When I was thirty, I woke up from a hotel in Bangkok, Thailand. The sunlight outside the window, the bar opposite, the clean road, and the dim room. I seemed to be struck by lightning, and my sense of trance, shock and sadness are still clear and deeply felt.
The day before, my partner and I were still in Bangkok Square for the New Year, looking for a way out in the crazy crowds of people. The stars on the stage were carnival, the people in the audience were restless, and I was filled with the Thai , and I was so unfamiliar with Thai stars that I regretted getting into this desperate crowd. With the interest of others' revelations, I have always been like a spy who has escaped from the scene. He was speechless, had a solemn expression, and he lowered his head and put it together. He felt that he had to draw out the Dragon Slaying Sword and the Heavenly Sword at any time.
This is how even without the blessing of alcohol, I still had a split headache the next morning because I suddenly realized that I was thirty years old.
I rejected my friends' invitations and wore a sling board, shorts, and vest alone, swaying on the streets of Bangkok . The feeling was that I left the familiar city and didn't have to worry about meeting acquaintances on the road. I needed to stop and greet, disguise, and then talk about work. I was nervous and cramped. When you wander alone, you can deeply feel the flow of time in your body, just flowing quietly, without warning, rampant and rampant. Just like there is always a Medusa in your body, she is laughing at you, feeling sorry for you, and threatening you. The whole body is like a free 95# gasoline sprinkled, waiting to be burned at any time.
When I was hungry, I walked lazily to 7eleven on the street, carrying sandwiches and Red Bull . I felt that after drinking the power drink, my life became energetic. Find the flowers on the roadside, sit on the curb, eat and drink freely, and feel that the world is the only one, no phone number, no text message, no acquaintances, no job. There is only sunshine, flowers, and bright self.
When I was in my twenties, I never thought that I was thirty. The acne of those days, the rampant dreams, the invincible belief in victory, and the stubborn sense of victory suddenly became memories that moved oneself. It turns out that life is moving forward and you will really slowly reach the age of thirty. I sent a message to a friend, "I am thirty, and that feels complicated." My friend replied to me, "Well, we will all come, enjoy it."
Every time I listen to him, I enjoy it very much, like an old friend walking in front of me, always comforting me with empathy and comforting me when I need it.
After the age of thirty, there seem to be more opportunities and fewer opportunities.
There are many gimmicks to do in my twenties, such as "the youngest..." "the one under thirty years old...", which feels like the happiness, freedom and pride that Zhang Ailing said in "You should become famous as soon as possible", and even a little despicable and arrogant. The heroic spirit of a newborn calf is not afraid of a tiger, and an invincible state, whether it is physical, mental or all his gambling nature. The deepest night, the bitterest coffee, and the wrong person will enjoy it.
After the age of thirty, all tags and opportunities to become famous are given to young people. Because they only need it, but at the age of thirty, what I need is reality. The reality is that parents are healthy, accompany each other for a long time, get married and have children, and have a down-to-earth house, car, and money, from a fairy who can withstand the northwest wind to a vulgar and cautious public.
When I was in my twenties, I was the face that the bar could not bear and had to resist. I vomited and vomited. Is it alcohol? No, drinking is opportunity, drinking is etiquette, drinking is face, drinking is sincerity and loyalty. At that time, I thought that when I was young, I could spread my body, regardless of my stomach and intestines and sleep. Use youthful struggle to fight for one opportunity after another, and then sit in the position you can sit, feeling the difficulty of the journey.
After the age of thirty, apologize to the body. Rejecting the drinks and refusing to be invalid social. Sleep when you have time, drink porridge alone, be with yourself quietly, appreciate the warm water and clean air, nourish yourself in every second, and melt every cell in yourself. If you use your past hard work to exchange for professional survival, you no longer have to look at anyone's expression or compliment against your will. If you like it, give more, and if you don’t like it, be silent.There is no need to fight to the death, nor do you need to pay attention to opportunities. Only then did I realize that strength is everything.
When I was in my twenties, it didn’t matter if I said the wrong thing and did the wrong thing. As young people, they also need social tolerance and opportunities to grow. When you make a mistake, you will see the doting eyes of your elders and leaders, and it feels like you are saying, "It's great to be young, it's okay to make a mistake, it's okay, don't worry." When you are in your twenties, you will still contradict your leader, thinking to yourself, "What are you afraid of, there is justice."
Only after the age of thirty will you understand that behind every smile is a means, behind every tolerance is a pattern and a way out. Do you think the world is gone without you? It's simply a joke! Do you think you are simple and kind? It's simply, rude! Do you think you are straightforward and brave? It's simply, stupid! Don't live in this world with "I thought". "What I thought" was just my cognitive illusion and limitations.
After the age of thirty, you will find that everyone is very polite to them and the number of lies is increasing.
Parents are polite to you, afraid of hurting your self-esteem. Do adults have self-esteem? Adults are more aware of their self-esteem and more sensitive. What children need is face and feelings. Adult self-esteem is poverty that cannot be concealed, love, hatred and parting, and all the pain that can be crushed in the body.
Leader is kind to you because "that's it." There is no need to say a lot of things, and it is useless to say a lot of things. Young people can also scold, teach, and have opportunities to improve. At the age of thirty, both mental mode and life survival mode have been formed. It’s better to train a young man to spend time changing you. How good are young people, they have the energy, their parents are in peace, and they are single. Although they have a temper, they look like Nezha when they are all out. Thirty years old, you can do it yourself. Automatic elimination is each other's dignity. Then we can still sit together one day in the future and talk about our relationship with us. Realistic? Hypocrisy? Do you deceive yourself? Forget it, it’s nothing wrong to let yourself go and surrender to the cycle of reincarnation in the world.
subordinates are kind to you and will still try to embellish your youth at the age when you are clear and everyone can see it. "There are no wrinkles on your face?" "I can't see it, do you have white hair?" "If my sister doesn't say it, she looks like a twenties."... You know that the other person is comforting you, but you are still willing to deceive yourself and be happy. Isn’t it all to be lying to yourself if you are happy about such things?
Customers are also polite to you. Everyone is about the same age and no longer talks about feelings. Every time the theme is declared, "You and I are useful to each other." "Usual" means "either contribute money or effort." In short, you understand the laws of society. If you don't understand, you will not have the chance to talk next time. After all, everyone is very busy and no one is taking care of your IQ and EQ. Occasionally I suddenly turned around and found that hey, didn’t the client have a pleasant conversation last time? Why haven't contacted me for a long time? In fact, the other party thinks you are not suitable, but he doesn’t say it in person. For adults, let’s save face for each other and talk about it in the future.
After the age of thirty, if you do not reflect on yourself, you will be tortured and killed for no reason. I can't find the reason, because you are over thirty years old, don't you know what you think?
You say, when I was in my twenties, I was rampant and changing the world! You suddenly made me calm and understand life in my thirties, which was too fast. Are you wronged? No, this is maturity. Radiation is worse than premature ripening.
Friends in their forties and fifties will always comfort me, "You are still young." My friends in their sixties and seventies always envy me, "You still have many opportunities, and you have a great time." I always tell myself, "They are friends, and they are in love, so I can be grateful, and don't believe it." Thirty years old is a new understanding and start of life, and there is no need to be fear or regret. If you are brave enough, correct yourself and continue to move forward for a better self.
The key point is to correct yourself.
In his thirties, facing the judgment of people around him, houses, cars, marriages, children, worldly affairs, and even unemployment, if he can restart his confidence and correct himself and continue moving forward, he will reshape his life.
What I fear is to give up. The pressure for adults is to face themselves.
In his twenties, he gets angry when he says he gets angry. In his thirties, it’s not about being depressed, it’s about being open-minded. Don't get angry, get angry breast hyperplasia . Perhaps you will experience the separation of life and death of your closest relatives, and you will be more open about external things. In major events in life, friends have also been selected, which are worthy of gratitude and not worthy of gratitude.
In your thirties, you will understand that correcting yourself is to love yourself. Loving yourself is not so selfish that you live for yourself, but knowing to live for more people and do your best for those you love.
In your thirties, you will understand that you will die and think about what thoughts, regrets and stories you will carry when you leave this world. In order not to leave any regrets, you must cherish every minute and every second.
In his thirties, waiting for the inheritance of life, protecting his own replicas, the hope and watch from generation to generation are passed down quietly in the long river of time. You will know that in this world, you have never died. There is a cell that powerfully conveys your genes, and continues to feel the ups and downs of a century with rebirth.
一大发官网 Geng Jing said
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