At 8:20 am on November 17, 1992, Lu Yao left this ordinary world. During the period from his critical illness to his death, although many people came to visit him, he was actually very lonely. Because the three most important people in his life, his brother Wang Tianle, his wife Linda, and his daughter Lu Yuan, none of them are by his side. Leaving this world lonely in this way, in the northern Shaanxi dialect, really "太不美气了"!
Lu Yao memorial service, Chen Zhongshi made a speech
1. Daughter Lu Yuan and father Lu Yao, both waiting to celebrate each other’s birthday
路遥的Daughter Lu Yuan was still young and had just entered junior high school. She is taken care of by a nanny and lives in a newly renovated home. This new home is already broken to pieces. Mother Linda has returned to work in Beijing, and father Lu Yao is lying on the hospital bed. According to the divorce agreement, Lu Yuan will be raised by Lu Yao.
Lu Yao is unwilling to let his daughter see his dying illness, he is afraid that it will leave a psychological shadow on his daughter. Therefore, in the last two months of Lu Yao's life, Lu Yuan only saw Lu Yao one side. Lu Yao very much hopes that he can get better, and hope that he can go home to spend her 13th birthday with her daughter. According to the memories of Hangyuan who once created "Lu Yao in the Last Days", in the last days, Lu Yao often chanted his daughter's birthday: is far from who came to this world on November 9th#……
Lu Yao and her daughter photo
Lu Yuan always remembers her father’s birthday, she prepared a birthday gift for her father early, waiting to hand it over on December 2 father. However, that day will never come, and the time will always be fixed on November 17. Lu Yuan could only cry and put the gift in his father's coffin.
Before his death, Lu Yao was most worried about his daughter Lu Yuan, but he didn’t want her daughter to see what he looked like, so he could only miss it secretly. He could only ask the visiting friend over and over again: 我去了After that, please help me care about it. Far away ……
The daughter who grows up can only take a photo with the statue of Lu Yao
Lu Yao left a deposit of 10,000 yuan to her daughter , Of which 5,000 yuan is the prize of the Mao Dun Literature Award, and 5,000 yuan is awarded to him by the province after the award. He hasn't moved the money, preferring to advance the manuscript fee and ask others to borrow money instead of moving the money.
Although Lu Yao is a very famous writer, he was poor all his life. His salary income itself is not high. Before 1983, his monthly salary was 58.5 yuan, after 1983 it was 66 yuan, and only 197 yuan was mentioned in 1990. As for the masterpieces that have made a national sensation, the cost of the manuscript is actually very low, "Life" is only 1,300 yuan, and the "Ordinary World" that has been written for several years is only 30,000 yuan. In 1982, Lu Yao had to smoke 3 yuan a pack of cigarettes, two packs a day...
2. Wife Linda and husband Lu Yao reached a divorce in the hospital bed Agreement
Lu Yao’s wife, Lin Da, is a very talented Beijing educated youth. An educated youth in Beijing and a farmer in northern Shaanxi married and lived together. Lu Yao dare not write that in his novels. Gao Jialin and Huang Yaping in "Life" barely combined, but ended in tragedy. In "The Ordinary World", Sun Shaoan ruthlessly rejected Tian Runye, who works in the city; Sun Shaoping also failed to get together with Tian Xiaoxia, a girl in the city.
But when Lu Yao was a young man, he had a very clear goal-not to marry a non-Beijing educated youth. So after he was abandoned by his first love girlfriend Lin Hong, he soon fell in love with Lin Hong's classmate Lin Da. According to Haibo, who created "Life on the Road", Haibo once persuaded Lu Yao to find a local girl. Lu Yao answered like this: Which local girl is capable of supporting me in college? How to get out without going to college? Just like this for a lifetime in the countryside 沤着吗?
Lu Yao and Lin Hong in the documentary "Lu Yao"
After Lu Yao and Lin Da go to school, Lin Da offers him to college as Lu Yao hoped. Lin Da works in the Propaganda Group of the Revolutionary Committee of Yanchuan County, and earns 38.5 yuan a month. The salary at the time can be said to be relatively high, if one person uses it. But Linda had to provide Lu Yao to school, and to make Lu Yao dress decently, he had to plan carefully and frugally. According to my friend Haibo, Linda, who was flourishing at the time, had to wear a dress for several seasons.
But after Lu Yao and Linda got married, their marriage was not happy. Lin Da came from a family of intellectuals, well-educated, strong personal ability and a strong sense of independence. But Lu Yao " every morning starts at noon ", it can be said that he lives in two worlds with Linda.
路遥和林达
Over time, this kind of life rhythm problem has become more and more prominent. Especially after her daughter was born, Lu Yao didn't have time to take care of her daughter, and everything was left to Linda. Linda is not willing to give up her job and become a housewife. Linda can only be busy on the outside, alone supporting this family. In addition to his own work and taking care of the children, he also had to carry gas tanks upstairs, move briquettes upstairs, and entertain relatives from his hometown from northern Shaanxi...
Linda filed for divorce in the mid-1980s, but Lu Yao Always disagree. One is that he does not want Lu Yuan to lose his mother, and the other is that divorce is a shame. Lu Yao cares very much about face. He has suffered from difficulties since he was a child, especially about face. One of the reasons why he had to smoke a pack of cigarettes for 3 yuan was because he felt that smoking a few cents was worthless.
This red-lighted marriage lasted from the mid-80s to the early 90s. Shortly before Lu Yao's death, he agreed to divorce Linda and signed a divorce agreement on the hospital bed. According to Hangyuan's recollection, the hospital staff thought that Linda was an admirer of Lu Yao and thought she was looking for an idol to sign.
Luyao and the hospital staff
Luyao actually still don’t want to get a divorce. The main thing is not the face issue, but the daughter Luyuan. If Lu Yuan followed him and he died, wouldn't Lu Yuan be an orphan? But at this time Linda has returned to work in Beijing, even if he does not agree to the divorce, it is nothing but a death in name and meaningless...
Third, younger brother Wang Tianle and older brother Lu Yao, cut off their relationship in front of the hospital bed and become enemies
Lin Da is struggling to support his family, and is really unable to take care of Lu Yao. Lu Yao's life is often managed by his younger brother Wang Tianle. Lu Yao had no travel expenses to go to Beijing to receive the Mao Dun Literature Award, which was also the money Wang Tianle borrowed. Wang Tianle can be said to be Lu Yao's crutches and spiritual support. Lu Yao's masterpiece "Morning Begins at Noon", under the title is written this line of words: dedicated to my brother Wang Tianle .
But after Lu Yao became seriously ill, the brother relationship has undergone a major change. After Lu Yao was hospitalized, he hoped that Wang Tianle could be by his side, but Wang Tianle was delayed. Finally, I finally came, and did not accompany Lu Yao carefully. Lu Yao, who was seriously ill, was very sensitive. He said to Hangyu: Look at Tianle, once it is full, it will not be the same as before. The wings are stiff. Once full, regardless of my life or death, I can hide and hide. Just run...it really makes me chill .
Luyao and Wang Tianle
According to Hangyuan’s memories, there was another detail that hit Luyao particularly hard. Lu Yao was suffering from liver disease. When Wang Tianle arrived at the hospital, he had to go to the bathroom and wash his hands desperately. Lu Yao was very sad when he learned about this. He once said with a sad smile to Jiuwa Wang Tian: Your fourth brother is not like a real brother. If no one else dislikes me, he dislikes me, as if my disease was transmitted to him. .
In addition, there are some economic problems. After Lu Yao received the Mao Dun Literature Award, Wang Tianle came forward to help Lu Yao borrow tolls and prepare to spend in Beijing. But Lu Yao said that he had never seen so much money. Wang Tianle borrowed money everywhere in his name, which not only damaged his reputation and lost his face, but also deceived him. Of course, we don’t know what this happened.
According to Wang Tianxiao (Jiuwa), Lu Yao yelled at Wang Tianle while lying on the hospital bed, calling him ungrateful, calling him nothing, calling him to cross the river and demolish the bridge. In the end, the two broke off their relationship and turned into enemies. Before his death, Lu Yao wanted Wang Tianle to see him very much, but Wang Tianle never came.
Lu Yao and his younger brother Wang Tianxiao
Finally say a few words:
When Lu Yao left this world, he must have been very, very unwilling. He also wants to continue to struggle. He also wants to create novels that can win international awards. He also wants to watch his daughter grow up. He also wants to reconcile with his wife and brother.
Lu Yao is ordinary. He is the son of a peasant. In many cases, he does not conceal his utilitarianism. He just wants to change his destiny through struggle. He just wants to write works that can be recognized by others. He has never been upright, especially grounded.
Lu Yao is great. His "Ordinary World" has not only been affirmed by the literary world, but it has also made generations of young people full of power and able to face life bravely!
