"Why, are you crying now?"
I looked at the school beauty who was kneeling on the ground crying, and pressed the cigarette butt on her shoulder. She screamed in pain.
I smiled and picked up the razor and shaved her hair.
"Don't worry, I will do to you what you did to me before."
1.
My name is Lin Niao Niao and I am a freshman in high school. When my parents named me, they probably wanted me to be born like Pingting Niaona, so they gave me such a name.
Unfortunately, things didn’t work out as I wanted. When I was a child, I got seriously ill and was unable to lose weight due to excessive hormone intake. With a height of 168 cm and a weight of 168 cm, I have been alienated and teased by my classmates since I was a child.
Sow, big bear, fat ghost... I have been surrounded by such voices since I was a child.
At the beginning, I would ask my parents to change schools, but they always told me impatiently: "You will be the same wherever you go."
I also tried to lose weight, but it was difficult to make an improvement whether it was through exercise or diet. I once mentioned to my parents that I hoped to hire a coach to help me lose weight systematically, but my mother immediately denied: "It's all a scam."
And my father also said: "At your age, just study hard."
So I gradually became silent and stopped trying to lose weight. Instead, I focused on studying like my parents said.
Unfortunately, my academic performance is also mediocre.
After all, whose books are torn up every now and then, needles are placed on the seats from time to time, and knives often appear in her schoolbag, her grades are unlikely to be good.
But I have nowhere to complain.
No one would believe that Gu Ke, the class beauty with a kind heart and the best person in the grade, would take the lead in bullying me.
2.
It all started with a prank.
Because of my special body shape and appearance, I was always teased maliciously by the boys in the class. Sometimes they would run up to me and tell me mysteriously: "So-and-so likes you!"
Or when making a bet, they would make me a bet: "If you lose, you will sleep with Lin Niao."
Their voices were very loud, but I could only sit in the corner and lower my head, pretending not to hear.
But that day, someone wrote a love letter in my name and placed it on the desk of the school president Lu Ming.
A big red heart is printed blood-red on the envelope. Anyone who reads it will know that it is a love letter.
Sending love letters is not uncommon for school girls. It's just that this is the first time it has been placed on the table like this.
So the boys who were bored during their lunch break started to make a fuss and asked Lu Ming to open the love letter in public so that everyone could see who this person was.
Lu Ming reluctantly opened the envelope and unfolded the letter. Someone immediately came over and read aloud:
"Lu Ming, you are everything to me, I love you so much! - Niao Niao"
There was a silence, and then there was an exaggerated sound of vomiting.
"Lin Niaoxiao, why are you so disgusting?" Someone immediately looked at me sitting in the corner with disgust on his face.
Another person responded in a grandiose manner: "He is your everything? Shouldn't everything you have be fat?"
Then the whole class burst into laughter.
I stood up in a hurry and said, "I didn't write it."
Lu Ming is the school boy of our middle school. He is 1.8 meters tall and is among the top three in his age in academic performance. Every girl has secretly talked about Lu Ming in private and fantasized about being Lu Ming's girlfriend.
In my deepest and deepest dreams, I may have had such wishful thinking. But I knew it was just wishful thinking, so how could I write a love letter?
But those people obviously didn't believe it, and shouted: "It's okay, even toads have spring! You have to dare to do it! Maybe Lu Ming will fall in love with you?"
Then there was another burst of laughter.
Of course it is impossible for Lu Ming to fall in love with me.
He frowned and threw the love letter into the trash can, and said to me word by word: "Lin Niao Niao, being liked by you makes me feel sick."
I stood there, my whole body cold and stiff, as if I was instantly frozen into an ice sculpture.
Tears flowed out of my eyes
"I didn't write it." I argued softly.
but no one paid attention to it.
The truth doesn't matter, they get the happiness they want.
3
In the afternoon when this incident happened, Gu Ke led five or six girls and blocked me in the women's toilet.
"Who are you, how dare you send a love letter to Lu Ming?" She kicked me hard in the stomach, and I curled up in pain.
This is not the first time.
In the past, Gu Ke would also lead people to beat me. She said I was so fat that I was perfect for being a human punching bag.
But this time, she hit me very hard.
In the past, as long as I didn't say anything or fight back, she would stop hitting me after a while. Most of the girls on the side were just watching to prevent me from escaping.
But this time, not only did she hit me, other girls also joined in. I could only passively protect my head and face, and soon my hands and legs were covered with scars.
Then, they started to press cigarette butts on me.
Every time I perm it, a scar will be left on my heart.
I felt pain at first, but later I just felt cold.
Yes, in this hot summer, I feel cold all over, twitching constantly, and I can't even move.
I begged them in my heart to end this violence quickly, because I would have to lie down on my own for two hours to recover.
It’s too late to go home, and I will be scolded by my parents again.
Finally, I heard a redemptive voice. A girl said worriedly: "Lu Ke, she seems to have been twitching, we can't fight anymore."
The speed of punching and kicking slowed down, but Gu Ke had no intention of letting me go. She grabbed a handful of my hair and lifted my face up: "You are so ugly!"
The sunlight stimulated my swollen eyes, and I could only close them subconsciously.
A pair of scissors appeared in front of my eyes, and in my ears was Gu Ke's malicious laughter: "You can be uglier."
"No!" I struggled in horror. "Please don't!"
The injuries from the beating will only appear under the clothes, and no one will know. But this time she wants to cut my hair!
so everyone will know.
I endured the severe pain in my body and struggled hard, but several girls next to me quickly held me down.
"Don't move. Gu Ke will give you a beautiful haircut." Another girl's voice was smiling.
Strands of hair fell off, and some were scattered in front of my eyes.
I cried.
4
"Why did you come back so late?"
"Oh, what happened to your hair?!"
My mother was holding the rice bowl and looked at my short and long hair like alopecia areata in surprise.
My father put down his phone and looked at me with a frown: "Did you get into a fight with your classmates again?"
I didn't say anything and went straight to the bathroom.
Yes, my parents will only think that I fight with others.
was bullied by Gu Ke at first, and she warned me not to tell anyone. But I still told my parents.
I hope they can help me.
But they looked at me as if I was a psycho.
Because Gu Kena is the first in grade. Whenever there is a parent-teacher meeting, the first person the teacher praises is Gu Ke.
How could Gu Ke bully me?
They didn’t believe it, so I had to change my story and say that I was injured in a fight with another classmate.
At least this makes me look less embarrassed. "Why, are you crying now?" I looked at the school beauty who was kneeling on the ground crying, and pressed the cigarette butt on her shoulder. She screamed in pain. I smiled and picked up the razor and shaved her hair. "Don't worry, I will do to you what you did to me before." 1. My name is Lin Niao Niao and I am a freshman in high school. When my parents named me, they probably wanted me to be born like Pingting Niaona, so they gave me such a name. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out as I wanted. When I was a child, I got seriously ill and was unable to lose weight due to excessive hormone intake. With a height of 168 cm and a weight of 168 cm, I have been alienated and teased by my classmates since I was a child. Sow, big bear, fat ghost... I have been surrounded by such voices since I was a child. At the beginning, I would ask my parents to change schools, but they always told me impatiently: "You will be the same wherever you go." I also tried to lose weight, but it was difficult to make an improvement whether it was through exercise or diet. I once mentioned to my parents that I hoped to hire a coach to help me lose weight systematically, but my mother immediately denied: "It's all a scam." And my father also said: "At your age, just study hard." So I gradually became silent and stopped trying to lose weight. Instead, I focused on studying like my parents said. Unfortunately, my academic performance is also mediocre. After all, whose books are torn up every now and then, needles are placed on the seats from time to time, and knives often appear in her schoolbag, her grades are unlikely to be good. But I have nowhere to complain. No one would believe that Gu Ke, the class beauty with a kind heart and the best person in the grade, would take the lead in bullying me. 2. It all started with a prank. Because of my special body shape and appearance, I was always teased maliciously by the boys in the class. Sometimes they would run up to me and tell me mysteriously: "So-and-so likes you!" Or when making a bet, they would make me a bet: "If you lose, you will sleep with Lin Niao." Their voices were very loud, but I could only sit in the corner and lower my head, pretending not to hear. But that day, someone wrote a love letter in my name and placed it on the desk of the school president Lu Ming. A big red heart is printed blood-red on the envelope. Anyone who reads it will know that it is a love letter. Sending love letters is not uncommon for school girls. It's just that this is the first time it has been placed on the table like this. So the boys who were bored during their lunch break started to make a fuss and asked Lu Ming to open the love letter in public so that everyone could see who this person was. Lu Ming reluctantly opened the envelope and unfolded the letter. Someone immediately came over and read aloud: "Lu Ming, you are everything to me, I love you so much! - Niao Niao" There was a silence, and then there was an exaggerated sound of vomiting. "Lin Niaoxiao, why are you so disgusting?" Someone immediately looked at me sitting in the corner with disgust on his face. Another person responded in a grandiose manner: "He is your everything? Shouldn't everything you have be fat?" Then the whole class burst into laughter. I stood up in a hurry and said, "I didn't write it." Lu Ming is the school boy of our middle school. He is 1.8 meters tall and is among the top three in his age in academic performance. Every girl has secretly talked about Lu Ming in private and fantasized about being Lu Ming's girlfriend. In my deepest and deepest dreams, I may have had such wishful thinking. But I knew it was just wishful thinking, so how could I write a love letter? But those people obviously didn't believe it, and shouted: "It's okay, even toads have spring! You have to dare to do it! Maybe Lu Ming will fall in love with you?" Then there was another burst of laughter. Of course it is impossible for Lu Ming to fall in love with me. He frowned and threw the love letter into the trash can, and said to me word by word: "Lin Niao Niao, being liked by you makes me feel sick." I stood there, my whole body cold and stiff, as if I was instantly frozen into an ice sculpture. Tears flowed out of my eyes "I didn't write it." I argued softly. but no one paid attention to it. The truth doesn't matter, they get the happiness they want. 3 In the afternoon when this incident happened, Gu Ke led five or six girls and blocked me in the women's toilet. "Who are you, how dare you send a love letter to Lu Ming?" She kicked me hard in the stomach, and I curled up in pain. This is not the first time. In the past, Gu Ke would also lead people to beat me. She said I was so fat that I was perfect for being a human punching bag. But this time, she hit me very hard. In the past, as long as I didn't say anything or fight back, she would stop hitting me after a while. Most of the girls on the side were just watching to prevent me from escaping. But this time, not only did she hit me, other girls also joined in. I could only passively protect my head and face, and soon my hands and legs were covered with scars. Then, they started to press cigarette butts on me. Every time I perm it, a scar will be left on my heart. I felt pain at first, but later I just felt cold. Yes, in this hot summer, I feel cold all over, twitching constantly, and I can't even move. I begged them in my heart to end this violence quickly, because I would have to lie down on my own for two hours to recover. It’s too late to go home, and I will be scolded by my parents again. Finally, I heard a redemptive voice. A girl said worriedly: "Lu Ke, she seems to have been twitching, we can't fight anymore." The speed of punching and kicking slowed down, but Gu Ke had no intention of letting me go. She grabbed a handful of my hair and lifted my face up: "You are so ugly!" The sunlight stimulated my swollen eyes, and I could only close them subconsciously. A pair of scissors appeared in front of my eyes, and in my ears was Gu Ke's malicious laughter: "You can be uglier." "No!" I struggled in horror. "Please don't!" The injuries from the beating will only appear under the clothes, and no one will know. But this time she wants to cut my hair! so everyone will know. I endured the severe pain in my body and struggled hard, but several girls next to me quickly held me down. "Don't move. Gu Ke will give you a beautiful haircut." Another girl's voice was smiling. Strands of hair fell off, and some were scattered in front of my eyes. I cried. 4 "Why did you come back so late?" "Oh, what happened to your hair?!" My mother was holding the rice bowl and looked at my short and long hair like alopecia areata in surprise. My father put down his phone and looked at me with a frown: "Did you get into a fight with your classmates again?" I didn't say anything and went straight to the bathroom. Yes, my parents will only think that I fight with others. was bullied by Gu Ke at first, and she warned me not to tell anyone. But I still told my parents. I hope they can help me. But they looked at me as if I was a psycho. Because Gu Kena is the first in grade. Whenever there is a parent-teacher meeting, the first person the teacher praises is Gu Ke. How could Gu Ke bully me? They didn’t believe it, so I had to change my story and say that I was injured in a fight with another classmate. At least this makes me look less embarrassed. I was scolded by my parents because I not only fought but also lied. Later, Gu Ke hit me again, and I never told anyone. The injuries were all under my clothes, so no one would notice if I didn't tell them. I picked up the clippers that my dad usually used for haircuts, and flattened the rest of my hair. looked at himself in the mirror with only a slit in his eye due to obesity. I was already ugly, but because of this nondescript haircut, I looked even more disgusting. "Why should I live?" I once again had this thought. 5 The hair can be flattened, but the injuries on the body will not heal for a while. The next day I was sent to the school hospital because I suddenly fainted. When I woke up, the school doctor was telling the class teacher about my situation. "Low blood sugar, and there are many injuries on the body. Teacher Li, you'd better pay attention to the condition of this classmate in your class." The school doctor's voice was filled with worry. I feel warm in my heart. "Lin Niao Niao, you're awake!" Teacher Li saw that I was awake and walked over quickly: "How do you feel now?" My body still hurt, but I didn't want to cause trouble to the teacher, so I shook my head and said nothing. The school doctor suddenly interjected: "Classmate, how did you get injured? If someone bullies you, you must report it to Teacher Li in time." My hands grabbed the sheets and held them very tightly. Can I tell the teacher? But that is Gu Ke, will Teacher Li believe it? I shook my head and told the doctor, "I fell on my own." The school doctor looked at me and sighed for a long time. I turned to Teacher Li and said, "She should be fine now. Please take her back." Teacher Li thanked the school doctor and took me out of the school doctor's office. I didn’t speak the whole way. When someone passes by me, they will cast a curious look at my appearance. I shrank my neck and got closer to the head teacher. I have never been alone with my class teacher. There are fifty people in our class, but my academic performance is only mediocre, and I am the kind of student who is least paid attention to by the class teacher. But he should still care about me, right? Otherwise, why would you come to pick me up at the campus hospital? I suddenly thought of the school doctor’s sigh just now. Somehow, I felt courage for no reason. When I walked to the door of Teacher Li's office, I stopped and said, "Teacher Li, I have something to say to you." 6 My heart started to roar, and I could even feel the expansion of my blood vessels . I heard myself say: "Teacher Li, these injuries were caused by someone beating me." Teacher Li frowned, and his voice became serious: "Who is it?" My heartbeat was getting faster and faster, and I almost shouted: "It's Gu Ke." In fact, my voice was very small, but I said it! I really said it! Will he believe it? Will he save me from hell? I looked at him expectantly. Teacher Li pushed up his glasses: "Which Gu Ke? Is the Gu Ke from our class?" I nodded slightly. Teacher Li did not respond, he pushed open the office door. "Come in and talk." I quickly followed Teacher Li into the office. I have never felt that the rope that can save me is so close. Because it is class time now, there are no other teachers in the office. He walked to his workstation, threw his phone on the table, then sat down and looked up at me: "It was Gu Ke who found you fainted." Teacher Li's voice was obviously unhappy. My boiling blood ran cold. The life-saving rope instantly turned into a rope that could hang me. It turned out that Gu Ke discovered that I fainted. "Classmate Lin, there are some things you shouldn't say nonsense." Teacher Li's tone was more serious, as if he was accusing me of repaying kindness with enmity. But why couldn't she just bully me and pretend to be kind and send me to the hospital? At this moment, I felt as if a hand was grabbing my throat and dragging me deeper into the abyss. I lowered my head again: "I'm sorry. I was just talking nonsense." Sure enough, even my parents didn't believe it, so how could Teacher Li believe it. Sure enough, no one in this world can save me. No one. "If you feel uncomfortable, you can ask for leave and go home in the afternoon." Teacher Li's voice was still very kind. I shook my head. If I take leave to go home, my parents will definitely be angry. The final exam is coming soon and I don’t want to miss the course. "That's okay." Teacher Li made a gesture of invitation, which meant that I should go back to class. At this moment, Teacher Li’s cell phone placed on the table suddenly rang twice. The screen lights up. Although he quickly put out the phone after taking a glance, I still saw it. Gu Ke: [Thank you, Teacher Li, for Lin Niao Niao’s matter. 】 is followed by a transfer. 7 I did not go back to the classroom, but came to the rooftop of the school. I finally figured out why Teacher Li didn’t believe me. Because he already knew that Gu Ke was bullying me. But a student who is number one in grade is much more valuable than me, an ugly student with poor grades. So he chose to protect Gu Ke. Of course, it is also possible that it is for money. But I don’t care anymore. When I was young, I was sick. My parents told me that the world was beautiful and there were many happy things, and they asked me to get well quickly. I'm getting better, but I can't feel the beauty of this world. Teacher once taught us that there will always be light in this world, and we must become kind people and pursue the light. Maybe there really is a bright future, right? But I was stuck in the mud. Why should I live? Just so they can laugh at me and beat me? The wind blew my face, and the sound of reading loudly came from the teaching building. is still in class now, no one will find me on the rooftop. I don’t want others to watch my death, I don’t want to leave a psychological shadow on good people, and I don’t want bad people to make fun of my broken body. This time is just right. There is no savior in this world, no one will come to save me. I am always alone, walks alone. I closed my eyes and jumped. Farewell, Mom and Dad. Maybe you can have another child who is smarter and cuter than me. 8 What is more painful than death? Everyone may have a different answer. But for me, it is more painful to be revived when I want to die. ICU full of dripping instruments became my new cage, accompanied by repeated rescue operations, the smell of disinfectant and the desperate cries of my parents. Why don't you let me die? Why does it hurt me so much? Why does it make my parents so sad? But God did not fulfill my wish. After being rescued and staying in the ICU for five days, my vital signs miraculously stabilized and I was transferred to the general ward. "Niao Niao, it's your parents who are sorry for you.If we had believed you earlier, you wouldn't have jumped off the building, right? " During the few times I was awake, I could see that my mother's hair was much grayer. The wrinkles between my father's eyebrows have also grown a lot. They are obviously only in their thirties, but they already look like they are fifty years old. "Niao Niao, dad is wrong. Dad should hire a fitness coach for you, it's not expensive." I was laughing in my heart. It turns out that my father still remembers that I wanted to hire a fitness coach. It’s just that I can’t move, and I don’t know if I’ve lost weight this time. Now I have very complicated feelings towards my parents. I know they love me, but I still can't let go of their indifference to me. Even if they repent now and stay with me day and night, although I am moved, I cannot let go completely. I don’t force myself. God allowed me to survive, but I haven't figured out how to survive. It was summer when I jumped off the building. By early winter, I could finally accept visits from others. The school leaders, head teachers and student representatives wanted to see me, but my parents refused. My mother looked angry: "It's because the school failed to take care of the students, and you still want to visit?!" She looked at me, with a distressed look on her face: "Don't worry, I went to school to make trouble. That Fang Xinyi who bullied you has been expelled!" Fang Xinyi? I thought about it and found that one of the people who bullied me was named Fang Xinyi. When I was beaten severely by Gu Ke, she even tried to dissuade him. But she is just a follower. "Where is Gu Ke?" I couldn't help but ask. My mother looked confused: "Gu Ke? She is the student representative sent by the school to express condolences to you. Do you want to see her?" She said a little uncertainly: "She is good at studying, so you can ask her to make up lessons for you." I stared at the white ceiling and said nothing. It turns out that Gu Ke has nothing to do. The real bad guys are still at large. "When you get better, we will transfer to another school." My dad suddenly said. I slowly turned my head and looked at the withered trees outside the window. What should I do if there is a person like Gu Ke in another school? No one has ever been able to save me. The only one who can save me is myself. I turned to look at my dad: "You said you hired a coach before, does that still count?" 9 "Look! That's Lin Niao Niao! The Lin Niao Niao who jumped off the building!" "How is it possible? That person is so thin and good-looking!" "What's impossible? She stayed in the hospital every day for almost half a year, and then took a break from school for a whole year. Everything is possible!" "She doesn't know how to have plastic surgery, right?" "I can't say for sure! Maybe I fell face down at that time. I'll just take care of myself in the hospital." I walked in the school where I had been away for a long time, listening to the muttering in my ears. I know that many people are looking at me. After all, I have indeed changed too much. In the past year and a half, I have lost weight and my facial features have become much clearer. Even my mother was a little surprised, saying she didn’t expect her daughter to lose weight and look so good. My dad also nodded, regretting that the coach was late. I don’t care about this. Losing weight is the most insignificant change I have made in the past year and a half. "Lin Niaoniao, welcome back!" As soon as I stepped into the class, I heard Gu Ke's voice. She was stretching out her hand, but when she saw me, she wanted to retract it with some uncertainty. And I held her hand, ignoring the surprise on her face, and glanced at the classmates and class teacher behind her who were preparing to hold a welcome ceremony for me, and then showed a big smile: "Thank you, I miss you very much!" 10 I caught up with the monthly exam as soon as I came back. When I left, I was still in the first semester of my freshman year of high school, and when I came back, it was already the second semester of my sophomore year. After handing in the test paper for the last subject, an unexpected person came over. "This exam is a bit difficult." I looked at Lu Ming in surprise, wondering why he came to me. But I still nodded politely: "It's a bit difficult." He seemed to be relieved when he saw my answer. He sat on the empty seat opposite me and hesitated: "If you have any questions that you don't know, you can ask me." I looked at him and said nothing. He seemed to finally be able to bear it, with a look of guilt on his face: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that to you before." Oh, he still remembers it. It turns out that the past events have left traces on more than just my heart. I glanced at Gu Ke, who was talking to others in the distance but looking over here from time to time. I wondered if she felt guilty. "How did you talk about me?" He seemed a little surprised, but he didn't expect me to ask. I sneered inwardly, I guess he would think I should just say it's okay. But some things are not okay. He hesitated, but couldn't say those two words. "Disgusting." I said, staring at him word by word. He is very good-looking, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, tall, and good at studies, but he still cannot change the harm he has done to me. Despite his appearance, he is a superficial and naive person. "Disgusting, you said I was disgusting before." "Clang!" It was the sound of the seat overturning. He stood up in a hurry, said sorry to me with a red face, and then left in embarrassment. Many people were attracted by the sound and looked towards me without knowing why. I stood up slowly, fixed the fallen seat opposite, and sat back in my seat. 11 Gu Ming is obviously not the only one who cares about my performance today. Teacher Li called me to his office before school, with concern in his voice: "You have been on leave from school before. If your grades are not satisfactory, don't be discouraged. If it doesn't work, you can apply to repeat the grade." Yes, my previous grades were just average. In their eyes, after taking a break from school for a year and a half, I am afraid I will be even worse this time. I thanked him politely and did not answer the call. Teacher Li continued: "I was afraid that you would not be disturbed, so I didn't go to the hospital to see you. Are you okay now?" I pretended not to hear his lame reasons and nodded obediently: "Everything is fine. Thank you, Teacher Li, for your concern." Teacher Li finally came back when he saw me. His words seemed to restore some confidence, and he sighed: "If you had made it clear earlier that it was Fang Xinyi who bullied you, the teacher would definitely have helped you." He subconsciously touched the mobile phone on the table: "You are still young, what can't you get through?" Many people like to say, "What can't you get over?" But if you put them in that position, they may not be able to get through it. What's more, Teacher Li is just using this to cover up his crimes. I glanced at his phone. He probably wouldn't have saved the chat history from more than a year ago. But it doesn’t matter, I will not let anyone who has harmed me go. 12 htmlThe results of the January exam will be out soon. To everyone's surprise, I ranked first in my grade.
Teacher Li looked surprised and praised me incoherently at the class meeting. Then he looked at Gu Ke and pointedly said: "One result can't mean anything, everyone must keep working hard."
The most unacceptable thing is Gu Ke who fell to second place.
But she couldn't say a bad word about me in front of everyone. She could only congratulate me with a smile, and her smile was extremely twisted.
"Niao Niao, you can still catch up with your grades after committing suicide by jumping off a building. It's really amazing!" She bit down on committing suicide by jumping off a building very hard because she wanted others to think of the me who I used to be, the ugly, humble, and timid me.
But I was not as panicked and sad as she imagined. Instead, I replied very confidently: "Yes, I am really good."
It took me a year. Not only did I do rehabilitation training every day, I also hired a tutor and spent a lot of time studying.
Without the dilemma of being insulted and targeted at school, I felt a rare peace of mind. The content that I couldn't understand or learn was finally mastered by me through my unremitting efforts.
It turns out that it was not my fault. It turns out that I can become good.
So Gu Ke is right, I am really good.
13
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have treated you like that last time." After class, I came to Lu Ming's desk.
After running away last time, Lu Ming hid when he saw me. Obviously he didn't expect me to come to him.
And it’s almost the exact words returned.
His face turned slightly red: "No, it's okay."
I laughed and handed him a letter. When he saw the letter, his expression changed. The letter had a blood-red heart on it, exactly like the one he had received on the table a year and a half ago.
"You..."
At this time, many people had gathered around. But unlike last time, no one was booing.
Someone just whispered: "I'm just saying it! Lin Niaoniao changed so much just to confess to Gu Ming."
I turned to look at that person. It was he who said last time that even a toad has spring. I smiled at him.
He immediately covered his heart: "Lin Niao Niao is so pretty now!"
Some girls next to me were rolling their eyes, so I turned around again and looked at Lu Ming.
then opened the "love letter" in front of him and read it.
"Lu Ming, I like you very much. Are you willing to be my boyfriend?"
The people around him couldn't bear it any longer. Some yelled, and some said, "Is Lin Niao Niao so fierce?"
Some people said: "It's a good knock. ! What kind of script is this for the heroine to counterattack the hero? "
Someone else said: "No way, Lu Ming won't agree to her?"
Obviously Lu Ming also heard these messy words, his face was very red, like a cooked shrimp, and he had his hands crossed, looking very nervous.
A look of hesitation flashed across his face, but it only took a moment before it turned into determination: "I will never let you down again."
"Wow, wow, wow!"
The classroom exploded. Some people are happy, and some people are as black as the bottom of a pot.
But I still smiled and read the last sentence in the letter: "I love you, Gu Ke."
Lu Ming's red face suddenly turned pale.
Gu Ke, whose face was as dark as the bottom of a pot, made a rare gaffe. She threw the book to the ground with a "pop" and ran out of the classroom.
I pressed the love letter into Lu Ming's arms: "I sent it to Gu Ke."
Then I said loudly: "No way? Do you think I want to confess to you?"
I looked at him with a troubled face and said to him:
"But I will find you disgusting."
Disappointed?
I sneered inwardly.Does he really think he is some kind of campus hero?
I don’t need to conquer him, I just want to take revenge on him.
14
The news that Lu Ming confessed to me and was rejected by me soon spread throughout the whole grade. When I was walking on the road after school, many people looked at me with admiration.
This surprised me a bit.
It turns out that in the eyes of many people, rejecting the school idol is even more powerful than being ranked first in grade.
But soon, I was blocked by Gu Ke. There were still several girls around her, but the one named Fang Xinyi was missing.
Gu Ke looked at me hatefully. I guess she wanted to kill me.
I had fear on my face and was pushed into the women's restroom by a few of them. Then, they locked the door of the women's restroom very skillfully.
Just like countless times a year and a half ago.
"Lin Niaoniao, how dare you?" Gu Ke stretched out his hand and slapped me.
My face hurt, and physiological tears immediately flowed from my eyes. I fell to the ground, lowered my head and said nothing.
A girl said: "She looks like this the most. She has lost weight, but she is still so useless." As she said that, she kicked me.
I screamed in pain. As always, he protected his head and face.
Gu Ke gave me another hard kick, and when he saw that he was about to kick me in the chest, I quietly turned sideways and let her kick me on the shoulder.
Then I screamed "ah" and started shaking in an exaggerated way, looking very painful. That kind of thing startled Lin Niao Niao, who still wanted to hit me.
"What's wrong with her?"
The people next to me also had no idea: "Isn't it because I jumped off the building before and didn't recover?"
Gu Ke didn't dare to do anything again. She watched me go from shaking to lying on the ground unconscious. He put his hand under my nose with some uncertainty, then breathed a sigh of relief.
"Fortunately, I'm still angry."
A girl was a little scared and looked at Gu Ke: "Let's go quickly, don't really cause any trouble."
There was silence in the women's restroom for a moment, and finally Gu Ke said: "Let's go."
When I heard the door of the women's restroom being opened and closed again, I immediately sat up and quickly took out the cotton pad from my clothes.
I choose to go back to school in winter precisely because I wear thick clothes so that others can’t tell the difference.
Then I quickly stood up and climbed up to the toilet window very vigorously.
In the corner above the window, there was an imperceptible little red dot flashing.
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Early the next morning, a video was uploaded to Weibo and was quickly posted to the school group.
"Did you watch that video?"
"You did! It went viral in our group!"
"Who would have thought that Gu Ke would take the lead in beating people?!"
"No! Seeing how skilled she is, it's not the first time."
"No wonder Lin Niao Niao wants to jump. Lou must have been bullied by Gu Ke.
Someone who had never seen the video asked, "Didn't you say Fang Xinyi before? Why did you become Gu Ke again?"
Someone immediately raised the phone in front of her: "Look at this video! If you ask me, Fang Xinyi is a scapegoat!"
The morning reading hadn't started yet, so I sat alone in the corner and looked at the many comments on the Weibo video. Many of them should be classmates at school, and some are netizens.
There are so many barrages that they almost cover the people in the video, and most of the barrages mean: "Bullying is shameful."
Yes, bullying is shameful. Everyone knows it.
But how many bullied people dare to stand up bravely and accuse those who bully them?
Who is willing to reveal his bloody scars for everyone to see?
"Lin Niaoniao, is it you?!" came a menacing voice. I was suddenly pulled up from my seat by a force.
I looked up and it was Gu Ke.
Apparently she had also seen the video, and her actions made everyone in the classroom go silent.
I looked at her calmly: "Are you going to hit me in front of everyone?"
Her hand suddenly loosened and she looked at the classmates in the class.
I don’t have to look back to know how the people in the class look at her.
Because Gu Ke's face no longer had the usual confidence and pride, but a kind of defeat and an anxiety that was eager to explain but could not be explained.
Soon someone called the head teacher.
"Gu Ke, come here." The head teacher's voice sounded. Gu Ke looked at me helplessly, and then left with the head teacher. The week after
, Gu Kedu did not appear again.
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Many people looked at me with sympathy, but some people pointed fingers at me.
I don’t know when the public opinion in the school changed. Someone started to speak for Gu Ke, saying that if a slap can't make a difference, I must have done something wrong to make Gu Ke so angry.
Then someone came forward as an insider and said that she had someone beat me because I embarrassed Gu Ke in public.
Typical victim guilt theory.
Some people even said that I was jealous of Gu Ke, so I deliberately framed her. That video is totally P's.
Of course someone spoke for me. The comment area on Weibo was already in turmoil. At this moment, Gu Ke came back.
She is stronger than I thought.
Under Teacher Li's "mediation", she apologized to me in public. The general idea is, "Because my previous love letter made me impulsive, I had some small conflicts with me that day. She is very sorry."
What she calls small conflicts is one-sided beatings.
If I hadn’t stuffed thick protective cotton pads into my clothes in advance, my body would just be bruised and bruised like before.
Her beating became an inescapable nightmare during the year and a half I was recovering from illness.
When I decided to face her bullying again in order to obtain evidence, and curled up on the ground and pretended to be in pain from her beating, only I knew how scared I was.
I tried my best to tell myself not to be afraid. She can't hurt me this time.
But my screams were real, and so were my tremors.
Only this time, I have a weapon.
She can no longer hurt me, physically or mentally.
"Lin Niao Niao, Gu Ke has already apologized." Seeing that I didn't speak, Teacher Li reminded me in time.
I slowly stood up from my seat and looked at Gu Ke who was obviously resentful on the podium. I shook my head: "I don't accept it."
I didn't accept Lu Ming's apology, and I wouldn't accept Gu Ke's apology.
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Whether I accept it or not. Gu Ke still went back to school.
Although the strange looks from others still made her feel uneasy, she still stayed in school tenaciously.
Soon, another thing attracted the attention of others.
Teacher Li picked me up in class and said that someone reported me for cheating in the monthly exam.
The students in the class were all shocked for a while, but soon showed expressions of realization.
"I just said how could she improve her grades so fast!" Some people whispered to each other.
I laughed and looked at Gu Ke, who looked proud.
It turns out that this is her method.
is boring and inferior.
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"I didn't cheat. I can prove it."
Teacher Li frowned: "How do you prove it?"
"You can let me do any paper."
"Are you sure?"
"I'm sure."
My current grades are the result of studying and answering questions day and night. She starts from the results, which is really no brainer.
Maybe she really thinks I cheated.
Gu Ke, who used to be extremely terrifying and unbeatable in my eyes, suddenly became incredibly stupid.
So for the next few nights of self-study, the head teacher would give me a set of papers every day. I was still sitting in the corner, but I felt like the center.
Although the classmates all pretended to be doing the questions, I knew that each of them was paying attention to me and wanted to know if I cheated to get the first place in the grade.
The answer is of course not.
I scored 142 points on the first set of papers, with 4 points deducted for composition and 4 points for reading comprehension.
In the beginning, some people thought I was a fluke.
But when I got a perfect score in math on the second day, a score of 148 in English on the third day, and no score lower than 140 on every Chinese, Mathematics, and English paper after that, everyone fell silent.
No one can question my results anymore.
I am the well-deserved first place.
When Teacher Li finally announced that I had not cheated, the whole class was excited. Some girls hugged me directly and looked at me as if I was looking at some celebrity.
And I quietly looked at Gu Ke, who was sitting where he was, and smiled provocatively at her.
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"There are no cameras this time." Gu Ke pushed me into the toilet.
I am a little speechless, this is the trick again.
Since I proved that my results are real a few days ago, more and more people have started to criticize Gu Ke.
Some people have begun to alienate her, and classmates who once greeted her with a smile began to ignore her. When she wanted to join other people's discussions, some people would immediately shut up and disperse, leaving her standing alone, extremely embarrassed.
Look, even her lackey is gone.
Of course, a few were forced to "drop out" because of the last video. But there should be one or two left in the school, but they are separated from Gu Ke.
So Gu Ke can only go into battle on his own.
She raised her hand again, using all her strength to slap her.
This is the "appetizer" every time she starts bullying me.
But this time, the hand she waved did not fall on my face. Instead, she screamed.
"Lin Niaoniao, let go!" Her face was twisted in pain, trying to get rid of my hand holding her.
And her little power is just drizzle to me now. I pushed her to the ground and heard a "boom" sound.
In the past, I had fallen so hard, or even heavier than this.
I leaned down, grabbed her hair, and made her twisted face face me: "Yes, there are no cameras this time."
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My dad did hire a coach for me, but it was not a fitness coach, but a martial arts coach.
I can’t become a martial arts master in one year. But it's more than enough to deal with a few high school girls.
The last time I let her beat me up was to record the video.
But as she said, there are no cameras this time. So why should I endure it?
I pressed the cigarette butt on her shoulder:
"Why, are you crying now?" She screamed in pain, leaving physiological tears.
I clicked my tongue twice, smiled and took out the razor that I had put in the pocket of my school uniform pants:
"Don't worry, I will treat you the same way you did to me before."
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Gu Ke suddenly became ill.
This is the version passed in school.No one knows how Gu Ke, who survived the school bullying incident, suddenly disappeared from school again.
Under the previous video on Weibo, a comment suddenly went viral, saying that the bully couldn't bear the abuse and dropped out of school, and asked everyone to stop scolding her. There are many comments below
, but they are all criticizing this poster.
The more civilized thing is [She should have dropped out of school long ago. He bullied female classmates and falsely accused them of cheating in exams. Why is she so thick-skinned? 】
【It turned out that I was scolded and dropped out of school. That's great. I want to scold you more. Is school bullying still justified? 】
【Is the poster bought by a bully girl? You can really make any money. 】
was even more disgusting and abusive, but it appeared quickly and was quickly blocked by the website.
But the main meaning is just two words: [Deserved].
I smiled and closed the phone.
then picked the time after class and walked onto the rooftop of the school.
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"Lin Niao Niao, what are you doing, come down quickly!"
I don't know who discovered me on the rooftop. Soon many students were standing downstairs, and then Teacher Li arrived.
I stood on the rooftop and looked at Teacher Li who looked anxious. Some people had already taken out their mobile phones to call 119, while others were just taking photos and videos.
"Teacher Li, I want to see Gu Ke." I shouted to the people downstairs.
The people below immediately became excited.
My words clearly nailed Gu Ke to the pillar of shame. Even though the last time I jumped off the building was not because of Gu Ke, this time, it was indeed because of her.
I couldn't see Teacher Li's face clearly, but he was obviously very nervous: "Okay, you stand there, my name is Gu Kelai."
After a while, Gu Ke came and was taken up to the rooftop by Teacher Li.
Her long hair was blown into a mess and she had to hold it down with one hand. I sneered inwardly.
She was quite proud and wore a wig.
My parents came next.
"Niao Niao! Come to mom quickly, tell her if you have anything to do!" She stood there at a loss, with tears already streaming down her face.
And my father’s eyes were filled with tears. He wanted to step forward, but he was afraid that I would do something drastic.
There was still a lot of people downstairs. Outside the wide open door of the rooftop, stood Lu Ming and some other familiar faces.
The principal wanted to take these students away, but those people just refused to leave.
Such a lively scene is completely different from the last time I came here.
Each of them is calling me, trying to keep me.
If they were like this last time, would I choose not to jump?
Unfortunately, there is no such if.
"A year and a half ago, when I walked onto this rooftop, I was really going to die." I stood on the edge of the fence and did not go back.
My mother burst into tears when she heard what I said. Only she and my dad know how I survived.
"I used to be fat and my academic performance was very poor." I continued, "I was teased and targeted. I always thought it was my fault."
"It's not your fault." My dad suddenly spoke up.
I looked at him and smiled slightly: "Yeah, what's wrong with me." Then I pointed at everyone present and said loudly:
"It's you who are wrong."
My hand first pointed to my parents: "When I asked you for help, you turned a blind eye."
then pointed at Lu Ming: "When I explained it to you, you turned a deaf ear."
Then pointed at Teacher Li: "And you clearly know the truth of the matter, but you help others do evil. What a teacher... Haha."
I spat on the ground and gave him a middle finger.
Teacher Li, who had always been kind, felt as if he had been hit with a stick. He stood motionless with his face turning green and white.
"And you." I finally pointed at Gu Ke: "You are the initiator of this matter. The love letter to Lu Ming under the guise of my name was written by you, right?"
Gu Ke immediately denied it: "It was not me."
I laughed and said, "Your handwriting is not difficult to compare. You are really boring. Not only did you beat me, but you also humiliated me."
I used to be very confused as to why she framed me and used this as an excuse to beat me.
lay in the hospital for half a year, and I also thought about it for half a year.
Later I realized that I was over the top.
What is the reason for the abuser’s bad taste?
"It's not me!" Gu Ke suddenly screamed, and she took two steps forward: "You hit me too! Lin Niao Niao, you hit me too!"
She wanted to pull off her wig, but stopped again.
I sneered inwardly. This was not unexpected. With such a good face, how could she really show her scars to others?
I understand best how she feels now.
So I said innocently: "You want to frame me again. What evidence do you have?"
Of course she had no evidence.
She stared at me angrily, and suddenly rushed over like crazy, trying to push me down.
The people behind him were shocked. They did not expect that Gu Ke would go crazy in front of everyone.
But I can understand her.
Being bullied is not only a physical pain, but also a psychological gap that cannot be overcome.
She was originally a proud daughter of heaven, a being that everyone looked up to, but after I came back, she was suppressed bit by bit, first by her grades, then by her reputation, and then by her final bully's sense of superiority.
Everyone looked at her with strange eyes. Everyone felt that she deserved it. No one listened to her and no one believed her.
Her craziness will only be much more than that of me who already have low self-esteem.
It’s just that I used my own life to end this madness, and she planned to use other people’s lives to end this madness.
The moment she pushed me, I moved away.
She looked at me in surprise. She couldn't hold back her strength and was about to roll over the fence and fall outside.
Everyone screamed, and some even covered their eyes.
For a moment, I really wanted her to die.
Bullies deserve to die.
But I still reached out my hand, grabbed her, and pulled her back.
At this moment, the firefighters arrived.
The first firefighter who came in was obviously taken aback when he saw me holding Gu Ming. Although he didn't know what the situation was, he still tried to calm me down professionally: "Son, if you have anything to tell your uncle, he will help you solve it."
I laughed: "Thank you, uncle, but I have already solved it myself."
No one has ever been able to save me. The only one who can save me is myself. After
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was rescued, the firefighter uncle sent me to the hospital for a full body examination.
After making sure that nothing happened to me, I asked my parents to take me back.
Gu Ke originally wanted to go, but she wouldn't let anyone touch her. In the end, I had no choice but to let my family stay with me to calm down.
This matter is making a big fuss. At that time, many people took videos, and some people posted them on Weibo, and it became the top trending search list that day.
Some people even spontaneously made subtitles and put everything I said on the video.
Many people commented under the video, and some shared their own experiences of being bullied.
[The person being bullied is not at fault, it is the bully who is at fault.】
【No one should be ridiculed for their appearance. 】
【I have also been bullied. I really don’t know how courageous the young lady in the video is to say such a thing. 】
【Because of this young lady, I had the courage to tell my family that I had been bullied. 】
【Because of this incident, my teacher believed that I was being bullied. 】
Tears blurred my vision. I put down the phone and burst into tears.
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Because of these videos, Teacher Li’s receiving of red envelopes was quickly discovered. As expected, Gu Ke sent Teacher Li several transfers later. Although he deleted the chat history in time, the transfer records could be found upon checking.
What awaits Teacher Li is expulsion.
Gu Ke is under police investigation.
Her pushing me on the rooftop was suspected of attempted murder.
When I was taking notes, I happened to meet Gu Ke. Her eye sockets were sunken and her hair was messy. She looked completely different from before.
She was slightly stunned when she saw me.
then turned to look at the policeman beside him: "Can I say a few words to her?"
Although she is under investigation, her personal freedom will not be restricted, so the policeman nodded and took us to the mediation room.
Before the police officer left, she told me: "If anything happens, we will be outside."
I politely thanked the police officer.
"Are you satisfied now?" Gu Ke looked at me fiercely.
I nodded: "I'm satisfied. Because of my incident, more victims of bullying are seen, heard and saved."
She was stunned, not expecting me to say that.
But this is what I really mean. I looked at her calmly: "What else do you want to ask?"
She was silent for a moment: "Why did you save me?"
I looked at her with a smile and made a cigarette butt gesture.
If you really die, during the autopsy it will be found that you were really bullied.
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My boiling blood ran cold. The life-saving rope instantly turned into a rope that could hang me.
It turned out that Gu Ke discovered that I fainted.
"Classmate Lin, there are some things you shouldn't say nonsense." Teacher Li's tone was more serious, as if he was accusing me of repaying kindness with enmity.
But why couldn't she just bully me and pretend to be kind and send me to the hospital?
At this moment, I felt as if a hand was grabbing my throat and dragging me deeper into the abyss.
I lowered my head again: "I'm sorry. I was just talking nonsense." Sure enough, even my parents didn't believe it, so how could Teacher Li believe it.
Sure enough, no one in this world can save me. No one.
"If you feel uncomfortable, you can ask for leave and go home in the afternoon." Teacher Li's voice was still very kind.
I shook my head.
If I take leave to go home, my parents will definitely be angry. The final exam is coming soon and I don’t want to miss the course.
"That's okay." Teacher Li made a gesture of invitation, which meant that I should go back to class.
At this moment, Teacher Li’s cell phone placed on the table suddenly rang twice. The screen lights up.
Although he quickly put out the phone after taking a glance, I still saw it.
Gu Ke: [Thank you, Teacher Li, for Lin Niao Niao’s matter. 】
is followed by a transfer.
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I did not go back to the classroom, but came to the rooftop of the school.
I finally figured out why Teacher Li didn’t believe me.
Because he already knew that Gu Ke was bullying me. But a student who is number one in grade is much more valuable than me, an ugly student with poor grades.
So he chose to protect Gu Ke.
Of course, it is also possible that it is for money.
But I don’t care anymore.
When I was young, I was sick. My parents told me that the world was beautiful and there were many happy things, and they asked me to get well quickly.
I'm getting better, but I can't feel the beauty of this world. Teacher
once taught us that there will always be light in this world, and we must become kind people and pursue the light.
Maybe there really is a bright future, right? But I was stuck in the mud.
Why should I live? Just so they can laugh at me and beat me?
The wind blew my face, and the sound of reading loudly came from the teaching building.
is still in class now, no one will find me on the rooftop.
I don’t want others to watch my death, I don’t want to leave a psychological shadow on good people, and I don’t want bad people to make fun of my broken body.
This time is just right.
There is no savior in this world, no one will come to save me.
I am always alone,
walks alone.
I closed my eyes and jumped.
Farewell, Mom and Dad.
Maybe you can have another child who is smarter and cuter than me.
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What is more painful than death?
Everyone may have a different answer.
But for me, it is more painful to be revived when I want to die.
ICU full of dripping instruments became my new cage, accompanied by repeated rescue operations, the smell of disinfectant and the desperate cries of my parents.
Why don't you let me die?
Why does it hurt me so much?
Why does it make my parents so sad?
But God did not fulfill my wish. After being rescued and staying in the ICU for five days, my vital signs miraculously stabilized and I was transferred to the general ward.
"Niao Niao, it's your parents who are sorry for you.If we had believed you earlier, you wouldn't have jumped off the building, right? "
During the few times I was awake, I could see that my mother's hair was much grayer. The wrinkles between my father's eyebrows have also grown a lot.
They are obviously only in their thirties, but they already look like they are fifty years old.
"Niao Niao, dad is wrong. Dad should hire a fitness coach for you, it's not expensive."
I was laughing in my heart.
It turns out that my father still remembers that I wanted to hire a fitness coach.
It’s just that I can’t move, and I don’t know if I’ve lost weight this time.
Now I have very complicated feelings towards my parents. I know they love me, but I still can't let go of their indifference to me.
Even if they repent now and stay with me day and night, although I am moved, I cannot let go completely.
I don’t force myself.
God allowed me to survive, but I haven't figured out how to survive.
It was summer when I jumped off the building. By early winter, I could finally accept visits from others.
The school leaders, head teachers and student representatives wanted to see me, but my parents refused.
My mother looked angry: "It's because the school failed to take care of the students, and you still want to visit?!"
She looked at me, with a distressed look on her face: "Don't worry, I went to school to make trouble. That Fang Xinyi who bullied you has been expelled!"
Fang Xinyi?
I thought about it and found that one of the people who bullied me was named Fang Xinyi. When I was beaten severely by Gu Ke, she even tried to dissuade him. But she is just a follower.
"Where is Gu Ke?" I couldn't help but ask.
My mother looked confused: "Gu Ke? She is the student representative sent by the school to express condolences to you. Do you want to see her?" She said a little uncertainly: "She is good at studying, so you can ask her to make up lessons for you."
I stared at the white ceiling and said nothing.
It turns out that Gu Ke has nothing to do. The real bad guys are still at large.
"When you get better, we will transfer to another school." My dad suddenly said.
I slowly turned my head and looked at the withered trees outside the window.
What should I do if there is a person like Gu Ke in another school?
No one has ever been able to save me.
The only one who can save me is myself.
I turned to look at my dad: "You said you hired a coach before, does that still count?"
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"Look! That's Lin Niao Niao! The Lin Niao Niao who jumped off the building!"
"How is it possible? That person is so thin and good-looking!"
"What's impossible? She stayed in the hospital every day for almost half a year, and then took a break from school for a whole year. Everything is possible!"
"She doesn't know how to have plastic surgery, right?"
"I can't say for sure! Maybe I fell face down at that time. I'll just take care of myself in the hospital."
I walked in the school where I had been away for a long time, listening to the muttering in my ears.
I know that many people are looking at me. After all, I have indeed changed too much. In the past year and a half, I have lost weight and my facial features have become much clearer.
Even my mother was a little surprised, saying she didn’t expect her daughter to lose weight and look so good.
My dad also nodded, regretting that the coach was late.
I don’t care about this. Losing weight is the most insignificant change I have made in the past year and a half.
"Lin Niaoniao, welcome back!"
As soon as I stepped into the class, I heard Gu Ke's voice. She was stretching out her hand, but when she saw me, she wanted to retract it with some uncertainty.
And I held her hand, ignoring the surprise on her face, and glanced at the classmates and class teacher behind her who were preparing to hold a welcome ceremony for me, and then showed a big smile:
"Thank you, I miss you very much!"
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I caught up with the monthly exam as soon as I came back. When I left, I was still in the first semester of my freshman year of high school, and when I came back, it was already the second semester of my sophomore year.
After handing in the test paper for the last subject, an unexpected person came over.
"This exam is a bit difficult."
I looked at Lu Ming in surprise, wondering why he came to me. But I still nodded politely:
"It's a bit difficult."
He seemed to be relieved when he saw my answer. He sat on the empty seat opposite me and hesitated: "If you have any questions that you don't know, you can ask me."
I looked at him and said nothing.
He seemed to finally be able to bear it, with a look of guilt on his face: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that to you before."
Oh, he still remembers it.
It turns out that the past events have left traces on more than just my heart.
I glanced at Gu Ke, who was talking to others in the distance but looking over here from time to time. I wondered if she felt guilty.
"How did you talk about me?"
He seemed a little surprised, but he didn't expect me to ask. I sneered inwardly, I guess he would think I should just say it's okay.
But some things are not okay.
He hesitated, but couldn't say those two words.
"Disgusting." I said, staring at him word by word.
He is very good-looking, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, tall, and good at studies, but he still cannot change the harm he has done to me.
Despite his appearance, he is a superficial and naive person.
"Disgusting, you said I was disgusting before."
"Clang!" It was the sound of the seat overturning. He stood up in a hurry, said sorry to me with a red face, and then left in embarrassment.
Many people were attracted by the sound and looked towards me without knowing why. I stood up slowly, fixed the fallen seat opposite, and sat back in my seat.
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Gu Ming is obviously not the only one who cares about my performance today. Teacher Li called me to his office before school, with concern in his voice:
"You have been on leave from school before. If your grades are not satisfactory, don't be discouraged. If it doesn't work, you can apply to repeat the grade."
Yes, my previous grades were just average. In their eyes, after taking a break from school for a year and a half, I am afraid I will be even worse this time.
I thanked him politely and did not answer the call.
Teacher Li continued:
"I was afraid that you would not be disturbed, so I didn't go to the hospital to see you. Are you okay now?"
I pretended not to hear his lame reasons and nodded obediently: "Everything is fine. Thank you, Teacher Li, for your concern."
Teacher Li finally came back when he saw me. His words seemed to restore some confidence, and he sighed: "If you had made it clear earlier that it was Fang Xinyi who bullied you, the teacher would definitely have helped you." He subconsciously touched the mobile phone on the table: "You are still young, what can't you get through?"
Many people like to say, "What can't you get over?"
But if you put them in that position, they may not be able to get through it. What's more, Teacher Li is just using this to cover up his crimes.
I glanced at his phone. He probably wouldn't have saved the chat history from more than a year ago.
But it doesn’t matter, I will not let anyone who has harmed me go.
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htmlThe results of the January exam will be out soon. To everyone's surprise, I ranked first in my grade.
Teacher Li looked surprised and praised me incoherently at the class meeting. Then he looked at Gu Ke and pointedly said: "One result can't mean anything, everyone must keep working hard."
The most unacceptable thing is Gu Ke who fell to second place.
But she couldn't say a bad word about me in front of everyone. She could only congratulate me with a smile, and her smile was extremely twisted.
"Niao Niao, you can still catch up with your grades after committing suicide by jumping off a building. It's really amazing!" She bit down on committing suicide by jumping off a building very hard because she wanted others to think of the me who I used to be, the ugly, humble, and timid me.
But I was not as panicked and sad as she imagined. Instead, I replied very confidently: "Yes, I am really good."
It took me a year. Not only did I do rehabilitation training every day, I also hired a tutor and spent a lot of time studying.
Without the dilemma of being insulted and targeted at school, I felt a rare peace of mind. The content that I couldn't understand or learn was finally mastered by me through my unremitting efforts.
It turns out that it was not my fault. It turns out that I can become good.
So Gu Ke is right, I am really good.
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"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have treated you like that last time." After class, I came to Lu Ming's desk.
After running away last time, Lu Ming hid when he saw me. Obviously he didn't expect me to come to him.
And it’s almost the exact words returned.
His face turned slightly red: "No, it's okay."
I laughed and handed him a letter. When he saw the letter, his expression changed. The letter had a blood-red heart on it, exactly like the one he had received on the table a year and a half ago.
"You..."
At this time, many people had gathered around. But unlike last time, no one was booing.
Someone just whispered: "I'm just saying it! Lin Niaoniao changed so much just to confess to Gu Ming."
I turned to look at that person. It was he who said last time that even a toad has spring. I smiled at him.
He immediately covered his heart: "Lin Niao Niao is so pretty now!"
Some girls next to me were rolling their eyes, so I turned around again and looked at Lu Ming.
then opened the "love letter" in front of him and read it.
"Lu Ming, I like you very much. Are you willing to be my boyfriend?"
The people around him couldn't bear it any longer. Some yelled, and some said, "Is Lin Niao Niao so fierce?"
Some people said: "It's a good knock. ! What kind of script is this for the heroine to counterattack the hero? "
Someone else said: "No way, Lu Ming won't agree to her?"
Obviously Lu Ming also heard these messy words, his face was very red, like a cooked shrimp, and he had his hands crossed, looking very nervous.
A look of hesitation flashed across his face, but it only took a moment before it turned into determination: "I will never let you down again."
"Wow, wow, wow!"
The classroom exploded. Some people are happy, and some people are as black as the bottom of a pot.
But I still smiled and read the last sentence in the letter: "I love you, Gu Ke."
Lu Ming's red face suddenly turned pale.
Gu Ke, whose face was as dark as the bottom of a pot, made a rare gaffe. She threw the book to the ground with a "pop" and ran out of the classroom.
I pressed the love letter into Lu Ming's arms: "I sent it to Gu Ke."
Then I said loudly: "No way? Do you think I want to confess to you?"
I looked at him with a troubled face and said to him:
"But I will find you disgusting."
Disappointed?
I sneered inwardly.Does he really think he is some kind of campus hero?
I don’t need to conquer him, I just want to take revenge on him.
14
The news that Lu Ming confessed to me and was rejected by me soon spread throughout the whole grade. When I was walking on the road after school, many people looked at me with admiration.
This surprised me a bit.
It turns out that in the eyes of many people, rejecting the school idol is even more powerful than being ranked first in grade.
But soon, I was blocked by Gu Ke. There were still several girls around her, but the one named Fang Xinyi was missing.
Gu Ke looked at me hatefully. I guess she wanted to kill me.
I had fear on my face and was pushed into the women's restroom by a few of them. Then, they locked the door of the women's restroom very skillfully.
Just like countless times a year and a half ago.
"Lin Niaoniao, how dare you?" Gu Ke stretched out his hand and slapped me.
My face hurt, and physiological tears immediately flowed from my eyes. I fell to the ground, lowered my head and said nothing.
A girl said: "She looks like this the most. She has lost weight, but she is still so useless." As she said that, she kicked me.
I screamed in pain. As always, he protected his head and face.
Gu Ke gave me another hard kick, and when he saw that he was about to kick me in the chest, I quietly turned sideways and let her kick me on the shoulder.
Then I screamed "ah" and started shaking in an exaggerated way, looking very painful. That kind of thing startled Lin Niao Niao, who still wanted to hit me.
"What's wrong with her?"
The people next to me also had no idea: "Isn't it because I jumped off the building before and didn't recover?"
Gu Ke didn't dare to do anything again. She watched me go from shaking to lying on the ground unconscious. He put his hand under my nose with some uncertainty, then breathed a sigh of relief.
"Fortunately, I'm still angry."
A girl was a little scared and looked at Gu Ke: "Let's go quickly, don't really cause any trouble."
There was silence in the women's restroom for a moment, and finally Gu Ke said: "Let's go."
When I heard the door of the women's restroom being opened and closed again, I immediately sat up and quickly took out the cotton pad from my clothes.
I choose to go back to school in winter precisely because I wear thick clothes so that others can’t tell the difference.
Then I quickly stood up and climbed up to the toilet window very vigorously.
In the corner above the window, there was an imperceptible little red dot flashing.
15
Early the next morning, a video was uploaded to Weibo and was quickly posted to the school group.
"Did you watch that video?"
"You did! It went viral in our group!"
"Who would have thought that Gu Ke would take the lead in beating people?!"
"No! Seeing how skilled she is, it's not the first time."
"No wonder Lin Niao Niao wants to jump. Lou must have been bullied by Gu Ke.
Someone who had never seen the video asked, "Didn't you say Fang Xinyi before? Why did you become Gu Ke again?"
Someone immediately raised the phone in front of her: "Look at this video! If you ask me, Fang Xinyi is a scapegoat!"
The morning reading hadn't started yet, so I sat alone in the corner and looked at the many comments on the Weibo video. Many of them should be classmates at school, and some are netizens.
There are so many barrages that they almost cover the people in the video, and most of the barrages mean: "Bullying is shameful."
Yes, bullying is shameful. Everyone knows it.
But how many bullied people dare to stand up bravely and accuse those who bully them?
Who is willing to reveal his bloody scars for everyone to see?
"Lin Niaoniao, is it you?!" came a menacing voice. I was suddenly pulled up from my seat by a force.
I looked up and it was Gu Ke.
Apparently she had also seen the video, and her actions made everyone in the classroom go silent.
I looked at her calmly: "Are you going to hit me in front of everyone?"
Her hand suddenly loosened and she looked at the classmates in the class.
I don’t have to look back to know how the people in the class look at her.
Because Gu Ke's face no longer had the usual confidence and pride, but a kind of defeat and an anxiety that was eager to explain but could not be explained.
Soon someone called the head teacher.
"Gu Ke, come here." The head teacher's voice sounded. Gu Ke looked at me helplessly, and then left with the head teacher. The week after
, Gu Kedu did not appear again.
16
Many people looked at me with sympathy, but some people pointed fingers at me.
I don’t know when the public opinion in the school changed. Someone started to speak for Gu Ke, saying that if a slap can't make a difference, I must have done something wrong to make Gu Ke so angry.
Then someone came forward as an insider and said that she had someone beat me because I embarrassed Gu Ke in public.
Typical victim guilt theory.
Some people even said that I was jealous of Gu Ke, so I deliberately framed her. That video is totally P's.
Of course someone spoke for me. The comment area on Weibo was already in turmoil. At this moment, Gu Ke came back.
She is stronger than I thought.
Under Teacher Li's "mediation", she apologized to me in public. The general idea is, "Because my previous love letter made me impulsive, I had some small conflicts with me that day. She is very sorry."
What she calls small conflicts is one-sided beatings.
If I hadn’t stuffed thick protective cotton pads into my clothes in advance, my body would just be bruised and bruised like before.
Her beating became an inescapable nightmare during the year and a half I was recovering from illness.
When I decided to face her bullying again in order to obtain evidence, and curled up on the ground and pretended to be in pain from her beating, only I knew how scared I was.
I tried my best to tell myself not to be afraid. She can't hurt me this time.
But my screams were real, and so were my tremors.
Only this time, I have a weapon.
She can no longer hurt me, physically or mentally.
"Lin Niao Niao, Gu Ke has already apologized." Seeing that I didn't speak, Teacher Li reminded me in time.
I slowly stood up from my seat and looked at Gu Ke who was obviously resentful on the podium. I shook my head: "I don't accept it."
I didn't accept Lu Ming's apology, and I wouldn't accept Gu Ke's apology.
17
Whether I accept it or not. Gu Ke still went back to school.
Although the strange looks from others still made her feel uneasy, she still stayed in school tenaciously.
Soon, another thing attracted the attention of others.
Teacher Li picked me up in class and said that someone reported me for cheating in the monthly exam.
The students in the class were all shocked for a while, but soon showed expressions of realization.
"I just said how could she improve her grades so fast!" Some people whispered to each other.
I laughed and looked at Gu Ke, who looked proud.
It turns out that this is her method.
is boring and inferior. "Why, are you crying now?" I looked at the school beauty who was kneeling on the ground crying, and pressed the cigarette butt on her shoulder. She screamed in pain. I smiled and picked up the razor and shaved her hair. "Don't worry, I will do to you what you did to me before." 1. My name is Lin Niao Niao and I am a freshman in high school. When my parents named me, they probably wanted me to be born like Pingting Niaona, so they gave me such a name. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out as I wanted. When I was a child, I got seriously ill and was unable to lose weight due to excessive hormone intake. With a height of 168 cm and a weight of 168 cm, I have been alienated and teased by my classmates since I was a child. Sow, big bear, fat ghost... I have been surrounded by such voices since I was a child. At the beginning, I would ask my parents to change schools, but they always told me impatiently: "You will be the same wherever you go." I also tried to lose weight, but it was difficult to make an improvement whether it was through exercise or diet. I once mentioned to my parents that I hoped to hire a coach to help me lose weight systematically, but my mother immediately denied: "It's all a scam." And my father also said: "At your age, just study hard." So I gradually became silent and stopped trying to lose weight. Instead, I focused on studying like my parents said. Unfortunately, my academic performance is also mediocre. After all, whose books are torn up every now and then, needles are placed on the seats from time to time, and knives often appear in her schoolbag, her grades are unlikely to be good. But I have nowhere to complain. No one would believe that Gu Ke, the class beauty with a kind heart and the best person in the grade, would take the lead in bullying me. 2. It all started with a prank. Because of my special body shape and appearance, I was always teased maliciously by the boys in the class. Sometimes they would run up to me and tell me mysteriously: "So-and-so likes you!" Or when making a bet, they would make me a bet: "If you lose, you will sleep with Lin Niao." Their voices were very loud, but I could only sit in the corner and lower my head, pretending not to hear. But that day, someone wrote a love letter in my name and placed it on the desk of the school president Lu Ming. A big red heart is printed blood-red on the envelope. Anyone who reads it will know that it is a love letter. Sending love letters is not uncommon for school girls. It's just that this is the first time it has been placed on the table like this. So the boys who were bored during their lunch break started to make a fuss and asked Lu Ming to open the love letter in public so that everyone could see who this person was. Lu Ming reluctantly opened the envelope and unfolded the letter. Someone immediately came over and read aloud: "Lu Ming, you are everything to me, I love you so much! - Niao Niao" There was a silence, and then there was an exaggerated sound of vomiting. "Lin Niaoxiao, why are you so disgusting?" Someone immediately looked at me sitting in the corner with disgust on his face. Another person responded in a grandiose manner: "He is your everything? Shouldn't everything you have be fat?" Then the whole class burst into laughter. I stood up in a hurry and said, "I didn't write it." Lu Ming is the school boy of our middle school. He is 1.8 meters tall and is among the top three in his age in academic performance. Every girl has secretly talked about Lu Ming in private and fantasized about being Lu Ming's girlfriend. In my deepest and deepest dreams, I may have had such wishful thinking. But I knew it was just wishful thinking, so how could I write a love letter? But those people obviously didn't believe it, and shouted: "It's okay, even toads have spring! You have to dare to do it! Maybe Lu Ming will fall in love with you?" Then there was another burst of laughter. Of course it is impossible for Lu Ming to fall in love with me. He frowned and threw the love letter into the trash can, and said to me word by word: "Lin Niao Niao, being liked by you makes me feel sick." I stood there, my whole body cold and stiff, as if I was instantly frozen into an ice sculpture. Tears flowed out of my eyes "I didn't write it." I argued softly. but no one paid attention to it. The truth doesn't matter, they get the happiness they want. 3 In the afternoon when this incident happened, Gu Ke led five or six girls and blocked me in the women's toilet. "Who are you, how dare you send a love letter to Lu Ming?" She kicked me hard in the stomach, and I curled up in pain. This is not the first time. In the past, Gu Ke would also lead people to beat me. She said I was so fat that I was perfect for being a human punching bag. But this time, she hit me very hard. In the past, as long as I didn't say anything or fight back, she would stop hitting me after a while. Most of the girls on the side were just watching to prevent me from escaping. But this time, not only did she hit me, other girls also joined in. I could only passively protect my head and face, and soon my hands and legs were covered with scars. Then, they started to press cigarette butts on me. Every time I perm it, a scar will be left on my heart. I felt pain at first, but later I just felt cold. Yes, in this hot summer, I feel cold all over, twitching constantly, and I can't even move. I begged them in my heart to end this violence quickly, because I would have to lie down on my own for two hours to recover. It’s too late to go home, and I will be scolded by my parents again. Finally, I heard a redemptive voice. A girl said worriedly: "Lu Ke, she seems to have been twitching, we can't fight anymore." The speed of punching and kicking slowed down, but Gu Ke had no intention of letting me go. She grabbed a handful of my hair and lifted my face up: "You are so ugly!" The sunlight stimulated my swollen eyes, and I could only close them subconsciously. A pair of scissors appeared in front of my eyes, and in my ears was Gu Ke's malicious laughter: "You can be uglier." "No!" I struggled in horror. "Please don't!" The injuries from the beating will only appear under the clothes, and no one will know. But this time she wants to cut my hair! so everyone will know. I endured the severe pain in my body and struggled hard, but several girls next to me quickly held me down. "Don't move. Gu Ke will give you a beautiful haircut." Another girl's voice was smiling. Strands of hair fell off, and some were scattered in front of my eyes. I cried. 4 "Why did you come back so late?" "Oh, what happened to your hair?!" My mother was holding the rice bowl and looked at my short and long hair like alopecia areata in surprise. My father put down his phone and looked at me with a frown: "Did you get into a fight with your classmates again?" I didn't say anything and went straight to the bathroom. Yes, my parents will only think that I fight with others. was bullied by Gu Ke at first, and she warned me not to tell anyone. But I still told my parents. I hope they can help me. But they looked at me as if I was a psycho. Because Gu Kena is the first in grade. Whenever there is a parent-teacher meeting, the first person the teacher praises is Gu Ke. How could Gu Ke bully me? They didn’t believe it, so I had to change my story and say that I was injured in a fight with another classmate. At least this makes me look less embarrassed. I was scolded by my parents because I not only fought but also lied. Later, Gu Ke hit me again, and I never told anyone. The injuries were all under my clothes, so no one would notice if I didn't tell them. I picked up the clippers that my dad usually used for haircuts, and flattened the rest of my hair. looked at himself in the mirror with only a slit in his eye due to obesity. I was already ugly, but because of this nondescript haircut, I looked even more disgusting. "Why should I live?" I once again had this thought. 5 The hair can be flattened, but the injuries on the body will not heal for a while. The next day I was sent to the school hospital because I suddenly fainted. When I woke up, the school doctor was telling the class teacher about my situation. "Low blood sugar, and there are many injuries on the body. Teacher Li, you'd better pay attention to the condition of this classmate in your class." The school doctor's voice was filled with worry. I feel warm in my heart. "Lin Niao Niao, you're awake!" Teacher Li saw that I was awake and walked over quickly: "How do you feel now?" My body still hurt, but I didn't want to cause trouble to the teacher, so I shook my head and said nothing. The school doctor suddenly interjected: "Classmate, how did you get injured? If someone bullies you, you must report it to Teacher Li in time." My hands grabbed the sheets and held them very tightly. Can I tell the teacher? But that is Gu Ke, will Teacher Li believe it? I shook my head and told the doctor, "I fell on my own." The school doctor looked at me and sighed for a long time. I turned to Teacher Li and said, "She should be fine now. Please take her back." Teacher Li thanked the school doctor and took me out of the school doctor's office. I didn’t speak the whole way. When someone passes by me, they will cast a curious look at my appearance. I shrank my neck and got closer to the head teacher. I have never been alone with my class teacher. There are fifty people in our class, but my academic performance is only mediocre, and I am the kind of student who is least paid attention to by the class teacher. But he should still care about me, right? Otherwise, why would you come to pick me up at the campus hospital? I suddenly thought of the school doctor’s sigh just now. Somehow, I felt courage for no reason. When I walked to the door of Teacher Li's office, I stopped and said, "Teacher Li, I have something to say to you." 6 My heart started to roar, and I could even feel the expansion of my blood vessels . I heard myself say: "Teacher Li, these injuries were caused by someone beating me." Teacher Li frowned, and his voice became serious: "Who is it?" My heartbeat was getting faster and faster, and I almost shouted: "It's Gu Ke." In fact, my voice was very small, but I said it! I really said it! Will he believe it? Will he save me from hell? I looked at him expectantly. Teacher Li pushed up his glasses: "Which Gu Ke? Is the Gu Ke from our class?" I nodded slightly. Teacher Li did not respond, he pushed open the office door. "Come in and talk." I quickly followed Teacher Li into the office. I have never felt that the rope that can save me is so close. Because it is class time now, there are no other teachers in the office. He walked to his workstation, threw his phone on the table, then sat down and looked up at me: "It was Gu Ke who found you fainted." Teacher Li's voice was obviously unhappy. My boiling blood ran cold. The life-saving rope instantly turned into a rope that could hang me. It turned out that Gu Ke discovered that I fainted. "Classmate Lin, there are some things you shouldn't say nonsense." Teacher Li's tone was more serious, as if he was accusing me of repaying kindness with enmity. But why couldn't she just bully me and pretend to be kind and send me to the hospital? At this moment, I felt as if a hand was grabbing my throat and dragging me deeper into the abyss. I lowered my head again: "I'm sorry. I was just talking nonsense." Sure enough, even my parents didn't believe it, so how could Teacher Li believe it. Sure enough, no one in this world can save me. No one. "If you feel uncomfortable, you can ask for leave and go home in the afternoon." Teacher Li's voice was still very kind. I shook my head. If I take leave to go home, my parents will definitely be angry. The final exam is coming soon and I don’t want to miss the course. "That's okay." Teacher Li made a gesture of invitation, which meant that I should go back to class. At this moment, Teacher Li’s cell phone placed on the table suddenly rang twice. The screen lights up. Although he quickly put out the phone after taking a glance, I still saw it. Gu Ke: [Thank you, Teacher Li, for Lin Niao Niao’s matter. 】 is followed by a transfer. 7 I did not go back to the classroom, but came to the rooftop of the school. I finally figured out why Teacher Li didn’t believe me. Because he already knew that Gu Ke was bullying me. But a student who is number one in grade is much more valuable than me, an ugly student with poor grades. So he chose to protect Gu Ke. Of course, it is also possible that it is for money. But I don’t care anymore. When I was young, I was sick. My parents told me that the world was beautiful and there were many happy things, and they asked me to get well quickly. I'm getting better, but I can't feel the beauty of this world. Teacher once taught us that there will always be light in this world, and we must become kind people and pursue the light. Maybe there really is a bright future, right? But I was stuck in the mud. Why should I live? Just so they can laugh at me and beat me? The wind blew my face, and the sound of reading loudly came from the teaching building. is still in class now, no one will find me on the rooftop. I don’t want others to watch my death, I don’t want to leave a psychological shadow on good people, and I don’t want bad people to make fun of my broken body. This time is just right. There is no savior in this world, no one will come to save me. I am always alone, walks alone. I closed my eyes and jumped. Farewell, Mom and Dad. Maybe you can have another child who is smarter and cuter than me. 8 What is more painful than death? Everyone may have a different answer. But for me, it is more painful to be revived when I want to die. ICU full of dripping instruments became my new cage, accompanied by repeated rescue operations, the smell of disinfectant and the desperate cries of my parents. Why don't you let me die? Why does it hurt me so much? Why does it make my parents so sad? But God did not fulfill my wish. After being rescued and staying in the ICU for five days, my vital signs miraculously stabilized and I was transferred to the general ward. "Niao Niao, it's your parents who are sorry for you.If we had believed you earlier, you wouldn't have jumped off the building, right? " During the few times I was awake, I could see that my mother's hair was much grayer. The wrinkles between my father's eyebrows have also grown a lot. They are obviously only in their thirties, but they already look like they are fifty years old. "Niao Niao, dad is wrong. Dad should hire a fitness coach for you, it's not expensive." I was laughing in my heart. It turns out that my father still remembers that I wanted to hire a fitness coach. It’s just that I can’t move, and I don’t know if I’ve lost weight this time. Now I have very complicated feelings towards my parents. I know they love me, but I still can't let go of their indifference to me. Even if they repent now and stay with me day and night, although I am moved, I cannot let go completely. I don’t force myself. God allowed me to survive, but I haven't figured out how to survive. It was summer when I jumped off the building. By early winter, I could finally accept visits from others. The school leaders, head teachers and student representatives wanted to see me, but my parents refused. My mother looked angry: "It's because the school failed to take care of the students, and you still want to visit?!" She looked at me, with a distressed look on her face: "Don't worry, I went to school to make trouble. That Fang Xinyi who bullied you has been expelled!" Fang Xinyi? I thought about it and found that one of the people who bullied me was named Fang Xinyi. When I was beaten severely by Gu Ke, she even tried to dissuade him. But she is just a follower. "Where is Gu Ke?" I couldn't help but ask. My mother looked confused: "Gu Ke? She is the student representative sent by the school to express condolences to you. Do you want to see her?" She said a little uncertainly: "She is good at studying, so you can ask her to make up lessons for you." I stared at the white ceiling and said nothing. It turns out that Gu Ke has nothing to do. The real bad guys are still at large. "When you get better, we will transfer to another school." My dad suddenly said. I slowly turned my head and looked at the withered trees outside the window. What should I do if there is a person like Gu Ke in another school? No one has ever been able to save me. The only one who can save me is myself. I turned to look at my dad: "You said you hired a coach before, does that still count?" 9 "Look! That's Lin Niao Niao! The Lin Niao Niao who jumped off the building!" "How is it possible? That person is so thin and good-looking!" "What's impossible? She stayed in the hospital every day for almost half a year, and then took a break from school for a whole year. Everything is possible!" "She doesn't know how to have plastic surgery, right?" "I can't say for sure! Maybe I fell face down at that time. I'll just take care of myself in the hospital." I walked in the school where I had been away for a long time, listening to the muttering in my ears. I know that many people are looking at me. After all, I have indeed changed too much. In the past year and a half, I have lost weight and my facial features have become much clearer. Even my mother was a little surprised, saying she didn’t expect her daughter to lose weight and look so good. My dad also nodded, regretting that the coach was late. I don’t care about this. Losing weight is the most insignificant change I have made in the past year and a half. "Lin Niaoniao, welcome back!" As soon as I stepped into the class, I heard Gu Ke's voice. She was stretching out her hand, but when she saw me, she wanted to retract it with some uncertainty. And I held her hand, ignoring the surprise on her face, and glanced at the classmates and class teacher behind her who were preparing to hold a welcome ceremony for me, and then showed a big smile: "Thank you, I miss you very much!" 10 I caught up with the monthly exam as soon as I came back. When I left, I was still in the first semester of my freshman year of high school, and when I came back, it was already the second semester of my sophomore year. After handing in the test paper for the last subject, an unexpected person came over. "This exam is a bit difficult." I looked at Lu Ming in surprise, wondering why he came to me. But I still nodded politely: "It's a bit difficult." He seemed to be relieved when he saw my answer. He sat on the empty seat opposite me and hesitated: "If you have any questions that you don't know, you can ask me." I looked at him and said nothing. He seemed to finally be able to bear it, with a look of guilt on his face: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that to you before." Oh, he still remembers it. It turns out that the past events have left traces on more than just my heart. I glanced at Gu Ke, who was talking to others in the distance but looking over here from time to time. I wondered if she felt guilty. "How did you talk about me?" He seemed a little surprised, but he didn't expect me to ask. I sneered inwardly, I guess he would think I should just say it's okay. But some things are not okay. He hesitated, but couldn't say those two words. "Disgusting." I said, staring at him word by word. He is very good-looking, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, tall, and good at studies, but he still cannot change the harm he has done to me. Despite his appearance, he is a superficial and naive person. "Disgusting, you said I was disgusting before." "Clang!" It was the sound of the seat overturning. He stood up in a hurry, said sorry to me with a red face, and then left in embarrassment. Many people were attracted by the sound and looked towards me without knowing why. I stood up slowly, fixed the fallen seat opposite, and sat back in my seat. 11 Gu Ming is obviously not the only one who cares about my performance today. Teacher Li called me to his office before school, with concern in his voice: "You have been on leave from school before. If your grades are not satisfactory, don't be discouraged. If it doesn't work, you can apply to repeat the grade." Yes, my previous grades were just average. In their eyes, after taking a break from school for a year and a half, I am afraid I will be even worse this time. I thanked him politely and did not answer the call. Teacher Li continued: "I was afraid that you would not be disturbed, so I didn't go to the hospital to see you. Are you okay now?" I pretended not to hear his lame reasons and nodded obediently: "Everything is fine. Thank you, Teacher Li, for your concern." Teacher Li finally came back when he saw me. His words seemed to restore some confidence, and he sighed: "If you had made it clear earlier that it was Fang Xinyi who bullied you, the teacher would definitely have helped you." He subconsciously touched the mobile phone on the table: "You are still young, what can't you get through?" Many people like to say, "What can't you get over?" But if you put them in that position, they may not be able to get through it. What's more, Teacher Li is just using this to cover up his crimes. I glanced at his phone. He probably wouldn't have saved the chat history from more than a year ago. But it doesn’t matter, I will not let anyone who has harmed me go. 12 htmlThe results of the January exam will be out soon. To everyone's surprise, I ranked first in my grade.
Teacher Li looked surprised and praised me incoherently at the class meeting. Then he looked at Gu Ke and pointedly said: "One result can't mean anything, everyone must keep working hard."
The most unacceptable thing is Gu Ke who fell to second place.
But she couldn't say a bad word about me in front of everyone. She could only congratulate me with a smile, and her smile was extremely twisted.
"Niao Niao, you can still catch up with your grades after committing suicide by jumping off a building. It's really amazing!" She bit down on committing suicide by jumping off a building very hard because she wanted others to think of the me who I used to be, the ugly, humble, and timid me.
But I was not as panicked and sad as she imagined. Instead, I replied very confidently: "Yes, I am really good."
It took me a year. Not only did I do rehabilitation training every day, I also hired a tutor and spent a lot of time studying.
Without the dilemma of being insulted and targeted at school, I felt a rare peace of mind. The content that I couldn't understand or learn was finally mastered by me through my unremitting efforts.
It turns out that it was not my fault. It turns out that I can become good.
So Gu Ke is right, I am really good.
13
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have treated you like that last time." After class, I came to Lu Ming's desk.
After running away last time, Lu Ming hid when he saw me. Obviously he didn't expect me to come to him.
And it’s almost the exact words returned.
His face turned slightly red: "No, it's okay."
I laughed and handed him a letter. When he saw the letter, his expression changed. The letter had a blood-red heart on it, exactly like the one he had received on the table a year and a half ago.
"You..."
At this time, many people had gathered around. But unlike last time, no one was booing.
Someone just whispered: "I'm just saying it! Lin Niaoniao changed so much just to confess to Gu Ming."
I turned to look at that person. It was he who said last time that even a toad has spring. I smiled at him.
He immediately covered his heart: "Lin Niao Niao is so pretty now!"
Some girls next to me were rolling their eyes, so I turned around again and looked at Lu Ming.
then opened the "love letter" in front of him and read it.
"Lu Ming, I like you very much. Are you willing to be my boyfriend?"
The people around him couldn't bear it any longer. Some yelled, and some said, "Is Lin Niao Niao so fierce?"
Some people said: "It's a good knock. ! What kind of script is this for the heroine to counterattack the hero? "
Someone else said: "No way, Lu Ming won't agree to her?"
Obviously Lu Ming also heard these messy words, his face was very red, like a cooked shrimp, and he had his hands crossed, looking very nervous.
A look of hesitation flashed across his face, but it only took a moment before it turned into determination: "I will never let you down again."
"Wow, wow, wow!"
The classroom exploded. Some people are happy, and some people are as black as the bottom of a pot.
But I still smiled and read the last sentence in the letter: "I love you, Gu Ke."
Lu Ming's red face suddenly turned pale.
Gu Ke, whose face was as dark as the bottom of a pot, made a rare gaffe. She threw the book to the ground with a "pop" and ran out of the classroom.
I pressed the love letter into Lu Ming's arms: "I sent it to Gu Ke."
Then I said loudly: "No way? Do you think I want to confess to you?"
I looked at him with a troubled face and said to him:
"But I will find you disgusting."
Disappointed?
I sneered inwardly.Does he really think he is some kind of campus hero?
I don’t need to conquer him, I just want to take revenge on him.
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The news that Lu Ming confessed to me and was rejected by me soon spread throughout the whole grade. When I was walking on the road after school, many people looked at me with admiration.
This surprised me a bit.
It turns out that in the eyes of many people, rejecting the school idol is even more powerful than being ranked first in grade.
But soon, I was blocked by Gu Ke. There were still several girls around her, but the one named Fang Xinyi was missing.
Gu Ke looked at me hatefully. I guess she wanted to kill me.
I had fear on my face and was pushed into the women's restroom by a few of them. Then, they locked the door of the women's restroom very skillfully.
Just like countless times a year and a half ago.
"Lin Niaoniao, how dare you?" Gu Ke stretched out his hand and slapped me.
My face hurt, and physiological tears immediately flowed from my eyes. I fell to the ground, lowered my head and said nothing.
A girl said: "She looks like this the most. She has lost weight, but she is still so useless." As she said that, she kicked me.
I screamed in pain. As always, he protected his head and face.
Gu Ke gave me another hard kick, and when he saw that he was about to kick me in the chest, I quietly turned sideways and let her kick me on the shoulder.
Then I screamed "ah" and started shaking in an exaggerated way, looking very painful. That kind of thing startled Lin Niao Niao, who still wanted to hit me.
"What's wrong with her?"
The people next to me also had no idea: "Isn't it because I jumped off the building before and didn't recover?"
Gu Ke didn't dare to do anything again. She watched me go from shaking to lying on the ground unconscious. He put his hand under my nose with some uncertainty, then breathed a sigh of relief.
"Fortunately, I'm still angry."
A girl was a little scared and looked at Gu Ke: "Let's go quickly, don't really cause any trouble."
There was silence in the women's restroom for a moment, and finally Gu Ke said: "Let's go."
When I heard the door of the women's restroom being opened and closed again, I immediately sat up and quickly took out the cotton pad from my clothes.
I choose to go back to school in winter precisely because I wear thick clothes so that others can’t tell the difference.
Then I quickly stood up and climbed up to the toilet window very vigorously.
In the corner above the window, there was an imperceptible little red dot flashing.
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Early the next morning, a video was uploaded to Weibo and was quickly posted to the school group.
"Did you watch that video?"
"You did! It went viral in our group!"
"Who would have thought that Gu Ke would take the lead in beating people?!"
"No! Seeing how skilled she is, it's not the first time."
"No wonder Lin Niao Niao wants to jump. Lou must have been bullied by Gu Ke.
Someone who had never seen the video asked, "Didn't you say Fang Xinyi before? Why did you become Gu Ke again?"
Someone immediately raised the phone in front of her: "Look at this video! If you ask me, Fang Xinyi is a scapegoat!"
The morning reading hadn't started yet, so I sat alone in the corner and looked at the many comments on the Weibo video. Many of them should be classmates at school, and some are netizens.
There are so many barrages that they almost cover the people in the video, and most of the barrages mean: "Bullying is shameful."
Yes, bullying is shameful. Everyone knows it.
But how many bullied people dare to stand up bravely and accuse those who bully them?
Who is willing to reveal his bloody scars for everyone to see?
"Lin Niaoniao, is it you?!" came a menacing voice. I was suddenly pulled up from my seat by a force.
I looked up and it was Gu Ke.
Apparently she had also seen the video, and her actions made everyone in the classroom go silent.
I looked at her calmly: "Are you going to hit me in front of everyone?"
Her hand suddenly loosened and she looked at the classmates in the class.
I don’t have to look back to know how the people in the class look at her.
Because Gu Ke's face no longer had the usual confidence and pride, but a kind of defeat and an anxiety that was eager to explain but could not be explained.
Soon someone called the head teacher.
"Gu Ke, come here." The head teacher's voice sounded. Gu Ke looked at me helplessly, and then left with the head teacher. The week after
, Gu Kedu did not appear again.
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Many people looked at me with sympathy, but some people pointed fingers at me.
I don’t know when the public opinion in the school changed. Someone started to speak for Gu Ke, saying that if a slap can't make a difference, I must have done something wrong to make Gu Ke so angry.
Then someone came forward as an insider and said that she had someone beat me because I embarrassed Gu Ke in public.
Typical victim guilt theory.
Some people even said that I was jealous of Gu Ke, so I deliberately framed her. That video is totally P's.
Of course someone spoke for me. The comment area on Weibo was already in turmoil. At this moment, Gu Ke came back.
She is stronger than I thought.
Under Teacher Li's "mediation", she apologized to me in public. The general idea is, "Because my previous love letter made me impulsive, I had some small conflicts with me that day. She is very sorry."
What she calls small conflicts is one-sided beatings.
If I hadn’t stuffed thick protective cotton pads into my clothes in advance, my body would just be bruised and bruised like before.
Her beating became an inescapable nightmare during the year and a half I was recovering from illness.
When I decided to face her bullying again in order to obtain evidence, and curled up on the ground and pretended to be in pain from her beating, only I knew how scared I was.
I tried my best to tell myself not to be afraid. She can't hurt me this time.
But my screams were real, and so were my tremors.
Only this time, I have a weapon.
She can no longer hurt me, physically or mentally.
"Lin Niao Niao, Gu Ke has already apologized." Seeing that I didn't speak, Teacher Li reminded me in time.
I slowly stood up from my seat and looked at Gu Ke who was obviously resentful on the podium. I shook my head: "I don't accept it."
I didn't accept Lu Ming's apology, and I wouldn't accept Gu Ke's apology.
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Whether I accept it or not. Gu Ke still went back to school.
Although the strange looks from others still made her feel uneasy, she still stayed in school tenaciously.
Soon, another thing attracted the attention of others.
Teacher Li picked me up in class and said that someone reported me for cheating in the monthly exam.
The students in the class were all shocked for a while, but soon showed expressions of realization.
"I just said how could she improve her grades so fast!" Some people whispered to each other.
I laughed and looked at Gu Ke, who looked proud.
It turns out that this is her method.
is boring and inferior.
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"I didn't cheat. I can prove it."
Teacher Li frowned: "How do you prove it?"
"You can let me do any paper."
"Are you sure?"
"I'm sure."
My current grades are the result of studying and answering questions day and night. She starts from the results, which is really no brainer.
Maybe she really thinks I cheated.
Gu Ke, who used to be extremely terrifying and unbeatable in my eyes, suddenly became incredibly stupid.
So for the next few nights of self-study, the head teacher would give me a set of papers every day. I was still sitting in the corner, but I felt like the center.
Although the classmates all pretended to be doing the questions, I knew that each of them was paying attention to me and wanted to know if I cheated to get the first place in the grade.
The answer is of course not.
I scored 142 points on the first set of papers, with 4 points deducted for composition and 4 points for reading comprehension.
In the beginning, some people thought I was a fluke.
But when I got a perfect score in math on the second day, a score of 148 in English on the third day, and no score lower than 140 on every Chinese, Mathematics, and English paper after that, everyone fell silent.
No one can question my results anymore.
I am the well-deserved first place.
When Teacher Li finally announced that I had not cheated, the whole class was excited. Some girls hugged me directly and looked at me as if I was looking at some celebrity.
And I quietly looked at Gu Ke, who was sitting where he was, and smiled provocatively at her.
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"There are no cameras this time." Gu Ke pushed me into the toilet.
I am a little speechless, this is the trick again.
Since I proved that my results are real a few days ago, more and more people have started to criticize Gu Ke.
Some people have begun to alienate her, and classmates who once greeted her with a smile began to ignore her. When she wanted to join other people's discussions, some people would immediately shut up and disperse, leaving her standing alone, extremely embarrassed.
Look, even her lackey is gone.
Of course, a few were forced to "drop out" because of the last video. But there should be one or two left in the school, but they are separated from Gu Ke.
So Gu Ke can only go into battle on his own.
She raised her hand again, using all her strength to slap her.
This is the "appetizer" every time she starts bullying me.
But this time, the hand she waved did not fall on my face. Instead, she screamed.
"Lin Niaoniao, let go!" Her face was twisted in pain, trying to get rid of my hand holding her.
And her little power is just drizzle to me now. I pushed her to the ground and heard a "boom" sound.
In the past, I had fallen so hard, or even heavier than this.
I leaned down, grabbed her hair, and made her twisted face face me: "Yes, there are no cameras this time."
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My dad did hire a coach for me, but it was not a fitness coach, but a martial arts coach.
I can’t become a martial arts master in one year. But it's more than enough to deal with a few high school girls.
The last time I let her beat me up was to record the video.
But as she said, there are no cameras this time. So why should I endure it?
I pressed the cigarette butt on her shoulder:
"Why, are you crying now?" She screamed in pain, leaving physiological tears.
I clicked my tongue twice, smiled and took out the razor that I had put in the pocket of my school uniform pants:
"Don't worry, I will treat you the same way you did to me before."
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Gu Ke suddenly became ill.
This is the version passed in school.No one knows how Gu Ke, who survived the school bullying incident, suddenly disappeared from school again.
Under the previous video on Weibo, a comment suddenly went viral, saying that the bully couldn't bear the abuse and dropped out of school, and asked everyone to stop scolding her. There are many comments below
, but they are all criticizing this poster.
The more civilized thing is [She should have dropped out of school long ago. He bullied female classmates and falsely accused them of cheating in exams. Why is she so thick-skinned? 】
【It turned out that I was scolded and dropped out of school. That's great. I want to scold you more. Is school bullying still justified? 】
【Is the poster bought by a bully girl? You can really make any money. 】
was even more disgusting and abusive, but it appeared quickly and was quickly blocked by the website.
But the main meaning is just two words: [Deserved].
I smiled and closed the phone.
then picked the time after class and walked onto the rooftop of the school.
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"Lin Niao Niao, what are you doing, come down quickly!"
I don't know who discovered me on the rooftop. Soon many students were standing downstairs, and then Teacher Li arrived.
I stood on the rooftop and looked at Teacher Li who looked anxious. Some people had already taken out their mobile phones to call 119, while others were just taking photos and videos.
"Teacher Li, I want to see Gu Ke." I shouted to the people downstairs.
The people below immediately became excited.
My words clearly nailed Gu Ke to the pillar of shame. Even though the last time I jumped off the building was not because of Gu Ke, this time, it was indeed because of her.
I couldn't see Teacher Li's face clearly, but he was obviously very nervous: "Okay, you stand there, my name is Gu Kelai."
After a while, Gu Ke came and was taken up to the rooftop by Teacher Li.
Her long hair was blown into a mess and she had to hold it down with one hand. I sneered inwardly.
She was quite proud and wore a wig.
My parents came next.
"Niao Niao! Come to mom quickly, tell her if you have anything to do!" She stood there at a loss, with tears already streaming down her face.
And my father’s eyes were filled with tears. He wanted to step forward, but he was afraid that I would do something drastic.
There was still a lot of people downstairs. Outside the wide open door of the rooftop, stood Lu Ming and some other familiar faces.
The principal wanted to take these students away, but those people just refused to leave.
Such a lively scene is completely different from the last time I came here.
Each of them is calling me, trying to keep me.
If they were like this last time, would I choose not to jump?
Unfortunately, there is no such if.
"A year and a half ago, when I walked onto this rooftop, I was really going to die." I stood on the edge of the fence and did not go back.
My mother burst into tears when she heard what I said. Only she and my dad know how I survived.
"I used to be fat and my academic performance was very poor." I continued, "I was teased and targeted. I always thought it was my fault."
"It's not your fault." My dad suddenly spoke up.
I looked at him and smiled slightly: "Yeah, what's wrong with me." Then I pointed at everyone present and said loudly:
"It's you who are wrong."
My hand first pointed to my parents: "When I asked you for help, you turned a blind eye."
then pointed at Lu Ming: "When I explained it to you, you turned a deaf ear."
Then pointed at Teacher Li: "And you clearly know the truth of the matter, but you help others do evil. What a teacher... Haha."
I spat on the ground and gave him a middle finger.
Teacher Li, who had always been kind, felt as if he had been hit with a stick. He stood motionless with his face turning green and white.
"And you." I finally pointed at Gu Ke: "You are the initiator of this matter. The love letter to Lu Ming under the guise of my name was written by you, right?"
Gu Ke immediately denied it: "It was not me."
I laughed and said, "Your handwriting is not difficult to compare. You are really boring. Not only did you beat me, but you also humiliated me."
I used to be very confused as to why she framed me and used this as an excuse to beat me.
lay in the hospital for half a year, and I also thought about it for half a year.
Later I realized that I was over the top.
What is the reason for the abuser’s bad taste?
"It's not me!" Gu Ke suddenly screamed, and she took two steps forward: "You hit me too! Lin Niao Niao, you hit me too!"
She wanted to pull off her wig, but stopped again.
I sneered inwardly. This was not unexpected. With such a good face, how could she really show her scars to others?
I understand best how she feels now.
So I said innocently: "You want to frame me again. What evidence do you have?"
Of course she had no evidence.
She stared at me angrily, and suddenly rushed over like crazy, trying to push me down.
The people behind him were shocked. They did not expect that Gu Ke would go crazy in front of everyone.
But I can understand her.
Being bullied is not only a physical pain, but also a psychological gap that cannot be overcome.
She was originally a proud daughter of heaven, a being that everyone looked up to, but after I came back, she was suppressed bit by bit, first by her grades, then by her reputation, and then by her final bully's sense of superiority.
Everyone looked at her with strange eyes. Everyone felt that she deserved it. No one listened to her and no one believed her.
Her craziness will only be much more than that of me who already have low self-esteem.
It’s just that I used my own life to end this madness, and she planned to use other people’s lives to end this madness.
The moment she pushed me, I moved away.
She looked at me in surprise. She couldn't hold back her strength and was about to roll over the fence and fall outside.
Everyone screamed, and some even covered their eyes.
For a moment, I really wanted her to die.
Bullies deserve to die.
But I still reached out my hand, grabbed her, and pulled her back.
At this moment, the firefighters arrived.
The first firefighter who came in was obviously taken aback when he saw me holding Gu Ming. Although he didn't know what the situation was, he still tried to calm me down professionally: "Son, if you have anything to tell your uncle, he will help you solve it."
I laughed: "Thank you, uncle, but I have already solved it myself."
No one has ever been able to save me. The only one who can save me is myself. After
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was rescued, the firefighter uncle sent me to the hospital for a full body examination.
After making sure that nothing happened to me, I asked my parents to take me back.
Gu Ke originally wanted to go, but she wouldn't let anyone touch her. In the end, I had no choice but to let my family stay with me to calm down.
This matter is making a big fuss. At that time, many people took videos, and some people posted them on Weibo, and it became the top trending search list that day.
Some people even spontaneously made subtitles and put everything I said on the video.
Many people commented under the video, and some shared their own experiences of being bullied.
[The person being bullied is not at fault, it is the bully who is at fault.】
【No one should be ridiculed for their appearance. 】
【I have also been bullied. I really don’t know how courageous the young lady in the video is to say such a thing. 】
【Because of this young lady, I had the courage to tell my family that I had been bullied. 】
【Because of this incident, my teacher believed that I was being bullied. 】
Tears blurred my vision. I put down the phone and burst into tears.
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Because of these videos, Teacher Li’s receiving of red envelopes was quickly discovered. As expected, Gu Ke sent Teacher Li several transfers later. Although he deleted the chat history in time, the transfer records could be found upon checking.
What awaits Teacher Li is expulsion.
Gu Ke is under police investigation.
Her pushing me on the rooftop was suspected of attempted murder.
When I was taking notes, I happened to meet Gu Ke. Her eye sockets were sunken and her hair was messy. She looked completely different from before.
She was slightly stunned when she saw me.
then turned to look at the policeman beside him: "Can I say a few words to her?"
Although she is under investigation, her personal freedom will not be restricted, so the policeman nodded and took us to the mediation room.
Before the police officer left, she told me: "If anything happens, we will be outside."
I politely thanked the police officer.
"Are you satisfied now?" Gu Ke looked at me fiercely.
I nodded: "I'm satisfied. Because of my incident, more victims of bullying are seen, heard and saved."
She was stunned, not expecting me to say that.
But this is what I really mean. I looked at her calmly: "What else do you want to ask?"
She was silent for a moment: "Why did you save me?"
I looked at her with a smile and made a cigarette butt gesture.
If you really die, during the autopsy it will be found that you were really bullied.
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Under the previous video on Weibo, a comment suddenly went viral, saying that the bully couldn't bear the abuse and dropped out of school, and asked everyone to stop scolding her. There are many comments below
, but they are all criticizing this poster.
The more civilized thing is [She should have dropped out of school long ago. He bullied female classmates and falsely accused them of cheating in exams. Why is she so thick-skinned? 】
【It turned out that I was scolded and dropped out of school. That's great. I want to scold you more. Is school bullying still justified? 】
【Is the poster bought by a bully girl? You can really make any money. 】
was even more disgusting and abusive, but it appeared quickly and was quickly blocked by the website.
But the main meaning is just two words: [Deserved].
I smiled and closed the phone.
then picked the time after class and walked onto the rooftop of the school.
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"Lin Niao Niao, what are you doing, come down quickly!"
I don't know who discovered me on the rooftop. Soon many students were standing downstairs, and then Teacher Li arrived.
I stood on the rooftop and looked at Teacher Li who looked anxious. Some people had already taken out their mobile phones to call 119, while others were just taking photos and videos.
"Teacher Li, I want to see Gu Ke." I shouted to the people downstairs.
The people below immediately became excited.
My words clearly nailed Gu Ke to the pillar of shame. Even though the last time I jumped off the building was not because of Gu Ke, this time, it was indeed because of her.
I couldn't see Teacher Li's face clearly, but he was obviously very nervous: "Okay, you stand there, my name is Gu Kelai."
After a while, Gu Ke came and was taken up to the rooftop by Teacher Li.
Her long hair was blown into a mess and she had to hold it down with one hand. I sneered inwardly.
She was quite proud and wore a wig.
My parents came next.
"Niao Niao! Come to mom quickly, tell her if you have anything to do!" She stood there at a loss, with tears already streaming down her face.
And my father’s eyes were filled with tears. He wanted to step forward, but he was afraid that I would do something drastic.
There was still a lot of people downstairs. Outside the wide open door of the rooftop, stood Lu Ming and some other familiar faces.
The principal wanted to take these students away, but those people just refused to leave.
Such a lively scene is completely different from the last time I came here.
Each of them is calling me, trying to keep me.
If they were like this last time, would I choose not to jump?
Unfortunately, there is no such if.
"A year and a half ago, when I walked onto this rooftop, I was really going to die." I stood on the edge of the fence and did not go back.
My mother burst into tears when she heard what I said. Only she and my dad know how I survived.
"I used to be fat and my academic performance was very poor." I continued, "I was teased and targeted. I always thought it was my fault."
"It's not your fault." My dad suddenly spoke up.
I looked at him and smiled slightly: "Yeah, what's wrong with me." Then I pointed at everyone present and said loudly:
"It's you who are wrong."
My hand first pointed to my parents: "When I asked you for help, you turned a blind eye."
then pointed at Lu Ming: "When I explained it to you, you turned a deaf ear."
Then pointed at Teacher Li: "And you clearly know the truth of the matter, but you help others do evil. What a teacher... Haha."
I spat on the ground and gave him a middle finger.
Teacher Li, who had always been kind, felt as if he had been hit with a stick. He stood motionless with his face turning green and white.
"And you." I finally pointed at Gu Ke: "You are the initiator of this matter. The love letter to Lu Ming under the guise of my name was written by you, right?"
Gu Ke immediately denied it: "It was not me."
I laughed and said, "Your handwriting is not difficult to compare. You are really boring. Not only did you beat me, but you also humiliated me."
I used to be very confused as to why she framed me and used this as an excuse to beat me.
lay in the hospital for half a year, and I also thought about it for half a year.
Later I realized that I was over the top.
What is the reason for the abuser’s bad taste?
"It's not me!" Gu Ke suddenly screamed, and she took two steps forward: "You hit me too! Lin Niao Niao, you hit me too!"
She wanted to pull off her wig, but stopped again.
I sneered inwardly. This was not unexpected. With such a good face, how could she really show her scars to others?
I understand best how she feels now.
So I said innocently: "You want to frame me again. What evidence do you have?"
Of course she had no evidence.
She stared at me angrily, and suddenly rushed over like crazy, trying to push me down.
The people behind him were shocked. They did not expect that Gu Ke would go crazy in front of everyone.
But I can understand her.
Being bullied is not only a physical pain, but also a psychological gap that cannot be overcome.
She was originally a proud daughter of heaven, a being that everyone looked up to, but after I came back, she was suppressed bit by bit, first by her grades, then by her reputation, and then by her final bully's sense of superiority.
Everyone looked at her with strange eyes. Everyone felt that she deserved it. No one listened to her and no one believed her.
Her craziness will only be much more than that of me who already have low self-esteem.
It’s just that I used my own life to end this madness, and she planned to use other people’s lives to end this madness.
The moment she pushed me, I moved away.
She looked at me in surprise. She couldn't hold back her strength and was about to roll over the fence and fall outside.
Everyone screamed, and some even covered their eyes.
For a moment, I really wanted her to die.
Bullies deserve to die.
But I still reached out my hand, grabbed her, and pulled her back.
At this moment, the firefighters arrived.
The first firefighter who came in was obviously taken aback when he saw me holding Gu Ming. Although he didn't know what the situation was, he still tried to calm me down professionally: "Son, if you have anything to tell your uncle, he will help you solve it."
I laughed: "Thank you, uncle, but I have already solved it myself."
No one has ever been able to save me. The only one who can save me is myself. After
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was rescued, the firefighter uncle sent me to the hospital for a full body examination.
After making sure that nothing happened to me, I asked my parents to take me back.
Gu Ke originally wanted to go, but she wouldn't let anyone touch her. In the end, I had no choice but to let my family stay with me to calm down.
This matter is making a big fuss. At that time, many people took videos, and some people posted them on Weibo, and it became the top trending search list that day.
Some people even spontaneously made subtitles and put everything I said on the video.
Many people commented under the video, and some shared their own experiences of being bullied.
[The person being bullied is not at fault, it is the bully who is at fault.】
【No one should be ridiculed for their appearance. 】
【I have also been bullied. I really don’t know how courageous the young lady in the video is to say such a thing. 】
【Because of this young lady, I had the courage to tell my family that I had been bullied. 】
【Because of this incident, my teacher believed that I was being bullied. 】
Tears blurred my vision. I put down the phone and burst into tears.
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Because of these videos, Teacher Li’s receiving of red envelopes was quickly discovered. As expected, Gu Ke sent Teacher Li several transfers later. Although he deleted the chat history in time, the transfer records could be found upon checking.
What awaits Teacher Li is expulsion.
Gu Ke is under police investigation.
Her pushing me on the rooftop was suspected of attempted murder.
When I was taking notes, I happened to meet Gu Ke. Her eye sockets were sunken and her hair was messy. She looked completely different from before.
She was slightly stunned when she saw me.
then turned to look at the policeman beside him: "Can I say a few words to her?"
Although she is under investigation, her personal freedom will not be restricted, so the policeman nodded and took us to the mediation room.
Before the police officer left, she told me: "If anything happens, we will be outside."
I politely thanked the police officer.
"Are you satisfied now?" Gu Ke looked at me fiercely.
I nodded: "I'm satisfied. Because of my incident, more victims of bullying are seen, heard and saved."
She was stunned, not expecting me to say that.
But this is what I really mean. I looked at her calmly: "What else do you want to ask?"
She was silent for a moment: "Why did you save me?"
I looked at her with a smile and made a cigarette butt gesture.
If you really die, during the autopsy it will be found that you were really bullied.
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