thought about being with me from beginning to end, and you didn't like me at all."
"No!" Yu Huai defended anxiously, and he said, "I like you Lin Qingluo. From beginning to end, I like you only... You were so obedient at that time, and you listened to your elders. I didn't like you like that... I thought I didn't like you, but when I knew you were really with that man, I realized that you had already taken root in my heart."
This is really not like him.
I still remember how he took Luo Xiaoxiao in front of me. At that time, he said he didn't like me, he said he just treated me as his sister, and he even accused Luo Xiaoxiao of introducing me to my boyfriend in front of him. He was so cruel at that time.
He really doesn't know I like him?
Of course he knew, he just didn't care.
But now he keeps saying that he likes me.
This really shocked me, and it made me laugh.
Looking at his flushed cheeks because of his anxiety, I said, "Yu Huai, I don't like you anymore."
He looked at me sadly, and my heart was calm. "When you brought Luo Xiaoxiao to me, I decided not to like you anymore."
I said, "Yu Huai, go."
He looked at me, and I looked at him, but my mood was very different.
knocks on the door.
I looked over and Lu Tang stood in front of the door.
His eyes turned from Yu Huai to me, and he said, "Aluo, the customer needs us to send it."
Yu Huai was still standing there, I walked over him, and the dress wiped his arm, and I saw his clenched fists.
He said, "Lin Qingluo, I don't believe it, I don't believe you don't like me anymore."
So what if you don't believe it? Lu Tang and I will get married soon and will have a child in the near future.
I ignored him, walked to Lu Tang, and took his hand.
12
That night, I told Lu Tang everything about me and Yu Huai.
He is the one I want to marry, and he has the right to know my past.
He kept smoking, and it was obvious from his frowning brow that he didn't care as much as he was.
In fact, he cares about it to death.
He held my hand, looked at me, and said, "Aluo, if you still like him, I am willing to help you."
He is such a person. If you love me, you are willing to obey my wishes.
But I really hate his magnanimity. He was so sad that he wanted to say such things.
I looked at him and asked him, "Are you serious?"
He didn't say anything, just looked at me.
I lowered my head to look for slippers, and he suddenly walked over and pulled me into my arms. He was very strong and could even hear the sound of body collisions.
He lowered his head and kissed me, never so anxious.
I said, "Lu Tang, don't say such things again in the future, I will take it seriously."
I hate the feeling of being pushed away and I never want to taste that feeling again.
Lu Tang kept kissing me and apologizing to me over and over again.
13
In October of that year, Lu Tang and I got married.
was originally a joyous thing, but it was destroyed because of Yu Huai's arrival.
It was morning, and Lu Tang took me to the hotel, with cheerful music playing in the car.
The driver suddenly said, "There is a car behind and the speed is very fast." As soon as
finished, the fast-speed car surpassed us and then stopped in front of our car.
The driver stepped on the brakes hard, but he still collided with the car.
Lu Tang hugged me, and through the windows of the two cars, I saw Yu Huai like a madman.
Lu Tang untied his seat belt, and his cold face made me know that he could no longer bear it. He had been tolerating it for me in the past, but today he didn't plan to endure it.
But I don’t want to let him take risks. I held his hand, and those cold eyes that were as cold as ice had no time to change, and when I looked at me again, it was still blood red.
I grabbed his stiff palm and said gently, "Let me go."
"A Luo!" he shouted anxiously.
I was like a irritable lion, touching his cheek: "Let me solve it myself, believe me, I will let him leave."
I pushed open the door, walked out of the car, and walked to Yu Huai's car.
Yu Huai in the car stared at me tightly.
"Drive." I said, "Yu Huai, if I choose between you and death, I would rather choose death."
His chest was undulating heavily, and his palms hit the steering wheel hard.
He dared not, he would not be willing to let me die, I know too well that I like someone.
I turned around and wanted to leave. He pushed open the car door and walked out of the car, snatching my arm hard.
He wanted to hug me, but I opened it with my palm.
"You like it is obviously me," he shouted at me, "You like it is obviously me!"
I looked at him numbly and told him coldly, "But now I see you only have disgust."
A heavy breathing sound came into my ears, he was very angry, but so what?
I just think his appearance is ridiculous at this time.
It turns out that I like someone so pitiful. I pity him and myself as well.
I threw him down and walked towards Lu Tang.
Before leaving, I put the bracelet that my mother gave me on the hood of the car.
I know he should give up, and I would rather die than be with him.
Lu Tang has gotten out of the car. If I don’t go back, he will definitely come over and beat someone up.
Yu Huai didn't catch up with him. He was always arrogant and would give in and no longer have the arrogance he had just now.
The voice of pleading sounded from behind me, and he said, "Qingluo, don't do this to me?"
At that time, Lu Tang had already held my hand, and we walked into the car together and got into our wedding car.
The car was driving slowly, and in the rearview mirror, Yu Huai's figure became smaller and smaller.
In the wedding car, Lu Tang held my hand tightly and said, "Aluo, do you know how happy I am?"
I know, I understand.
He said, "Aluo, before getting engaged, he sent me a diary."
I looked up at him and suddenly understood.
So, that night he said he wanted to fulfill me. He read my diary, which recorded my whole youth and how much I like Yu Huai.
He must have been very sad at that time, this fool.
But this fool laughed now, "But I am very happy now, because you like me."
Of course I like you, he only knows now.
I said, "Lu Tang, you are just a fool."
He didn't refute, just looked at me and smiled, which made me laugh.
I didn't tell him, I was actually very happy too.
I am also happy to marry you.
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Author: Nian
Source: Zhihu
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