In 2016, with one hundred days left before the college entrance examination, Xi'an senior high school student Lin Jiawen left a sentence: The future is too unattractive to me, and my departure is not a hasty suicide.
Then he jumped down from a tall building and ended his young life at the age of 18.
Learning that Lin Jiawen chose to commit suicide and end his life, many teachers and scholars sighed: It’s so regrettable that Lin Jiawen’s death!
In fact, Lin Jiawen is not a simple senior high school student. only published academic history books in Lin Jiawen’s three years in high school. He is the most promising history genius who studies at the History Department of Peking University.
Such a young Lin Jiawen has such a not-so-simple talent. Why did he choose to leave this world so suddenly when he was about to become famous?
History lover
998, a young man was born in a scholarly family in Xi'an, Shaanxi Province, named Lin Jiawen. Lin Jiawen grew up in a strong learning atmosphere since childhood.
are both respected people's teachers, and their father is a mentor working in a law school. The whole family is a literati, so I have devoted a lot of effort to treat this only son.
Lin Jiawen, who has loved reading since childhood, is very different from other children. has a calm personality and likes to stay alone quietly . My parents are very fond of this son.
In Lin Jiawen's own words, as long as it is a book that is of interest to them, parents will try their best to get it for themselves. Lin Jiawen's collection is also quite rich.
A bookshelves filled with books, and the local area bent the bookshelf, which shows how much reading Lin Jiawen is. In addition to 's favorite reading, Lin Jiawen's favorite is history.
001, Lin Jiawen, who was just three years old, could sit quietly in front of the TV and watch "Baijia Forum".
But this is not Lin Jiawen's extraordinary thing. What Lin Jiawen is amazing is that while watching the professor's eloquence, he can also point out what the professor said on TV based on what his grandfather said to him.
It can be seen that Lin Jiawen is a person who is good at thinking. As a historical genius, Lin Jiawen's life is also influenced by his own hobbies.
Historical Freak
In the eyes of their parents, Lin Jiawen is a very talented scholar, but when he arrived at school, Lin Jiawen was an absolute weirdo.
Many students even nicknamed Lin Jiawen - Teacher Lin . This nickname does not mean that Lin Jiawen is knowledgeable and talented, but that complains that Lin Jiawen is aloof and out of place with his peers.
Because Lin Jiawen can't make friends at school, especially among his peers, Lin Jiawen looks down on none of them, so Lin Jiawen rarely communicates with these people.
In fact, is not Lin Jiawen's arrogant, but because Lin Jiawen is not on the same level as these people, and the perspective of discussing issues cannot be matched. Therefore, what Lin Jiawen is most reluctant to do is to chat with classmates.
However, there is one person who is the exception, that is, the history teacher Liu Yawen, who is regarded as a confidant by Lin Jiawen.
In 2014, the year Lin Jiawen was admitted to high school, and it was also the first year Liu Yawen graduated from university. As a history teacher, Liu Yawen is considered a relatively young person.
Therefore, the classroom that Liu Yawen has always wanted to create is lively and she hopes to get along with her classmates. With this purpose, Liu Yawen has been exploring her classmates' interest in learning history.
Soon, Liu Yawen discovered that there was a very special boy in the class she led. Every time this boy is listening to a class, he is highly focused. And you can also spread knowledge points in your own copywriting in class.
Once or twice was accidental. Over time, Liu Yawen discovered that Lin Jiawen's historical insights were far beyond her current level. For teachers, has a student who is better than himself, and this feeling is very wonderful.
However, Liu Yawen did not reject Lin Jiawen because she knew less than Lin Jiawen. Instead, she often asked for advice humbly and was very happy to discuss historical issues with Lin Jiawen.
later, when Liu Yawen even showed Lin Jiawen in advance when writing courseware, she asked Lin Jiawen to give her advice. In class, Liu Yawen would leave a few minutes and invite Lin Jiawen to broaden her horizons.
However, Lin Jiawen's expansion is obviously beyond the scope for students who have not conducted in-depth research on history. Therefore, many people in cannot understand these contents at all.
When I was in high school, Liu Yawen and Lin Jiawen cooperated more and more tacitly, and Lin Jiawen also regarded Teacher Liu Yawen as his soulmate and as the object of communication with him.
The loneliness of a genius
From a thinking perspective, Lin Jiawen treats people and things too thoroughly. Compared with normal people who are greedy for the world, Lin Jiawen is simply sober in the world. It is difficult to find a person who can match his spirit.
So, in , Lin Jiawen is a noble idol in school and is a type that is difficult to get close to. Although he is very famous, he cannot have friends who can co-star.
As a lonely genius, Lin Jiawen is under great pressure when he lives in everyone's respect. Lin Jiawen can only talk to history, from understanding history to studying history, and thinking while reading.
However, Lin Jiawen also understood that self-study is not the best way to study, so in his spare time, Lin Jiawen likes to find like-minded allies online and people who can talk to.
In 2013, Lin Jiawen became a netizen with Hu Baoliang, editor-in-chief of Yuelu Book Club. The two of them talked about the past and present on the Internet. Lin Jiawen's conversation would not be despised by Hu Baoliang at all, and Hu Baoliang even regarded Lin Jiawen as a close friend.
In addition to interacting online, Hu Baoliang also shared his own outing with Lin Jiawen. It seems that after Hu Baoliang's book, Lin Jiawen was deeply inspired and had a high opinion of Hu Baoliang.
Hu Baoliang is not Lin Jiawen, the only literary master I know.
In 2015, Lin Jiawen accidentally met historian Professor Li Yumin . After the two talked, they became friends for ages. Lin Jiawen not only visited Professor Li Yumin many times, but also had long talks many times.
In Li Yumin's view, Lin Jiawen has few talent in history, so he appreciates Lin Jiawen very much. Li Yumin was shocked when he learned that Lin Jiawen had published a book.
In 2014, the lonely Li Jiawen spent a year compiling a historical work of 300,000 words - "When Taoism ruled China".
When Lin Jiawen sent the book to the publishing house, he saw this mature work. The publishing house actually thought of helping Lin Jiawen promote it. This was originally a basic operation of publicity and distribution, which not only improves fame, but also ensures sales.
However, Lin Jiawen did not agree with this approach. He felt that once he used himself as a selling point to promote it, he would inevitably not be able to maintain his originally simple and low-key life, so he flatly refused.
had no choice but to respect Lin Jiawen's choice and published Lin Jiawen's first book "low-key".
In 2016, in the busiest senior year of high school, Lin Jiawen's second book "Worry and Joy for the World" was published. This time, Lin Jiawen finally agreed to the promotion. Because of the first low-key publication of , sales volume is far lower than expected.
This time, Lin Jiawen cooperated very much. When the publishing house held a new book launch conference for Lin Jiawen with the theme of Xi'an Middle School students, it attracted many experts in history.
At the press conference, Lin Jiawen talked about the scholars. Within half an hour, he had in-depth exchanges with many scholars on the scene. Obviously, the effect this time was very good, and many media also came to report on the genius boy.
suffers from depression
In 2015, just after Lin Jiawen's first book was released, although Lin Jiawen published it in a low-key manner, it still caused a small sensation. Therefore, the pressure from public opinion was directly added to this 17-year-old child.
Many scholars believe that such professional books cannot be written by a 17-year-old high school student, and there is 300,000 words per book, so how can Lin Jiawen have time to write it within a year?
Lin Jiawen became more taciturn in response to various doubts. Under long-term depression, Lin Jiawen's loneliness evolved into depression.
After detecting something was wrong with his son, Lin Jiawen's mother once took her son to see a psychiatrist . After being diagnosed with depression at the time, the school and the doctor also gave professional guidance and prescribed medicine to Lin Jiawen.
Everyone thought that Lin Jiawen's condition would develop in a better direction, and after starting treatment, Lin Jiawen said that 's own goal is the history department of Peking University , and he wants to get into this university through his own efforts.
However, Lin Jiawen’s true emotions are actually not objective!
As early as the end of 2015, Lin Jiawen had a confession about his condition. At that time, Lin Jiawen said that others were stable after taking the medicine, but he was tired and sleepy after taking the medicine and was very uncomfortable.
However, not many people paid attention to Lin Jiawen's signal at that time, because Lin Jiawen's daily life is step by step, either creating for his new works or returning to school to study.
However, Lin Jiawen, who can see everything thoroughly, has an extraordinary calmness. Even if he leaves this world, Lin Jiawen is almost as calm as an ordinary person.
In the early morning of February 23, 2016, Lin Jiawen left a super long suicide note, and jumped down from the roof when the whole world was quiet. Say goodbye to the world completely.
Lin Jiawen hid very well at the time. In fact, he was already thinking silently about how to make himself "leave" and the harm caused was the lowest.
So, on the day Lin Jiawen passed away, Lin Jiawen went home to eat and do homework as usual, packed up everything, and chose to leave quietly. How rational is Lin Jiawen?
Lin Jiawen, who is indifferent to life and human nature, explained his last words about things related to him, such as asking his father to eat reasonably and let his mother take good care of himself, and for example, transfer all the copyrights of his works to his teacher Liu Yawen, because Lin Jiawen knew that Liu Yawen would definitely handle his knowledge properly.
Although Lin Jiawen is only 18 years old and has suffered from depression, he has always dominated his life. It’s a pity to choose to say goodbye to this world on the special day of the college entrance examination sprint for 100 days!
