Thoughts after two months of living in Jiangnan:
Time flies, I have been away from Fujian for two months. I have been lucky in Jiangnan these two months and I can get money even if I work. Although I also noticed that someone slandered me, it is still a minority compared to Fuzhou. When I was in Fuzhou, I couldn’t find a job and was disliked by part-time jobs. Many people can’t stand my literary passion. I grew up in Fujian, but I am not from Fujian. Any time in the past, I was in Fujian, and I was in Fujian. I suffered spiritual destruction from childhood to adulthood. After all, my childhood was in Fujian. The most active person who destroyed my literary and artistic passion was in Fuzhou. In this era, only black police, hooligans, gangsters, and common people will hysterically hate others for their spiritual pursuits. They do not want the society to be refreshed, but only hope to maintain a previous state, be confused and ignorant. Just imagine, if everyone has culture, thoughts, sense of justice, and moral conscience, who would still think about doing opportunistic things? Since everyone is decent, no one would want to take shortcuts. In a society without bad people, those poor departments will have no oil and water. Of course, they hope that there are many bad people and many illiterate people in society. In ancient times, it was difficult to purify the world. Emperors could not, and saints could not, because the essence of human nature was greed and jealousy. People were only kind at the moment they were born, and then they had greed, selfish desires, and struggles. Humans are more hateful than animals, especially after the modern and modern industrial revolution , humans waste natural resources for their own selfish desires, which not only destroys the natural ecology, but also harms their descendants and compatriots. No matter how fierce the wild beasts are, they will not continue to kill after they hunt and eat, but human desires are endless.
I still do some part-time jobs because I can't find a job. First, I am not a local, and second, I am older. My youth has been ruined by such an era, especially in Fujian. If my family is a little better, I can be as talented as Li Bai and Su Dongpo . Unlike me now, I am full of resentment. Some people say that I will harm people sooner or later, or that it is good for anyone like me to die sooner or later. No matter how they guess my future, these people just refuse to admit that I love literature and art freedom and are unwilling to disclose the mental destruction of rural people when I was a child. I told me that it was their work, and it was their work that did not allow me to passionate about literature and art. No matter where I am, they seemed to be able to follow me, as if my life would change the environment on which they depend for vitality in exchange for an era of highly developed spiritual civilization. The question is whether I have such ability. Of course, I am keen on doing such things. If I lived in an environment where literature, history and philosophy are popularized, my words and deeds would not be regarded as a spreading cult. Think about it, I was saying that Li Bai was not a powerful person, but some people said that I had entered the cult teaching and then spreading what I was doing. In an era when literature, history and philosophy cannot be popularized, I am a freak in the eyes of others, and I may even die because I like to have falsely possessed the family genes of the Chinese people. It is also a consistent trick in Chinese history. What is in the hands of most people may not be the truth, but experts with the right to speak often talk nonsense, so there is really no truth in such an era.
I am already numb to work. When I went to the interview a few days ago, a sister who was older than me interviewed me. She first asked me where I was from, then how old I was, and then asked me if I could drive. If I were a local, I might communicate better. My elder sister said that older people are slow to learn things and have poor acceptance skills. What I interviewed was just simple packaging, and there was no skill. I had good sizes and quantity, and then packed them and posted them on the express delivery order. But if the other party doesn't want to recruit me, then I won't beg him. Finding a job requires mutual trust and respect. It would be boring for me to go to a unit that is unwilling to accept me. There are still very few interviews in Jiangnan. First, the recruitment unit is far away from where I live, and second, the salary has not been negotiated. Many of them communicate on recruitment software. It is interesting to have passed, but after that, I still returned in a disappointing way.For example, when I interviewed a company today, it was a business of calligraphy and painting. Some things were very expensive. I was very worried that the things were expensive. Just like when I interviewed a company that imported foreign wine, I was worried about whether it was still accountable. After all, the things were expensive. If the goods were shipped in the wrong way, or were accidentally damaged during daily work, these would involve compensation. The lower-class people are basically all barely silly, not to mention that I don’t even have a family. I am more careful about work. I really don’t dare to go to work because I’m not afraid of 10,000 yuan, but I’m afraid of if something happens. It’s too late to get into trouble. I don’t want to have an accident and give up similar companies in advance. The company I interviewed to package clothes for is making clothes. For example, a shirt costs less than 20 yuan, and I can afford to pay even if I send the wrong product. If it is a bottle of foreign wine worth tens of thousands of yuan, how can I afford to pay? I must consider the risks. I want to find a unit with cheap products, but it cannot be a big company, because large companies will force employees to pay medical and social security. I am homeless and I don’t know how long I can live. Paying these things has no meaning to me.
Whether a person has any problems depends on what environment he lives in. Some are personal reasons, and some are really environmental problems. Recently I watched a French movie "Dance Soul". The heroine was an actor who danced ballet . Unfortunately, she fell and injured her foot during a performance, so he was persuaded to leave by the troupe. The troupe felt that she had no value for use. Later, she came into contact with a group of clubs that danced modern dance , like an alternative performance art . After raising her foot injury, she joined them enthusiastically, trained and took the stage together, realizing her dance dream. She once fell down on one stage, was regarded as an angel with broken wings, and finally rose on another stage, and was regarded as a phoenix of Nirvana. This is the environment that determines everything. Many people will talk to me and grit their teeth. That's because they do not belong to the literary and artistic group at all. They are ordinary people who only care about eating, sleeping and sleeping. They do not listen to ancient songs, do not appreciate Hanfu, do not like to read literary, historical and philosophical books, do not like to watch film and television dramas with connotation, and do not have a hobby of writing. Of course, such people will regard me as an enemy and wantonly convict me. If the environment I live in is all about learning and poetry, then I will talk about Li Bai today, Cao Zhi tomorrow, Confucius and Mencius the future, and Lao Zhuang, Mozi , Gongsun Longzi , 4 great classics, Ancient Greek , World War II , etc. How could people think that they are a ruthless person and have ulterior motives? The culture we talk about is almost all the past. The "hundred Schools" of the pre-Qin schools is by no means an imaginary number, but a lot of knowledge has been lost, either like a flash in the pan at that time, or burned by , Qin Shihuang . In an era when paper was not yet popular, no thought could be preserved intact. (October 2022)
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