The past two years have been painful both physically and mentally.
is like a soaring bird whose wings have been broken, and it is waiting to be guarded in a cage with broken walls and ruins, struggling to move forward.
I often like to look outside through the window. The bustling crowds come and go freely, the flow is endless, ordinary and simple, which makes people so enviable.
had no idea what exactly happened. When he woke up, he was already in the hospital. In his confusion, he heard the sound of clothes being cut, and fell asleep again.
For the first time in my life, I was given a critical illness notice .
Dear patients and families: Hello, your family member Duan Pengcheng is currently hospitalized in the Second Department of Orthopedics of our hospital.
's current condition: Serious illness, the condition may worsen at any time, please understand and actively cooperate with the hospital's rescue treatment.
The first operation (micro): traction, the left leg was lifted up and placed in the air. The pain was so deep that the anesthesia was ineffective.
The second operation (micro): debridement. A piece of flesh was knocked off the knee of the left leg. A large area of dead tissue needed to be removed to stop the infection.
The third operation (micro): filter, block the flow of blood clots, open an opening in the neck, insert the filter, it will be unforgettable for a lifetime.
Ten days after the car accident, the first formal major surgery took more than seven hours, from 1 p.m. to about 8 p.m., and it was dark.
comminuted fracture of the left femoral condyle, lateral condyle, and intercondyle, distal fracture, open knee fracture, patellar dislocation, patellar ligament rupture, anterior and posterior cruciate ligament rupture, quadriceps tendon rupture, meniscus , and internal and external accessory ligament damage .
With eleven seasons of injuries, the chief surgeon, assistant surgeon, and five assistants completed the most difficult surgery in the history of the Orthopedics Department of Xiangtan Central Hospital.
is fortunate enough to be tenacious.
survived cerebral hemorrhage , survived pulmonary hydration, and survived the extremely long surgery record.
After the operation, I had a continuous fever of more than 40 degrees. I had to change antibiotics three times. After seven days, it finally subsided. I had nearly ten kinds of injections every day, and the money was like running water.
I have no medical insurance and can only pay for it myself. This kind of burden makes my heart bleed. Fortunately, I have the encouragement of my family, relatives, friends, and chess friends, so I can go on strong.
In the first month after the operation, I could not do anything while lying in bed. Every night, the pain was unbearable. It felt like the bones would fall apart if I moved, and it would hurt wherever I touched it.
On the fourth month after the operation, I was able to sit up and use the computer table on the bed in the hospital to live broadcast and report on the game. It was a new beginning and the chess element was re-integrated into my life.
Seven months after the operation, he was diagnosed as disabled. knee joint function was completely lost, the bending function was zero, the straightening function was 30 degrees worse, the legs were stiff, and cement formed in the legs.
can only undergo surgery again.
After the second surgery, it was not straightened under semi-anesthesia, and it was minus 10 degrees.
The surgeon sighed amidst the sound of the hammer, scalpel , and bones hitting, "I may not be able to straighten it in the future."
Normally, the pain will only get worse. Being unable to straighten means that you will be lame when walking and will permanently lose the ability to run.
On the first day after the second surgery, I endured pain and recovered with blood. The blood dripped on the ground drop by drop, making the ground red.
The therapist looked into my eyes, feeling extremely painful, a mixture of pain and blood, and the bones seemed to be broken into pieces.
The sad thing is that no matter what you do, it still does what you do, and it does what it does, as if there is no memory, absorption, retention and storage device.
The most painful thing in the world is not the pain itself, but that no matter how painful it is, it remains unmoved.
There is really no way for me to survive. Is it necessary to have a third surgery?
Sad.
terrible things still happen, it never progresses, only regresses, does not store, and cannot remember what it did.
The legs are getting stiffer, tighter and stuck again, and the time to maintain them is getting shorter and shorter.
I tried my best, endured all kinds of torture, rain or shine, the surgery took dozens of dollars, and the recovery and equipment cost more than ten dollars.
saved one incomplete leg, which was straightened at minus 20 degrees and bent at 70-80 degrees.
asked the surgeon if another surgery would improve the condition. The surgeon said, "No surgery will interfere in the short term. It will be better after the soft tissue softens."
Where is the road? I am speechless and ask the sky. I am so tired.
Besides pain, it is still pain. The key point is that it has not worked even after the pain. I don’t know how long it will last.
Fortunately, during these difficult days, my parents, relatives, and friends were all healthy, and my three children grew up smoothly. My daughter-in-law worked the hardest, and she always worked hard without complaining. I am very grateful to her.
The most important thing is that in difficult moments, I have my beloved chess by my side. I have loved chess for thirty years and reported on it for 15 years. They are magical spiritual companions and my chess friends are my support.
In every time of pain, playing a game of chess, writing an article, or live broadcasting a game will make people more energetic, as if they have forgotten all the body and pain.
If you sink into it wholeheartedly, there is a kind of magical power that is like the law, giving people strength, support, faith, will, sunshine, bathing in the sea of chess, and the return of dawn.
Over the years, he has authored tens of thousands of chess manuscripts, tens of millions of words, and broadcast hundreds of events. Everything has changed, but his dedication to chess has not changed.
No amount of suffering can stop a kind of love.
2022, I left nothing, I didn’t hold on to anything, I looked back in the middle of the night, tears came from it, I suddenly stood up, overwhelmed with sadness, 2023, come on, work hard, make everything better, bless me, thank you!
(Chess Prince)
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