I am Wu Yang. Click "Follow" in the upper right corner to share with you the [self-media writing operation] and [personal improvement] practical information every day. I'm a deaf person and have been there for 20 years. Like most patients, I was very concerned about deafness at t

I am Wu Yang. Click "Follow" in the upper right corner to share with you the [self-media writing operation] and [Personal improvement] practical information every day.

I am a deaf patient and have been doing this for 20 years.

, like most patients, I was very concerned about deafness at the beginning, and even reached the point of seeking death.

After all, it greatly hindered my life and made me feel worthless and had no meaning to live.

Fortunately, when I reach middle age, I have awakened and found my own direction in life.

1 A car accident came suddenly, rewriting life


19 years old, one weekend before graduating from technical secondary school, it was raining heavily. On the way to deliver raincoats to my father, I was hit by a car that broke into the sidewalk.

I fell into a severe coma and was in a critical condition. I went to the city hospital from the town hospital. Fortunately, the rescue was timely and I saved my life.

But the trauma visible to the naked eye - a 7-cm-long opening on the right side of the back of the head and two 3-cm-long round wounds next to the right ankle forced me to be hospitalized for two months.

In the first month, due to unbearable pain all over my body, I often lose my temper with my mother who worked hard to take care of me.

I remember changing the dressing once. Because the wound and bandage were seriously adhered to, I was in pain and refused to let the nurse change the dressing. My mother persuaded me, but I didn’t listen. I even smashed her with a pillow and drove her out.

Later the nurse said that if I don’t change the medicine, my right foot might be useless. I was so scared that I bit my mother’s arm out of two rows of tooth marks before changing the medicine.

The second month, I relieved my headache a lot, and I could walk with my limp, but the wound did not heal completely, so I had to continue to get injections and change the medicine in the hospital.

Because I had more leisure to think, I began to restless.

Thinking that the car accident caused me so much pain and made me miss the graduation assignment, I started to blame others and felt that God was unfair: Why is it someone else who did the wrong thing, but it is me who punished it?

2 Misfortunes never come in singularly, but extremely desperate
people often say, "The blessings come in unparalleled, but the misfortunes never come in singularly."

At first, I did not agree until I experienced it myself.

After all, the car accident just added a few scars to me, and the driver was responsible for drunk driving and the claim was smooth. This is a blessing.

However, I never expected that invisible internal injuries would also join in the fun. After

completely recovered from trauma, my aunt helped me find a job - a hotel waiter.

One day, ten well-dressed guests came to the VIP private room I was in charge. I dare not slacken and served me carefully. When I ordered the dishes in

, the hostess quickly reported a bunch of dishes. I didn't hear the count of a few abalone , so I asked again politely, but she impatiently accused me of having ear problems and shouted to change to a reliable waiter.

I apologized with a smile and promised to serve the food immediately and give another portion of fruit to calm the storm.

thought I had passed the test today, but unexpectedly, at the checkout, the hostess angrily scolded me for listening to the ten-headed baubles as five-headed baubles and asked me to pay the difference.

Afterwards, the manager did not deduct my money, but I was fired.

Later, I went for a test: mild neurodeafness. For me who has a strong personality, this result is undoubtedly sentenced to to .

cannot communicate with others easily, which means not only cannot do the work you like, but there is no work to do, so what's the point of living?

So, I locked myself in the room and didn't eat or drink for three days. My father couldn't stand it, so he used an axe to split the door lock and scolded me.

But I was filled with "uselessness" and couldn't listen to anything until my family helped me find a job in garment making. Although this job is hard, it really makes me feel relaxed and I have done it seriously for half a year.

But people's hearts are always not easy to satisfy, and a job that is not loved is destined to not last long.

So I changed my second job - teaching elementary school English, but I didn't expect that this job made me fall into deeper despair. I graduated from

English junior college and I am more than enough to teach elementary school, but the difficulty is never to teach, but to get along with others.

The head teacher Liu, who works with me, is a decisive and tough character. When I encounter someone she doesn't like, I always speak harshly. I endured it many times, but I still had a big fight with her.

She spoke out bluntly, accusing me of poor hearing to educate people is a misleading child, but I called her a scum in the education industry.

even if I delivered 120% sincerely, I still lost to "discrimination".

After going around in circles, I returned to the starting point with a wound. I never had the courage to go out to work anymore, I just wanted to live a life of silence.

3 The sea of ​​suffering is boundless, and it is the shore that turns back

A person lives alone, and he pursues two things: being loved and affirmed.

My family loves me very much, there is no doubt about this. The only knot in my heart is that it is not recognized by society.

Later I learned that I was not affirmed by myself, and I was always bound by myself and imprisoned by narrow cognition.

What drags me out of the dark quagmire is the book after book I have read seriously in the past two years.

For example, reading "My Ditan" by Shi Tiesheng , I began to think about death seriously and realized that death is a festival that will inevitably come. There is no need to rush to achieve success. No matter what I have experienced, trying to live well is the most important thing.

After reading "The Courage of Being Hate", I realized that my previous confused life was not caused by a car accident, but by my ignorant choice.

After reading "Knowing Awakening", I understood: Living itself is a value.

Read " The Road No One Walks " I learned: Everyone's life map can be modified. Only by constantly correcting the old map can the road of life be smoother and smoother...

Reading also made me regain the recognition of others.

The boring days of staying at home, writing essays is a great comfort for me. It is precisely because of this hobby that I signed up for a writing training class last year. After persisting for a few months, I earned royalties.

I remember when I got the first manuscript, I was so excited that the text could not be described.

And with the output of one article after another, I suddenly realized: Writing is my way out.

Now my heart knot has been resolved and the direction of life has been clear. This is the greatest blessing.

4 Live well and live up to

In the years of my tumult, two relatives who loved me the most left me.

One is grandma. During my car accident, she contracted all the work in my house - housework and farm work. She was so tired that she couldn't straighten her waist every day, and she still insisted on lying on the ground.

Due to long-term fatigue and worry, she fell ill not long after I was discharged from the hospital and never got up again.

Another one is my favorite mother. She has a heart disease and takes care of me day and night in the hospital. After being discharged from the hospital, she has to endure my unreasonable troubles, and has a lot of things to worry about at home and outside. Finally, she was overwhelmed and passed away at the age of 56.

Both close relatives left in a hurry and never left me a few words, but I know that they all hope that I will live well.

In order not to let them down and for the future of my children, I must cherish the rest of my life several times.

I love my body and no longer be angry with it, but insist on exercising;

I improve myself, no longer be confused, but insist on reading;

I treat my family well, no longer be mean and harsh, but kind.

Every day, I try my best to do my best.

Looking back at the past, it seems like a waste of life, but it is not a kind of precipitation. After years of polishing, my heart is getting stronger and stronger.

In this way, car accidents and deafness are a single asset for me. With such enlightenment, what else can stump me for the rest of my life?

5 written at the end

At this moment, I bravely wrote down the secret buried in my heart, that is, I defeated my own inner demons and walked out of my own heart prison.

To be honest, my younger brother and sister have always opposed my own foundation when writing articles because they are afraid that I will be discriminated against again.

But I think that facing yourself bravely is truly loving yourself; and only those who truly love yourself will be fearless of everything.

I hope that you can learn to truly love yourself without fear of all the difficulties in life when you see me sharing this article sincerely.

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