Narrator: Mr. Li, I am a disabled person. When I was a child, I was crushed by a tractor in the village. I would have improved if I received treatment, but because my grandmother said there was no extra money at home, I found a barefoot doctor for injection all day. After a few d

Narrator: Mr. Li

I am a disabled person. When I was a child, my left leg was crushed by a tractor in the village. I would have gotten better if I received treatment, but because my grandmother said there was no extra money at home, I found a barefoot doctor for injection all day. After a few days of injection, it didn't hurt. But later I couldn't walk normally again. I hated my grandmother.

Because of his lameness, he is often bullied by his classmates in school and dropped out of school before he finishes his elementary school. Because of poor health at home, I can’t work in the fields, so I can only stay at home like a waste of people. Because my parents are working outside, my elder brother and second brother are working outside, so I live with my grandparents. I am used to the cold eyes of the village. The most important thing is that my second uncle, who is a soldier outside, has returned.

After returning from the army, the second uncle was assigned a job. He was very proud and thought that I was an incompetent waste. He was idle at home all day, so he often beat and scolded him on the grounds of "educating my father." At first, my grandfather and several other uncles were still blocking me, but as time went by, my uncle's beating became reasonable, and everyone began to educate me as an "unfilial son" for my father.

Uncle San had a fight with his wife and felt uncomfortable. He slapped me and didn't even say the reason. When the rest of the village saw this situation, they treated me unscrupulously.

Finally, I couldn't stand the winter when I was 14 years old. I stole dozens of dollars from my family, got on the car to the county town, and decided not to return to this place again.

But society is not easy to get along. I have been going around for several years and have been working in various industries, but I have never stayed in the end. After all, those who are not educated or skilled like me have nothing to make a living except working hard. What’s more important is that because of my legs, I can’t even do simple physical strength and can only do some miscellaneous work.

Security guard and the kitchen should be the longest I have stayed at. I really want to learn to have a skill as a chef, but I can't stand the kitchen environment and it's very depressing. In the end, I decided to become a security guard.

Because of my physical disability, I can only go to a small company even if I work as a security guard. Fortunately, a boss felt sorry for me and sent me to a junior high school to work as a security guard. He told me that the security guard in this school could work for a long time. Although I am only 24 years old, it would be no problem to be stable for more than ten years. I was very grateful to my boss and then went to work happily.

Due to physical reasons, I can't patrol and can't stand guard. I just work for night shifts. Others have more than 4,000 yuan a month, and I am 2,100 yuan. But my work is easy and there is nothing to do in the night shift. I can do something I want. It's good.

I thought life would pass like this, but fate just joked with me. People like me should live alone to live a lonely life, but they are in love, and the other party is still a teacher.

This is the thing. When I was honestly on my night shift, a young girl suddenly knocked on the door and said it was the school teacher. She left the thing in the office and wanted to come back to get it. She is 1.7 meters taller than me, she is particularly thin, wearing a plaid top and pants, she looks simple but a little cute.

I was stunned for a moment, and then helped her open the door. She saw my legs and said repeatedly, "Sorry." He also asked me politely if I could accompany her to the teaching building, because it was dark and I was afraid to enter the office. I felt a little timid in my heart, so I still went with her.

That night was particularly wonderful. I seemed to be no longer a disabled person, but a man who stood up and stood up, protecting her behind me and bravely walked towards the teaching building. After getting the thing, the girl left with great gratitude.

Unexpectedly, the next afternoon, I was on duty at the door and saw her getting off work again. She walked straight towards me and said with a smile, "Good afternoon." I responded quickly, not daring to look into her eyes. But after a while, she turned back, and bought a lot of braised pork with a braised vegetable restaurant in her hand, and told me, "When I left yesterday, I saw that I was still gnawing instant noodles, so I will buy you something today." I was very moved and refused to do so, but she was very determined.

That was the first time I received a gift. Since then, every morning, I would appear at the school gate on time just to say "good morning" to her. I also had to go out to stand guard in the afternoon, and while escorting the students, I said "good afternoon" to her. Although I didn't do anything on the day shift, I still wanted to see her, and I felt uncomfortable if I didn't see her every day.

colleagues all saw my situation and joked that I was a toad that wanted to eat swan meat, but I didn't care. I found that I had fallen in love with her. Maybe it was love, I don't know.

But after a while, my ideal was completely broken. One afternoon after school, she said goodbye to me generously, but turned around and got into a car. The man in the car was handsome and elegant, and it seemed that she should be her boyfriend. I felt uncomfortable in my heart, but I could do nothing.

Actually, if you think about it carefully, I have nothing and am a disabled person. Why do you give her a future? I feel relieved after thinking about it, but every time she greets me, she still feels very heartbroken. After

, I simply stopped going to work during the day. I was upset when I saw her, but I had to go to the post in the afternoon and had no choice but to meet. The girl seemed to have nothing to happen, and she even greeted me as usual, and even asked me why I didn’t stand guard in the morning. I just found a reason to make excuses. One afternoon behind

I didn’t know what happened. I didn’t see her getting off work and was worried that something might happen to her, so I went to her office in the teaching building to take a look. As soon as I walked to the door of the office, I heard her crying inside. I walked to the door and knocked on the door, but she rushed over and hugged me, just crying, and said nothing.

The feeling of hugging her was very special. It turned out that the girl's body was so soft. She was like a cotton doll in my arms, and it was like a small stove, emitting heat and a little fragrance. My heart was also warm and itchy with her hug, and I had never felt that way before.

I accompanied her in the office that night. It turned out that her boyfriend cheated on her. Now they have reached the point of breaking up. I comforted her, told her my story, and she listened seriously, and then talked to me about her family affairs. We were like a couple, chatting with each other all night, because the next day was a weekend, and we didn’t have to worry about work.

When we parted, we exchanged mobile phone numbers and added friends, so we could continue to contact each other in the future. I was very happy and even felt that we already had a girlfriend.

But when I replied to her on my phone, she ignored her. When she went to work on Monday, she chatted with me like she usually did. There was nothing special about it, and I felt very puzzled. Shouldn't our relationship be special? But she didn't seem to think so.

During that time, I was almost depressed, and my mind was full of her. I was eager to find an answer, but what I got was her indifference and perfunctoryness. I was almost crazy, but one day I found out that she had a new boyfriend, and the other party was also a teacher from the school and her colleague.

At the same time, the school security department talked to me, asking me to work and life are life, and I can no longer harass other teachers, otherwise I will be expelled. More importantly, my friend was also deleted by her.

Now every time I stand guard in the afternoon, I will inevitably see her. She walked out sweetly with her new boyfriend. She didn't dare to look in my eyes, just pretended that she didn't see me. Her boyfriend obviously knew it, but he didn't say anything to me. I thought his boyfriend was going to beat me, but in fact, people treated me as a wooden stake, which was more uncomfortable than hitting me.

Because I was interviewed by the school security department, I dare not continue to "find things". I continued to be my security guard and gave up the meaningless thoughts in my heart. After all, there is a gap between people. I, a toad, shouldn't eat swan meat. Looking back on that day when she broke up, maybe a dog came over, and she would hug her and cry.

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