What is the reason for me to hum "I want to take you to the sky" these days
Somehow, I always hum involuntarily in my mouth, "Do you know I love you, I want to take you to the sky! Look at how beautiful the stars are, I will pick one and give it to you with my own hands!"
I have never had a strong desire to sing, because I am in a tone-free manner, and my friends or colleagues can't help laughing when singing. So even if I am in a good mood and want to sing, I will only hide at home and sing in the shower. At this time, the sound of squirting water can cover up everything. Not only can others not hear my out-of-tune sound, but I myself cannot hear other people's sarcasm.
I want to understand why I have a special love for this song these days. When I was in the research, I first thought of looking through the work order. The first time I sang was on November 27. That night, because Dongtao was interested in listening to her local "singer" singing in . I yelled at this song in the middle of the night. I was like a first rooster crowing, which attracted the neighbors to listen to the song and the singing.
The reason for improvisational singing is usually because of happiness. No one will sing when he is unhappy. But after learning the unfortunate news on the 28th, I was extremely frightened by the fragility of life. The classmates who were still talking in the morning suddenly disappeared. I was extremely uncomfortable. Although I knew that everyone's end was the same, I still couldn't accept these facts! The best sister Bingbing left in April 2017. She went to the hospital to accompany her every noon. The day she left was more than a year after I left her. I hurried back to the hospital. When I watched the black on her face disappear and lying quietly on the white sheets, wearing a funny dead suit, my tears were like water breaking through the dam and it was out of control. I didn't expect that my dear father would leave in the same year. My aunt accompanied me to the street to buy the so-called Yinjie clothes. Seeing my father wearing that inappropriate clothes, I was completely stupid.
Since my father passed away, I have lost relatives one after another. I was full of joy in sitting down, and I enjoyed playing cards every day. He was so kind to others that he suddenly left. His father, my uncle, and his uncle who smoked dry cigarettes every day, also left not long after his son passed away! The little mother-in-law at Shixikou is the wife of my little grandfather. When I was a child, whenever I picked tea and the school asked me to hand over the tea, I would live in my little mother-in-law's house. They picked tea in front, and I would pick tea in the back. If I couldn't pick tea, my little grandfather and my little grandmother would use their tea to make up for me. Back then, I swore that when I grow up, I must repay them. I didn’t expect that I didn’t fulfill my promise, so my mother-in-law left like that.
My uncle is also leaving this year, which is the reality that I cannot face the most. We want to fulfill our father's last words of falling leaves returning to our roots. When we rushed to the countryside, our uncle was in charge of everything. We didn't expect that in five years, he would go to another space to accompany his father. Uncle loves to catch a cold, and he often goes to the hospital. When we go to the countryside to clear the bill every year, he often goes to the clinic to pick up medicine or get a little drip, but he plays cards as usual every day. His smiling face at the poker table was obviously like a long-lived person forgetting the years, so I always like to blame him for making jokes.
"You uncle, I can't live long!" He often said this. Maybe I didn't care if I said it too much, so when he mentioned it on two phones later, I laughed at him for always saying the words. My uncle advised me not to work outside, but he said that when he remembered that I was suffering outside, he felt uncomfortable! Due to the epidemic, I did not go back to the countryside to quit my father last year and this year. My uncle said that I haven’t seen me for a long time, and I may not be sure to see you in the future. I don't allow my uncle to talk nonsense and say that he will live a hundred years old.
I didn't expect my uncle to really leave. In recent years, it has been normal for him to go to the hospital, but the doctor has not found any fatal problems with him. I didn't expect that I didn't even see him for the last time. Alas, why do you all do this? When Bingbing left, she believed that people would exist in another space when they left. Her father, who was a soldier, naturally did not believe in ghosts and gods, but uncles, uncles, and young grandmothers believed that heaven was a different world.
There should be another beauty in the sky. I, who do not believe in ghosts and gods, sometimes hope for the existence of heaven. I don’t know if this is considered a stolen bell. I always imply that they live in heaven and in the third space, in which they can fly freely, and they pick stars as casually as we pick flowers.
It has been so cold these days, but the coldness can't stop my enthusiasm for singing. The day I did cleaning with Xiaolin was November 30, and the temperature suddenly dropped that day. After finishing that morning, I suddenly said to Xiaolin's young face that I wanted to sing to her: Xiaolin, do you know that I love you, I want to take you to the sky. Xiaolin laughed. She has a lot of classes during this period. She is a dance teacher. This optimistic and strong mother works as a cleaner for her children. She becomes an gyroscope that can’t stop. Not only does she not complain about hardship and fatigue, she also always smiles and says it’s okay. I like this single mother, who supports a clear sky for the child alone.
I was inspired by Xiaolin's motivation. When Xiaolin turned away from another road, I faced the wind alone and continued to sing the song "Take you to the sky!"
30's wind was not strong, but the wind on December 1 made me frozen. It was work that night at around 6 o'clock. Although I ate Sister Yan's sweet potatoes and eggs and rode in the wind, I didn't feel hungry, but my whole body was so sure that I couldn't move. I listened to the whimpering wind roaring in my ears and sang loudly: I will fly to the sky and pick the stars with you. When she got home, she couldn't pick up the keys. Dongtao was soaking her feet, and she said she couldn't stand the cold anymore.
After I got home, I caught a cold. Not only did my nose blockage, but my throat also hurt. I took Lao Chen's kettle, soaked my feet in water, and then cooked a pot of , Fat Sea , and drank the water desperately. My mother also said yesterday that Shaoyang is rain and snow, and she asked me to take good care of myself. This is my first cold this year. I can't let it spread. I don't want to suffer myself, and I don't want my relatives to worry about it.
"I love you, I love you! Please take good care of yourself!" This is my words in my heart, and I say to my relatives, classmates, friends, colleagues, and relatives who are destined to meet and know each other. I just want to express myself in my singing. Dear friends, I love you, let’s pick the stars together and live every day happily.
