The reason why it is late is that my mood is still at a low point until now. These scenes, at this moment, seemed like a lifetime ago. I left regrets, regretting it, and hated me why I didn’t call him back in time yesterday.

I'm sorry, I'm writing this article late. The reason why it is late is that my mood is still at a low point until now. These scenes, at this moment, seemed like a lifetime ago. I left regrets, regretting it, and hated me why I didn’t call him back in time yesterday.

More than 30 hours have passed since the incident. I still think that if I had called me yesterday morning, Professor Pang might not have bid farewell to the world in such a heroic way. Of course, he didn't get the call, and he didn't get it. Maybe he won't answer it even after it rang, but this can only be a guess and there is no more convincing ending.

As Professor Pang Jianguo’s comrade-in-arms, I didn’t communicate much with him, but we have maintained close cooperation until yesterday. Professor Pang is simple, kind and loves to think. Although we are separated by , Taiwan Strait , we have always given each other endless trust. I still remember when I was chatting with him on WeChat last month, I wish him good health as soon as possible, and I hope he can come to the mainland to play after the epidemic. I am responsible for the whole reception, and he happily agreed. Unfortunately, this agreement can never be realized again.

In fact, I have known that Professor Pang is actively fighting cancer, and I have also worried that he would leave us if he could not resist the invasion of cancer cells one day, but I never thought that he would use this method to wake us up and awaken the whole Chinese!

"In unfair Taiwan, I am better than death!" This is his last words to me at 4:39 am yesterday.

and I woke up at 5:52 and replied to him "What's wrong"?

Then at 6:18, he asked him "What happened"...

He did not reply to my message, and when I learned his message, it was already the cold news on TV that "Pang Jianguo fell from the building and died."

Rumors are everywhere in the market, I still don’t know what happened! The only thing I can rule out is that he did not give up resistance because of the disease, and chose to surrender. Every time he asked about his condition with concern, the reply he gave me was always inspiring words like "I am still fighting with cancer cells."

Last night, I talked with Yi Han, a student of Professor Pang in Taiwan. Yi Han told me clearly that Professor Pang not only did not retreat in the fight against the disease, but maintained an optimistic attitude. Recently, because his condition improved, he just returned to school to attend classes. This is a great good news, which made me think that Professor Pang's fall from the building would be an accident.

However, when I saw the monologue of Professor Pang’s widow, I completely understood that this was a prepared action. Before Professor Pang Jianguo fell from the building, he left two notes at home, one of which reads: "I am not as good as death in unfair Taiwan" , while the other one was written to his wife Qiu Xiuzhen , which reads: "Thank you for your love and dedication".

Professor Pang and his wife Qiu Xiuzhen

It is obvious that he has already made up his mind to die.

He died so heroically, and he jumped like "The Bell of War" and "Look Back", tearing my heart and touching my nerves.

Later I learned that he left a message to all groups and friends that "warning words". He shouted with all his might, and he cried out at the top of his lungs. He used death to express his ambitions, which was very similar to the Chen Tianhua in the old China, going to the national crisis, just for the awakening of the world.

Unfortunately, I don’t know whether the Kuomintang on the island has awakened, whether they are still in a daze, obsessed with internal friction, and are still passively waiting for their own destruction.

Professor Pang Jianguo is unwilling to wait for this desperate future. He hopes to do his best to make his former colleagues unite, cheer up, and save Taiwan's future.

The historical mission of this generation has brought Taiwan to the embrace of the motherland. Professor Pang Jianguo chose to be the first martyr in the new era to sacrifice for Taiwan's future, but he will never be the last one.Because everyone understands that any result of victory requires blood and tears. We will continue to inherit Professor Pang's will, turn the "unfair and unjust" Taiwan into a "fair and just" Taiwan, and let the five-star red flag be planted on Taiwan's land.

My heart is still heavy, and I wish I could follow Professor Pang. But when I think of this unfinished career, I turn my grief into infinite power, exhaust my life's energy, and do everything for the ideals of all Chinese people!

Professor Pang may have seen the message I left to him before he fell off the building, and also saw the message from other friends. Maybe he had thought about replying to something, but at that time he was ashamed and despair filled his heart.

And I am also ashamed, but I know that we cannot give up, we cannot give up, we must persevere until the final victory!

Professor Pang Jianguo, go well.