He is Xiaolong, a 22-year-old patient with Ewing sarcoma of bone who is suffering from pain; she is Zeng Fan, the head nurse of the oncology department of Tongji Hospital, who has been engaged in nursing work for 15 years.
Three years ago, they met for medical treatment and started a WeChat greeting journey to share their anti-cancer experiences. Xiaolong also successfully withstood 6 rounds of chemotherapy and 30 rounds of radiotherapy, and his life has continued. In the New Year of 2019, Zeng Fan was waiting for Xiaolong’s farewell call. She burst into tears and wrote down the time when she and Xiaolong said hello on WeChat. Having been a doctor for many years, she suddenly felt:
“It turns out that it is the patients who have been encouraging me to move forward. …”
On the evening of December 27, 2018, Zeng Fan had just dragged his tired body home from get off work when a phone call came through. It turned out to be Xiaolong: "Sister, I can't survive anymore. While I can still speak, I want to say goodbye to you for the last time! I also want to thank Professor Chen Yuan and Professor Chu Qian..." The call stopped abruptly, and Zeng Fan hurriedly called back. . It turned out that Xiaolong had been unable to eat for half a month. The tumor had metastasized to his abdominal cavity and he was in critical condition.
Feeling extremely uncomfortable, Zeng Fan
cried and wrote
"I don’t want to say goodbye, but I say hello to you today"
and recorded her and Xiaolong’s anti-cancer story:
On January 23, 2019, Zeng Fan walked into the Hubei Voice , tearfully recounting the days she and Xiaolong walked together and her deep longing for Xiaolong...
You have completed the agreement, now let me say hello to you
Zeng Fan has a special agreement with Xiaolong:
He must time it Checking in with me, no matter what form it takes, lets me know he's okay and reassures me. He also kept his promise, saying hello to me on WeChat every day and updating his circle of friends every day. I know that he exercises every day, goes to bed early every day and clocks in, and cooks by himself every day...
WeChat screenshot of Xiaolong "checking in" with Zeng Fan
However, the WeChat greeting was fixed on December 10, 2018, and there was no news about Xiaolong again. Zeng Fan thought he was living a good life, he was just busy. But she never thought that Xiaolong's condition had worsened and he could no longer communicate with her using his mobile phone! He worked hard and called Ceng Fan in the end. He also kept his original promise and would definitely let Ceng Fan know his news from time to time! From the day
received the call, Zeng Fan thought: It’s my turn to greet you every day. Although you may no longer be able to see me, I will still make the same promise to you, saying hello to you on WeChat and praying for you: “How I am. I look forward to you calling me sister again, scratching my nose playfully, looking at me again, and letting me see your sunny smile again. I want to hug you again, my child!”
Zeng Fan insisted on WeChat. Xiaolong said hello
The unbeatable "Xiaoqiang" had a smile like a sunny day
Recalling his encounter with Xiaolong, Zeng Fan recorded it like this:
It was in 2016. He was 19 years old and came to the thoracic oncology department for the first time. He had a thick We, the nurses, treated him like a child and coaxed him: "Young man, we are not allowed to have beards here." He said mischievously: "I have managed to grow my beard so long, I won't cut it." A nurse joked that if you don’t cut it, you won’t get an injection. I also smiled and said, if you cut it off, you will be a handsome guy! The next day he jumped up to me and said: "Head nurse, look how obedient I am, I cut my beard." The first treatment ended quickly, and when he was discharged from the hospital, he said: "Head nurse, I’d like to leave your contact information so we can keep in touch.” I happily accepted.
This is how the contact between Zeng Fan and Xiaolong on WeChat began. At first it was just a short greeting, but slowly, Xiaolong said: Head nurse, the nurses in your ward take special care of me, and the doctors are also very good. I want to call you Sister Head Nurse, is that okay? Zeng Fan said, of course! So Zeng Fan's WeChat messages would be received on time every day: Good morning, sister head nurse, good evening, sister head nurse, hello sister Zeng...
Xiaolong likes writing and likes to share his anti-cancer experience with Zeng Fan:
Me He is an invincible Xiaoqiang. I have fought the devil for several rounds, even if it was extremely threatening and would not shake hands and make peace. Holding your heart in your hands, facing the fire, fearful but not flinching.Everything that put me to death also inspired me to be courageous, to be ruthless, to walk through the fire, and to be reborn in my patched body. I can afford to recover every loss because I am persistent enough. For the sake of my heart, I raise the fire, and I am willing to risk my life to fight, so that I can die without regrets, which makes me really happy!
The bone Ewing sarcoma that Xiaolong suffered from is a poorly differentiated malignant tumor with a poor prognosis. Chemotherapy caused hair loss, nausea, vomiting, oral ulcers, and dyspepsia; radiotherapy caused his skin to darken and become rough. Every review and treatment brought ups and downs in mood...
He never complained or gave up. Compared with the appearance of his illness, what Zeng Fan remembered most was his smile every time he came for a check-up, the wild flowers he brought from the fields, the peanuts he planted himself, or a book he found interesting.
It turns out that it was the patients who kept encouraging me to move forward.
After working in the oncology department for 15 years, with all kinds of patients coming and going, Zeng Fan never thought that her professional life would be nourished by patients like Xiaolong: “I have repeatedly turned over these self-images of Xiaolong. Frankly speaking, all I can think of is Xiaolong’s smiling face, and these words that infiltrate his life have already become a part of my life. It turns out that he has taught me so many ways to smile at life. "
People who face death often have detachment. With great wisdom, Xiaolong wrote this on WeChat:
"Think about the dark and painful days of treatment. Nothing is worth worrying about. The tumor brought me pain and made me cherish ordinary life more."
" I was worried about resistance to chemotherapy, and I was worried that radiotherapy would not cure the disease, but I had to carry out it. Although this recurring worry has always been with me, it also sharpened my temper. "
" I gave up snacks and drinks, and got rid of my tendency to get angry. , angry bad temper, these are the favorite things of tumors. The treatment of tumors not only requires surgery, chemotherapy, and radiotherapy to destroy them, but also uses positive energy to resist them. Tumors are the product of various negative energies. With more positive energy, negative energy will be obedient. "
It has been half a month since I received Xiaolong's farewell call, and Zeng Fan's greetings on WeChat are still continuing. Zeng Fan wrote: I thought I had been encouraging this child, I thought I had been giving him positive energy, I thought I was strong and could accept the impermanence of the disease. But no, he is always caring about me, he is influencing me, and he is telling me the beauty of ordinary life. If I could turn back time, I would definitely protect him...
Indeed, between doctors and patients, not only is the one-way channel of giving where the doctor saves the patient's life, but the doctor also reaps the nourishment of life by feeling the pain of the patient together. After busy medical work, doctors have an easier time getting closer to patients' hearts than any other profession. Doctors and patients can empathize.
Audio recording:
Zeng Fan (Zeng Fan), Qiao Yang (Xiaolong), Weijie, Xie Qing
Produced by Hubei Voice Health Studio
Editor: Ye Jing
Reviewer: Shi Hui, Yating
