Childhood sweethearts 23 years, from school uniforms to wedding dresses, they can't stand a few soft and delicate words from lovers from heaven.
After the divorce, I cleaned up the mess of my marriage.
But I found that everything seemed not that simple...
Gong Chen and I are childhood sweethearts.
We got married as soon as we graduated from university, and it has been 3 years now.
Our story was once passed down as a good story by classmates.
But who would have thought that marriage is too different from love. The firewood, rice, oil and salt have eroded the flowers under the moon. The two of them are too strong and they can always thrust into the most vulnerable places of the other party.
contradictions gradually accumulate.
Jiang Yufei's appearance became the first "domino" to be pushed down.
1
Last year, Gong Chen enrolled in German classes at a training institution due to work.
Jiang Yufei is his German teacher.
discovered another relationship between them, when I ordered takeaway with Gong Chen’s mobile phone last year. The default address of
App is the German classroom, while the order content is milk tea, desserts and flowers every once in a while.
The woman's intuition made me open his WeChat, and the conversation between German grammar discussions was particularly dazzling.
Jiang Yufei: Thank you for your company last night.
Gong Chen: OK, let’s talk about it tomorrow.
followed by a 5200 transfer record.
Ko that day Jiang Yufei said, Gong Chen told me that he worked overtime in the company and even sent me a WeChat message.
I never thought that when he replied to these ill text messages, he would hold another woman.
It’s me? !
I am not a rational person, and even more so when facing Gong Chen.
So as soon as Gong Chen walked into the bedroom, I subconsciously threw my phone out.
The mobile phone quickly drew a straight line in the air and hit him accurately at the unprepared him.
"Ah" sounded, he covered his forehead and slowly slid to the ground. The blood slowly oozed out, dyeing his white fingers red.
When he reacted, he leaned on the bedroom door and shouted weakly and hysterically: "Su Keke, are you fucking crazy?! Do you want me to die?"
I threw my phone into his arms and paused word by word: "Gong Chen, you see clearly, who wants who wants who wants me to die?"
It's not Jiang Yufei who wants me to die, it's Gong Chen.
He clearly knows that we have been childhood sweethearts for 23 years.
It is clear that I have always been worried about the fact that we broke up in a different place in college back then. I sat down in the green hard seat of 43 hours and rushed to his dormitory and witnessed him kissing his senior sister with his own eyes.
The night when I smashed his forehead, he packed up his daily necessities and moved out of our house consciously.
Later, when the seasons changed, he would occasionally come back to pack up his things and crawl into the cloakroom with a calm face without saying a word.
The familiar sound of opening drawers and working clothes hangers will be heard in the cloakroom.
Then, not long after, a "bang" sounded, just as he closed the door and walked away from the house.
When I returned to the cloakroom to look, the area in his wardrobe was empty again.
We have been separated for more than a year now, and the four seasons have changed and his clothes have been taken away without leaving.
We have never spoken again in the past year.
I thought we would remain silent.
I just didn’t expect that it would be Jiang Yufei who broke the silence.
2
The first time I saw Jiang Yufei, I knew I had lost.
is younger and better than me, with cold white skin, a faint crimson at the end of the eyes, and a little shy when you smile. Elegant, gentle and pure.
I can't remember what she said.
I only remember that whenever she talks, the ring necklace on her neck will flash under the lights with the rhythm of her speech, shining with a dark golden light.
That is the limited edition of my favorite brand. I like it very much, and Gong Chen always said that he couldn't buy it.
This brand is niche and expensive, and few people buy it.
made me think more.
Every time I think about it, my heart hurts.
Even if Gong Chen and I were upset and the cold war lasted for a long time, when Jiang Yufei sat in front of me, wearing the necklace that Gong Chen gave her, and saying every true and heart-wrenching words, the world seemed to suddenly become dark.
"In the first half of last year, after we finished class, when I got out, I saw Gong Chen sitting in the car and not leaving yet. I asked him why he didn't leave? He said, he didn't want to go home." Observing my emotions, Jiang Yufei said calmly, "I have been restrained in the question of liking him, but I really couldn't help comforting him that day."
"So, the way you comfort him is to sleep with him?" I sneered.
"He is not a person who is greedy for fresh bodies." Jiang Yufei said sternly, "So, it's not his problem."
Yes, Gong Chen has been very outstanding since childhood, smart and restrained, calm and rational, I know this. But I didn't expect Jiang Yufei to protect him at this time.
"So what is the purpose of asking me to come?" I looked out the window, and there were already drizzling rain marks on the glass.
"I want you to let Gong Chen go. Let him go..."
"This is not your concern." Before she finished speaking, I stood up and said, "Let Gong Chen come and tell me."
3
3
and Gong Chen and I entered the same kindergarten at the age of 3.
On the first day of entering the kindergarten, I was crying with more than 30 children.
Gong Chen, who was sitting next to him, held an Ultraman and kept kicking my arm, muttering in a silence: "Ultraman eliminates the big crybag~"
seriously affected my performance.
After several times of unsuccessful use, I decisively pulled up his fleshy arm and bit it hard.
Finally, Gong Chen, the last kid in the class who did not cry, also joined the crying nose conference.
Maybe it was biting too hard. The next day, Gong Chen’s parents found the kindergarten, and the kindergarten brought my parents again.
should have been a scene where both sides were particularly jealous when they met, but when both sides found out that they were comrades-in-arms, it turned into a peaceful and harmonious "family recognition conference".
"Is this your girl?"
"Is this your boy? Sorry, the girl has a bad temper."
"Everything. What's the point of a boy losing? Tell you, stop crying, hold back your tears!"
...
Gong Chen and I were like this, from kindergarten to high school, we were in the same school.
He has been very good-looking since childhood. He was clean and handsome in high school, and his academic performance was also good. His cold and rebellious temperament attracted many girls.
When I was adolescent, I was fat to 150 pounds due to hormone problems, and my face was covered with acne.
is a very tragic comparison.
But at that time we were on a day study, Uncle Gong ordered him to send me home after evening study every day before he could go home.
So after school at night, on the small path on campus, Gong Chen often had a tall figure carrying a backpack with his hands behind his head, and slowly walked my long legs to take me home.
Until one day, in the women's bathroom, I clearly heard the mean ridicule of the girl outside: "The handsome guy should be very confident in his genetic gene ." "It's so handsome, but unfortunately his eyes are not very good."
I was delayed for a long time before going out. Gong Chen was waiting for me outside the bathroom and handed me something: "So long? Is my aunt here?"
"Gong Chen, do you think I'm ugly and fat?" I asked him.
Gong Chen was stunned for a moment: "No."
We didn't say anything from the fourth floor to the teaching building.
Until we walked to the path by the playground, the street lights shone down from our heads, and Gong Chen gently poked my arm: "Why are you unhappy?"
He pointed at my shadow and teased me: "Look at your shadow, it looks like a round little balloon."
"Are the real-life handsome guy and beast?"
--In the toilet, the words of the girls sneered suddenly surged into my heart, and countless moments of strange eyes flashed across us by others. Now even Gong Chen is using shadow to suggest my figure. Suddenly, with a loud "click", something in his heart broke.
"Gong Chen, do you think you are very good? What does it have to do with me if you are very good?!" I threw the Wangzai milk he bought for me to the ground.
"I'm ugly and fat, it doesn't prevent me from looking down on you!"
Adolescent girls are particularly sensitive. I cried all night and had a high fever the next day.
Gong Chen was grabbed by Uncle Gong to apologize to me. Actually, I already knew it was my fault at that time, but I didn't say a word to me.
Gong Chen didn't say a word either.
"Two stubborn children, we are going together." After Gong Chen was taken out by Uncle Gong's ears, his mother gritted her teeth and felt sorry for her.
"Su Keke, if you two want to get along well, you will change your temper, otherwise you will break up as soon as possible."
I never thought that on an ordinary afternoon, my mother who was sitting by my bed peeling an apple came true.
4
After a high fever, I seemed to have opened up Ren Du meridians . In the next senior year, I studied and dieted, and with less than Gong Chen's feeding, I quickly lost 110 kilograms.
The college entrance examination was over and the two families were having a dinner together, I specially followed the beauty blogger to have a pink and tender peach blossom makeup.
Since the last high fever, we have never said anything in the whole third year of high school.
This time he saw me, except for politely saying hello, he did not have too many expressions.
That night, the parents of both parties who were rescued by the college entrance examination drank happily and stopped drunk.
When I got up and went out to the terrace garden to wake up, I saw Gong Chen sitting on the bench. I haven't seen him for a year. I looked carefully and looked more three-dimensional and beautiful.
A faint starlight shone on his body, and his faint face was ascetic tenderness.
A beat was missing.
But the body turned around subconsciously and wanted to go back.
Gong Chen spoke behind his back: "Su Keke, I'm sorry."
I was stunned for a moment, and suddenly remembered that the last time we broke up was because he said that my shadow was like a balloon.
didn't know how to speak for a moment, but he walked over from behind and gently pulled me to the corner covered by palm tree .
beside the railing, he held my waist, wrapped me in his arms, and bullied me down little by little.
His arms have the clear fragrance of a boy, and there is also a gentle and domineering possessiveness of a man.
Attacked, I felt the feeling of a deer bumping around for the first time in my life.
He said, "You are young and have no conscience, how long will you be angry?"
I blushed and looked up, pretending to be calm and faced his gaze: "What are you doing? Can't I be angry with you?"
He smiled, "Of course, you can, you can be angry once, I will coax you once..."
He rubbed his nose with his nose, and his voice was very clear and gentle: "No, okay?...No more angry..."
Until his breathing became hotter and hotter, until his palms were tightly pressed against each other, until his tongue told me that he had known each other for 15 years...
The thoughts of boys and girls were as charming as Hoshino on his head, witnessing us learning to reconcile for the first time.
5
Gong Chen applied to the university that I liked the city and studied architecture. It is his ideal major, but not the best university for him. On the day of applying for the application, I felt the first time Aunt Gong’s dissatisfaction with me. She said, “Coco, if you really like Chenchen, you should discuss more and choose a favorable school.”
I went to find Gong Chen crying, but Gong Chen coaxed me and said, “I forgot to tell my mother that I have liked the university and city you chose, even earlier than you like.”
Unfortunately, Gong Chen went to the university I like. However, because my major score was not enough, I went to another university a thousand kilometers away from him after several adjustments.
Whenever I call Gong Chen and hear his voice dry and hoarse throat when the season changes, I feel full of guilt.
We have been in a long-distance relationship for four years, and fell asleep with each other's text messages every day. One of them, we had a fierce quarrel. Finally he said, Coco, do you know that I am tired sometimes? I said break up. He hesitated for a moment and said, OK.
That was the first time we said we had broken up. Although it was because of my reasons, when I waited and couldn't see him calling me, I panicked.
I bought the nearest hard seats and took the 43-hour green train to his dormitory downstairs.
That day, it was snowing heavily in his city. The girl stood on tiptoe and kissed his lips gently.
He put his hands in his black down jacket pocket and did not hide.
That was the most hurt moment of my life. I stood in the snow, letting my tears turn into ice. Through the thin layer of ice, I watched the girl gently pull his arms up and gently press her head against his shoulders.
That was a crack in my heart, just like he once said that my shadow was like a balloon.
I never told him how deeply this hurt me, but I was secretly competing in my heart.
Even at the sweetest moment, the two figures snuggling with each other in the heavy snow always pop up, reminding me: "Su Keke, be more awake."
If you want to say what's wrong with childhood sweethearts, this is also considered one.
Since childhood, only the other person's love is too pure, so pure that it cannot withstand a grain of sand.
6
Speaking of which, in our love, Gong Chen is a part of his dedication. He always guides me and teaches me after learning everything to avoid detours.
For example, in high school, the questions we wrong were basically the same, because my problem-solving ideas were completely copied to him.
For example, when I first started working, Gong Chen always listened to me patiently about the company and then helped me sort out the complex interpersonal relationships.
For example, when you go home, your mother always says, "Your tone is exactly the same as Gong Chen."
For example, just like now, on the way home from Jiang Yufei, the car in the driveway next to me was quickly jumping in front of my car. I only remember that Gong Chen said, "If you give the speed, don't give the way, you must first ensure that you are safe." There was no slowdown under your feet.
"Clang—" and the car hit the taillight of the train.
The car stopped in front of me, and the driver held an umbrella and threw the car door with an angry face, pointing to me in the driver's seat.
Through the front windshield covered by rain and fog, my mouth shape probably said: "Do you have any fucking eyes? Are you blind?" and so on.
I'm a little scared.
I have never touched the refueling gun before driving, except for moving forward and backward. It was all handled by Gong Chen.
I remembered that Gong Chen told me again that if a scratch occurs on the road, the other party will be very angry. Don’t worry, call the insurance first. After thinking about it, he said, "You don't know what to say, so call me."
Call Gong Chen!
Give to Gong Chen, Gong Chen...
But the moment I picked up the phone, I suddenly remembered that I had just met Gong Chen’s mistress.
We...
We can never go back again...
Tears fell down our cheeks.
Outside the window of the car, the driver in front of me was angrily pounding the glass of the car next to me, and the sound of the whistle of the car behind me echoed one after another.
I felt so uncomfortable, it was even worse than when I saw a girl kissing Gong Chen in the heavy snow...
7
I lay on the steering wheel, I don’t know how long it took until I looked up and saw that the person standing outside the car window was a little intern at our company.
"Mr. Su..." His handsome work clothes were soaked in the rain, and he was pressed against his cold and upright figure.
htmlIt's been a little dark for 0 days. If I don't look at his face carefully, I would think that it's Gong Chen who is standing next to me.But he looks a little more well-behaved than Gong Chen, without the cold abstinence of Gong Chen, and there is a little more gentle between his eyebrows and eyes.
"Why are you here?" I waved my hand and let him sit in the passenger seat.
He wanted to pick up his backpack and put it on his seat, but his backpack was also soaked. He looked at me with innocent eyes: "I just passed by and saw your car. There must be a scratch. I saw that you were uncomfortable and I have negotiated with the driver to resolve it."
I raised my head, and the driver in front of me was walking into the car with an umbrella. It didn't take long to start the car.
It’s such a heavy rain, the young intern has been standing in the rain for so long, so she helped me solve the problem.
I felt a warmth in my heart.
chatted all the time.
I said, "In the situation just now, should I let him go to the line?"
He said, "No. You did it right." After thinking about it, he said, "But Mr. Su is already so perfect. You have to give others some paths."
answered very smartly. I smiled.
He said, "Mr. Su, the first time I saw you laughing, and the first time I knew you would be in trouble."
I said, "Am I strong?"
He said, "At least in front of me. I don't know if you still remember that you were one of the interviewers when I first met. Only you had no expression on all my answers."
How could I not remember him? That day I interviewed the interns with Human Resources. HR said he was the best intern ever interviewed, with clear logic, independent thinking, active and calm thinking. For the first time, I felt that I was strong and didn’t even dare to look at each other a trainee.
I said, "There were too many people interviewing that day, I don't remember you."
He smiled and said, "It's okay, just remember it in the future."
He was wet all over, not warm in this early autumn season, or the strange emotions in his heart were madly causing trouble.
So when the next intersection was waiting for the traffic light, I pretended to put my hand on the steering wheel casually, looked at the front casually and said, "Go to my house to change some clothes." In front of
is the drooping night, and the lights in the thousands of houses began to flash.
He seemed to have been thinking for a long time, and said in a low voice: "Okay."
Men and women in the world, some things do not need to be pointed out deliberately.
8
Now the young intern is holding my wrist back, and we have retreated to the bedside.
The ice mint flavor of Gong Chen's common toothpaste filled my mouth and nose, which was so charming.
For a moment, I wondered if Gong Chen and Jiang Yufei would be like this when they were together? Will Gong Chen also see my shadow in a detail in Jiang Yufei?
"Mr. Su..." The little intern with wet hair, her face was only a few centimeters away from me, and her childish Adam's apple rolled in front of me a few times.
A trace of undetectable tension flashed in his eyes.
A moment of flash, an idea jumped into my mind: This is his first time!
is exactly the same as Gong Chen’s first time.
It was the summer vacation of sophomore year. The power broke out in Gongchen's community. He ran to our house to get the air conditioner. That day, my parents went to work, and only the two of us were at home.
On a sleepy afternoon, I hid in Gong Chen's arms and watched the movie. After watching it for a while, I said, "Gong Chen, this movie is so boring. Do you want to watch something fun?"
Gong Chen's chin was pressing against my head: "What?"
I smiled mysteriously, flipped through my phone a few times, and opened the short video. After watching
for a while, I asked Gong Chen, "Is it very thorny..."
turned his head and his warm kiss fell down.
"Do you want to give it a try?" He whispered in my ears with a hoarse voice.
At first kiss, but because both of them were too nervous, they were caught by my mother who came back from get off work early...
I will never forget Gong Chen's expression that day. He looked at my mother awkwardly, then looked at me smirking, and finally shyly buried a handsome red face in my neck...
The little intern in front of me looked really similar to Gong Chen at that time...
I remembered the past with Gong Chen.
suddenly lost interest.
I touched the back of the young intern: "No, okay?"
Gong Chen
1
1
In the group of the university club, a message popped up: "Senior sister is gone."
Turn off the screen of the mobile phone, facing the lights all over the city, my eyes felt a little sour.
This is an expected result, just like the river will eventually flow into the sea and the clock will eventually point to zero.
Her life will eventually end in a few years.
I can often remember her face.
Five years ago, on that heavy snowy day, she said to me, "Gong Chen, after knowing my illness, he broke up with me, and didn't even show his face."
She looked at me and smiled bitterly: "You look as good as him."Can I kiss you? It was a farewell to him. ”
I haven’t figured out how to answer.
A kiss with tears fell on my lips.
She leaned on my shoulder and sobbed, saying, "Gong Chen, why is it so difficult to find someone who loves me?"
I still don't know how to answer.
But subconsciously, when you hear the word "love", Su Keke's face jumps out.
The girl who taught me to love.
2
3 When I was old, I was bitten by Su Keke.
After returning home, my dad actually said, "This little girl is like a doll, very cute."
My dad likes his daughter, but I am a son.
So Su Keke came to our house and was indulged as if he was going back to his own home.
I have always treated her as a little sister.
She flipped through my stuff, drew my basketball with ghost drawing talismans, made me fried eggs, and lay on my shoulder while I was doing my homework and asked me to carry her on my back...
She got sleepy while making a fuss, and when she was sleepy, she lay on my bed and fell asleep.
When you fall asleep, you will be 17 years old.
After 17 years old, Coco rarely comes to my house, and the house has become much quieter.
Dad said, "Did you provoke Coco? Why didn't she come?"
How can I know why.
But I always feel empty in my heart, as if there is a piece of empty space.
I lied that there was a hooligan on the way to school. My dad asked me to take her home. Every day, I would wait for her at the door of the classroom after evening self-study.
She always dashed until the last one came out.
carried the schoolbag on her body, lowering her head, making me unable to see her face.
Finally one day, I don’t know why, I just said that her shadow is as cute as a balloon.
was scolded loudly by her on the way from school.
The classmate on the road pointed and the basketball team came over and hugged me: "Gong Chen, do you like this one?"
I asked angrily: "Which one?"
Maybe I was too fierce, and they didn't tell me in the end.
Which Suco is?
3
Which one is she?
I haven't figured it out yet.
still didn't have the courage to open his mouth when apologizing to her.
The year of the Cold War was the third year of high school.
course is familiar to me.
Only Su Ke is the biggest problem.
When she was having dinner in the restaurant, she never sat in the position we used to sit; she would sometimes smile and chat with boys and pass by the downstairs; when she passed by the basketball court, she would never bring me a bottle of ice water to give me...
I don’t know how we got to this point.
can be over the college entrance examination. When we sat face to face at the table, looking at her familiar face from a close distance, more than ten years of companionship and happiness came over in an instant.
I said to her, "Coco, I'm sorry."
Although I don't know why I want to say "I'm sorry".
But no matter it, as long as I say sorry, she smiled.
Just let's be together.
4
Just let's be together.
"One day, I saw the sunset forty-three times. You know, when a person feels very sad, he likes to watch the sunset."
I shook my head and desperately threw out these things that had inexplicably entered my mind.
Su Keke
9
I received news of my mother-in-law's death when I was at work.
On the phone, my father-in-law's voice choked so hard that he couldn't speak. He said, "Coco, come and see your mother for the last time."
is like a thunderbolt from the sky.
I feel a biting sadness that I have never experienced before.
It seems that it was not long ago that the four of us were having dinner and chatting and laughing together. She also grabbed Gong Chen and I in the ears and urged us to have children. The things that left the house were not finished yet...
The "Aunt Gong" who could make me feel more warm than my own mother, the person who worked hard for the three of us left...
In an instant, I felt the cruelty of the adult world.
The people you love leave one by one, and even smile will bring sadness in the future.
…What makes us never go back?
My crying frightened the little intern standing at the door.
He was pushing the door with the coffee I bought for me downstairs. He mistakenly thought that I regretted seeing him and stood in front of my desk and was in a hurry:
"Mr. Su, I'm sorry, I was impulsive yesterday, but after you said 'no', nothing happened to us..."
Death erected a high barrier.
Later, I couldn't hear anything he said.
The warm pictures that gradually flashed through my mind were like roaring floods that annihilated me in an instant.
I grabbed the car key and walked out. Because my legs were weak, I almost fell down several times. Finally, I decided to take a taxi back to my mother-in-law's house in Lin City.
10
I stood in front of my mother-in-law's portrait, crying in the room, trembling with tears. I didn't notice the door behind me quietly opened. I walked in alone: "Dad, I'll inform my uncle and others..."
The words ended in an instant. Gong Chen was stunned and looked at me with a little surprise: "Coco?!"
His eyes were covered with red bloodshot, his eyes were a little blue and black, and stubble had grown on his chin.
—He definitely didn't have a good rest.
And my mother-in-law's illness suddenly came, and during this year I even just looked at her in a hurry.
... All the words were frozen in my throat, and I just felt everything in front of me became blurred, and countless joys, angers and guilt whizzed through my heart.
I stood there with red eyes.
Gong Chen didn't say anything, took off the incense that was about to be burned, lit the new incense with a lighter, inserted it. During this process, the incense ash floated a little, floating to the corners of the smiling mother-in-law's eyes on the black and white.
The gentle curling of smoke was like a drop of tears.
Gong Chen held the portrait in his arms and wiped it with his fingers, but the tears seemed to fall into eternity and could never be wiped away again.
After a while, he lowered his head and said in a muffled voice: "Coco, I have no mother anymore."
The light shining into the room at dusk, and Gong Chen's familiar outline appeared in the mottled light and shadow, arrogant and deserted. In the blurred tears, the face of my beloved boy gradually overlaps with the depths of my memory.
At that moment, a kind of sadness that almost made me surrender faintly surged in my heart.
"Gong Chen..." I stretched out my hand to him, my fingertips trembled.
However, at this moment, he suddenly raised his head and said indifferently: "When I send my mother, let's go and complete the divorce procedures."
divorce...divorce.
His voice echoed in the sad room.
Yes, I am no longer the ignorant and innocent little girl from the past, and the person who can do evil in his heart is no longer me.
The torrent of time rolled forward. As soon as we let go, we didn't know when we got separated.
A wall at the door is neatly hung with photos of our two families during the Chinese New Year every year.
The music of the Spring Festival Gala seems to be ringing in my ears. In the sound of firecrackers and fireworks year by year, Gong Chen and I once grew up like small trees.
But now we are not the children on the roof of the garden hotel when we were 18 years old. The couple could return to each other's lives with just one hug.
can't go back.
When he returned to me with the dirty secret about betrayal at the beginning, he could no longer go back; when I smashed his forehead with my phone, he could no longer go back; when we had to face death, we could no longer go back.
It’s a pity to give up, but the days when you can’t go back always have their own reasons.
Before turning around, Gong Chen's uncontrollable tears fell on his mother-in-law's portrait.
"Okay, after sending my mother, we will go to divorce." I felt my words and words, like a murmur.
11
The day of divorce was the last time I saw Gong Chen.
We stood in the courtyard of the Civil Affairs Bureau, holding the newly-produced divorce certificate .
The summer noon sun makes our face hurt, but we stood face to face under the bright sun, and no one wanted to leave.
"Gong Chen, what kind of person are you... I am so stupid. I have been together for 23 years, but I seem to know nothing about you."
Gong Chen looked at me, and a reluctant smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "No need to understand, there is a high probability that we will not see each other again."
I looked at her calmly. Gong Chen in front of him was still clear and clear - but his eyes became distant, no longer like the person he had been facing each other for 23 years. People who once disobeyed my elders, taught me to grow up, and tolerated all my little tempers and bad habits have long disappeared from time.
"No matter what, it's my fault." Gong Chen smiled and calmly stuffed all the bank cards in his hand into my open bag. "I don't want the house either. I'll notify me when the transfer will be made."
--In order to leave me as soon as possible, Gong Chen actually chose to leave the house with nothing? He and Jiang Yufei... have already reached this level?
I stood blankly under the sun, watching him silently, trembling uncontrollably.
Gong Chen's figure was hidden under the shade of the ginkgo tree not far away. Jiang Yufei's silhouette came up. Then they turned their heads and whispered with sincerity, and entered Gong Chen's car shoulder to shoulder.
12
Uncle Gong has returned to abroad to manage his business.
In recent years, he and Aunt Gong have been doing business abroad. Because Aunt Gong was sick, she only returned to her hometown for a while in the past two years.
Before leaving, I went to his house to see him.
He looked at the photo of our family of four and said, "Coco, I advised Chenchen. But you both are stubborn children, and no one would say anything more. Our family of four is separated. But life still needs to continue."
Things change, everything goes away.
I want to speak and tears flow first.
Later, I heard from my mother that Gong Chen also went abroad.
He would occasionally send some supplements to my parents, but he didn't ask about any of my current situation.
At first, my mother was very angry and distributed all the things Gong Chen sent to her neighbors, but she was clean.
But after a long time, when she looked at my distracted state, she would sigh and sigh:
"Two good kids, how can we get to this point?"
When I went to the dry cleaning shop to pick up the washed clothes, the owner said apologetically: "I'm sorry, Mr. Gong's shirt has never been taken. I didn't know you were from the family before."
The white shirt lay in the palm of my hand, looking at me with open arms, and the dimples smiled faintly: "Hug, baby."
Many times, I want to send him a message and ask him if he is okay?
, but after countless entanglements, the screen was turned off.
Pain can make people feel the length of a second more than happiness.
In countless windless nights, the entangled thoughts receded like a tide after the peak, leaving endless fatigue.
will really be trance.
When the young intern gave me flowers, he hid behind the flowers. His cold and upright figure really looked like Gong Chen...
13
"Give it to the cutest girl, Coco."
I glanced at the elegant handwriting on the gift card and almost laughed out loud: "Qin Le, if I don't divorce, I will be the girl's mother."
"We are only 4 years old." Qin Le sat on the rotating chair opposite me, raised his eyebrows and looked at me, "Sister Coco, when I first met you, I thought you were also an intern, so..."
is so good to be young, and I will play straight balls when confessing my love, without blocking it, for fear of being laughed at.
But when this ball comes, I may die.
I picked up my bag and interrupted Qin Le: "It's time to get off work, intern. You don't have to work overtime all night, right? There's no overtime pay."
Qin Le shrugged as if seeing through, and threw the car key into the air, and then fell steadily in his palm: "Let's go, sister. It's too late. Send you home."
Qin Le likes me, he said he likes my "knowing the world but not the worldly", and I have a kind of cute silly that belongs to a child alone.
I think he is too young and probably doesn’t know how much protection, love and security he needs to be enough to immerse his childishness? What kind of person should be desperately stood in front of you in order to grow up "know the worldly but not the worldly".
After Gong Chen left, my life seemed to be adjusted to Hard mode.
I gradually classified from the chat group discussing "desserts, SKII, Chanel" to "Which supermarket is discounting, which fund has good returns recently, how to quickly unblock the sewer pipe..."
The trivialities of the adult world suddenly fell from the sky. Learning life skills made me anxious and calcified. My chin was so crazy that I had acne and I was "pressure-weight" by 10 pounds.
How did Gong Chen do it?
Three years of marriage life, Gong Chen was like a piece of uncensored jade polished by the days, and became more gentle and transparent.
I knelt on the ground and cleaned up the floor drain that was blocked by my hair.
I think it must be because Gong Chen had an affair, so he could face the mess calmly with the guilt and the tenderness he had obtained from others.
must be yes, must be yes.
14
Four seasons have turned into a cycle.
When it is time for the end of June, Qin Le is about to graduate.
When I drove to school to help him deliver the internship certificate, he briefly and enthusiastically introduced to his roommate: "Sister Coco."
The roommate suddenly realized his expression: "Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
He was wearing a white T-shirt and walked with me on the road to campus, his shadow was tall and cold under the street lights.
In an instant, I actually felt like I was walking with Gong Chen when I was back in college.
At that time, Gong Chen often came to me across 1,000 kilometers, carrying a schoolbag of his university city specialties, wax beef and soft crispy.
He stood in front of the teaching building waiting for me to finish class, waited for me to run into his arms, and pinched my face in front of his classmates: "Su Keke, why are you so thin?"
This love can be remembered.
at that time just thought it was ordinary.
…
“Sister Coco, I rejected the company’s offer.” Qin Le’s words pulled me out of my memories.
I looked at him in surprise: "It's hard to get a fresh graduate in your position."
He stopped and looked at me, and said slowly: "I didn't like that intern position at that time, just because the young lady who first met was very cute."
He smiled again. Although he was younger than me, he smiled a little pampered: "It's really cute. In two years, except for work, he never replied on WeChat, and he didn't say a word, not giving any possibility of development. So he resigned because the young lady was so cute, so he wouldn't bother her."
He smiled handsomely and beautifully. I seemed to have never looked at him so seriously.
"Although I never got it, I feel a little painful when I lose it." Qin Le rubbed my head and turned around and hugged me, "But goodbye, coco."
I was nestled in his warm and broad arms, not knowing what to say.
It took a long time to hear my voice dull: "Thank you, Qin Le."
Thank you, thank you for liked me once.
15
That day, when the resort called on the weekend, I was rushing for the manuscript with the chicken bait that I hadn't slept all night.
"Hello, Mrs. Gong, Qingteng Holiday Hotel. Can you come here tonight when you booked a suite with Mr. Gong?"
I looked at the time in the lower right corner of the computer and suddenly remembered that Gong Chen and I did book this hotel.
Three years ago, this resort was newly opened. We called and asked, and on the wedding anniversary, all the empty rooms for the past two years had been booked.
so we booked directly on the 5th anniversary of the wedding.
Three years have passed, and there is still a phone call to remind me of the connection between me and Gong Chen.
This call seems to have been called from the past, traveling through time and betrayal.
It’s a pity that expired sugar, no matter how sweet it is, you can’t eat it.
I refused.
My mother also came to my house at this time.He leaned over through the bedroom door: "Did Qin Le come here today?"
I held my laptop and wrote, but didn't look up: "Why did Qin Le come here? He has already resigned."
My mother kicked the door open, and stood beside my bed with two bags of vegetables and meat in her hands, her voice changing tone: "Su Keke, are you wrong? Dogs can tell that Qin Le likes you, why don't you grasp it?"
"Why should I be sure? I'm divorced and he just graduated, is it possible?"
"Is it possible? I am your mother, I just hope you are well! Can you still forget Gong Chen? How could I give birth to such a futile daughter like you!"
"..." I don't know how to defend my mother, and stood up and changed into pajamas and went out.
"Su Keke! I told you before! You and Gong Chen are so stubborn, how can you live! Now, Gong Chen is no longer stubborn, and you are gone abroad! Why can't you turn your head?!!"
"What do you think of you?! Do you still want to live alone for the rest of your life?..."
I took the car key and closed my mother's complaints behind the door.
16
I drove towards Qingteng Resort.
The car is driving very fast.
The scenery gradually passes by, like scenes in life that you don’t have time to think about.
I remembered again when I was 3 years old, I bit and cried Gong Chen.
7 When Gong Chen carefully took out a piece of "super delicious" wedding cake he brought back from his wedding banquet from his pocket.
12 When I was 12 years old, Gong Chen fought with a male deskmate who bullied me. He was criticized by the whole school and wrote a 5,000-word check.
16 When I was old, my mother and I quarreled over the exam results. Gong Chen was the first to find me in the park. The warmth in his arms swallowed me.
18 The year after the college entrance examination at the age of 18, we determined our feelings, the relationship changed from friendship to love, and we had each other's best first kiss on the hotel terrace garden.
…
22 When I was old, I heard that many people in the company pursued Gong Chen and were worried that Gong Chen would change his mind every day. Gong Chen suddenly proposed to me at a family gathering.
24 When we were old, we went on vacation together. At night, we walked along the beach and said, and we walked 30,000 steps, and we still had endless things to say when we returned to the hotel.
…
It seems that everything was yesterday.
Tears blurred my vision.
Immediately, countless complex emotions surged in my heart.
These days, when I started to learn to live alone again, I realized that Gong Chen had paid too much from the beginning.
I seem to be used to his care, and I am used to complaining that strawberries are not sweet and sunsets are not good-looking.
, but I forgot that even if I carefully selected it, not every strawberry is very sweet. Even if I am optimistic about the weather forecast, the sudden dark clouds will disrupt the plan.
I seem to have forgotten that Gong Chen should not be an omnipotent superman since he was a child.
I dare not accept that I miss Gong Chen.
The most important thing but what I dare not accept the most is that I still believe in Gong Chen and his childhood sweetheart.
I believe him.
is actually better than believing in myself.
Gong Chen? Gong Chen! ...
With a "bang", my eyes went black.
In an instant, endless darkness surrounded me. The darkness coming from the ground carried a huge suction force and pulled me down...
is so dark.
…
is so cold.
is so scared.
is a little sad.
If Gong Chen was there, that would be great.
Gong Chen
1
I lost my memory for a while, after my brain cancer surgery.
I guess I should have memories.
Especially the stars have just lit up the night sky, and a faint starlight has spread.
"Coco."
A girl's name will gently ring in her heart.
Over time, memory slowly recovers.
I finally remember the girl who grew up with me. The time to contact her on her mobile phone stopped a year and a half ago, and the last sentence was agreed to get her divorce certificate.
I remember the time when I was just sick, and my mother was seriously ill. Seeing her life pass by bit by bit, I felt a heart-wrenching pain.
had hesitation.
Until that day, we watched a movie about life and death separation together.
, crying, Coco lay in my arms and said, "Gong Chen, I must leave before you in the future. Don't leave me alone." The people who stayed are far more painful than those who left.
Since I may not be the one who stays.
, so don’t leave memories.
I took advantage of the deliberately misunderstanding with Jiang Yufei and decided to leave Coco's life.
is very lonely.
—If, facing the countdown to death, it is just a person.
2
In order to cooperate with the treatment, I stayed abroad for two years.
The latest medical technology has enabled complex diseases to get a chance to cure life-beat.
Doctor told me that when I was winning the bet, I suddenly wanted to share my joy with Coco the most. I have thought about the scenes of our long separation and reunion countless times.
I will definitely hug her tightly and tell her that I have not cheated, I just...
I just don't want to face her when I am in a bad state and let her share the pain.
But I never thought that our meeting will be in the hospital.
On the day after the quarantine, I received a call from the hospital.
"Gong Chen... Gong Chen..." On the hospital bed, the sound of Coco calling my name was like a sharp blade, stomping on my heart.
How can I forgive myself?
Because I know, I know the location where she had an accident, less than 1 km from our booked hotel to celebrate the 5th anniversary of the wedding anniversary.
Su Keke is such a fool!
Before I left, I had obviously pretended to betray her.
It is obvious that in her new book, the cheating man was retaliated by his wife and mistress, leaving the house in vain and being ruined.
When the relationship between us is like an out of control fire pit.
Why did she still go to this agreement?
3
"How about following? The male protagonist is sick. Do you want to make an excuse to leave the female protagonist?" Su Keke sat next to him and wrote, turning his head and squinted his eyes to ask me.
pink hairband next with an extremely cute face.
I thought for a while, "I'd better not." Put down the book in my hand and hugged her shoulders, "That sentence is not said, the life that has been agreed, is not a minute or a second."
But Su Keke pulled out a surgical settlement form from behind from a foreign hospital: "Then why is my Gong Chen like this?"
...
...
Before I could react, my delicate arms hugged my waist tightly: "Gong Chen, don't leave me alone in the future."
I lowered my head and kissed her hair, as if I had returned to that summer night, and the beautiful and clean breath of gardenia on the 18-year-old Coco hugged me again.
I hugged her and said, "I'm sorry, I won't be separated."
Things in the world are complicated and society is so complicated. Many people say that love cannot trust it. What's wrong with love itself?
In the beginning, love did not represent diamond rings, roses, houses and cars. Love did not carry "men are unreliable" and "women only recognize money". Love has not defined irreconcilable couples, mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, and even workplace conflicts...
We gave love too much support and had too many requirements for it.
I actually forgot, love is also very wronged, love is just love.
Love is just the rooftop in the summer of 18 years old, the night we kissed for the first time.
No matter how you were disappointed with me at that time, Su Keke, thank you for never being disappointed with love.
This is the original mind like an immortal lamp, taking us through disease, life and death, and chaos, and coming together again.
I kissed her finger: "I love you, Su Keke. It has never changed."
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