One day, he was fully dressed and stood on the air conditioner outside the window, ready to jump and end his short life. At that moment, Xu Wei suddenly realized: life is more than rock and roll, and it shouldn't be just rock and roll.

In 2000, 32-year-old Xu Wei decided to commit suicide.

One day, he was fully dressed and standing on the air conditioner outside the window, ready to jump and end his short life.

Fortunately, Xu Wei's wife stopped him.

" Have you ever thought about how I feel? "

At that moment, Xu Weicai suddenly realized: Life is more than just rock , nor should it only be rock .

The "rock dream" of a rebellious boy

In 1968, Xu Wei was born into an intellectual family in Xi'an.

In the wish of his parents, they always hope that their son can take a good entrance examination into a university, work at the Chinese Academy of Sciences in the future, and become a scientist who is useful to society.

But things went counterproductive. Xu Wei was not keen on learning, but was obsessed with music.

When he was 16 years old, after watching the Japanese movie "Aximen's Street" and hearing the movie's episode "Give me a cup of cool water", Xu Wei was immediately attracted by the sound of the guitar in it.

" There is no such beautiful musical instrument in the world ."

After moving around, Xu Wei finally got his first guitar in his life, and he was out of control from then on.

At the age of 18, Xu Wei went on stage for the first time as an accompanist for singer Li Guangxi. He was so nervous that his hands were covered with beads of sweat. Since then, he frequently participated in music competitions held in Xi'an and won the duet championship in the first guitar playing and singing competition in Xi'an.

As the college entrance examination approached, Xu Wei made a bold decision: to give up the college entrance examination.

The parents were very puzzled and full of anger.

But once a young man's dream sprouts in his heart, it cannot be changed.

Under the confused gaze of his parents, Xu Wei put on his guitar and started to perform around.

From Guangzhou to Fujian, the green train has been flying all the way, constantly moving heavy music equipment onto the stage, and then onto the big truck .

's life was very difficult. In the most difficult time, could only eat one meal a day.

A year later, Xu Wei returned to Xi'an, joined the army, and became a artist.

In 1990, Xu Wei was demobilized from the army, gave up the opportunity to work in the Military Medical University, and became a professional guitarist.

It was also in this year that the arrival of a person changed Xu Wei's life.

This person's name is - Cui Jian .

I have asked endlessly

When will you come with me

But you always laugh at me

Nothing

- Cui Jian's "Nothing"

Listening to Cui Jian on the stage singing "Nothing" at the top of his lungs, Xu Wei burst into tears In my eyes, for the first time I felt that the song could still be sung like this, so shocking. After

, Xu Wei formed a band with several rock-loving friends and named the band "Fei". Men who have dreams of taking off should spread their wings like a giant roc.

This year, Xu Wei is 22 years old.

I am a young classmate who is in the prime of his youth.

Xu Wei, who has long hair, stands among several rock and roll youths, dreaming of becoming a musician like Cui Jian one day.

Unfortunately, the ideal is very full, and the reality is very skinny. The band did not take off as he expected, and lasted only nine months before it was forced to disband because it was difficult to maintain its livelihood.

He can't even eat enough, so he talks about his music dream.

That was the first time Xu Wei was hit in his life.

Standing at the crossroads of life, only the music played slowly: " I once dreamed of traveling to the end of the world with a sword and seeing the prosperity of the world. My young heart was always a little frivolous..."

In 1994, Xu Wei brought two songs he wrote Songs " Two Days", " Bluebird " demo , embarked on the green train to Beijing, dreaming of finding his own music dream in the distance beyond his hometown.

This is the motto left by my favorite writer Cobain: It is better to burn calmly than to linger.

When I was thirty, my dream was shattered with one blow

Beijing is such a big city that it is easy for people to get lost and for their dreams to be broken.

But Xu Wei, who had just arrived in Beijing, was full of enthusiasm.

Because there are some of the top musicians in the country and there are countless opportunities.

After arriving in Beijing, Xu Wei signed a contract with a record company called "Red Star Club".

In the second year, he handed over "Persistence", which he wrote to his girlfriend, to the company. This song was sung by Tian Zhen, and it became popular in the streets and alleys, and Tian Zhen became an instant star.

However, to the outside world, the name Xu Wei is still unfamiliar, and he is still hungry. After eating his last meal, he is still worrying about where the next meal will be.

But he was not discouraged. He always believed that as long as he worked hard enough and wrote a song that was shocking enough, he would be able to succeed and be proud in the music world.

In 1997, Xu Wei wrote his first album "Elsewhere" in a 6-square-meter rental house.

Holding the album demo Zhang Yadong , he was amazed and said to everyone he met: "Xu Wei is going to be popular this time! "

As Zhang Yadong expected, Xu Wei is indeed popular. The album was not promoted at all. sold 500,000 copies of . I was also invited by Faye Wong to create the song "You" tailored for Faye Wong.

However, after a brief burst of popularity, Xu Wei began to fall silent again.

company executives are not optimistic about Xu Wei, thinking that his songs are too alternative and he is not "idol" enough to follow the idol route like Zheng Jun. The second album " that year " released by

also received a mediocre response.

was depressed and lonely, and came to as promised.

He terminated his contract with Red Star Club and returned to Xi'an full of depression.

When he was at his poorest, he couldn't even afford a CD worth 100 yuan.

After suffering from depression , he had 10,000 reasons to commit suicide every day, and he had to come up with 10,01 thoughts not to commit suicide to defeat his inner demons.

Fortunately, with the company of my wife, family, and friends, I finally got out of the haze of depression.

One day, when he walked on the overpass out of boredom and heard a vagabond singer singing his song, he realized, In fact, it is good to be an ordinary person. Why do you have to become a singer like Cui Jian?

After that, he began to focus on his heart, reading books, reading traditional classics, reading Buddhist scriptures and "The Analects of Confucius", and absorbing the power that can make his heart calm.

I went to visit the Da Ci'en Temple and stayed at the Xuanzang Memorial Hall for a whole day.

returned to calm after the ups and downs in his heart. He decided to write a song for this man who had gone through countless hardships in his life and finally became a Buddha. After

returned home, the song "Blue Lotus" that later resounded in the streets came into being: "Nothing can stop , your yearning for freedom, the years of unrestrained imagination..."

Later, at the invitation of a friend, he invited him After joining a new record company, this time he was no longer trapped by his livelihood and could create the music he liked with peace of mind. Xu Wei entered Beijing again.

In 2002, Xu Wei's new album "Time, Walking" was released. The music style changed from the decadent and sharp style of the past to become gentle and inspiring. After the release of the

album, it received rave reviews.

Unsurprisingly, Xu Wei became popular. It also caused a lot of controversy.

Many people think that this is very "unrock".

Xu Wei smiles and rocks. It doesn’t have to be loud and exhausting. It can also be slow and flowing, which can invisibly move people’s hearts and give people the power of life.

Many music fans probably have the same feeling when they think of Xu Wei's songs many years later.

In 2005, Xu Wei held a concert at the Beijing Workers' Gymnasium. The crowd was empty and it was hard to get a ticket. Everywhere he went, there were voices calling for Xu Wei.

At that moment, he suddenly realized that he was not alone.

Music gave him the power to heal, and also healed the music fans who needed music..

Since then, Xu Wei has released several albums one after another, with good sales.

What is unexpected is that at his peak, Xu Wei made a major decision.

In 2008, after the release of the fifth album " Love Like a Boy ", it was announced that would no longer accept awards or walk on the red carpet.

To this day, when many senior singers are participating in various talent shows, acting as "green leaves" for newcomers and earning high appearance fees, Xu Wei still does not forget his original intention. The only time

participated in a reality show probably dates back to 2016's " Luyu has an appointment with a celebrity to go to for a day".

In the same year, he sang "Life is more than just living in front of me" with lyrics written by Gao Xiaosong. It was also the only song he sang with lyrics written by others.

In the remaining time of

, Xu Wei spent almost all his energy on music creation. In 2018 alone, he released three albums, "Endless Light", "My Love", and "Nobody Knows".

In June this year, at the "Youth Has a Dream" online concert, 54-year-old Xu Wei held a cloud concert, and countless fans were immersed in Xu Wei's classics.

is back, still a teenager.

Once upon a time, it was music that ignited his dream, but it was also music and reality that extinguished his dream. Now, having regained his dream, he is still walking on the road of music, excelling in his career.

Use dreams as horses to travel thousands of miles in a day.

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