Edie Sedgwick I knew very early on that I would not live long.
At that time, she was still very young and couldn't wait to graduate from college, so she dropped out of school and came to New York.
New York is such a great place, endless art exhibitions and endless carnival parties.
She quickly fell in this colorful world, like a fish in water.
One day, she met a woman who could look at palmistry at a party.
She spread her palms out for the other party, successfully making the other party stunned.
She couldn't help laughing and said while laughing:
"I know, my lifeline is very broken. I know I can't live to be 30."
Then she slid into the dance floor, twisting her waist like a snake, looking intoxicated.
The dance floor is filled with drunken men and women, just like her.
But she looks so unique again.
seems like the brightest star in the crowd.
is so beautiful and so heartbreaking.
She eventually died at the age of 28.
's words come true.
Edie Sedgwick was once popular in the United States.
A head of unruly golden hair, exaggerated smoky makeup, huge crystal earrings, and the iconic beauty mole on the cheek .
and paired with bold and avant-garde clothes, endless cigarettes, unbridled words and deeds, and extravagant and decadent daily life.
All of this together constitute Edie Sedgwick in the memory of that generation.
Writer George Plinton once described the shock brought to him by Edie:
"When I was with her, time seemed to stop. She had a kind of charming beauty, slender legs, pale face and lips, like a lost animal."
Her unique beauty and personality are perfect for that turbulent era.
In those years, a "hippie" wind blew in the United States.
Where the storm swept, young people "awakened" from restraint and dullness.
They advocate decadence, dress in a strange way, and be innovative.
"Bad Girl" Edi emerged like this and became a modern Icon that is sought after by young people.
She is the "Youth Earthquakeman" described by the magazine "Vogue".
is also the "representative figure of youth culture" in the era as "the priestess in fashion" Diana Freeland mentioned.
Her unique charm has even captured many musical talents in the rock circle.
Rolling Stones lead singer Mick Jagger , and gate band lead singer Jim Morrison both have loved her.
The "Underground Velvet Band" that was popular back then, as well as Bob Dylan , etc., have written songs for Edie.
This girl with both sexy and handsomeness was once pampered by thousands of people and was the focus of the spotlight pursuit.
However, the past has gone far, and all the glory has disappeared.
Now that she is mentioned again, there are only two tags left: Andy Warhol 's "superstar" and Bob Dylan's ex-girlfriend.
One is a famous pop art master and the other is a palace-level rock and roll superstar.
They are the two most important men in Edie's life.
Because of them, Edi became famous and had a glory.
Also because of them, she was desperate and heartbroken, and she was depraved.
Ironically, after Edie's death, these two men who had been treated sincerely by her both pretended not to be familiar with her.
One said in an interview: Actually, I don’t know her very much.
Another one denied that she had an intimate relationship with her from beginning to end.
Human feelings are so indifferent, I can’t help but feel heartbroken when I think about it.
For a whole year, Andy Warhol spoiled Eddy.
They met in early 1965.
Edy was 22 years old at the time and had dropped out of the Cambridge Women's Arts College to come to New York for a year.
And Andy is nearly 40 years old, and his identity is complex and changeable.
is a painter and publisher, and an underground film director and an underground band agent.
Although Andy was already a well-known pioneer artist at that time, he was only known as "famous", financially distressed, poor and poor.
The first time I saw Edie, surprise flashed in Andy's eyes.
"She is such a girl with a lot of problems."
He used the word "fault", but everyone who knows him knows that this maverick artist is praising her.
This young girl who dresses strangely, has a unique style that she admires.
He immediately invited her to star in his movie.
He took Edie to his studio to visit, opening the door to a new world for her.
Andy's studio is called "Factory", hidden in the abandoned workshop on 47th Avenue in the East Side of New York.
In the 1960s and 1970s, this place was definitely a magical existence and was called the heart of New York's underground culture at that time.
Here gathers a large number of weirdos who were not recognized by the mainstream circle at that time.
The nameless painter with a weird style, an art student who defected from home, an unrecognized underground film maker, and a rock band without fame.
and marginal people who have nothing to do with art, such as homosexuality, addicts, transvestites, idle gangsters, etc.
This is a place where people are mixed, but Edie, who is rebellious by nature, thinks it is great.
She likes the free, wild, unbridled atmosphere here.
also likes these "geniuses" with personality, avant-garde and unique styles.
Here, Edie felt that her breathing was smooth and her life was beautiful for the first time.
also felt recognized and needed for the first time.
She is the most popular "Warhol Girl" in the studio.
Andy used her as inspiration to create a series of pop art works.
has also arranged for the screenwriter to tailor the movie script for Edie.
In just one year, Edie participated in Andy's 9 underground films in one go.
That year, they always went out to be together and were inseparable.
When facing the media, Andy, who has always been aloof and taciturn, even claimed high-profilely that Edie was a "superstar" and "factory queen".
Soon, Edie's name became louder in the art, fashion and entertainment circles.
At the end of that year, Edith appeared on the cover of LIFE magazine, with the title saying "Superstar in the underground film industry."
In March of the following year, her figure appeared in the number one magazine in fashion, "Vogue".
This is the highlight of Edie's life.
Then, she began to fall into endless scandals, and then suddenly fell from her peak and was crushed to pieces.
Edy once said that Bob Dylan was her first and last person she loved deeply. When we met, she was the "Queen of Underground Movies" who was in the limelight and was a folk singer who was popular all over the country.
are both popular stars, but their personalities are completely different.
Bob is calm and restrained, has a strong literary atmosphere, and has a bit of bookish spirit.
, and Edie is enthusiastic and flamboyant, and there is no lack of innocence and straightforwardness in decadence.
The most important thing is that Bob has the trait that Edie has always longed for, that is, gentleness, calmness, and unswervingness.
Maybe that's what makes Eddy fall in love with him at first sight and begins to examine his own depraved and out-of-control life for the first time.
She has always had a great addiction to smoking and alcohol.
Since she was in the "factory", she has become more indulgent, smokes more fiercely, and often gets drunk.
What's even more terrifying is that under the induced by those addicts, she gradually became addicted to drugs.
One night, Edie, who had just finished injecting drugs, swayed back home. After she poured
on the bed, she habitually lit a cigarette. As a result, as soon as he took a sip, his consciousness completely fell into drowsiness.
Finally, her apartment was completely destroyed by a fire.
She was unconscious and was rescued by the police in time, and the scandal of her drug-loving scandal spread.
However, it was precisely because of this fire that Eddie was forced to move to the Chelsea Hotel for a temporary stay, and then he met Bob who also lived here.
Bob obviously has a good impression of Edie too.
They often chat together for several hours.
Edy began to watch Bob's performances frequently.
She is his most devout fan. She sat upright in the audience, looking up at her "God" without blinking.
Bob loves cats, and his pet "Rolling Stone" gave birth to a litter of cubs, so he gave one of them to Edith.
Edie named the cat "Smoke" and hugged it when she was nothing to do.
She called her brother and said she fell in love with Bob, and said she was very happy, and she had never had before.
She was deeply obsessed with him and wanted to tell the world so that everyone could know.
She no longer stays in the "factory" for a long time.
Occasionally goes back to film, and she always keeps her mouth shut and says "Bob".
She said how happy she got along with Bob, and said Andy should invite Bob to the "factory" and everyone worked together to make a movie.
Her face was full of joy and vitality, which was very different from her decadent and confused image in the past.
Andy was very unhappy with Edie's changes and no longer arranged for her to participate in the "factory" movie.
But Edie didn't care.
Because she has decided to leave the "factory" and sign with Bob's agent.
She wants to start over and spend a normal and happy life with Bob.
It’s a pity that God wants to make people do.
Destruction comes so rapidly.
First, the economy went bankrupt.
Edi's family background is prominent and he is a famous family.
Her father is an oil merchant, rancher, sculptor, philanthropist.
After learning that his daughter was unrestrained in New York and was squandering his money, he no longer paid any bills for his daughter and only paid half of the rent for her every month.
Without the support of the family's financial resources, Edie, who was used to living a wealthy daughter, suddenly fell into poverty.
She tried to find fashion editors, producers, and directors she knew, hoping that they could provide her with a job.
But because of the drug scandal, both the fashion and film and television industry have put her on the blacklist.
In desperation, in February 1966, she went to find Andy, hoping that he could pay for the filming for him in the early stage.
Her "naiveness" attracted ruthless ridicule from a group of people.
It turns out that Andy never pays any pay for actors who star in the "factory" movie.
Edy was both embarrassed and wronged, and began to hysterically accuse Andy.
She said he used her, overdrawed all her wealth, made her addicted to drugs, and ruined her reputation.
Andy did not lose her composure, but instead told her a message calmly.
He said, do you know, Bob is already married.
Edi was stunned after hearing this.
She rushed to Bob's residence to verify.
result only caused a silence from the other party. The truth about
is self-evident.
Bob did marry model Sarah Loudon in November 1965.
Edi completely crashed.
She was locked in the room and drunk, took drugs, cried bitterly, and lived like a maggot.
She developed a serious drug dependence on anesthesia and sedatives, and often mixed drugs with alcohol to drink.
Because she has gone completely bankrupt, she can only use the valuable things she has to exchange for needs with others.
The jewelry left to her by my grandmother, the luxury goods she bought herself, disappeared one by one.
Until there is nothing to exchange, she betrays her body to the motorcycle party.
Day after day, her body quickly decayed and her spirit became more and more dazed.
Finally, Edie, who was skinny and mentally abnormal, was taken back to her hometown by her brother Santa Barbara .
In the last few years of his life, Eddie was between the mental hospital in his hometown and the drug rehabilitation center , and his condition was sometimes good and sometimes bad.
At the end of 1971, she passed away suddenly.
In the video materials left by Edie, she can often be seen smiling unscrupulously.
But that's just the mask she used to disguise herself.
, director of the Santa Barbara Museum, Sam Green, once said regretfully:
, "Edi has some very fragile parts. Everyone loves her and even respects her. But everyone knows that she is actually very fragile."
, who looks careless, actually has an extremely fragile and sensitive heart.
This excessively neurotic personality trait has both family genetic factors and a huge impact on childhood experience.
Edi's family is rich, but has a history of mental illness.
Her father and grandfather are both mentally ill.
Edi's two brothers were also sent to mental hospitals due to mental problems, and one ended up committing suicide and the other died in a car accident.
The tragic deaths of the two brothers caused a great mental impact on Edie.
But what made her completely disappointed with her family and affection was the ruthlessness of her family.
Edi always feels that she is an "orphan" in the big family, fighting alone and helpless.
At the funeral of the two brothers, the whole family had a cold expression and did not shed a single tear.
Edi said that in the end she finished crying for the whole family.
In addition, she not only cannot feel the warmth in this home, but also has to remain highly vigilant.
Because since she was 8 years old, her father has tried every means to go to her bed.
Another time, she accidentally saw a ridiculous thing about her father and her daughter neighbor.
When she told her mother about the matter, her mother said nothing.
As a result, Edie was accused of being mentally insanity by her father, and paranoia attacked.
At the strong request of his father, the family doctor injected the young Edie with anesthesia and sedation several times.
This may be the source of her adult drug addiction.
After experiencing such a bad childhood, Eddie, who grew up, had negative thoughts and decadent life, and became a complete pessimist.
Subconsciously, she always thought that her life would be as short as her dead brothers.
So she doesn't have any hope for the future, she just indulges herself and gets involved in all bad habits, thinking that the more she falls, the happier she is.
However, letting desires flow will only bring about endless emptiness in the heart and complete loss of control in life. After leaving New York, Eddy also tried to save herself.
She cooperated with mental therapy and worked hard to get rid of drugs.
In July 1971, she also married her sunny and cheerful patient Michael Puste.
After marriage, under the comfort of her husband, Edie's symptoms of drug addiction and alcoholism improved.
However, the good times did not last long.
In November of the same year, Edie broke down again because she was insulted as a "drug" at a cocktail party.
The next day, she was found dead from drug overdose and alcohol poisoning.
A few days ago, she just celebrated her 28th birthday.
Edi personally ruined herself in the best years.
She is manipulated by drugs and alcohol, and because of her easy trust in others and simple and ignorant side in her personality, she is hit hard by reality and cannot recover.
Just because of the little attention Andy gave to everyone, and the few flatteries from the "factory", she treated Andy as her father and idol, and treated the various "demons" in the "factory" as her confidants.
She was heart-wrenching and did not hesitate to sink with them, but was willing to pay their bills and overdraw all her savings.
Later, I met Bob and mistakenly confused "love" as "love".
rashly understood the ambiguous game of the prodigal son in love as the sincere love of the one who is willing to win the one-hearted person.
Little do you know that the selfishness and indifference deep in human nature are far beyond her imagination.
The two men she once treated sincerely never gave her sincere heart.
Bob approached her and teased her, more because of the need for genius creation, and to pick up sparks of inspiration through fresh passion.
From the beginning, she was just one of his countless confidants.
And he is like countless prodigal sons in love, always just wanting to talk about love and refuse to say love.
But Edie regarded him as the love of his life, the only one in this life.
Her final hysteria embarrassed Bob, and thus became a passerby who was never recognized by him.
And Andy's cruelty is that he treats Edie as a tool from beginning to end.
What he has always loved is the "problem" in her, the contradictory beauty that is both naive and degenerate.
Her decadence, confusion and pain are the "potential" that inspires his artistic inspiration, and also the "masterpiece" he wants to present to the world.
So he saw her joining those addicts, taking drugs and drinking more and more depraved. Not only did he not stop him, he indulged him intentionally or unintentionally.
ruthlessly abandoned Andy when she discovered that she was trying to return to "normal".
On the second day after Edie's death, the media interviewed him and mentioned the final parting between the two. He said in an almost cold tone:
"This happened a long time ago, and I actually don't know her very much."
Ridiculous and annoying is that four years after Edie's death, Andy used a whole chapter to express his love for Edie in his artistic autobiography "The Philosophy of Andy Warhol".
In his book, he said that Edie was the best thing in the 1960s .
also likens Edie to a "taxi", because "a taxi can become anything you want her to become - little girl, woman, smart, ignorant and stupid, rich, poor, anything." This cold analogy of
is described by Chen Danqing as "innocent selfishness, pathological innocence."
However, since his selfishness has caused harm to others, how can the saying "innocent" come from?
The years are desolate, and the once vivid Edi has long been transformed into the remains of time.
Although half a century has passed, her early death is still regrettable.
Life has both joy and pain.
You can often share joy with others, but pain is often unexpressible and cannot be expressed.
When the pain that tear the soul strikes, how to deal with it?
is like Edie, who chooses to escape from pain, indulge himself, and escape into the illusory world.
or choose to face the pain, restrain desires, and temper your life to become more tenacious. What will happen to
depends on yourself.
Just remember: everyone must pay for their choice.
