My sister was taken away by human traffickers shortly after she was born and suffered all kinds of abuse.
Everyone said that my sister is too miserable. I want me to be more sensible and give in to my sister in everything.
I don’t mean that I smashed everything in the room, held the scissors, and went crazy, and cut off all my favorite dolls.
Mom scolded me hysterically, and fainted from anger.
Dad slapped me a few times in the face, and it hurts hotly.
The brother protected his sister behind him and said that I was selfish and willful, and everyone spoiled me.
They all forgot to say that I will always be their baby's princess, and I can always make unreasonable troubles in them.
I was locked on the balcony to reflect.
They are my closest family in blood, and now they are the most indifferent and ruthless people towards me.
On January night, I was trembling all over.
I am actually very afraid of pain and death.
But at this moment, I scratched my wrist with a knife, but I felt very happy in my heart. Seeing the blood gushing out, I scratched it deeper...
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my sister escaped from hell.
She found her with injuries all over her body and cried and accused everyone of why she lost her at the beginning and why she became so unfortunate.
Especially when I look at me, my eyes are full of hatred.
Looking at her face that looked exactly like me, all of us were so surprised that we couldn't speak.
Mom held her sister in her arms, gently and carefully stroked her face, her hands trembling, and she couldn't cry, apologizing over and over again.
Dad had red eyes and choked and called her name, "Zhizhi, it's all dad's fault."
I only realized that I had a twin sister.
Her name is Song Zhizhi, and my name is Song Nianzhi.
I have been called for twelve years and it turns out that it does not belong to me.
The reason why my parents are so kind to me is just to make up for the guilt of losing my sister.
Since then, my parents have been kind to Song Zhizhi with all their hearts.
and I, completely ignored.
They all said that Song Zhizhi was miserable. After she was snatched away by human traffickers, she was sold to the countryside. She suffered abuse since she was a child, and her body was injured continuously.
Because I saw me who was highly anticipated at the "Youth Piano Competition" and guessed my life experience, I secretly escaped and found it with great difficulty.
Everyone told me to be more sensible. My sister is living too hard and I have to give in to my sister in everything.
I thought about getting along well with her, but when no one was around, she pushed me, full of resentment and reluctance, "Why wasn't you who was taken away at the beginning? It's unfair, everything you enjoy should be mine."
She began to grow long hair, imitate my words and deeds, and pretended to be well-behaved and sensible.
In front of everyone, he took my hand and said with envy: "Sister, your room is so beautiful. Can you give it to me? Sister, your doll is so cute. Can you give it to me?"
Mom heard it and hurriedly answered for me: "Of course, as long as Zhizhi likes it, I will say to my mother, mom will satisfy your wish."
Sister hugged her mother in emotion, and dad nodded with relief, and the brother looked at her sister with sympathy.
The family is having a happy time, and I became an outsider.
I opened my mouth and had to swallow what I wanted to say.
From then on, as long as I like it, I will be snatched away by my sister.
But she was not satisfied with this. She was pathologically and paranoid and wanted to monopolize everything. She not only wanted to replace me, but also wanted everyone to hate me and even wanted me to disappear.
When she was seventeen years old, she secretly talked about a school bully boyfriend and spread rumors at school, which not only made her classmates dislike and exclude me, but also brought a group of gangsters to bully me.
They blocked me in the school and bathroom, used scissors to cut off my favorite long hair, surrounded me in the middle, smoked cigarettes, laughed, and threw the smoke of evil hearts on me.
They used the most /zang/language/ru/me, and pried open my mouth and kept pouring wine into my mouth.
My tears were dry, and my spleen and stomach were so uncomfortable that I kept vomiting.
Song Zhizhi looked at me in a mess, with a win-win smile on his face, and kissed her school domineering boyfriend with affectionate feelings.
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My mother flipped through these things in my schoolbag and saw me lying on the bed, drunk like a ball of mud, smelling of cigarettes and alcohol. She suddenly became furious and took a basin of cold water to pour it on me.
I was awakened, still in a nightmare, and my whole body was trembling with fear.
Mom's face was terrifying, roaring, calling me shameless. At a young age, she didn't learn well, smoke, drink, and fight, but nothing was left behind.
I shook my head desperately and said I didn’t. It was Song Zhizhi who wanted to harm me.
Song Zhizhi immediately squeezed out a few tears and shedded down, crying so distressingly, "Mom, it's all my fault. I couldn't persuade my sister. I should tell you about my early love earlier. I don't want to be angry or sad when I see you."
No one believes what I said, but he believes in what Song Zhizhi said.
My parents wanted to drag me to the hospital for examination, but I refused to go, so my father hit me again.
When they hit me the first time, they might feel guilty, and the second time they hit me, and every time they hit me, they would only get worse.
Finally, I was numbly stuffed into the car, numbly lying on the hospital bed, numbly taking off my child, and undergoing examination numbly.
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0 My parents were forced to take me to the hospital for examination. It spread quickly in the community and in the school. Rumors spread at a rapid speed and spread rumors.
Everyone was talking and judging me behind the scenes, saying that I not only smoke, drink, fight, but also had a mess with many boys in the school. I didn’t know who it was when I was pregnant, so I had to abort it in the end.
A pot of dirty water poured on me, and the bad thing I could say was how bad I was.
Of course, there are also some sympathetic and overwhelming melon-eating crowds who say merciful and add fuel to the fire, making my experience even more tragic.
Since then, when my parents saw me once, they scolded me once, saying that I made them embarrassed and made them look ashamed to see others.
When the rumor is at its worst, I almost got expelled from the school.
At that time, my whole world was dark and my heart began to rot.
I became untalking, couldn't eat, and had insomnia all night. When I closed my eyes, I was full of sneering and ridicule.
I think I'm sick, I think I'm broken, I feel that I'm alive has no meaning at all.
Is it only when I die that my parents can believe me, the rumors will stop, and they will regret it.
But I still don’t have the courage, afraid of walking alone on the underworld road.
I am only seventeen years old, I still have many things to do and many places I haven't gone to, and I am unwilling to give up.
I wandered on the street in a daze, not knowing where to go.
At the corner of the alley, I saw a boy who leaned against the wall with his hands in his pockets. The prosperous bougainvillea stretched out beside the wall cast a large shadow on him.
Zhou Zhe stretched out a hand to me, and a lollipop was placed in the palm of his hand, "Do you eat candy?"
I have been secretly in love with Zhou Zhe.
He has poor Chinese language and will ask me to borrow homework to copy. I have poor math, so he will ask him to teach me how to solve problems.
We used to be on duty together in the classroom, read books together in the library, and stare blankly in the corridor.
He is an indifferent and alienated person. We have actually said very little and the friendship is very shallow. But every time I get along with him, my heart beats faster and I have a kind of hidden happiness.
I look forward to getting close to him, but not like this now.
The last thing I want him to see me in a mess now.
I turned around in a hurry and left, but he stopped me and slowly tore open the candy paper, "Open your mouth."
I was bewitched and opened my mouth slightly slowly. He handed the lollipop to my mouth. I sipped it and han/stopped it. It was very sweet, but tears flowed down unscrupulously.
However, my secret was soon discovered by Song Zhizhi.
She stole my notes and asked someone to read them on the school radio. Those thoughts that I carefully treasured were ridiculed and publicized.
I asked her why she was doing this to me.
But she hid behind her brother, like a frightened kitten.
The acting is really good, my brother believes it too.
That was the first time my brother got angry at me and scolded me for the first time, "Song Nianzhi, you are shameless. You have made so many mistakes and don't repent, and you still have to bully Zhizhi. It seems that everyone spoiled you in the past."
At that moment, I felt extremely disgusted with my name, and all my grievances and anger erupted.
Song Zhizhi stole my doll, my room, my parents, and my brother.
She makes me deeply trapped in rumors and everyone is disgusted with it.
Now even my youthful and beautiful secret love is going to be destroyed.
I lost my mind, ran home, smashed everything in the room, held the scissors, and went crazy, and cut off all my favorite dolls.
Mom scolded me hysterically, and fainted from anger.
Dad slapped me a few times in the face, and it hurts hotly.
The brother protected his sister behind him and said that I was selfish and willful, and everyone spoiled me.
They all forgot to say that I will always be their baby's princess, and I can always make unreasonable troubles in them.
I was locked on the balcony to reflect.
They are my closest family in blood, and now they are the most indifferent and ruthless people towards me.
On January night, I was trembling all over.
I am actually very afraid of pain and death.
But at this moment, I scratched my wrist with a knife, but I felt very happy in my heart. Seeing the blood gushing out, I scratched it deeper.
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I squatted on the ground and shrank into a ball.
The cold wind is also like a knife, slashing through all limbs and bones one by one.
is extremely painful, but you don’t feel the pain.
My consciousness became blurred, but I clearly felt that my life was passing.
Through the glass door, I saw that they were still angry with me and comforting my sister.
But no one looked back at me, even at me.
They forced me to admit my mistake. As long as I apologize to my sister, I will let me in.
But I was obviously not wrong, so why did I admit my mistakes and apologize again and again?
I gritted my teeth tightly, and my eyes lost their light.
Finally I was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment.
Due to self-harm, severe frostbite, nerve damage, deafness in the left ear, and his hands twitched and trembled uncontrollably.
This means I can never play the piano again.
My dream was also shattered.
I closed my eyes, feeling discouraged, like a doll full of holes, no longer willing to live.
Mom stayed by the bed day and night, crying and begging me to wake up soon.
Dad was very guilty and slapped himself in the face one after another.
My brother held my hand tightly, as if he was afraid that I would disappear in the next second.
They seem to really regret it, but I also paid a huge price.
On the third day of my coma, a very gentle voice came from my ear, "Song Nianzhi, open your eyes, don't be afraid, I will help you."
My heart lake ripples, and circles spread out, both warm and painful.
is Zhou Zhe.
I was bewitched again, opened my eyes, the gentle moonlight tilted all over the ground.
I felt as if I had grabbed the last straw, shook my head constantly, and explained incoherently: "I really didn't. I didn't smoke, I didn't drink, I didn't mess with other boys, I didn't, I didn't..."
"I know, I believe in you."
It turns out that the feeling of being believed in is really relieved.
My tears kept flowing.
Zhou Zhe's fingertips were slightly cool, so he patiently helped me dry.
He said that he wanted to take me to a place, and I followed him almost without hesitation.
My parents found out that I was missing and were at a loss.
They are afraid that I will leave them completely, afraid that I will still be unable to think about suicide, and afraid that I will live in guilt forever.
They were crazy and looked for me everywhere.
My brother kept calling me, but I didn't answer.
I just want to escape.
I followed Zhou Zhe, walked deeper and deeper in the dim alley, and finally stayed in front of an abandoned factory.
Then, I saw a few school bullies who bullied me.
Although they have been beaten to the point of bruising and swollen, as long as I think of what happened that day, I will still tremble all over and retreat continuously.
Zhou Zhe held my hand, warm and powerful, "Don't be afraid."
But Zhou Zhe's eyes became fierce.
I have never seen him like this before, his anger is full of strangeness and fear.
A few school bullies saw Zhou Zhe as if they saw a demon. When their legs were weak, they knelt in front of me, apologized for admitting their mistakes, and cried and begged for mercy.
Zhou Zhe covered my eyes and kicked the school bully hard several times.
The school bully's painful moans and Zhou Zhe's cold voice were in his ears.
Zhou Zhe asked me to beat and scold them casually, as long as they don’t kill anyone.
I broke away Zhou Zhe's hand and asked, "Did you fight them all?"
"Yes."
"I don't know. It turns out that college tyrants are so good at fighting."
"There are more things you don't know. Do you want to know me?"
This is his invitation. I should have been very happy, but I saw dodging and uneasiness in his eyes.
Zhou Zhe handed me a mobile phone. In addition to the video of me being bullied by them, there are intimate photos of Song Zhizhi and the school bully.
I didn't expect that Song Zhizhi pretended to be a good girl on the surface, but she was playing so crazy behind her back.
chi is very good, and even I can't stand it anymore.
As long as there is this evidence, it can prove my innocence and make Song Zhizhi never turn over.
I looked at Zhou Zhe with gratitude.
Zhou Zhe looked faint. He rubbed my hair, "If you are bullied, you will be beaten back. If you can't beat me, you will be ninja. You will always wait for a chance to fight back. At a young age, don't always think about dying. It's too cheap for them."
Zhou Zhe really won't comfort people at all.
But my eyes were sore when he rubbed it, "I know, university master."
This time, I will no longer tolerate it, nor will I forgive Song Zhizhi again.
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When I got home, I took my phone directly to my parents to see.
They took the phone in confusion and looked through the album, but their faces became increasingly ugly.
As expected, they didn't see the end.
Mom felt as if she was severely injured and fell on the sofa in a daze, without saying a word.
Song Zhizhi panicked...
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