My name is Si Miao. I am 48 years old. I am the supervisor of a technology company. My salary is 20,000 yuan. It is considered average in Shenzhen. It is not enough to compare with the top and the bottom. I have a cleanliness obsessiveness, I feel afraid of marriage, and can't ge

My name is Si Miao. I am 48 years old. I am the supervisor of a technology company. My salary is 20,000 yuan. It is considered average in Shenzhen. It is not enough to compare with the top and the bottom. I have a cleanliness obsessiveness, I feel afraid of marriage, and can't get close to men, so I choose not to get married and not to have children.

My parents are ordinary working class in a third-tier city in Jiangxi. They all have retirement wages. The two of them have a total of 15,000 yuan. They are in good health. After retirement, they are open to farm vegetables and can be self-sufficient, so I have no burden. They also sponsored me to buy a house in Shenzhen. Although it is only 80 square meters, it is warm enough and has a good geographical location. It is near the subway station of Longgang . It's less than 200 meters away from where I go to work. So it's very convenient for me to go to work.

I feel free and free now. I feel tired when I see everyone around me worrying about my children and husbands. Originally, I was not an unmarried man, mainly because I couldn’t meet the men I like. Because I didn’t like them very much, I would think they were dirty. Some people can’t stand smoking, some people’s feet are smelly, and some people’s mouths are smelly, and I can’t stand it either. I am a person who cannot get married for the sake of getting married. I must have something I like and feel, otherwise I will not be able to persevere no matter how good I am to me. My family often urges me to get married, but I am unmoved. Now I am older, the less I want to get married, because seeing the people around me, I feel that my life is not better than me. My current situation is that I have 80 square meters of houses in Shenzhen, and my income is stable. Because I am busy with work, I don’t have much free time. I usually go shopping and buy on weekends, and go out for a walk during holidays. I don’t have time to go to emptiness and loneliness. To talk about the shortcomings, it is that my best friend is at home taking care of her children and has no time to come out to play with me. I am also a person who can endure loneliness. I like reading, writing, and posting to the media. Moreover, when my friends met, they complained about my husband and children, so why are they disobedient and naughty, which made me even less want to get married. It’s good to stay single, but three things need to be done: financially independent, healthy, and maintain appearance. Women do not have children and their figures are easy to maintain, which will also make you feel good and look much younger than your peers. Usually when people ask me about my age, although I am 49, I always tell them that I am 39 years old and no one doubts me, which makes me feel secretly proud.

The main reason why I don’t get married is because I yearn for freedom and have a strong personality. Although my parents are nagging, they can’t control my opinions. I know that my parents still want to hold my grandson, but I am destined to not meet the right one, and I can’t meet their requirements.

I once had a twin sister. When my mother took us shopping together when she was a child, she got lost. She has not been found yet. It is the pain of my parents throughout their lives.

In 2015, there was a doctor named Xu who liked me very much and pursued me for more than half a year. He is handsome, with beautiful eyebrows and tall and handsome. Once, I went to the hospital to find him and found that he was a doctor in the obstetrics and gynecology department. I saw his fingers long and white. When I thought of him touching another woman's hand, I got goose bumps all over my body. Since then, I blocked his contact information and completely disappeared into his life. He may feel wronged or feel inexplicable. He has asked several people to ask me what the reason is? I didn't want to say that I was a terrified marriage.

I spend the holidays on travel. I especially like to get close to nature. I get along with strangers with ease and speak very relaxedly. Because strangers are people who have nothing to do with them, they don’t have to be careful about anything when talking. Moreover, now there are Skynets everywhere, and Chinese people are also very rich, like those who rob and commit crimes, and there is nothing to be afraid of being alone, and it is very safe. So there is nothing to worry about when a single woman goes out.

At that time, I thought about it. In another two years, if I still haven’t met the person I like, I will adopt a child for the sake of retirement. My cousin is from the countryside. She has three children. The eldest is the second son and the third is the daughter.The second child of his family is Feifei, who is very close to me. Every time he sees me, he calls me aunt and likes to play with me. When I eat at his house, he always picks up food in my bowl and picks up a lot of dishes for me, which makes us laugh to death. I once told my cousin that I wanted to adopt Feifei, but she couldn't bear to let it go, so I had to give up.

In 2019, Feifei was in junior high school, and my cousin called me. For Feifei's future, she was willing to adopt Feifei, just hope that Feifei would receive a good education in Shenzhen and would be more promising than studying in the rural areas of Jiangxi.

This is the best news for me. I immediately drove for more than nine hours, rushed to my cousin's house, and went to take over Feifei. I also gave my cousin's family 1.08 million yuan as Feifei's previous support.

Since Feifei came to Shenzhen to accompany me, I have added a lot of fun, which made me realize that I actually like children quite a lot. My maternal love exploded like never before. I will try every means to buy the dishes that Feifei likes to eat. He likes to eat dried beans, likes to eat kiwi shrimp, and likes to eat salmon. And he would call me mom, I really feel very happy, I don’t need a man, I have Feifei enough. When he grows up, I will buy him a house and marry him. Let him take care of me for my old age and see me off. With Feifei accompanying me, I have nothing to worry about, and I feel very happy.