This is the 305th true story of "Self-shooting"
If you have a story, please send me a private message to me
Li Chengxi/oral
Kong Ningjing/written
Guagua/edited
I am Li Chengxi ( Autumn 2016, my senior street shot was in front of the 100th anniversary lecture hall of Peking University. 
995, I was born in Fuding City in Ningde, Fujian. 18 years before I went to college, I had all been there. Living in this small place. Fuding has a Tongshan Creek. All the houses are built along the river. Life is very comfortable and surrounded by mountains and water. My impression of my hometown is: delicious, delicious, and fun.
I live with my mother and grandmother. They are the people I am closest to. My mother is an anxious temper. We often quarrel about small things, but we will make up soon. When I was in the third grade of elementary school, I learned piano. Once I didn’t want to practice piano, she got angry. She came over, opened my palm, and slapped twice.
My third birthday photo.
My third birthday photo.
My third birthday photo.
My third birthday photo. html l5
I don’t remember whether I was crying or not. After being slapped, I sat alone in the room. Unexpectedly, after a while, my mother came in and took the initiative to apologize to me and said sorry to me. Mom shouldn’t do this. This is the only time she has fought with me. Since then, when I make my mother angry, I will also take the initiative to communicate with her, or write a note on her dressing table and post it on her door, and apologize quietly.
My relationship with my mother is like a friend and sister. Now that I have grown up, I still say anything to her. Many children can’t talk to their parents about topics, so I can tell my mother.
When I was one and a half years old, I took a photo with my mother in the studio.
I have been a child who has a lot of desire to perform since I was a child. When I went to karaoke with my uncle and aunt, or when I heard singing on the TV at home, I would dance on the sofa and dance to the music. When the kindergarten organized a performance, I would always be the one who stood in the middle to dance.
My mother saw my performance like this, and she thought I liked dancing very much, so she sent me to a dance interest class. When I was five or six years old, I went to the city's workers' club three times a week for classes, two hours at a time. Learning dance is very consistent with my active personality. From elementary school to high school, my dance class has been unstoppable for more than ten years.
Memorial photos left after primary school attending the art performance.
only once shaken the idea of learning dance. During that time, the family’s financial situation was not good, so my mother came to discuss with me whether she could stop learning dance? Although I had tears in my eyes, I still said it was OK. Maybe my sensibility exceeded my mother's expectations. She couldn't bear to let me give up my favorite things, so she finally decided to let me continue to learn.
Fujian Province held an ballet competition. I went to Xiamen to participate in the gold medal. One of the judges was the dean of Fujian Song and Dance Theater , and the dean of Xiamen Little Egret Dance Academy. After I finished the performance, they went to my mother and asked if I could send my children to their place to study and take the professional dance path. At that time, my mother thought that my academic performance was quite good and I didn’t consider going to the artistic direction for the time being. If you chose dance at that time, it would be equivalent to choosing a certain path, but as an interest, you will have more choices in the future.
In 2004, I won the gold medal in the provincial dance competition in Xiamen.
The basic exercises of dance are boring and painful, but I never thought of giving up once. I am a person who is not afraid of hardship and enjoys the hardship process. I remember one time I had stomachache . My grandmother advised me not to practice today. I said no, I must practice.
In terms of learning, I am not a hard-working academic master. When the teacher mentioned me, he would use "ghost elves" and "ghost genius" to describe me, because in the eyes of teachers and classmates, I am a very "double-sided" person.
Although I ranked among the top in the grades, I love to play and dress up, and I am not a good student in the traditional sense. I like to go to school in a beautiful dress, with small suspenders and small skirts. This kind of dress is really a headache for the teacher. Several times the teacher told me tactfully, hoping that I won’t be too personal.
In 2004, I went to Beijing to participate in a dance competition and went to the Forbidden City for the first time to play. I was dressed very fashionable.
In addition to being more in terms of dressing, I don’t completely listen to the teacher in terms of learning. I never accept all the homework assigned by the teacher. I don’t like the tactics of a sea of questions and have my own learning methods and plans. These learning habits that are different from those of my classmates often make the teacher feel that I have an incorrect attitude.
When I was in elementary school, the class teacher said that your learning attitude will drop after you go to junior high school; the junior high school teacher would say that if you continue to study like this, you will not be able to keep up in high school. In addition to praise, I have also heard a lot of negative words since I was a child. I am not used to explanations and just want to respond with actions.
score has always been among the top few in the grade. I have always been ranked first in the city for math competitions of all sizes. people around me think it is natural for me to go to Tsinghua and Peking University, but in fact, in my heart, there are two ideal institutions that are completely different in directions. One is to take Tsinghua and Peking University, and the other is to take Beijing Film Academy Central Academy of Drama.
When I was in high school, I participated in the art performance in Fuding City.
Fuding is a county-level city, and everyone's thinking is relatively conservative. Ordinary parents think that as long as they have good grades, they don't want their children to take the art exam. However, students with special talents and art candidates have two concepts. The special talents exam passes the early batch exam, recruits some students with special talents, and lowers the college entrance examination score line to be admitted. My dance teacher at that time accidentally saw the admission information for students with artistic talents online, and told me that I hope I will try it. I also think that since I have been learning to dance, why not give myself an extra chance to try?
Before the third year of high school, I started preparing for the exam for Tsinghua art students. It took about half a year, and I took dance classes four times a week, once for two hours. has to attend classes during the day and go dancing during evening self-study. It sounds quite tiring, but since I was a child, I have arranged very much every day, including student work, various activities, and I have endless things to do, so I can adapt.
No one expected that after preparing for so long, I didn’t even have the chance to take the exam in the end. Tsinghua dance specialties need to undergo strict height measurement, and girls must reach 163 cm. Generally, when measuring height, everyone will naturally relax and stand on the instrument, but they press your heels very hard, and I measured it only 162.8 cm. My other girl and I were both unable to take the exam because we were two or three millimeters apart, so we were burned out after half a year of hard work.
When I was in my second year of high school, my biggest task was to prepare for the exam for special talents.
Another girl in the same group immediately cried out at the waiting for the exam. In addition to being sad, I was more angry at that time, and I was not convinced and unwilling to accept it. I said to the girl who was crying, "Don't cry, at worst, let's get through the naked exam."
After I got home, I focused all my energy on the cultural class, and the pressure of reviewing and preparing for the exam was greater than before. One night, I suddenly became very negative and sent a message to my mother, saying that I don’t want to take the college entrance examination anymore. The only time I got emotionally broken because of learning. At that time, I felt that whether it was my parents or teachers, I had high expectations for me and felt that I could get into a particularly good school, and I was particularly worried that I would let them down. Fortunately, the final result was good. In the 2013 college entrance examination, I won the top scorer in science in Fuding City, and ranked 24th in the province.
Peking University and Tsinghua Admissions Office called. Tsinghua can choose any other major except economic management. I can’t choose any other majors at Peking University Guanghua Management College , but Peking University has a Yuanpei College that can take all majors in the school. My interest at that time was inclined to study economics-related majors. and the teacher at Peking University Admissions Office knew that I liked dancing and told me that I could join the dance troupe after I went there. I was moved. Go to Peking University! The moment I made the decision , I was very relieved. Later, my four years at Peking University were enough to make me not regret this choice.
Just as I entered school in my senior year, I attended the freshman dance at Peking University (me on the right).
After I went to Yuanpei College, I chose many economics-related courses, including monetary banking, finance, and marketing . Businessman was one of my ideal professions when I was a child. In elementary school, I tried wholesale small stationery and sold them in class, and saved up waste materials and used the recycled money for class expenses. In high school, I also participated in bidding for the school flea market. I have been very interested in "buying and selling" since I was a child.
In addition to the compulsory categories, I have selected various interesting courses in the school that are related to my interests, including the "Performance Theory and Practice" course from the School of Arts. I look forward to taking performance classes every week. The teacher will assign some small homework to let the students practice lines and shoot small works. These are all things I like.
Outside of the classroom, the most I do is dance in the dance troupe. The dance troupe has training classes every Friday, and the training at other times will be arranged according to the performance tasks. Every year, our dance troupe will participate in the National College Student Art Festival. Before the exhibition, you may spend four to seven hours a day in the dance troupe, and everyone will choreograph and practice together.
college time, dance troupe course photos.
What impressed me most was that before the new solar activity center of Peking University was built, we actually had no fixed rehearsal venues, and sometimes we went to Qiu Deba Gymnasium to find free venues to rehearse. The windows are large floor-to-ceiling glass. The rehearsals are too late. Looking out from the gymnasium, you can still see Zhongguancun North Street with lights on. It's over. Maybe a few good friends have made an appointment to Wudaokou for a midnight snack. This kind of life still makes me miss it.
Photos of dance troupe members rehearsing at Qiu Deba Gymnasium (I am in the second left of the first row). Although
is not an artistic talent student, because of the , the boy's skills , who practiced dancing since childhood, may have given me a more solid basic skills than some of the talent students in the dance troupe. At the beginning of rehearsing, the leader may assume that the level of non-special students is not that good. When they rehearsed other dances that I did not join, I would also learn from the side, wanting to prove myself. Over time, they found that I was dancing even better than the members who had been arranged on the show, so they would line me up too. After getting familiar with me, I became friends with many specialties.
junior year, behind-the-scenes photos of the dance troupe rehearsing the special performance of the "A Dance Class" (I am the second from the left).
Because I like acting, I rushed as soon as I saw the opportunity. I also participated in the school's new student micro-film " No. 5 Summer Palace Road ". Peking University shoots a micro-film every year and puts it on the CD for freshmen's admission. When I saw the recruitment of actors, I said I must go. I like to perform and have this opportunity. Why not go? I went to the interview and met my senior who interviewed me that night. He told me: You have chosen the heroine. The heroine in the play is set as a student with artistic talents in the school, and her personality is very similar to mine, like my life in school. The entire shooting process took about ten days, and the film lasted for more than ten or twenty minutes. This is the first time I faced the camera. Now it seems that the performance is quite immature, but at that time, I didn’t regard the performance as a professional direction. I had no burden in my heart and was very relaxed overall. Because it is a student team, everyone encourages each other more, and the students' feedback on the film was also very good. This experience made me enjoy it very much.
"No. 5 Summer Palace Road" finished photo (I am standing in the middle, wearing a red skirt).
At Peking University, everyone's living conditions are very different. Take our dormitory for example. They are all from Yuanpei College. Four people from each major are condensed in such an environment, two study economics, one study law, and the other study mathematics. Some people are still living in their senior year of high school, going to the library and doing questions every day, some focus on student work, and some are busy with social activities and internships... I just spent in the dance troupe when I had nothing to do. I have always been a clearer plan for myself and are not very influenced by others, so I rarely get "filled".
When I was in college, my future plan was to start working in finance first after graduation. I have tried some internships in the financial industry, but the work that college students can do in this industry is very small. They are just ordinary interns who cannot access specific business-level things. In addition to being able to put forward some ideas and suggestions during meetings, most of the practical practices are very basic.
photo with a college roommate, everyone comes from different majors (I am the first on the left).
When I was in my sophomore year, a senior I was an agent at Huayi Brothers. He asked me if I wanted to be an actor. At that time, I really didn’t have the courage to say that I could make up my mind to do this job. When I was in my junior year, a variety show came to the school dance troupe to recruit people. I had visited several variety shows before, but I was not interested, but this was a variety show that I could learn to perform, so I signed up without hesitation. went to Shanghai for an interview and passed layers of auditions, but because of concerns about postponing graduation, he gave up in the last round. It was an attempt to take one step and retreat.
017, as I graduated, I hesitated whether I would suspend my studies for one year and try whether the entertainment industry is suitable for me. I can go to the crew and play a supporting role, even if I play a supporting role, I just want to spend a year to let myself feel whether I can. I even mentioned this idea with the teacher in the college. I was surprised and the teacher was very supportive. He encouraged me that Yuanpei's students should do what they want to do. I should not be defined by the label "Peking University". Instead, it is the power of my brave choice.
In the summer of 2017, I graduated from Peking University.
After I had this decision in my mind, I only submitted my resume to one company during the job search season. That company was considered a leader in the financial industry at that time. If admitted, it would be basically the highest platform job that undergraduate graduates could find at that time. After handing over my resume, I interviewed four times in a week and had practical interviews. Finally, they admitted me to the headquarters in an extraordinary way. When I received the offer, I was struggling after a round of confusion. Because I couldn’t miss the opportunity that was already in front of me, I went to Hong Kong with a box and started my work and life.
During that time, I often woke up when I was sleeping at night, and my eyes were always covered with red bloodshots. I am a Capricorn, a workaholic, and the high-intensity work made me very tired. stayed in Hong Kong for less than half a year. I returned to Beijing and worked in another company recommended by my alumni for another year.
Due to personal reasons, my condition was already very bad at that time and was in a low mood. people would unconsciously think about whether what you are doing now is meaningful? What exactly do you want? At that time, I felt that if I could not give up on my dream of acting, it might be too late to do it again. The development of the actor industry has no age limit, and it can be achieved until it is 50, 60, or 70 years old, but there are age restrictions for entering the industry, especially for girls. In just a few days, I decided to change careers completely.
When I was working in Hong Kong, I took a casual view of the scenery.
I have thought about the pros and cons of changing careers into the entertainment industry. The biggest problem with changing careers is the uncertainty of this industry. The efforts and returns may not be proportional at all, and the income is not certain.Even if I can accept these things myself, what about mom? After making the decision, I sent my mother a long text message, expressing my thoughts in two or three hundred words.
She called me immediately. At the beginning, I definitely expressed my lack of understanding. As an adult, she also had prejudice against this industry and was afraid that I would be hurt. But she knew my personality and knew that I was a person who was difficult to be shaken after making a decision. In the end, she said: What else can I do? I can only support you.
Before I told my mother, I found some seniors who worked in the film and television industry to understand the situation and did some investigations. One of the seniors advised me for three days and said that this industry is really difficult. In his eyes, is it not good for me to continue to do finance, get married and get married, and live a comfortable life?
I am not satisfied with seeing the future industry at a glance, nor do I like to see the future life at a glance. The clear upward channel and development path are not that attractive to me. To take a step back, the way out I left myself is that if I don’t start this industry, I will also have the confidence to start from another industry. I have thought about the worst possibility, and I am mentally prepared, not a hot mind.
Photos with my mother and grandmother, they have always been my strongest backing.
In 2018, I was almost 24 years old and officially changed my career and entered the entertainment industry. When I first changed careers, I was basically led by alumni who had already worked in this industry. Many of them were seniors from the School of Arts and Xinchuan Academy who I met in the school before. They will send me group news and teach me how to read these group news and will also take me to interview and act as an agent.
Whether it is a drama crew or a film and television crew, you need to get the opportunity to join the crew through auditions. From hobbies to work, I have psychological burdens and distracting thoughts, and I always have a lot of trouble in my mind. Is it good to act ? Is this place acting right? The state cannot be relaxed. The audition was simply not going well. Why is the condition not very good every time is not in good condition? No matter how you act, it is wrong. The feedback received by the crew of is almost negative. After the trial, it is just a sentence "Go back and wait for the notification", which is equivalent to saying that you can't do it, goodbye. In most cases, it is a rejection.
Someone was surprised when he saw that I graduated from Peking University on my resume and asked me why I was in this industry, was I unable to think or what? Or do I think I can only play the role of a top student? They assume that you can only learn. Later, I basically didn’t mention the school’s affairs in the information, and acted first and spoke based on my level.
Stills of me performing in a drama during college.
At that time, basically all crews went to try it out. The chances of successful test show were so slim. What right do I have to choose? I can’t consider whether I like it or whether I have any interest or not. The first opportunity I got was to act in a drama, a commercial project "The Story of the Prince's Strange Fish".
drama is divided into group AB, I play the first female lead in group B, a mermaid. I guess the reason for choosing is that part of the appearance conditions are closer to the feeling they want; on the other hand, this drama itself is a comedy, and the role of Mermaid is very rich, and you need to grasp the rhythm of comedy. During the audition, there were some performances that required me to lie on the ground. I was not in the rehearsal hall at the time and the floor was not that clean. I didn't mind at all, and I just lie down. This kind of performance might have infected the people in the crew, and they thought I could give it a try.
For a while when I first joined the group, I fell into a period of confusion. There may be some physical movements in dramas. Compared with dance, your movements do not require you to be very professional. It is more of a liberating nature. My advantages in dance and physical form are no longer obvious. Most of the actors in the same crew are professional comedians from Happy Twist . Faced with many experienced actors and directors, my mental state becomes weak, as if I am from a chicken head to a phoenix tail.
Fortunately, the brothers and sisters in the crew took great care of me, rehearsing from morning to night every day. During the process of getting along, they learned that I have a strong personality. As long as I say something bad about it, I will suddenly bounce up. Criticism and whipping will promote my growth in a short period of time, and will use this method to stimulate me.
From the end of 2018 to 2019, I stayed in the drama crew for nearly half a year. This is a group photo during rehearsal (I am in the fourth right of the first row).
Some of the moments I find my feelings in acting are still fresh in my memory. There was a scene of rehearsal, and I suddenly became very comfortable, a feeling of sudden enlightenment. When the scene ended, the actors said, "You became this role today." It felt like it was all of a sudden. Another time, I had insomnia one night, and I might have slept for two hours. During the rehearsal the next day, I repeated the clips from the previous day. After the performance, the director asked me, did you want to have a drama last night? Today, my whole person has completely changed. Sometimes this kind of progress is subtle and has nowhere to touch, which is different from what you have gained from other efforts.
But daily accumulation and kung fu are definitely essential. I will watch movies according to different types of films and different directors, and observe how other actors give their emotions when performing, and how to distinguish the expression of the same line under different emotions. When I was not working, most of the time I spent sitting in front of the TV to pull up movies, doing some desk work, recording what points I should pay attention to when acting, doing homework on the lines, writing subtexts, and preparing for subsequent performances.
The first round of the show is a star venue, which means that Group A will perform. The male lead is Du Haitao. As a member of Group B, I did not participate in the first round of the tour and was filmed on other crews at that time. After the first round was staged, there was no second and third round tour due to various reasons. participated in the rehearsal for half a year, but failed to have the opportunity to perform.
I don’t think it’s too a pity. For me, who has no professional accumulation, my progress in performance is what I explained to the past six months. The drama is very good at training actors. The six months in the crew made me open myself, reborn, and become more confident in my performance. In addition, I am not a professional. If I have experience in drama, if I write it on my resume, others will think I may be able to act.
drama group building, girls group photo (I sit on the right side of the first row).
is inevitably much tighter than in the past. The income from rehearsing the drama is negligible, and life is maintained by the money I saved before. The most obvious thing about is that I am in Beijing, and my house is getting farther and farther away, and it is getting cheaper. Not long ago, I moved to the junction of Chaoyang and Tongzhou . From 2018 to now, I have moved home seven or eight times in Beijing. After the drama
, I received some filming projects, and is basically on my own trial. The performance in front of the camera is different from the stage. It requires me to restrain myself, but this adjustment process is much smoother than before.
When I was most frequently involved in the role, there were only three or four groups a year to play small roles in big projects, such as playing a small town girl participating in the talent show in the suspense drama " Mist Tracking " starring teacher Jiang Qinqin ; or a big role in the small project, starring in the martial arts movies "Mad Sword", "The Legend of the Yangtze River", and the romance film "That Sand, That Sea". I don’t know which drama you will suddenly be seen by everyone, so you can only be yourself and leave it to fate.
In the filming of the movie "Mad Knife", I am in the camera.
At the end of 2019, I saw the recruitment information of the "Creation Camp" column. Compared to acting, participating in variety shows has a higher exposure, allowing you to be seen in a short period of time. This may be a better opportunity for me. After discussing with my senior who took me at that time, I decided to sign up. In January 2020, I received a call from the "Creation Camp" program team. After two months of selection, I was selected. The other contestants in the
program were signed by the agency, and I am the only individual student.I was very nervous before joining the group. Is it scary to suddenly get along with 100 girls in this industry? I would also think of this. After really joins the group, it is a process of constantly adapting. You have to grow up and be sensible. You can't be a little girl anymore. The same is true for training. Before the later performance, you can only sleep for one or two hours a day, and you won't feel tired. It's like you've been injected with chicken blood. People seem to have adapted to that intensity.
Because there is no agency, there are some companies that can communicate with the program team, and I have to do it myself. Some companies will provide some publicity and topics for contestants, but I don’t have these, and I have to prepare the props and arrangements for the performance myself. The program team will put the contestants they want to push in front, "You change the position with whom you want", "You sit in the back", and there are quite a lot of situations.
My first stage photo.
I have no experience in this kind of program for the first time, nor have I found my own positioning, I don’t know how to express myself, and I have few shots in the later stages. The program may position the contestant as a "girl", very energetic and cute, but I look relatively mature. In order to adapt to the program, I will lose my own characteristics. dress, dress up, and hair color. Even if these have changed, there is still a way of expression. If you don't express yourself girlishly enough, you don't know how to express yourself.
Once very interesting, a staff member said, "The camera elder brother said you can hide from the camera, and I said, "Oh, I didn't hide." I really didn't hide. In fact, wherever the camera is, others will come to the camera. If you don't go forward, where can people take pictures or find you? This is something I don’t know how to do, but do you say you can’t do it? no. You must adapt even if you don’t. This is the basic skill of artists in this industry. Just like looking for a camera, you have to find food for yourself, and the camera will not come to you.
The result is that I got the lowest ranking in my life. I don’t remember how many of them were eliminated, I only remember that I was resurrected once, but I was always on the verge of elimination. I have never won such a level or ranking before, and I feel a sense of difference in my heart. From the perspective of ability, I seem to be at the upper and middle level, but the result is that the ranking is so behind. I just think, do you don’t like me?
The sister of the staff member chatted with me. She said I was too strong, and she gave people the feeling that I could do anything well. Others would not give you his attention and help. Being strong will make people very hard. This may be a habit of mine. I have strict management of my emotions and are not used to showing my vulnerability to others.
behind-the-scenes footage of the recording of the creation camp (I am the first on the right).
[If you also want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "selfie"]
The biggest impact of this program on me is to stimulate me in a short period of time. My understanding of this industry should be quite comprehensive and realistic. I am really not very naive, but the feedback of online voting is very direct.
After learning that I was eliminated, my friend in the camp borrowed a cell phone and called my mother. Because of closed training and shooting, I haven't contacted my mother for too long. She didn't even react when she answered the phone, feeling like a different life. She cares more about my performance on the show and the reviews on the Internet than myself. She stares at the screen and can hardly find my shots, which makes me feel distressed. When she heard that I was going home, she said, come back soon, just come back.
After I came out of the program team, I encountered a low period. I was very bad. When I was free, I started to eat a lot of food, and my weight suddenly soared. has experienced a long period of weight anxiety, dieting weight loss, ketogenic weight loss, 8+16 eating method, I have tried all kinds of things, but I just have to take weight loss pills. At the most severe time, there will be symptoms of bulimia nervosa . First, gluttony, then vomit, and torture yourself.
I have to say that this industry has requirements for weight. When your appearance does not reach a good state, your working condition will also become bad. In April and May, I concentrated on a more scientific weight loss training. I found a coach in the gym. I had an hour of fitness class every day, and I practiced for one hour for , cycling on , or climbed stairs and climbed 100 floors, and formulated healthy fat-loss recipes in terms of eating. In one month, I lost 10 kilograms of weight and gained 5 kilograms of muscle while losing 10 kilograms of muscle, and my body fat dropped from 23.2% to 16.2%.
Selfie in front of the mirror during fitness.
Fat-reducing meals made for yourself according to the coach's requirements.
After successfully losing weight, I went to "Dance Student". This talent show is more suitable for me than "Creation Camp", and my 20 years of dancing have made me more confident in expressing myself. The program encourages contestants to be themselves and magnify their personal traits. Many people say that I am completely two people in "Dance Student" and "Creation Camp".
"Dance Student" is not a ranking competition, nor does it have a knockout competition system, but in each game, the A and B roles of the next performance stage will be selected according to the score. According to the performance, five dance students will receive the final exclusive performance stage. I have taken the A-angle and B-angle twice, and among the 40 dancers, I advanced to the 14-player final, but failed to get to the top five, which is 6 to 14. I am already very satisfied. The self-selected and the style of choice and attempt in the show are all based on my own preferences.
I gradually understand that I must not change myself in order to cater to anything. has some opportunities that I would try before, but I may not go there again now, so I have helped me eliminate the "error option".
starred in the short film "Ms. Wang" in the "Dance Student".
[If you also want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "selfie"]
Idols, group formations, talent shows, and reality shows are just a job choice I have made right now. Whether it is to accumulate traffic through the program or fans, it is all to allow myself to receive more work in acting and accumulate some conditions for the opportunity to interpret good works.
"Idol" gives everyone more of this person himself. As an artist or actor, the audience focuses more on your own works. If you make good works, you will naturally be recognized by everyone. This is a goal I have never changed. I actually want to have the opportunity to participate in the variety show of actor Xiang, which may let everyone know quickly, oh, Li Chengxi can act. After the
talent show, I participated in three or four film and television projects one after another. Each work was completed in the best state that I could give at the moment, and I would always receive a lot of praise in the crew. I only ask myself to do my best and not pay too much attention to traffic and playback volume. With limited time and limited crew budget, there is no way to make every performance perfect. At least half a year has passed when the film is broadcast. So long ago, I am completely different from me now.
's income is getting better than when I first entered the industry, but it is definitely incomparable to when I was doing finance. Mom didn't put too much pressure on me. If she didn't receive a job for a while, she would come and ask me, are you enough money to spend? felt a little guilty. She had been graduating for three years and after she started this industry, she still had to worry about my income.
I am a person with strong adaptability, so I can live a life without considering how much money I spend. I can live a life frugal life, so can I. I know that things I like come at a price. If I want to do what I like, I must bear the price myself.
After participating in "Dance Student", I participated in the film and television drama.
Sometimes, she will find it hard to hide her worries and tell me, what's going on with your classmates now? You haven't stabilized yet.This feeling is so subtle. In the past, I was the "child of other people" in the eyes of people around me. No matter what I do or in any school I am in, I can perform very well; I am no longer a "leading player", at least in this industry, I am not. You have to say "being the same as everyone else", that's right. But this is the state of my current industry: a newcomer who is struggling. This state lasted for one year, two years, three years. State like
is also related to the overall environment. Entering the industry during the "cold winter period" of film and television, and now due to the epidemic, the industry can be said to have entered the "ice age", with fewer and fewer projects, and there are too many actors. If others don’t have so much patience to understand you, will they act? Is this role suitable? Not only in the industry, but also in a company. For the sake of development needs, I peacefully terminated the contract from the previous company, and now I am running into new partners.
In my definition, whether I am still a "newcomer" is the criterion for determining whether I have my own representative work. I haven't waited yet. It seems that it is still at the origin, but only I know that through projects of all sizes, I have become stronger and stronger.
An artistic short film starring me.
[If you also want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "self-portrait"]
Many Peking University friends around me support me, and they themselves are dream-chasing people. They are very happy with my choice and hope to live their whole life with their wishes. When you are young, you are unwilling to be at peace. Do what you want and listen to your inner voice. Some of my friends, after graduation, went backpacking trips on several continents and drifted through many countries; some of them enjoyed high-intensity work and were learning new things in new fields.
Many of my friends think that getting married and getting married will have to be put at least after the age of 30. Getting married is a very weak link in my life plan, which may be related to my growth environment. I enjoy my current independent life, and under an unstable working state, other things in my life may not be able to stabilize. Maybe I am 30 years old. I will give myself a chance to choose nodes, whether to continue this dream and stay in this industry.
exercise with good friends.
can now receive the leading role of the project, so I think it's pretty good, and more and more people know me. A while ago, I was in a cafe. When the clerk came to serve me coffee, he said, "Miss Chengxi, you look better than on TV." My heart skipped a beat and I obviously felt a different feeling. More alumni in this industry will also take the initiative to contact me, hoping to have the opportunity to cooperate.
The mentality of work and life has also become better. Once on the way to the audition, I had no time to eat, so I could only sit in the car and eat bread. I looked out the car window and the weather was very good. I sent a message to my mother. I said that seems to be unable to even have a bite of rice now, but I feel happy.
Now when work needs to be done, I will also practice basic skills in the dance practice room.
When I was not working, sometimes I would wake up at around four in the morning and couldn't sleep anymore. I was in my rented house, watching the sunrise and having breakfast. When I am free, I will ride a bicycle, wander aimlessly, and unknowingly ride to Houhai from a long distance. This place always reminds me of my hometown in the south. Like when I was a child, I still held the beautiful wish that could shine on the stage.
Click
Want to see more stories?
Click here to read the previous story
#Self-take my story [This set of pictures and texts are exclusively released on today's headlines, reprinting is strictly prohibited] or above is the real experience of @actor Li Chengxi . This is also the true story of Issue 305 in selfies. If you want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "selfie".
Although I ranked among the top in the grades, I love to play and dress up, and I am not a good student in the traditional sense. I like to go to school in a beautiful dress, with small suspenders and small skirts. This kind of dress is really a headache for the teacher. Several times the teacher told me tactfully, hoping that I won’t be too personal.
In 2004, I went to Beijing to participate in a dance competition and went to the Forbidden City for the first time to play. I was dressed very fashionable.
In addition to being more in terms of dressing, I don’t completely listen to the teacher in terms of learning. I never accept all the homework assigned by the teacher. I don’t like the tactics of a sea of questions and have my own learning methods and plans. These learning habits that are different from those of my classmates often make the teacher feel that I have an incorrect attitude.
When I was in elementary school, the class teacher said that your learning attitude will drop after you go to junior high school; the junior high school teacher would say that if you continue to study like this, you will not be able to keep up in high school. In addition to praise, I have also heard a lot of negative words since I was a child. I am not used to explanations and just want to respond with actions.
score has always been among the top few in the grade. I have always been ranked first in the city for math competitions of all sizes. people around me think it is natural for me to go to Tsinghua and Peking University, but in fact, in my heart, there are two ideal institutions that are completely different in directions. One is to take Tsinghua and Peking University, and the other is to take Beijing Film Academy Central Academy of Drama.
When I was in high school, I participated in the art performance in Fuding City.
Fuding is a county-level city, and everyone's thinking is relatively conservative. Ordinary parents think that as long as they have good grades, they don't want their children to take the art exam. However, students with special talents and art candidates have two concepts. The special talents exam passes the early batch exam, recruits some students with special talents, and lowers the college entrance examination score line to be admitted. My dance teacher at that time accidentally saw the admission information for students with artistic talents online, and told me that I hope I will try it. I also think that since I have been learning to dance, why not give myself an extra chance to try?
Before the third year of high school, I started preparing for the exam for Tsinghua art students. It took about half a year, and I took dance classes four times a week, once for two hours. has to attend classes during the day and go dancing during evening self-study. It sounds quite tiring, but since I was a child, I have arranged very much every day, including student work, various activities, and I have endless things to do, so I can adapt.
No one expected that after preparing for so long, I didn’t even have the chance to take the exam in the end. Tsinghua dance specialties need to undergo strict height measurement, and girls must reach 163 cm. Generally, when measuring height, everyone will naturally relax and stand on the instrument, but they press your heels very hard, and I measured it only 162.8 cm. My other girl and I were both unable to take the exam because we were two or three millimeters apart, so we were burned out after half a year of hard work.
When I was in my second year of high school, my biggest task was to prepare for the exam for special talents.
Another girl in the same group immediately cried out at the waiting for the exam. In addition to being sad, I was more angry at that time, and I was not convinced and unwilling to accept it. I said to the girl who was crying, "Don't cry, at worst, let's get through the naked exam."
After I got home, I focused all my energy on the cultural class, and the pressure of reviewing and preparing for the exam was greater than before. One night, I suddenly became very negative and sent a message to my mother, saying that I don’t want to take the college entrance examination anymore. The only time I got emotionally broken because of learning. At that time, I felt that whether it was my parents or teachers, I had high expectations for me and felt that I could get into a particularly good school, and I was particularly worried that I would let them down. Fortunately, the final result was good. In the 2013 college entrance examination, I won the top scorer in science in Fuding City, and ranked 24th in the province.
Peking University and Tsinghua Admissions Office called. Tsinghua can choose any other major except economic management. I can’t choose any other majors at Peking University Guanghua Management College , but Peking University has a Yuanpei College that can take all majors in the school. My interest at that time was inclined to study economics-related majors. and the teacher at Peking University Admissions Office knew that I liked dancing and told me that I could join the dance troupe after I went there. I was moved. Go to Peking University! The moment I made the decision , I was very relieved. Later, my four years at Peking University were enough to make me not regret this choice.
Just as I entered school in my senior year, I attended the freshman dance at Peking University (me on the right).
After I went to Yuanpei College, I chose many economics-related courses, including monetary banking, finance, and marketing . Businessman was one of my ideal professions when I was a child. In elementary school, I tried wholesale small stationery and sold them in class, and saved up waste materials and used the recycled money for class expenses. In high school, I also participated in bidding for the school flea market. I have been very interested in "buying and selling" since I was a child.
In addition to the compulsory categories, I have selected various interesting courses in the school that are related to my interests, including the "Performance Theory and Practice" course from the School of Arts. I look forward to taking performance classes every week. The teacher will assign some small homework to let the students practice lines and shoot small works. These are all things I like.
Outside of the classroom, the most I do is dance in the dance troupe. The dance troupe has training classes every Friday, and the training at other times will be arranged according to the performance tasks. Every year, our dance troupe will participate in the National College Student Art Festival. Before the exhibition, you may spend four to seven hours a day in the dance troupe, and everyone will choreograph and practice together.
college time, dance troupe course photos.
What impressed me most was that before the new solar activity center of Peking University was built, we actually had no fixed rehearsal venues, and sometimes we went to Qiu Deba Gymnasium to find free venues to rehearse. The windows are large floor-to-ceiling glass. The rehearsals are too late. Looking out from the gymnasium, you can still see Zhongguancun North Street with lights on. It's over. Maybe a few good friends have made an appointment to Wudaokou for a midnight snack. This kind of life still makes me miss it.
Photos of dance troupe members rehearsing at Qiu Deba Gymnasium (I am in the second left of the first row). Although
is not an artistic talent student, because of the , the boy's skills , who practiced dancing since childhood, may have given me a more solid basic skills than some of the talent students in the dance troupe. At the beginning of rehearsing, the leader may assume that the level of non-special students is not that good. When they rehearsed other dances that I did not join, I would also learn from the side, wanting to prove myself. Over time, they found that I was dancing even better than the members who had been arranged on the show, so they would line me up too. After getting familiar with me, I became friends with many specialties.
junior year, behind-the-scenes photos of the dance troupe rehearsing the special performance of the "A Dance Class" (I am the second from the left).
Because I like acting, I rushed as soon as I saw the opportunity. I also participated in the school's new student micro-film " No. 5 Summer Palace Road ". Peking University shoots a micro-film every year and puts it on the CD for freshmen's admission. When I saw the recruitment of actors, I said I must go. I like to perform and have this opportunity. Why not go? I went to the interview and met my senior who interviewed me that night. He told me: You have chosen the heroine. The heroine in the play is set as a student with artistic talents in the school, and her personality is very similar to mine, like my life in school. The entire shooting process took about ten days, and the film lasted for more than ten or twenty minutes. This is the first time I faced the camera. Now it seems that the performance is quite immature, but at that time, I didn’t regard the performance as a professional direction. I had no burden in my heart and was very relaxed overall. Because it is a student team, everyone encourages each other more, and the students' feedback on the film was also very good. This experience made me enjoy it very much.
"No. 5 Summer Palace Road" finished photo (I am standing in the middle, wearing a red skirt).
At Peking University, everyone's living conditions are very different. Take our dormitory for example. They are all from Yuanpei College. Four people from each major are condensed in such an environment, two study economics, one study law, and the other study mathematics. Some people are still living in their senior year of high school, going to the library and doing questions every day, some focus on student work, and some are busy with social activities and internships... I just spent in the dance troupe when I had nothing to do. I have always been a clearer plan for myself and are not very influenced by others, so I rarely get "filled".
When I was in college, my future plan was to start working in finance first after graduation. I have tried some internships in the financial industry, but the work that college students can do in this industry is very small. They are just ordinary interns who cannot access specific business-level things. In addition to being able to put forward some ideas and suggestions during meetings, most of the practical practices are very basic.
photo with a college roommate, everyone comes from different majors (I am the first on the left).
When I was in my sophomore year, a senior I was an agent at Huayi Brothers. He asked me if I wanted to be an actor. At that time, I really didn’t have the courage to say that I could make up my mind to do this job. When I was in my junior year, a variety show came to the school dance troupe to recruit people. I had visited several variety shows before, but I was not interested, but this was a variety show that I could learn to perform, so I signed up without hesitation. went to Shanghai for an interview and passed layers of auditions, but because of concerns about postponing graduation, he gave up in the last round. It was an attempt to take one step and retreat.
017, as I graduated, I hesitated whether I would suspend my studies for one year and try whether the entertainment industry is suitable for me. I can go to the crew and play a supporting role, even if I play a supporting role, I just want to spend a year to let myself feel whether I can. I even mentioned this idea with the teacher in the college. I was surprised and the teacher was very supportive. He encouraged me that Yuanpei's students should do what they want to do. I should not be defined by the label "Peking University". Instead, it is the power of my brave choice.
In the summer of 2017, I graduated from Peking University.
After I had this decision in my mind, I only submitted my resume to one company during the job search season. That company was considered a leader in the financial industry at that time. If admitted, it would be basically the highest platform job that undergraduate graduates could find at that time. After handing over my resume, I interviewed four times in a week and had practical interviews. Finally, they admitted me to the headquarters in an extraordinary way. When I received the offer, I was struggling after a round of confusion. Because I couldn’t miss the opportunity that was already in front of me, I went to Hong Kong with a box and started my work and life.
During that time, I often woke up when I was sleeping at night, and my eyes were always covered with red bloodshots. I am a Capricorn, a workaholic, and the high-intensity work made me very tired. stayed in Hong Kong for less than half a year. I returned to Beijing and worked in another company recommended by my alumni for another year.
Due to personal reasons, my condition was already very bad at that time and was in a low mood. people would unconsciously think about whether what you are doing now is meaningful? What exactly do you want? At that time, I felt that if I could not give up on my dream of acting, it might be too late to do it again. The development of the actor industry has no age limit, and it can be achieved until it is 50, 60, or 70 years old, but there are age restrictions for entering the industry, especially for girls. In just a few days, I decided to change careers completely.
When I was working in Hong Kong, I took a casual view of the scenery.
I have thought about the pros and cons of changing careers into the entertainment industry. The biggest problem with changing careers is the uncertainty of this industry. The efforts and returns may not be proportional at all, and the income is not certain.Even if I can accept these things myself, what about mom? After making the decision, I sent my mother a long text message, expressing my thoughts in two or three hundred words.
She called me immediately. At the beginning, I definitely expressed my lack of understanding. As an adult, she also had prejudice against this industry and was afraid that I would be hurt. But she knew my personality and knew that I was a person who was difficult to be shaken after making a decision. In the end, she said: What else can I do? I can only support you.
Before I told my mother, I found some seniors who worked in the film and television industry to understand the situation and did some investigations. One of the seniors advised me for three days and said that this industry is really difficult. In his eyes, is it not good for me to continue to do finance, get married and get married, and live a comfortable life?
I am not satisfied with seeing the future industry at a glance, nor do I like to see the future life at a glance. The clear upward channel and development path are not that attractive to me. To take a step back, the way out I left myself is that if I don’t start this industry, I will also have the confidence to start from another industry. I have thought about the worst possibility, and I am mentally prepared, not a hot mind.
Photos with my mother and grandmother, they have always been my strongest backing.
In 2018, I was almost 24 years old and officially changed my career and entered the entertainment industry. When I first changed careers, I was basically led by alumni who had already worked in this industry. Many of them were seniors from the School of Arts and Xinchuan Academy who I met in the school before. They will send me group news and teach me how to read these group news and will also take me to interview and act as an agent.
Whether it is a drama crew or a film and television crew, you need to get the opportunity to join the crew through auditions. From hobbies to work, I have psychological burdens and distracting thoughts, and I always have a lot of trouble in my mind. Is it good to act ? Is this place acting right? The state cannot be relaxed. The audition was simply not going well. Why is the condition not very good every time is not in good condition? No matter how you act, it is wrong. The feedback received by the crew of is almost negative. After the trial, it is just a sentence "Go back and wait for the notification", which is equivalent to saying that you can't do it, goodbye. In most cases, it is a rejection.
Someone was surprised when he saw that I graduated from Peking University on my resume and asked me why I was in this industry, was I unable to think or what? Or do I think I can only play the role of a top student? They assume that you can only learn. Later, I basically didn’t mention the school’s affairs in the information, and acted first and spoke based on my level.
Stills of me performing in a drama during college.
At that time, basically all crews went to try it out. The chances of successful test show were so slim. What right do I have to choose? I can’t consider whether I like it or whether I have any interest or not. The first opportunity I got was to act in a drama, a commercial project "The Story of the Prince's Strange Fish".
drama is divided into group AB, I play the first female lead in group B, a mermaid. I guess the reason for choosing is that part of the appearance conditions are closer to the feeling they want; on the other hand, this drama itself is a comedy, and the role of Mermaid is very rich, and you need to grasp the rhythm of comedy. During the audition, there were some performances that required me to lie on the ground. I was not in the rehearsal hall at the time and the floor was not that clean. I didn't mind at all, and I just lie down. This kind of performance might have infected the people in the crew, and they thought I could give it a try.
For a while when I first joined the group, I fell into a period of confusion. There may be some physical movements in dramas. Compared with dance, your movements do not require you to be very professional. It is more of a liberating nature. My advantages in dance and physical form are no longer obvious. Most of the actors in the same crew are professional comedians from Happy Twist . Faced with many experienced actors and directors, my mental state becomes weak, as if I am from a chicken head to a phoenix tail.
Fortunately, the brothers and sisters in the crew took great care of me, rehearsing from morning to night every day. During the process of getting along, they learned that I have a strong personality. As long as I say something bad about it, I will suddenly bounce up. Criticism and whipping will promote my growth in a short period of time, and will use this method to stimulate me.
From the end of 2018 to 2019, I stayed in the drama crew for nearly half a year. This is a group photo during rehearsal (I am in the fourth right of the first row).
Some of the moments I find my feelings in acting are still fresh in my memory. There was a scene of rehearsal, and I suddenly became very comfortable, a feeling of sudden enlightenment. When the scene ended, the actors said, "You became this role today." It felt like it was all of a sudden. Another time, I had insomnia one night, and I might have slept for two hours. During the rehearsal the next day, I repeated the clips from the previous day. After the performance, the director asked me, did you want to have a drama last night? Today, my whole person has completely changed. Sometimes this kind of progress is subtle and has nowhere to touch, which is different from what you have gained from other efforts.
But daily accumulation and kung fu are definitely essential. I will watch movies according to different types of films and different directors, and observe how other actors give their emotions when performing, and how to distinguish the expression of the same line under different emotions. When I was not working, most of the time I spent sitting in front of the TV to pull up movies, doing some desk work, recording what points I should pay attention to when acting, doing homework on the lines, writing subtexts, and preparing for subsequent performances.
The first round of the show is a star venue, which means that Group A will perform. The male lead is Du Haitao. As a member of Group B, I did not participate in the first round of the tour and was filmed on other crews at that time. After the first round was staged, there was no second and third round tour due to various reasons. participated in the rehearsal for half a year, but failed to have the opportunity to perform.
I don’t think it’s too a pity. For me, who has no professional accumulation, my progress in performance is what I explained to the past six months. The drama is very good at training actors. The six months in the crew made me open myself, reborn, and become more confident in my performance. In addition, I am not a professional. If I have experience in drama, if I write it on my resume, others will think I may be able to act.
drama group building, girls group photo (I sit on the right side of the first row).
is inevitably much tighter than in the past. The income from rehearsing the drama is negligible, and life is maintained by the money I saved before. The most obvious thing about is that I am in Beijing, and my house is getting farther and farther away, and it is getting cheaper. Not long ago, I moved to the junction of Chaoyang and Tongzhou . From 2018 to now, I have moved home seven or eight times in Beijing. After the drama
, I received some filming projects, and is basically on my own trial. The performance in front of the camera is different from the stage. It requires me to restrain myself, but this adjustment process is much smoother than before.
When I was most frequently involved in the role, there were only three or four groups a year to play small roles in big projects, such as playing a small town girl participating in the talent show in the suspense drama " Mist Tracking " starring teacher Jiang Qinqin ; or a big role in the small project, starring in the martial arts movies "Mad Sword", "The Legend of the Yangtze River", and the romance film "That Sand, That Sea". I don’t know which drama you will suddenly be seen by everyone, so you can only be yourself and leave it to fate.
In the filming of the movie "Mad Knife", I am in the camera.
At the end of 2019, I saw the recruitment information of the "Creation Camp" column. Compared to acting, participating in variety shows has a higher exposure, allowing you to be seen in a short period of time. This may be a better opportunity for me. After discussing with my senior who took me at that time, I decided to sign up. In January 2020, I received a call from the "Creation Camp" program team. After two months of selection, I was selected. The other contestants in the
program were signed by the agency, and I am the only individual student.I was very nervous before joining the group. Is it scary to suddenly get along with 100 girls in this industry? I would also think of this. After really joins the group, it is a process of constantly adapting. You have to grow up and be sensible. You can't be a little girl anymore. The same is true for training. Before the later performance, you can only sleep for one or two hours a day, and you won't feel tired. It's like you've gotten chicken blood, and people seem to have adapted to that intensity.
Because there is no agency, there are some companies that can communicate with the program team, and I have to do it myself. Some companies will provide some publicity and topics for contestants, but I don’t have these, and I have to prepare the props and arrangements for the performance myself. The program team will put the contestants they want to push in front, "You change the position with whom you want", "You sit in the back", and there are quite a lot of situations.
My first stage photo.
I have no experience in this kind of program for the first time, nor have I found my own positioning, I don’t know how to express myself, and I have few shots in the later stages. The program may position the contestant as a "girl", very energetic and cute, but I look relatively mature. In order to adapt to the program, I will lose my own characteristics. dress, dress up, and hair color. Even if these have changed, there is still a way of expression. If you don't express yourself girlishly enough, you don't know how to express yourself.
Once very interesting, a staff member said, "The camera elder brother said you can hide from the camera, and I said, "Oh, I didn't hide." I really didn't hide. In fact, wherever the camera is, others will come to the camera. If you don't go forward, where can people take pictures or find you? This is something I don’t know how to do, but do you say you can’t do it? no. You must adapt even if you don’t. This is the basic skill of artists in this industry. Just like looking for a camera, you have to find food for yourself, and the camera will not come to you.
The result is that I got the lowest ranking in my life. I don’t remember how many of them were eliminated, I only remember that I was resurrected once, but I was always on the verge of elimination. I have never won such a level or ranking before, and I feel a sense of difference in my heart. From the perspective of ability, I seem to be at the upper and middle level, but the result is that the ranking is so behind. I just think, do you don’t like me?
The sister of the staff member chatted with me. She said I was too strong, and she gave people the feeling that I could do anything well. Others would not give you his attention and help. Being strong will make people very hard. This may be a habit of mine. I have strict management of my emotions and are not used to showing my vulnerability to others.
behind-the-scenes footage of the recording of the creation camp (I am the first on the right).
[If you also want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "selfie"]
The biggest impact of this program on me is to stimulate me in a short period of time. My understanding of this industry should be quite comprehensive and realistic. I am really not very naive, but the feedback of online voting is very direct.
After learning that I was eliminated, my friend in the camp borrowed a cell phone and called my mother. Because of closed training and shooting, I haven't contacted my mother for too long. She didn't even react when she answered the phone, feeling like a different life. She cares more about my performance on the show and the reviews on the Internet than myself. She stares at the screen and can hardly find my shots, which makes me feel distressed. When she heard that I was going home, she said, come back soon, just come back.
After I came out of the program team, I encountered a low period. I was very bad. When I was free, I started to eat a lot of food, and my weight suddenly soared. has experienced a long period of weight anxiety, dieting weight loss, ketogenic weight loss, 8+16 eating method, I have tried all kinds of things, but I just have to take weight loss pills. At the most severe time, there will be symptoms of bulimia nervosa . First, gluttony, then vomit, and torture yourself.
I have to say that this industry has requirements for weight. When your appearance does not reach a good state, your working condition will also become bad. In April and May, I concentrated on a more scientific weight loss training. I found a coach in the gym. I had an hour of fitness class every day, and I practiced for one hour for , cycling on , or climbed stairs and climbed 100 floors, and formulated healthy fat-loss recipes in terms of eating. In one month, I lost 10 kilograms of weight and gained 5 kilograms of muscle while losing 10 kilograms of muscle, and my body fat dropped from 23.2% to 16.2%.
Selfie in front of the mirror during fitness.
Fat-reducing meals made for yourself according to the coach's requirements.
After successfully losing weight, I went to "Dance Student". This talent show is more suitable for me than "Creation Camp", and my 20 years of dancing have made me more confident in expressing myself. The program encourages contestants to be themselves and magnify their personal traits. Many people say that I am completely two people in "Dance Student" and "Creation Camp".
"Dance Student" is not a ranking competition, nor does it have a knockout competition system, but in each game, the A and B roles of the next performance stage will be selected according to the score. According to the performance, five dance students will receive the final exclusive performance stage. I have taken the A-angle and B-angle twice, and among the 40 dancers, I advanced to the 14-player final, but failed to get to the top five, which is 6 to 14. I am already very satisfied. The self-selected and the style of choice and attempt in the show are all based on my own preferences.
I gradually understand that I must not change myself in order to cater to anything. has some opportunities that I would try before, but I may not go there again now, so I have helped me eliminate the "error option".
starred in the short film "Ms. Wang" in the "Dance Student".
[If you also want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "selfie"]
Idols, group formations, talent shows, and reality shows are just a job choice I have made right now. Whether it is to accumulate traffic through the program or fans, it is all to allow myself to receive more work in acting and to accumulate some conditions for the opportunity to interpret good works.
"Idol" gives everyone more of this person himself. As an artist or actor, the audience focuses more on your own works. If you make good works, you will naturally be recognized by everyone. This is a goal I have never changed. I actually want to have the opportunity to participate in the variety show of actor Xiang, which may let everyone know quickly, oh, Li Chengxi can act. After the
talent show, I participated in three or four film and television projects one after another. Each work was completed in the best state that I could give at the moment, and I would always receive a lot of praise in the crew. I only ask myself to do my best and not pay too much attention to traffic and playback volume. With limited time and limited crew budget, there is no way to make every performance perfect. At least half a year has passed when the film is broadcast. So long ago, I am completely different from me now.
's income is getting better than when I first entered the industry, but it is definitely incomparable to when I was doing finance. Mom didn't put too much pressure on me. If she didn't receive a job for a while, she would come and ask me, are you enough money to spend? felt a little guilty. She had been graduating for three years and after she started this industry, she still had to worry about my income.
I am a person with strong adaptability, so I can live a life without considering how much money I spend. I can live a life frugal life, so can I. I know that things I like come at a price. If I want to do what I like, I must bear the price myself.
After participating in "Dance Student", I participated in the film and television drama.
Sometimes, she will find it hard to hide her worries and tell me, what's going on with your classmates now? You haven't stabilized yet.This feeling is so subtle. In the past, I was the "child of other people" in the eyes of people around me. No matter what I do or in any school I am in, I can perform very well; I am no longer a "leading player", at least in this industry, I am not. You have to say "being the same as everyone else", that's right. But this is the state of my current industry: a newcomer who is struggling. This state lasted for one year, two years, three years. State like
is also related to the overall environment. Entering the industry during the "cold winter period" of film and television, and now due to the epidemic, the industry can be said to have entered the "ice age", with fewer and fewer projects, and there are too many actors. If others don’t have so much patience to understand you, will they act? Is this role suitable? Not only in the industry, but also in a company. For the sake of development needs, I peacefully terminated the contract from the previous company, and now I am running into new partners.
In my definition, whether I am still a "newcomer" is the criterion for determining whether I have my own representative work. I haven't waited yet. It seems that it is still at the origin, but only I know that through projects of all sizes, I have become stronger and stronger.
An artistic short film starring me.
[If you also want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "self-portrait"]
Many Peking University friends around me support me, and they themselves are dream-chasing people. They are very happy with my choice and hope to live their whole life with their wishes. When you are young, you are unwilling to be at peace. Do what you want and listen to your inner voice. Some of my friends, after graduation, went backpacking trips on several continents and drifted through many countries; some of them enjoyed high-intensity work and were learning new things in new fields.
Many of my friends think that getting married and getting married will have to be put at least after the age of 30. Getting married is a very weak link in my life plan, which may be related to my growth environment. I enjoy my current independent life, and under an unstable working state, other things in my life may not be able to stabilize. Maybe I am 30 years old. I will give myself a chance to choose nodes, whether to continue this dream and stay in this industry.
exercise with good friends.
can now receive the leading role of the project, so I think it's pretty good, and more and more people know me. A while ago, I was in a cafe. When the clerk came to serve me coffee, he said, "Miss Chengxi, you look better than on TV." My heart skipped a beat and I obviously felt a different feeling. More alumni in this industry will also take the initiative to contact me, hoping to have the opportunity to cooperate.
The mentality of work and life has also become better. Once on the way to the audition, I had no time to eat, so I could only sit in the car and eat bread. I looked out the car window and the weather was very good. I sent a message to my mother. I said that seems to be unable to even have a bite of rice now, but I feel happy.
Now when work needs to be done, I will also practice basic skills in the dance practice room.
When I was not working, sometimes I would wake up at around four in the morning and couldn't sleep anymore. I was in my rented house, watching the sunrise and having breakfast. When I am free, I will ride a bicycle, wander aimlessly, and unknowingly ride to Houhai from a long distance. This place always reminds me of my hometown in the south. Like when I was a child, I still held the beautiful wish that could shine on the stage.
Click
Want to see more stories?
Click here to read the previous story
#Self-take my story [This set of pictures and texts are exclusively released on today's headlines, reprinting is strictly prohibited] or above is the real experience of @actor Li Chengxi . This is also the true story of Issue 305 in selfies. If you want to tell your own story, please send a "private message" to tell "selfie".
