I told my best friend: I can’t live anymore.
Best friend replied to me: I have been unable to live anymore.
Because of this sentence, I almost burst into tears because I knew it was difficult for her and also lamented my own situation.
The cervical spine is uncomfortable recently. I know that I can’t handle it by relying on myself, so I went to the hospital. If I don’t get the cervical spine, it’s also the same word: it hurts. First, I had acupuncture for half an hour, and the neck was hung for half an hour, and the doctor then gave the bones a sound, but it was so painful that I screamed.
While the customer is urging me to ask for information, time is also tight, and these are all small CASEs for me.
After doing this, I found a master who changed the sliding door and came to my house to measure the size. The house was old and the things were much worse. I cleaned the house and washed the clothes. Every day was all these messy things. I knew that life was my own.
I can't cry at this age because no one listens to crying. I went to the hospital alone. Sometimes I envy others. There are so many happy people, why can't I be considered one of me? I often see a doctor alone, walk alone, watch movies alone, and face the world's frivolous life alone. My parents are old and they try not to cause trouble for us, so how can I have the nerve to put burden on them?
I know there are many people like me who are born lonely.
The world can rely on is always just oneself. Life is not a pure land, and each has its own suffering.
It’s useless to think a lot. What’s the meaning of life? Life is meaningless. Yu Hua In the book " Living ", said:
people live for living themselves, not for anything other than living.
In addition to life itself, it feels too sweet and too warm. It is all so society, customers’ disrespect, and children’s academic performance. You feel that there will be the last straw that will break the camel’s back at any time.
Hospitals are not going to break down while moving forward? Saying the most depressing words and doing the most positive things.
N I read the book "Living" a year ago, but I just felt miserable. How could a person have such a miserable life? How much pain does a person need to experience in his life? In comparison, I said to myself: It's so pretentious. Compared to them, what are you?
01 Fugui's free life
Fugui should have been born with a golden key. The landlord was born and had more than 100 acres of land at home. When he went to school, he was carried by his employer to a private school. He was ignorant on weekdays, and he was just a gambling person. He fell in love with Jiazhen, the daughter of the boss Mixing's house, and was also the daughter of a rich family. He asked his father to come to propose marriage.
At this time, Fugui lived a life of a fairy. His wife had a good temper. Even if she knew about the colorful things in the city, she would accept it. Even if she was advised, she was very subtle. She put a piece of meat about the same size under the dish: the women looked different, but they were the same below.
Of course, Fugui doesn't care about these things, and he still spends money and drinks. In the end, he lost more than 100 acres of land in his family. His Fugui's life ended here, not only implicating himself, but also implicating the family. From then on, the fate of this family has been different.
02 Suffering comes one after another
Father could not stand this blow and passed away soon. Fugui wore coarse cloth clothes and rented a piece of land to make a living. He was so pampered that he could not endure this pain. He either cut his hands or his feet, so tired that he had no strength all day long.
The most painful thing for him is his relatives one by one. First, the death of his mother, his daughter Fengxia became mute because of a high fever. When she grew up, she married Erxi, who was skeletal. The two of them were affectionate, which became Fugui's comfort, but she died of difficult labor and heavy bleeding. Her wife Jiazhen also suffered from chondropathy due to fatigue, not to mention her son Youqing, who died unexpectedly at a young age because of excessive blood transfusions to the county magistrate's wife.
Although life is hard, the family can be together, and there is a lot of warmth and happiness. The family has passed away one after another, poverty, illness, and accidents. Fugui's life is one suffering and another suffering.
Life is hard, you think it has reached its limit, but even more difficult things will always happen. Why live is just because you are born. The will to live is the only thing that cannot be taken away from Fugui.
"The Twelve Hours of Chang'an" yuan There is a sentence in prison:
Standing at a high place and looking at the abyss, falling into the abyss to know how to climb. If a person does not live a single point, his life will be ups and downs.
This is life, with ups and downs, highs and lows, cruel times, warm times, happiness, and sadness.
written in the last
"Living" Fugui lived as a person, living alone in this world.
Writer Fang Qi said: When we are beaten by life, we can of course choose to be in a slump, because no one will pay for you. But at the same time, you can choose to turn around and smile at it and tell it that unless I am willing to choose to lie down, no one will think of knocking me down.
So please continue to do your best, live a good life, and exercise well, not only to live longer, but to live a more quality life, and make more money. For the sake of your family, you can take out the money generously when you need it, without having to sting your fingers or looking at people.
When I encounter difficulties, my father always says that having food is not a big problem. Yes, nothing is more difficult than survival.
Think about people who have no food to eat, and think about themselves who have food and drink.
There is a feeling that I make money every day, and I live in honey.
If you feel bitter, chew it. In this introverted and anxious era, I decided to calm down and live with my heart, not compare with each other, not follow the trend, let him be strong, the breeze blows on the hills, and live at my own pace.
