He did not allow anyone to mistreat them, and he rebuked kings for their sakes, saying, "Do not trouble my anointed, and do not do evil to my prophets." [Psalm 105:14-15]
These two sentences, let me Feeling very protected and comforted!
These two sentences also remind me of the "self-proof" of intelligence and ability that I pursued in the first half of my life. How stupid it was!
When I was a child, I knew that I was not as smart and talented as other children. Therefore, from the second and third grade of elementary school to my graduation from high school, the main theme of my life was to study twice as hard as others, spend twice as much time, and be slower. It doesn't matter if you're not smart, the important thing is to work hard and persevere. Especially every time I enter a new stage, my academic performance will drop from the middle and lower levels of the initial class. Through unremitting efforts, I will eventually reach the top dozens of grades!
Although the long-term intense efforts have had certain results, it has made me feel extremely tired and tired, and I feel like I want to escape from the constraints of my studies quickly!
When I was in college, I quickly seized the opportunity to take a breather and didn't want to work so hard anymore. Although I was temporarily free of the tight state of hard work in the past, the medical class itself had a heavy workload and the study pressure was not small!
After graduating, I started working. The rigor and busyness of the hospital made me nervous again. I was not confident, and I was once again trapped in the cycle of "self-proof", proving it through hard work, and undertaking without a bottom line. Prove it by your boss's tasks, prove it by participating in various competitions and winning awards, prove it through various thesis projects, and prove it by signing up for postgraduate studies on the job...
However, people are limited: limited ability, limited energy, limited time... But I devoted myself to endless self-proofing, and the result was an unbalanced life and damaged health!
It wasn’t until I met him that I began to wake up and see the previous problems; in him, all my true colors were deeply accepted, and I no longer overly worshiped intelligence and ability, because I found that life is not based on "smartness" Or "ability" can lead to smooth access. I found that faith, hope, love, life, road, truth, covering, protection and guidance... are more important than intelligence and ability. Slowly, I began to get out of the death of "self-proof" Cycle, try to see yourself in line with the mean, very good!
When I am writing, a song will sound in my heart unconsciously - "Lily of the Valley", which is affectionate, soft and powerful, and is dedicated to you who are reading! May you also find the treasure!
"I have a best friend, He is Jesus. He brings constant comfort to hungry and thirsty souls. Like the lily of the valley, white and fragrant! He is merciful in pain and sorrow. He comforts me in sorrow. He takes away all my troubles. I bear hardships and sorrows, and overcome temptations. He is my strong protection. For Him, I am willing to give up everything! I abandon the idols in my heart, and He uses His almighty arms to keep me healthy! Even if my relatives and friends abandon me, and Satan tempts and seduce me, I can rely on Him to have peace and hope in my heart. , He is the rock, giving me strength and turning weakness into strength..."
