However, whenever I try to type on the keyboard, I will involuntarily fall into a deep shock, my mind is blank and I cannot form effective thinking and discourse.

In fact, it happened half a year ago, and I had the urge to share it in words. However, whenever I try to type on the keyboard, I will involuntarily fall into a deep shock, my mind is blank and I cannot form effective thinking and discourse.

After half a year of precipitation, today I once again had the urge to record it.

This summer is the hottest time. My girlfriend and I went to the base to shave the long-haired dogs to prevent some dogs from being heatstroke. At the same time, you must also check and deal with otitis media , nails, skin diseases and some simple trauma problems.

In order not to bring the jump home again, we wore the tight dustproof clothing , which is similar to Dabai.

Entering the largest bitch pen in the base, the dogs are so excited. He rushed forward and rushed towards his body, and suddenly he was covered in feces, urine, mud and water. Before I could work, I was already soaked inside and outside.

While comforting the dogs' emotions, sweat flowed straight into our eyes, making us unable to open our eyes.

These dogs are not like domestic dogs, and 99% of them have not been shaved in their lives. Almost no active cooperation.

We need one person to be responsible for controlling the dog, while another person has the potential to advance the work. However, if one or several dogs come to make trouble at this time. Then, the work has to stop. The mood of working is a bit like rescuing the wounded on the battlefield.

So, while we were doing it, we drove away the naughty hairy children, yelling and pushing.

Ordinary dogs will retreat briefly or escape when they encounter our "resistance". However, there was a red Alaska head that was always between me and the service dog, blocking my view in a way that looked at me. Its eyes were quiet.

I was a little curious at the time because dogs rarely look at people like this, and they can't drive her away no matter how hard they drive them.

However, it may be because the weather is too hot, or I am also affected by the troubles of these dogs. I quickly lost patience with this Alaska, kept scolding her, and pushed her away with force.

But her eyes were still so gentle, and she came over again and again, very close to my face.

is like this, and a few hours passed without realizing it. I was already exhausted, and every time I stood up, my eyes were dark for a few seconds.

took a look and it was basically cut. Only this red Alaska is left, this last one.

Because, usually I leave the hardest to the end.

What unexpectedly surprised me was that this Alaska is the most obedient here and fully cooperated with me. The process went surprisingly smoothly, and my anxiety calmed down a little. By chance, I found that her gaze never stopped, as if she was trying to convey some message to me.

soon, her work has entered the final stage. When I finally shaved her reproductive area, I was suddenly shocked by the scene in front of me, and the charging fasteners fell to the ground.

What organ of her completely fell out of her vagina and hung outside her body. The blood was left along the inside of the hind leg little by little.

I suddenly thought of this kind of disease in which the uterus of a female dog I read in the book.

Day I knew how long she had been like this, and my tears fell instantly, and I was so anxious that I was at a loss, not knowing how to help her.

However, she still accepted and swallowed everything about me with her eyes.

If I didn't meet her, she might die. Or she has long stopped resisting death.

It seems that all these diseases have nothing to do with her, and it is even more like this happening to me. Instead, she was comforting me.

Just imagine, as a human who claims to be the spirit of all things on this planet, she encountered this situation and learned how to be an organ that should have grown in her body.

I think, either I scare myself crazy or I will desperately attack innocent people with words or actions.

In short, it is impossible to treat other lives you encounter at the end of your life in this quiet and gentle way.

No help, no sadness, no fear, no hideousness.

Some of them are: deep comfort, sincere care, sincere cherishment, deep understanding, thorough forgiveness, all forgiveness, long-term waiting and unconditional love...

At this moment, I was trembling all over and tears were pouring.

I felt her heart--a sincere heart before her life blooms.

She silently conveyed her heart to the depths of my soul.

I also saw my own image in its eyes.

I, a former sinner, have been a great evil man who has harmed countless creatures because of his selfishness. He can also be accepted and loved unconditionally so gently. The intimacy of

suddenly resonated in my deepest part, and the energy like the explosion of nuclear bomb exploded in every cell of my cell.

This is a kind of transformation after being cleansed and forgiven.

She communicated with me silently and reflected my true identity back to myself...

I didn't expect what was repeatedly said in the book, and it happened in such a fate and form.

We immediately took her to the hospital and had birth control surgery.

Half a year later, she gained a lot of weight...

Thank God for leaving each of us the opportunity to save ourselves. Don’t turn a blind eye and receive it happily...