(1)
I am a queen, but I am not loved by the emperor.
The Emperor must be extremely disgusted with me. Otherwise, why hasn't he allowed me to have a child for three years?
But I love him terribly.
I fell in love with him from the first moment I met him. When
married Ji Zhu, he was still a prince. Three years later, the late emperor died, and the imperial decree proclaimed the ninth prince Ji Zhu to the throne. The prince fled and the queen hanged herself.
After being a princess for three years, I unexpectedly took the position of the most noble queen in the world, surpassing ten thousand people under this person without any warning.
Perhaps from then on, I should have known that Ji Zhuyuan was not as harmless as he seemed on the surface. He was ambitious, had profound plans, and was ruthless to his closest relatives.
But at that time, I thought he was protecting himself.
Six months after Ji Zhu ascended the throne, the ministers of the DPRK and the Central Government issued memorials one after another: The royal heir is a national matter. Now that the world is peaceful and the people are healthy, the selection of the concubine must not be postponed any longer. I can't wait to roll my eyes at these ministers. I'm not choosing a concubine for you. Why are you so anxious?
So, within a month, I had to complete the list of all eligible official women.
After taking a nap that day, I lay on the bed in a daze for a while. Thinking of the matter of choosing a concubine, I was extremely irritated. I called Ayue: [Ayue, what time is it? 】
Ah Yue has been by my side since I was a child and has been like a good sister to me. When he saw me waking up, he walked to the bedside and said, "Miss, it's already time to tell." ]
I slept for such a long time.
[Ayue, come with me to the Xuanming Palace. 】
Walking to the Xuanming Hall, I explained my purpose to Eunuch Li. He went in and informed me before letting me in.
Walking to the inner hall, he saw Ji Zhu wearing a black silk robe embroidered with gold dragons, with a clean and bright white lining inside. Without the crown, he lost a bit of majesty and looked more handsome. At this moment, he was sitting in front of the imperial court correcting memorials.
I was stunned for two seconds, and then I saluted Ji Zhu. ]
He just looked at the memorial and said, "Queen, excuse me." His voice was cold and clear.
[Your Majesty, this is the list of concubines to be selected in ten days. Your Majesty, please take a look. ] After saying that, I walked forward and handed it to him. Ji Zhu didn't take it, so he motioned to the father-in-law next to him to take it.
I heard him say: [I know, leave it here, I will ask Li Shengfu to give it to you later. 】
There was silence after that. I made up my mind and exited Xuanming Palace.
I don’t know how I got to the bedroom, and I don’t know why Ji Zhu is always so cold to me.
I have been married to Ji Zhu for more than three years, but I have never entered his heart.
(2)
My name is Su Mu. My father was the general of Zhenyuan in the two dynasties. He was very famous in Daxia. He followed the late emperor to seize power from the leaders of Dongyi and restored the rule of Daxia, so that the people could live in peace and contentment.
After the death of the late emperor, his father continued to guard the border to prevent the invasion of Dongyi.
My father only has one daughter, and my mother died when I was six years old. After that, I was alone. Although many neighbors came to my house to propose marriage, my father rejected them all. When I was eight years old, my father was asked by my friend who was terminally ill to adopt his only legitimate son as his adopted son.
After that, I had an unrelated brother who treated me very well. If someone bullies me, he will definitely settle the score with that person and vent his anger on me. Whenever my father scolded me, my brother would always stand up to defend me and even take the blame for me. As a result, my brother would bear the punishment for me, or we would be punished together, but I would not feel sad at all. I would make naughty faces to my brother, and he would always sigh and look at me helplessly.
At that time, I could run freely on the prairie, sneaking to the street every day to watch movies and play, and my brother would protect me if I was discovered. I don’t have to learn the cumbersome etiquette in the capital or the embroidery that the women in the capital are good at but which consumes a lot of patience for me.
Although I am supervised by my father and brother in my martial arts practice, this kind of life makes me feel extremely happy.
I remember one time, when I was released from the ban, I couldn’t wait to go to the street to listen to a play.It is said to be a bloody story about the Queen Empress fighting the concubines in the harem. I am very interested in it as I have never been to the capital or the palace.
[Ah Yue, Ah Yue, let’s go to the theater together! ] I looked at Ayue expectantly.
Ah Yue persuaded me earnestly, "Miss, you have just been lifted from the ban. The master was really angry last time. You still dare to go out to play on the street. Aren't you afraid that the master will be angry again?" ]
But I am not afraid of my father at all. Although he is strict with me, he really loves me. Besides, the last time I was punished was actually because I beat up the dandy boy of Uncle Li's family. As a result, he came to judge me. I had no choice but to do anything. My father scolded me severely in front of that person.
[Okay Ayue, just once, from now on, I, um... try my best not to sneak into the street again, okay? ]
[Miss, do you think your words are credible? You said the same thing last time! You...]
I didn’t want to listen to her nagging, so I covered Ayue’s mouth with one hand, put my arm around Ayue’s shoulders and walked out.
We dodged the servants at home as usual and successfully ran to the lively and bustling street. Hey, I was almost suffocated to death after being grounded for five days since that day.
When we arrived at the theater pavilion, the play was almost over, so I was no longer interested in listening to it.
I couldn’t help but rub Ayue’s face, [I tell you to hurry up and you don’t listen, the drama is over, Ayue! ]
[Hey, miss, it will be the same next time!]
Ah Yue tilted her head to the side, trying to escape from my clutches, but I couldn't do what she wanted.
[Forget it, let's go shopping on the street]
[Miss, we have to go home early, it will be terrible if the master finds out! ]
[I haven’t eaten candied haws for a long time. ]
[…]
[I heard that Mingyuelou has a new dish. Let’s try it. ]
[…]
Finally, I really couldn’t bear Ayue’s thoughts, so I hurried home before noon. When I walked to the door of my house, I was surprised to see two guards armed with knives. The main entrance is not feasible, so I plan to take Ah Yue to climb over the side wall.
When I used Qinggong to fly up the wall, I saw my father talking to the man. I couldn't hear clearly because I was completely attracted by the beauty of this young man.
I remember that he was wearing light cyan clothes, with gorgeous patterns embroidered on his outer robe, and a wide white belt tied around his thin waist. Her hair is half tied, and the breeze gently blows through the loose hair. Her jaw is square, her eyes are clear, and her complexion is fair but heroic.
With just one glance, I fell in. Unexpectedly, he is even more handsome than his brother. A gentleman is unparalleled in the world, and a stranger is like jade, that's all.
What's worse is that because I was immersed in his beauty, I accidentally slipped and fell to the ground on all fours. When I heard the commotion, I saw my father's beard standing up in anger as he walked over. I guess he was really angry.
[The little girl’s lax discipline made the Ninth Prince laugh. ]
My father was embarrassed and his face looked extremely ugly.
[General, your lady is very cute. Because the matter was urgent, I did not inform the general in advance, which was a nuisance to the general. ]
He smiled like a spring breeze, and I couldn’t take my eyes off him after being helped up by my brother.
So he is the Ninth Prince, I thought to myself.
My father looked at me helplessly, [Hurry up and salute the Ninth Prince. ]
Suddenly thinking that he was so rude, he blushed and hurriedly said to Ji Zhu, "I have met the Ninth Prince."
He smiled and nodded at me.
My first encounter with Ji Zhu was so embarrassing.
Ji Zhu stayed at my house for five days. My brother takes Jizhu on trips every day and introduces the local customs and customs here. Every time I beg my brother to take me with him.
Now that I think about it, I am afraid that these few days have been the happiest times since Ji Zhu and I met.
Later I learned that his name was Ji Zhu, and he was the least favored Ninth Prince. Like me, my mother died early, the emperor was not happy, and his servants were not devoted to him.
I was thinking at that time that the prince had the protection of the queen, my aunt. And what does Ji Zhu have? If I had married him, I would have had my father's protection, and he would not have had such a difficult life.
I have a lot of hairpins, and there is an endless stream of people coming to my house to propose marriage, but my father rejects them all. My father loves me and dotes on me, and doesn't want me to get married early.
But this time, my father agreed to the prefect’s proposal of marriage without asking me. I was very angry. Daddy is extremely forceful, saying that the two families are well matched, both civil and military, and Daddy is doing it for your own good.
I knelt in front of my father and begged him to reject the prefect’s marriage proposal.
[Dad, my daughter likes the Ninth Prince, and she will never marry him in this life. 】
Unexpectedly, my father was very angry after hearing this. His face turned red with anger and he yelled angrily: [Asshole! Do you know what you are talking about? Do you think life is easy for the royal family? Do you think everyone in the royal family is as innocent and innocent as you? That's a place that eats people without spitting out their bones! Mu'er, how can father have the heart to marry you into a cold-blooded palace? You will not be happy if you marry the Ninth Prince. ]
I know my father is doing it for my own good, but all I can think about is Ji Zhu. I love him so much that I am crazy.
I remember that I looked at my father stubbornly, with tears on my face, "How will you know you won't be happy if you don't try?" If father insists on letting me marry to the prefect, my daughter will never be happy in this life! 】
Dad still disagreed and banned my feet, so I protested with a hunger strike.
My brother came to visit me during this period. He knew that I had a stubborn temper since I was a child, and sometimes I was so stubborn that I couldn't pull ten cows back. He just analyzed the pros and cons with me and left.
But I love him so much!
In the end, my father reluctantly agreed to my request. It was only later that I found out that my father had an estrangement from the Queen because of me, because she wanted me to marry the prince, and she did not want me to get involved in the royal heir dispute when she agreed to the prefect's proposal.
Two months later, when I was less than seventeen years old, I set foot on the road to the capital alone and married the ninth prince, Ji Zhu, as I wished.
On that day, there was a lot of red makeup, and the flowers in the city were in bloom but lost their color. I wore a red wedding dress, with a phoenix crown and a halo. Not far away, Ji Zhu, dressed in red, walked slowly towards me, stretched out his hand to help me sit on the sedan chair. Turn on the horse and move smoothly. With the sound of "lifting up the sedan chair", played and played music, and firecrackers and cheers sounded at the same time.
At night, I sat on the bed, feeling very excited. The corners of my mouth turned up unconsciously. When I thought of what my grandma told me last night, my face turned red unconsciously.
But after waiting and waiting, Ji Zhu didn't come, so I called Ayue. [Ah Yue, why hasn’t he come yet? I’m so hungry! ]
[Miss, wait a moment. I'll get you something to eat to cushion your stomach. 】
After a long time, Ji Zhu was still nowhere to be seen. I was so sleepy waiting, my head tilted to the side. If Ah Yue hadn't pushed me, I would have fallen asleep the next second.
Finally, after I was pulled into reality by A Yue for an unknown number of times, I heard the sound of people walking outside the door, and Ji Zhu came in. After everyone left, I saw his white hands reaching for my hijab. The next second, I saw his beautiful eyes, which seemed to be stunning, but soon his expression was normal again. Maybe I was too sleepy and saw it wrong.
I smiled at him. He just said indifferently, it's getting late, go to bed early!
[Ah? Oh well. ] My mood suddenly slipped from excitement to despair.
After taking a bath, we lay on the wedding bed, but we were as far apart as the Milky Way .
He, doesn’t he like me?
Thinking that Ji Zhu didn't talk much, the feeling of loss disappeared immediately.
I turned sideways and stared at Ji Zhu blankly. I saw that he had his eyes closed and his delicate brows were furrowed. He must have drank a lot of wine. I am really tired of leveling, and I don’t know when I met Zhou Gong .
(3)
After marrying him, Ji Zhu’s clothes, food and food all pass through my hands. I stand at the door every day waiting for Ji Zhu to come back. No matter how long I wait, as long as I see Ji Zhu's figure, I feel that everything is worth it.
[Prince, you are back. My concubine has cooked red date and lotus seed soup. Let’s go home quickly! ] Saying that, I took Ji Zhu's hand and walked home.
Ji Zhu stopped, and I looked at him doubtfully. I only heard "You don't have to wait for me next time." ]
I smiled and waved my hand, [It doesn’t matter, I have nothing to do at home. Let's go home quickly! 】
Because of my father’s love for me, I am not proficient in all kinds of music, chess, calligraphy and painting, let alone embroidery. After marrying into the prince's palace, I could always hear the servants laughing at me behind my back, saying that I was not good enough for the prince.I was so angry that I forced myself to practice calligraphy and embroidery every day.
Ah Yue saw me picking up the needle and shouted that the sun was coming out from the west. I glanced at Ayue and asked her to practice with me.
Ji Zhu and I treated each other with respect. Oh no, it was Ji Zhu who was polite to me. Even though we were a couple, he was always distant and cold towards me, while I was the one who kept chattering.
It has been three years, and I have gradually restrained my temper. I don’t dare to act recklessly like before. I am afraid of causing trouble to Ji Zhu, and I am even more afraid that Ji Zhu will hate me.
On the day of concubine selection, all the selected women were dressed up and tried their best to show off their graceful figures. I sat next to Ji Zhu, feeling suffocated with sadness, but I could only wear a dignified yet polite smile on my face.
It is obviously midsummer, but I feel like I am in an ice cave. From now on, Ji Zhu will never be alone with me.
There were many concubines chosen in the palace, some were charming, some looked pure and lovely, and some were dignified. Without exception, they are all incredibly beautiful.
That night, Ji Zhu favored Lin Siqing, the legitimate daughter of the Minister of Hubu, and the next day she was named Hui Concubine and given the Ningqing Palace. When she asked me for tea, I realized that there was such a beauty in the world. Just standing there, everything around her was eclipsed. No wonder Ji Zhu ignored the etiquette and made her his concubine and rewarded her with the Ningqing Palace.
Oh, Ning Qing Palace.
During the year when Jizhu ascended the throne, he rarely went to my palace except on fixed dates every month.
I discovered that Ji Zhu could smile and his eyes would be filled with deep love, but that person was not me. Seeing Ji Zhu doting on others, I went crazy with jealousy. I couldn't sleep at night and could only numb myself with wine.
As a queen, I can't be coquettish like other concubines to keep them. I can only use daily greetings to suppress and warn the concubines.
I gradually became unreasonable and lost myself.
I don’t know when someone in the palace started saying that I was jealous of the Queen. I don’t know when I started feeling more and more tired.
Sometimes I often think, since you don’t like me, why didn’t you refuse in the first place? You gave me hope and married me, but why did you neglect me, hate me, and make me worry about gains and losses every day?
After four years, Ji Zhu's heart was like a cold stone that could not be warmed no matter how hard it was covered. I just want to be with Ji Zhu for the rest of my life, but now it seems like I am wishful thinking.
(4)
My expectations for Ji Zhu were getting less and less. When I learned that Hui Bin was pregnant, I gave up my heart completely.
I remember that three months after Ji Zhu selected his concubine, news came from Ningqing Palace that Hui Bin was pregnant.
My heart stung for a moment, and then it felt like countless needles were piercing the depths of my heart. The pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe.
"Ah Yue, it seems that it's not Ji Zhu who has a problem, it's me."
I smiled and tried to hold back my tears, but the tears insisted on resisting me, and the more I wiped away, the more they came.
Ah Yue hugged me as I was shaking and comforted me.
After calming down, I said in a low voice: "Ah Yue, please bring a bowl of soup to Hui Bin tomorrow morning."
Ah Yue understands me very well, and she knows that I will not allow another woman to give birth to a child for Ji Zhu.
But I couldn't calm down all night. I was afraid that Ji Zhu would hate me even more after the incident, but I didn't want anyone else to have Ji Zhu's child.
How ironic. Every time Ji Zhu stayed at my place, he would be given a bowl of so-called "nourishing" soup the next day.
I know, I know, that’s a fool’s errand!
But I don’t want to believe it. I have always deceived myself that Ji Zhu would not be so cruel.
To this day, I can no longer deceive myself. Since Ji Zhu doesn't love me, why bother forcing me? Why do you want to become someone you hate even yourself?
The sky was slightly bright and I was sitting in front of the dressing table. Looking at my unfamiliar self in the mirror, I recalled everything from when I met Ji Zhu to not knowing each other, and now he hates me and neglects me.
"Miss", Ah Yue's voice brought my thoughts back.
I smiled bitterly: "Ah Yue, do you want to leave here?"
"Miss, what nonsense are you talking about. Ah Yue will always be by my side."
"But I am too tired, Ah Yue."
"Miss, Ah Yue knows that you are feeling uncomfortable."But you still have me, and I won't leave you. "
I took a deep breath and suddenly thought of the bowl of soup. "Ah Yue, where's the soup? Where is the soup sent to Ningqing Palace? "
" has been sent and should be arriving soon. "
I was panicking, this was bad.
I picked up my skirt and ran to Ningqing Palace. The eunuchs and maids along the way looked at me with surprised expressions.
I couldn't care so much anymore.
At the entrance of Ningqing Palace, my maid was waiting with a bowl of soup. I walked over, ignoring the confusion in the maid's eyes, and said: "Go back, there is no need to send this soup. "
I know that my appearance is unclean at this moment, my forehead is sweating slightly, and a few hairs are stuck to my face, but the heaviness in my heart has disappeared.
Fortunately, it has not caused a big disaster.
I was about to go back, and a figure pressed towards me. I looked up, and it was Ji Zhu. I guess he came to Ningqing Hall just after the court.
"Why is the queen here? "
" Well, I can go around as I please. "
" Oh? You don’t even wear shoes when you go out for a walk? "
I don't know how to answer. Do you want me to say that I gave your woman a piece of cake, and now I regret it and chase after her?
"Why don't you look at me? "
I slowly raised my head, and Ji Zhu's eyes were slightly angry. Did he know? But I finally braked in time, so I shouldn't have noticed.
At this time, my savior A Yue came to me with shoes in his hand. I exhaled a breath and saluted Ji Zhu, "I am not well-groomed, so I will leave first. "
After saying that, I pulled Ah Yue and ran away quickly. My heart was pounding. I was really afraid that Ji Zhu would break the casserole and ask what happened.
Thinking about it again, I couldn't help but sneer, how could Ji Zhu do it? He has always been unwilling to say a word to me.
Since you don't love me, let's let each other go. If possible, I really want to leave. Ji Zhu is no longer seen here.
From then on, except for necessary matters to discuss with Ji Zhu, I no longer bothered Ji Zhu or inquired about his whereabouts. Even if I saw Ji Zhu when I was walking, I no longer asked the concubines to greet me every day, and I had less intrigues.
This is good. I can’t see Ji Zhu. It won't hurt.
(5)
Now that I no longer follow Ji Zhu closely, I am naturally free. A Yue collected a lot of story books from the palace maids, and the stories in them are all about cliché love affairs. After reading a few books, I lost interest.
When I woke up in the morning, I heard the voice of the palace maid outside, and seemed very excited.
I got up from the bed. The charcoal fire was strong and the whole house was warm. I opened the window without wearing shoes, and it turned out that it was snowing. The outside is covered in silver and covered with white flowers.
The snow was falling heavily at the moment, and several palace ladies in the courtyard were clearing the snow to clear the way.
After breakfast, I asked Ayue: “What day is it today? "
" Miss, today is the sixth day of the twelfth lunar month. "
I said in a daze: "Time flies so fast, and the Chinese New Year will be here in a blink of an eye. "
"Yes, miss, and the snow fell earlier this year than in previous years. This is called auspicious snow, which heralds a good harvest! "
After listening to Ayue's words, I couldn't help laughing, "Let's go to the backyard to see Hongmei ! "
" But miss, it's snowing heavily outside. Can we wait until the snow stops before going? "
I dropped "no" and ran out in a hurry.
I heard Ah Yue getting anxious from behind: "Miss, put on your windbreaker and run slower!" "
The snow on the ground was so deep that you couldn't see your shoes when you stepped in. It must have been raining all night. My heart suddenly became brighter. I had rarely seen such heavy snow before.
I walked one foot deep and one foot shallow, which was a little laborious, but very happy. I couldn't help turning my head and urging Ah Yue to hurry up.
Arrive When I got to the backyard, I stopped. The red plum blossoms were in full bloom, dotted with pale colors, which made this winter more charming.
I stood still here, raising my head, and countless goose feathers of snow rushed towards me, falling on my hair and face, and then melted into water drops.
I couldn't help but think of the scene where my brother and I were running wildly in the snow.At this moment, I miss my brother so much, I miss my home so much, and I really want to go back to the me that I was before, the free, energetic, confident and carefree me.
Suddenly, something hit me on the shoulder. Before I could react, Ah Yue scolded me: "How dare you to be rude to the Queen!"
I turned my head, and it turned out to be Liu Meiren. At this moment, she hurriedly knelt down with the maid beside her.
She lowered her head and came with a clear, sweet and trembling voice: Queen, please calm down, I hit you because I accidentally missed my hand. The voice became lower and lower, and finally became silent.
I asked her to raise her head, but she still looked sixteen or seventeen years old, but still retained the ignorance and innocence of a little girl. Strangely enough, it had been half a year since she entered the palace, and it seemed that she had never been summoned by Ji Zhu.
I looked at her and said with a slight smile: "It's okay, get up."
"Thank you, Queen."
Liu Meiren stood up. She smiled at me. Her eyes were pure and harmless, and her eyes were charming. This smile penetrated my heart. After that, I was at a loss, so I had to say: "It's snowing outside, don't be playful, go back early."
She looked at me, still smiling foolishly, and said, "Others say that the Queen is not close, but I feel that my sister is easy to get along with."
"Oh? Why?"
Her eyes were floating, and she said, "I just feel like I'm getting along with you." "Yes."
I smiled and said, "That's right."
"Then can I go to my sister's palace to play in the future?"
"Yes."
My casual agreement attracted the attention of Miss Liu, who came to my palace many times before I even got up.
In front of the dressing table, the maid Zilan was dressing me up. When I heard a cheerful "sister" outside the house, I rubbed my temples. Seeing my helplessness, Ah Yue said angrily: "Miss, just say you are not feeling well next time and refuse. You come here every day, miss, and you can't get a good rest."
In this huge harem, everyone knows that the queen is not favored. She has been homeless for four years. Every palace is afraid of me, and only that inexperienced girl is willing to get close to me. Every time I see her lively energy, there will always be a strange feeling in my heart.
I thought about it and said, "She's here. Isn't the palace a lot more lively?"
At first, Beauty Liu was still reserved, but then she completely let herself go, as if she was having fun. I can't say that too much.
I remember that Miss Liu gave me a bunch of red plums, but ended up eating all the glutinous rice cakes in my palace. Two days ago, I brought a bird egg that I didn't know where to find. I insisted on hatching it, saying it was pitiful for the mother bird to leave it. What did I say at that time? Oh, it’s ‘It’s hard to hatch in winter, and it won’t survive even if it breaks its shell’. Unexpectedly, she came to my palace the next day and said she wanted to find a mother for the baby bird.
She is a person of action. After saying this, she ran to the yard and supported the basket with a wooden stick, sprinkled some cakes underneath, and tied a rope to the wooden stick. She held the rope tightly in her hand and hid, watching closely to see when the bird would fly into the trap.
is really good, but at the same age as Hua, she is trapped in this hopeless harem. I am more and more sure of my inner thoughts, I don’t want to be trapped in this palace for the rest of my life.
"Sister, sister, I caught it! Come and look, it's right below." In the midst of her thoughts, Liu Meiren's excited voice came.
I ordered: "Come here, put the bird in the cage and keep a good watch." Then, I turned to Liu Meiren and said: "Don't forget to take it when you leave."
"Thank you, sister!"
(Six)
At the end of the year, I became even busier. Not only did I have to calculate the food and clothing expenses of each palace this year and make a budget for the next year, I also had to prepare for the grand banquet at the end of the year.
Today is the fourteenth day of the twelfth lunar month. I got up early and stared at the preparations for the banquet. Then I spent the entire afternoon calculating the accounts, which made me dizzy, tired and sleepy.
I had no appetite for dinner, so I drank a bowl of porridge under Ah Yue's pressure and then collapsed on the bed and fell asleep. Just a second before I fell asleep, Ah Yue came to push me and said that His Majesty was coming. I was speechless and asked the sky, shouldn't he come only tomorrow? But I had to get up from the comfortable bed to greet Ji Zhu.
I stood at the door, and Ji Zhu's tall and slender figure came towards me, pursed lips tightly, still carrying a cold aura, followed by Li Desheng, holding the memorial in his hand.
I saluted, feeling sad and angry: You look like I am forcing you. If you don’t want to come, then don’t come. I didn’t force you to come.
"Ah Yue, pass the meal." I said to Ah Yue without looking at Ji Zhu's face.
"No, I've already had dinner."
Ji Zhu sat down and asked me to sit down too.
"How are the preparations for the New Year's Eve dinner?"
"Back to Your Majesty, everything goes well."
"That's good."
"Your Majesty, concubine Hui is five months pregnant. I thought, this is your majesty. It’s time to reward Consort Hui, so that she can raise her baby with peace of mind. "
" I said happily, "
" The room fell into silence.
I sat with my eyes, nose and nose in mind, feeling sleepy again.
I don’t know how long I sat there, but Ji Zhu asked Li Desheng to bring the memorial. I waited on Ji Zhu's side. When I endured the sixth yawn, Ji Zhu asked me to rest first if I felt sleepy. I was relieved when I heard this, and immediately put down the memorial I was about to hand to him. I noticed that Ji Zhu paused slightly, which seemed to be because I might have read it wrong. So I said to Ji Zhu with the smile I thought was the best, I will not disturb His Majesty here.
When I woke up the next day, the birds chirping outside gave me a headache. Ji Zhu has already gone to court, and I was too busy to think about why Ji Zhu came to my palace yesterday.
Ji Zhu probably won't come tonight. I went to take a shower and change clothes early to get ready for bed.
I haven't had the habit of letting others take care of me when I was taking a bath since I was a child. Usually I am the only one in the room at this time.
It was warm inside the room, my face felt hot, and I came out barefoot after washing. When my feet touched the ground, I felt very at ease.
Go to the bed, I'm going to turn off the lights. Suddenly, there was a breeze in my ears, and I quickly ducked to the side, only to see a masked black man slashing at me with a knife. It seems that this person's martial arts skills are not low, but I didn't hear any noise.
Then, the man attacked me again. After going back and forth, I knocked off the mask of the man, and it turned out to be Prince Ji Heng.
Suddenly, "Your Majesty has arrived" came from outside the door. I was stunned, but I asked the man to seize the opportunity and put the knife on my neck.
I regret that I was distracted at the critical moment.
Ji Zhu opened the door and walked in, his eyes slightly narrowed and his expression serious.
"Don't move. If anyone dares to come forward, I'll kill her. Everyone, stay back."
I rolled my eyes, uncle, can you move?
Ji Zhu walked forward. The next second I felt a pain in my neck. Heat flowed down my neck. He stopped.
"Let go of the queen. If you dare to hurt her again, I will cut you into thousands of pieces. I will do what I say!"
"Oh, cut into pieces? Ji Zhu, you are a despicable person. You killed my father and forced my mother to death. How can you still... You took advantage of a woman to get the throne. You are not worthy at all! "
" Then I have let you down. The throne is in my hands. "
" You" Ji Heng's face changed with anger.
My neck hurts so much that I want to curse. It’s better to rely on others than to rely on yourself. I don’t expect Ji Zhu to save me.
"I said, why are you kidnapping me because you have a grudge against Ji Zhu? Even if you kill me, he won't blink an eye."
"Humph, you are the only one who has a crush on him." Ji Heng said with a sneer.
"Yes, yes, please let me go quickly, or think about how to escape."
I have been most afraid of pain since I was a child, and I would faint after a while if I couldn't protect myself. While
was speaking, I noticed that Ji Heng had relaxed his guard. I stepped on Ji Heng's foot with my heel, kicked his leg over his shoulder and threw him in one go, and finally managed to get out of his control.
"Take it!" Ji Zhu ordered sternly.
Ji Zhu pulled me over and pulled me into his arms.
I struggled to leave, but he pushed me back again. Ji Zhu was so weird.
"Hiss, it hurts!"
I struggled again and saw the dagger flying from behind Ji Zhu. I pushed Ji Zhu away and watched the dagger pierce my left chest. Suddenly, the pain all over my body concentrated there. Finally, I heard a clear sound and lost consciousness.
When I opened my eyes again, I was unconscious and my head was dizzy, but the pain in my left chest was extremely clear.
I hissed in pain and closed my eyes again.
"Qing'er?"
The voice is so gentle, is it my brother?
"Brother", I tried to open my eyes, blinked a few times, and finally saw the man's face clearly, it was Ji Zhu.
His face was a little tired, and there were red bloodshot eyes. I had never seen Ji Zhu look so embarrassed, but he looked very happy.
"Your Majesty, Your Majesty?"
"Qing'er, you finally woke up. Do you feel uncomfortable somewhere?"
I shook my head and stopped talking.
The imperial doctor took my pulse and said that I was in good condition and that there was no longer any fear for my life. I would be able to recover after meditating for a while.
"Qing'er, wait for you to drink the porridge and take a good rest. I will come to see you later."
"Your Majesty, I am fine, don't worry."
I just want to say that you should go and don't come again. When I see you, I will think of the stupid things I did!
Ji Zhu reached out and touched my face, with a gentle smile, "Take good care of your injuries."
Ji Zhu must have taken the wrong medicine. I just blocked his knife for him because of my brain twitching. Such a big change in attitude, I was so scared that I broke into a cold sweat just thinking about it.
After Ji Zhu left, Ah Yue brought a bowl of porridge, "Miss, you finally woke up. I'm worried to death," Ah Yue cried.
"I'm fine, don't worry. Didn't I wake up now?"
"Miss, you said that I would never see you again, woo woo hoo~"
"Hey, your lady, I'm lucky. Besides, I haven't found a good in-law for you yet, so I won't leave you. Be good, don't cry anymore."
"Miss!" Ayue's face turned red, and I felt a lot happier.
"Ah Yue, I'm hungry."
The porridge bottomed out, and now I felt that I had some strength.
"Miss, you were in a coma for two days, and His Majesty took care of you every step of the way. Did His Majesty..."
I interrupted her, "What are you thinking? It's just because I took the stab for him."
Ah The more he listened, he became more and more disappointed, "Miss, the imperial doctor said that you need to take good care of your injuries and rest for a while, okay?"
"Okay."
(7)
I don't know, all of this is in Ji Zhu's plan.
After so many years, I have already seen through Ji Zhu.
He indeed had the talents of an emperor. He purified the court, promoted new people, checked and balanced the forces in the court, and everyone in the government was in danger. He took back the imperial power in less than a year.
This time the prince was assassinated, and he deliberately let Ji Heng go into the palace because of his negligence. Letting Ji Heng go was just to draw out the huge rebel forces behind him, and then accuse him of assassination and rebellion.
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but break out in a cold sweat, and I couldn't help but breathe quickly.
The next step will be my dad. Although the generals of the two dynasties were on the border, their prestige and power in the dynasty were self-evident. And I am still the queen, haha, no wonder he has to let me have children, no wonder he hates me so much.
But what will Ji Zhu do to dad and me? Is
killed?
With how much he hates me, it’s not impossible.
If I ask him to divorce me in advance, will Ji Zhu let my Lin family go?
I really regret it at this moment. I hate that I rushed to marry him when I couldn't see clearly the power in the DPRK, and ignored the dissuasion of my father and brother.
I'm so stupid, but I can't blame others. Now I have to do things to make him happy to reduce his dislike of me, but I can't always be in front of him to get into trouble.
After much deliberation, he had no choice but to please his women, especially the most favored concubine Lin Siqing.
Alas, I may be the first queen in history who is about to be deposed by trying to please the emperor’s concubines to increase his favor!
It’s just that during the ten days I was recuperating, apart from Liu Meiren coming to play with me from time to time, Ji Zhu came to my palace almost every day, and even had meals here.Supplements were delivered every three or two days, and I ordered Ah Yue to give them to Jizhu's concubines, and reward the rest to his servants.
In the past ten days, apart from eating and drinking, I was just thinking about how to get Ji Zhu to be merciful and let my Lin family go. Sometimes I felt sad in my heart.
Perhaps it is the love that my father has for my mother. I long for a couple for the rest of my life, and it turns out that it is a rare beauty in the world.
In a blink of an eye, New Year’s Eve is here.
In the Huaqing Palace, Ji Zhu and I sat side by side on a high seat, with the concubines of the palace and the ministers of the court sitting below us.
After a few words of greetings, the singing and dancing took place, the sleeves were fluttering, and the music was melodious. There are more than a dozen delicacies on the table, which is so rich.
But, why am I the only one with clear soup and vegetarian dishes, not even meat? I was so angry that I clenched my chopsticks and turned my head to look at Ji Zhu. I was so angry.
"Pfft, the Queen is indeed a model of simplicity in the palace!"
Concubine Su sneered, covering her mouth.
I looked at her coldly and suddenly said with a smile: "I am a vegetarian, but my sister should be careful about her diet when she is pregnant!"
"Sister is absolutely right. Your Majesty comes to visit every day. The prince is in good health."
"That's good." I looked away and stopped talking.
In the past, I would have inevitably had to argue openly and secretly with her, but now, I have no interest in it at all.
I heard that Ji Zhu and Lin Siqing were childhood sweethearts. They were talented and beautiful, and they were a perfect match. If I hadn't crossed my fingers, this queen's taste should have been hers.
broke up the pair of mandarin ducks like you, and I feel very uncomfortable, so I can’t bear it.
It’s really depressing here. Although the singing and dancing below are wonderful, I was distracted. I pretended to be unwell and wanted to leave midway. Ji Zhu held my wrist when I stood up to leave. He looked at me with deep eyes, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he was speechless and let me go.
When I returned to Weiyang Palace, I remembered the candied haws and notes that Ayue brought back from the palace the day before yesterday, so I decided to change into men's clothes and prepare to leave the palace.
I had already chosen an absolutely secret path, but I still met Liu Meiren who had also sneaked out and pestered me to take her out of the palace with me.
"Sister, just take me out. I promise I won't tell anyone, I swear!"
"Sister, I have big things to do, don't make trouble!"
"Sister, please, I will be obedient and won't cause trouble for you."
Seeing that I still refused to agree, he simply sat on the ground and hugged my legs tightly.
"Let go!"
"If sister doesn't agree, I won't let go!"
"This is an order!"
"You are not the queen sister, you are obviously wearing men's clothes."
Seeing that I didn't speak, I said, "Sister, I will keep your secret whatever you do."
In desperation, I closed my eyes and finally compromised. What a stupid child.
We visited almost the entire capital, it was bustling with activity and the lights were dim!
came to Qinghexuan, the largest gourmet restaurant in Beijing. When I got to the second floor, I looked around, and sure enough, I saw my brother drinking wine in the back room. When he noticed me, he put down his glass and stood up.
The tip of my nose suddenly became sore, and mist rose in my eyes. When he was hugged tightly by his brother's warm embrace, tears fell uncontrollably.
Liu Meiren's jaw was about to drop in shock, "Sister, you...you want Hongxing to cheat on you?"
I couldn't help laughing, "This is my brother."
The table was full of delicious food, all of which I like to eat. Liu Meiren was already familiar with the situation. She got drunk because of her greed for wine, so she fell asleep on the table.
I talked a lot with my brother and told him that he must tell his father to make early plans when he goes back. My brother touched my head and said that I was much more stable and mature.
I drank some wine. When I left, my brother sent me and Liu Meiren to the carriage and prepared some hangover soup in advance.
I fed Liu Meiren some hangover soup, but she accidentally knocked it over. After she woke up, she said that my brother was really good-looking. I remembered that when we were eating just now, Liu Meiren's eyes never left my brother for a moment. This silly girl wouldn't have fallen in love with my brother.
"Sister, what is that? It's round and shiny." She pointed in the direction of the palace.
That's a light
"Huh? What is this? Why is it always moving!"
That's a shadow
I covered her mouth, for fear of attracting the attention of the patrolling soldiers.
"Sister, what, what is that? It looks so fierce."
That's...
That's Ji Zhu.
(8)
Ji Zhu stood with his hands behind his hands, his face dark and smelly, and a strong cold air invaded his body.
"Come here, send Liu Meiren back," Ji Zhu said in a deep voice.
"Your Majesty, Your Majesty, I..."
Before he could finish his words, Ji Zhu strode over and held me in his arms. Due to inertia, his hands unconsciously wrapped around Ji Zhu's neck. I felt dizzy and suspected that I was drunk too.
When we arrived at Leyang Palace, Ji Zhu put me on the bed, and I huddled under the quilt. I was caught leaving the palace without permission, and he took his woman with him.
"Oh, I see you are really capable."
"..."
"You are still drinking, and your wounds are not fully healed. How dare you?"
"..."
"You are dumb when you speak?"
In the past, Ji Zhu had never spoken to me in such a tone. He pulled me up and forced me to look directly at him. I was a little scared, but Ji Zhu's eyes slowly became gentle, as gentle as a pool of clear water.
rubbed his eyes, thinking that I must be drunk to hallucinate.
Ji Zhu gently touched my eyes, "Are you crying?"
"I'm not."
"Are you blaming me?"
I stared at his sleeves, "I don't dare."
I heard Ji Zhu sigh softly, "Qing'er, your wound is not healed yet. A lighter diet will help you recover."
Is he explaining to me?
"Get up and drink the sobering soup."
I was shocked when I saw Ji Zhu trying to feed me and the soup.
"I will do it myself."
He refused and insisted on passing the spoon to my mouth.
"Be good, open your mouth."
It was like a thunderbolt from the blue. The voice was so gentle that it almost drowned me, and the smile seemed to me to be malicious.
I frowned and blurted out, "You didn't take the wrong medicine, right?"
As soon as I said it, I wanted to bite off my tongue.
"Ah, Your Majesty, I didn't mean that, ha... ha..."
"Qing'er, let's be good from now on, okay?"
"Isn't this bad for us?"
"That's not the case, I..."
"No, what is that like? Am I looking at you every day, looking forward to you, waiting hard for His Majesty's favor, or are you asking for help every day but being treated coldly by Your Majesty?"
It has been four years, and the grievances I have suffered cannot be explained away. Even if I know that I am to blame, I can't bear it at this moment.
Hearing Ji Zhu sigh, "I have made you feel wronged. From now on, you will only be by my side."
Hearing these words, I suddenly felt sick, and anger welled up in my heart. My hands gripped the quilt tightly, and my knuckles turned white.
I looked at Ji Zhu with an expressionless face, and I actually admired him. He could pretend to be a loving couple with me even though he didn't love me, and he could endure having sex with me even though he hated me.
If you are not tired, I will be tired for you.
I looked at Ji Zhu sadly. He gradually became blurry, and in the blink of an eye, he became clear again.
"Your Majesty, aren't you tired?"
"Qing'er, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have ignored your kindness to me, and I shouldn't have neglected you like that. I was afraid that you were sent by your aunt, so I turned a blind eye to everything you did. It's my fault, please forgive me, okay?"
I curled up the corner of my mouth and sneered: "Don't say that your Majesty doesn't know about my concubine. You just take my love for you for granted. Your Majesty, I have been with you for four years, and my love for you has been exhausted. I know that Your Majesty doesn't like me and hates me. In this case, Your Majesty, please divorce me! I just ask Your Majesty to let the Lin family go."
Ji Zhu didn't say a word, his expression was very bad, and there was a trace of panic in his eyes. It was because of what I said.
The room was lifeless and silent. I felt sleepy and blinked my eyes.
"Your Majesty, my father is loyal to Your Majesty and will defend me to the death. I just ask Your Majesty to let Lin go and I will do whatever you want."
"Qing'er, why do you think so? I just..."
"Your Majesty, you don't have to act anymore. I understand that the former dynasty and the harem are closely related."Your Majesty is a wise king, and I, Lin, will be loyal to your Majesty. I just want to see our husband and wife... Well."
Ji Zhu blocked my mouth, and then attacked the city. I was completely sleepless. When I struggled and panted, he let go of me, patted my back gently, leaned against my head, and murmured: "Qing'er, don't say such words again. "
I pushed him away hard and yelled: "Ji Zhu, I hate you! "
After yelling, my head became dizzy, and tears fell drop by drop on my clothes and hands. I couldn't help but fall down.
Ji Zhu hugged me from behind and kissed my temples. I couldn't get away, and he whispered in my ear for a long time. He talked a lot, talking about his mother, concubine, father, and his childhood, and about meeting me... Before losing consciousness, I seemed to hear Ji Zhu say: Qing'er, I love you...
(9)
Ji Zhu thought Su Mu was the queen's She married someone just to spy on and frame him. He hated betrayal most in his life, especially the people around him whom he trusted.
Ji Zhu lost his mother and concubine when he was five years old. The late emperor sent him to the queen to raise him. The prince was three years older than Ji Zhu and often bullied him based on the emperor's favor and his position as prince. Although the queen was there to regulate her, she was not the biological mother, so she was inevitably framed by Prince Ji Heng. Gradually, Ji Zhu fell out of favor with the emperor, even though his mother-in-law who doted on him before made the concubines in the harem jealous.
Ji Zhu became taciturn, low-key, and even swallowed his anger. After being betrayed by his entourage at the age of thirteen, Ji Zhu saw clearly the hypocrisy and cruelty of the queen. He hid his edge, kept a low profile, and became tactful and comfortable in this palace full of murderous intentions.
Ji Zhu's life is dark, and countless calculations and conspiracies have already trained Ji Zhu to be decisive in killing.
However, when Su Mu married him, Ji Zhu's cold heart felt a little warm, and he felt a kind of relaxation that he had never experienced before. After finishing his business, Ji Zhu wanted to go back to his house early to see his wife. Su Mu is very considerate to herself in life. She always waits at the door. Sometimes she will pace at the door after waiting for a long time. When she sees me, she runs towards me with a smile, her eyebrows are curved and her eyes are as bright as stars.
Ji Zhu's heart palpitated, feeling that he could not do without her more and more.
But, he couldn't. She was Su Mu, the Queen's biological niece. He didn't want to experience the painful taste of deception and betrayal again, for fear that he would fall in love with Su Mu. I couldn't escape completely, because I was afraid that this was my one-man show, and I was also afraid that I was not worthy of such a clean and beautiful Su Mu.
Later, Ji Zhu returned home later and later, often sleeping in the study because he was busy with official duties. He did not dare to look into Su Mu's eyes.
After winning the throne, Ji Zhu showed his talents. He took control of the power in half a year and consolidated the foundation. The forces in the DPRK and China checked each other. Sooner or later, the prince's party would lose power.
From Ji Zhu’s perspective
But, I don’t know how to deal with it Su Mu also dared not see her.
The ministers of the DPRK and China came to advise on the selection of the concubine without further delay, so I suppressed it. But Su Mu was busy with the matter of choosing a concubine. I understand, my queen doesn't care. In anger, I made Lin Siqing my concubine and granted her the title of Ningqing Palace. I wanted to arouse Su Mu's anger. When I saw Su Mu's calmness, I laughed at my own naivety. After
, Su Mu seemed to avoid me and was cold to me, never interfering in anything he wanted his servants to do.
Is she jealous?
I was secretly happy, she must have me in her heart.
However, I panicked when I heard that concubine Hui was pregnant.
Sure enough, Su Mu didn't want to see me anymore. I heard from Li Defu that Su Mu canceled greetings from the concubines in the harem, often citing illness as an excuse, and would not leave the palace for several days.
I felt that Qing'er was getting farther and farther away from me, and an uncontrollable feeling of powerlessness came to me.
The prince was assassinated, and Su Mu blocked the knife for me. I was shocked because I never thought it would happen. Let Su Mu get hurt. The imperial doctor said that there was only a small chance of recovery. I was so frightened that my palms became sweaty and the shirt on my back was completely wet.
I stayed by the bedside until Qing'er woke up. I couldn't imagine what I would do if she left me.
After Qing'er blocked the knife for me, I told myself that no matter what, I would never let her go.
When I woke up, I found that Ji Zhu was hugging me very tightly. This was the first time we woke up and saw Ji Zhu next to us since we both slept together. My eyes were so sore and my head hurt.
I broke away from Ji Zhu and wanted to climb out of bed from him. Just when my left toe touched the ground, Ji Zhu suddenly hugged me.
looked up and Ji Zhu looked at me with hazy eyes.
"Your Majesty, let go."
"Sleep a little longer, eh?"
"I want to drink water."
"Lie down and I'll pour it for you."
"No, no, I can't hold it in anymore," I said awkwardly.
Ji Zhu paused for a moment, then let me go and helped me out of bed.
(10)
Memories of yesterday flashed through my mind one by one, and I wished I could disappear here.
Hey, drunken gaffes, impulsiveness is the devil.
However, it stands to reason that Ji Zhu should be angry, why did he go against the norm? How true are Ji Zhu's words and how false are they?
I sat in front of the dressing table irritably, and Ah Yue called me to have breakfast.
I took a look at the food, and there was meat. After sitting down happily and eating deliciously, Ji Zhu said, "Qing'er, do you want to go out to the palace?"
I stared at him, very puzzled.
"I didn't take the wrong medicine!"
"..."
"If you don't want to, that's all."
"Yes!"
During this period, Ji Zhu was very good to me. When the concubines in the harem saw that I was doting on me, they made me do what the wind meant, and greeted me every day.
However, just when I was about to open my heart to Ji Zhu, the prince rebelled, and my father collaborated with the enemy and treason and was thrown into prison.
On the way to Ji Zhu to question me, Hui Fei Lin Siqing was having trouble with me. I just wanted to withdraw my hand, but she fell into the lake behind her.
Unsurprisingly, Concubine Hui lost her child and I ended up in the cold palace.
I asked him at that time, "Do you believe me?"
Ji Zhu was speechless.
I sneered, but I really want to inflict a crime, so why bother?
After entering the cold palace, A Yue was the only one around me. I couldn't sleep at night, worrying about my father's affairs every day.
In the current situation, Ji Zhu wants to drive out all the Lin family.
I tried every means to send the unconscious Ah Yue out of the palace, one by one who could escape. But Ji Zhu found out, and I was watched even more closely. I was guarded on three levels inside and outside the cold palace, and I couldn't laugh or cry.
Because I worry day and night, I have no appetite at all, and sometimes I feel nauseated and vomited to the point of darkness.
On this day, Ji Zhu came, and I lay on the bed without any strength. He pulled me up and forced me to eat. I tried to break away but was unable to do so. In the end, I vomited everything out and lay beside the bed coughing in pain.
"Get out!"
"Su Mu, if you continue to be stubborn and go on hunger strike, I will kill General Su immediately."
I raised my head, wishing to tear him apart and eat him.
Ji Zhu sat down again and fed me porridge one spoonful at a time. I swallowed it mechanically, my stomach churning.
I took out the dagger under the pillow and inserted it into Ji Zhu's chest, causing blood to drip from his chest. I let go tremblingly, closed my eyes, and waited for Lingchi in the next second, but he just frowned and continued to feed me.
Opening his eyes, tears fell down, "Why? Why are you doing this to me?"
Seven days have passed, and Ji Zhu has not come to see me again, but there are no guards to monitor me today.
Pushing open the door, the warm winter sun is gentle and gentle, and I vaguely see a figure.
came closer, it was daddy.
My nose felt sore, and I threw myself into my father's arms. I hadn't seen my father in four years.
"Daddy, how are you?"
"Qing'er, daddy is fine, I just made you suffer."
"It's good that daddy is fine."
"Hey , Qing'er, don't blame Ji Zhu, he has his own reasons. This is for your safety. Prince Ji Heng's rebellion is fierce, so dad can only pretend to cooperate with him and write to the emperor to discuss this plan with his majesty. Did you mean that you made Ji Heng think that his father was found guilty of collaborating with the enemy? "
"Yes, the military power was later handed over to your brother, and he and your Majesty annihilated the remaining party of the prince. "
That was the case, but I stabbed Ji Zhu.
"Dad, are your brother and your majesty okay?"
"It's okay. They are discussing the funeral arrangements. Qing'er doesn't have to worry."
Dad hesitated and said, "Son, dad has gone into seclusion since then."
"Why?"
"Now that the world is peaceful, dad and I still like rural life. If you don't want to stay in the palace, dad will take you away.""
" go? "
I thought for a moment, "Okay. "
I don't know what method my father used to make Ji Zhu agree to my leaving. Under the city gate, I looked up and saw a figure standing on the city gate, and finally became a dot until it disappeared.
Four months later, A Yue Married to the subordinate of her father who had admired her since she was a child. This man is sincere, serious and hard-working. Ah Yue also likes him.
Brother took over his father's position as a general and brought back a spoiler, the former Liu beauty - Liu Zhenzhen, brother. Brother said he couldn't resist her and brought him back.
Hey, maybe my sister will become my sister-in-law in the future. How can such a little brother be able to do this?
The spring breeze is blowing, and there is a scent of flowers in the air. My future sister-in-law took me to fly a kite. When I turned around, Ji Zhu walked slowly towards me.
stood still and looked at my stomach, the ends of his eyes red.
"You..."
I smiled, "I thought you didn't want children? "
Ji Zhu was shocked, and then he hugged me tightly, "How could it be? I'll take you back to the palace. "
A drop of warm liquid fell on my neck. At this moment, I smiled extremely happily.
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