Then I looked down and saw that the table was not hot yet, and the trash can was full of tissues. If I didn't pay attention, my snot would flow down. I quickly removed a new pack of paper, lay back on the bed, and continued to dazed with the ceiling.

My mother recently met a woman named Lin Yu, and then she changed.

1

"Mom, what are you doing?"

I shouted to my mother who was hurrying out, but the sound of closing the door had already isolated my words with a strong nasal voice, like a TV series that was suddenly silenced.

Then I looked down and saw that the table was dumplings that had not yet been heated, and the trash can was full of tissues. If I didn't pay attention, my snot would flow down. I quickly removed a new pack of paper, lay back on the bed, and continued to dazed with the ceiling.

The dissatisfaction and grievance gradually climbed up to my heart. Under the infection of bacteria, I began to complain about my mother's "ruthlessness" and "indifference", just like the couple's previous serious anger. If there is a slight deviation, they will get angry.

Sometimes, the ceiling is like a wise man, who will start to make people think, for example, now, I suddenly realize that my mother seems to have changed recently.

She began to pay attention to her white hair, pay attention to the style of her clothes, and became picky. When did

start?

I took out a tissue, kneaded it into a cone, and stuffed it into my nose numbly. Although my movements were slow, my thoughts were running rapidly.

Is it because I go to dance square dance? My mother fell in love with square dance since half a month ago. After dinner every day, she ran to the small square without any movement to report on time, feeling that unless the tornado was blowing away the deafening sound, they would not have stopped dancing.

Occasionally when I get off work, I will glance at it a few times when I pass by it. My mother and a group of old men and aunts of about the same age stand together, re-taming their limbs, and making some movements that seem strange to young people.

It is possible that it is just a little earlier. My mother began to learn to play with her mobile phone, especially the development of WeChat Moments, which made this seeker who started learning very enthusiastically. When she met a sister who could chat, she would open WeChat and say "scan".

She also chats with her sisters before going to bed every day, occasionally with voice and often with videos, but most of the content is inseparable from the family. It is either difficult for grandchildren to carry, or with food, oil and salt, and then makes that kind of happy laugh, which is even more exciting than young people.

, etc., maybe earlier, was it when my mother went to work as a part-time job, it seemed that since then, my mother has become much more restless.

Mother said she met a new sister named Lin Yu, who is a wise and fashionable girl, and she also likes to study food. Thinking of this, it seems that Lin Yu is also the leader in playing WeChat and square dance.

Aware of this, I seemed to be curious about this person named Lin Yu, and I was going to come back to ask my mother in the evening.

I stared at the direction of the door and kept paying attention to the movement outside the door. When I finished half of the wrap of paper, my mother's slightly heavy steps rang out. I quickly covered myself with a blanket and pretended that I seemed to be indifferent.

"Are you better? Have you taken the medicine?" my mother asked me while taking off her shoes.

My eyes were exposed from the quilt, like an owl staring in secret, "I can't die, I didn't take medicine."

"I think you're confused, what are you talking nonsense... I don't know how to clean up the clothes on this chair."

My mother started to clean up when she disagrees. I obviously felt that it was very neat, but my mother always felt that the trash can was full.

"Mom, what did you do tonight?"

Mother's movements were stunned, her expression was a little unnatural, and she just muttered, "What do you care about me?"

's stiff reaction and hesitantly answered, which made my detective cells ready to move. I sneered in my heart, as if I had seen through her whole thoughts.

"Are you going out for dinner with your little sisters again?"

"Not there... Isn't it just Lin Yu and the others said that there is a home sheep scorpion is delicious, and they have to call me, tell me..."

Mother smiled slightly flatteringly, and I sucked my nose and teased, "When I went out to play, I said, "You are more gathering than me." The meal is still frequent..."

"I'll have a meal now. You haven't seen anyone on your day when you go out. Okay, don't lie down, hurry up and take the medicine. Look at your half-dead look, your health is so bad... I said to exercise more, exercise more... Let's start, I'll change this pillowcase..."

I turned over and silently covered myself with a quilt, as if I was air.

Later, when I was sleeping, I suddenly remembered that I hadn't asked Lin Yu about it, but my eyelids had closed.

2

That night, I had a dream, but in fact I haven't dreamed for a long time.

There is nothing special about the dream, just that my mother and I were walking on the street, which was very lively, full of food and goods, and there were laughter and laughter. My mother was also very happy. We walked hand in hand, but suddenly the people around us disappeared. I looked around in confusion and wanted to turn around and ask my mother, but she was gone.

The sudden fear in my heart woke me up from this dream. I looked at my sleeping mother beside me and touched my hot forehead. It must be because my whole brain was having a fever, so I started to dream.

But it is undeniable that my mother is the person I care about the most and feel most distressed in the world.

I think my mother’s life has not been particularly happy until now. At least in my opinion, apart from our three children, she may have lived in nothing but merits.

The grandmother who came to be old and loved her mother, which may have made her life worry-free in the first 19 years. In that small mountain village where boys prefer girls and thinks that a woman without talent is virtue, the grandmother also sent her mother to study. Many elders have "persuaded" her, but her mother still went to junior high school before returning home.

Later I met my father, and my mother ended her worry-free life when she was 19 years old.

My father and mother met on blind dates. At that time, there was very few sayings about free love. Most of them were introduced by matchmakers, not to mention that my grandmother also added a condition - she wanted a "son-in-law in the house".

Of course, this requirement is very rare. Until now, there may be various reasons. At that time, there was only one type, that is, the family was poor and there were many children.

It was my father who came from such a family.

I don’t know how the two families met, discussed and finalized it at that time. My father became my grandmother’s “son-in-law”.

Actually, when I was younger, I didn’t feel any big difference. Except for my elder brother’s surname, my sister and I also followed my father’s surname. The mother is also gentle and virtuous, and she is almost suitable for her size and obeys her father's arrangements.

They had a big brother in the first year after marriage and a second sister in the second year. After seven years, I was born. To outsiders, they were all very harmonious and loving families.

I used to think so too. My father and mother decided to go out to work in the third year after marriage, joined the first step of "entering" the metropolis, and gradually gained a firm foothold in the city. After I was born, I started a small business and brought young people from the same village to make money.

Thinking of this, I seem to have had a worry-free time. Compared to my elder brother and second sister who are still staying in my hometown, I have undoubtedly become the object of their jealousy and anger. They have indeed said this, but we are still very harmonious now, and we will not say this anymore.

My worry-free life with my parents ended at the age of eleven. For various reasons, I also had to go back to my hometown to study.At that time, my brother and sister had already left, my elder brother had already gone out to work, and my second sister had already entered high school and would only come back during the Chinese New Year.

It seems that since then, the relationship between father and mother began to fall apart, just like the earth wall of the old house in the countryside, peeling off bit by bit with time until it is devastated.

3

The sky outside the window was already dawn, and the dizziness caused by the cold disappeared a little. My mother had already gotten up to cook, and the fragrance of scallion oil that filled the whole house successfully tempted me and left the warm bed.

"You still eat scallion oil noodles . The cold is so serious. I cooked some porridge, so you should eat porridge." My mother took away the noodles in front of me, put another bowl of porridge in front of me, signaling me to eat it quickly and then go to work.

"I have taken leave these two days and don't have to go to work."

"Then when you are alone at home, just drag the floor." The mother packed up the dishes and chopsticks that her two nephews had eaten and went into the kitchen casually.

"What is a person..." I was about to ask, but the little nephew next to me was already shouting.

"Grandma, are you going out again? Are you with Grandma Lin Yu?"

Grandma Lin Yu? When I heard this name, I instantly reminded me of the question I was thinking about yesterday, and my eyes turned to my mother "swish".

"What are you going to do today?" I asked righteously.

The mother's vague voice came from the kitchen: "We just made an appointment to go shopping, not far away, on the snack street behind..."

"You really go out every day..."

"Oh, just take a walk, Sister Lin Yu said there was a delicious soup bakery there, so we will all go and try it. If it is delicious, I will bring some back to you in the evening."

Speaking of this, I didn't say anything, but the resentment in my heart was even more serious, and I felt that Sister Lin Yu was very fancy.

After lunch, my mother went out with a smile and looked all over the door. I narrowed my eyes and made a decision. The snack street behind

seems to have existed for a long time, but it already existed when I came here.

At the beginning, many small vendors were pushing mobile fireworks for sale, and then they became small shops, putting the fireworks in the window and watching the world.

"Boss, give me a pumpkin soup." I wore a mask and sniffed my nose, and my slightly magnetic voice made the boss smile happily.

"Okay, pack it."

"Well, pack it."

While waiting, I glanced at the movements on the street from time to time. There were not many people at this point, but I just didn't know where my mother and the others were going.

"Hey, girl, the pumpkin soup is ready." The bare-headed boss handed me the packed pumpkin soup, "Listen to your throat, you have a cold, drink this."

I nodded and was about to turn and leave when I heard the bald boss nodding to my right and said, "Hey, sister Lin Yu, you're the same, two pumpkin soup?"

"No today, I'll give me two more portions, a total of four."

A female voice sounded slightly in her voice. I sucked the pumpkin soup in my mouth and glanced at the people around me quickly. The boss's "Mistress Lin Yu" was wearing a red coat, her hair was tied high, and she was carrying a black leather shoulder bag, with willow-leaf eyebrows and red lips, which was very fashionable.

The bald boss smiled silly: "What? Have you met a new sister again?"

"That's right, I have a good relationship with people." Lin Yu exuded a sense of confidence, "Hurry up, my sister should be anxious."

"I'm not pretending... Oh, little girl, do you want anything else?"

I was just focusing on listening to the conversation between the two, secretly looking at the "Mistress Lin Yu" beside me. The bald boss's words turned the two of them into my eyes.

I subconsciously looked at Lin Yu, and even stopped the pumpkin soup in my mouth.

"I, I just want to pack a copy..." After the brainstorm, it was just the only reason to be decent.

The bald boss responded happily and asked me to wait for a while. Instead, Lin Yu started to look at me.

"Hey, I think you look familiar, um...you are Yulin's daughter." Lin Yu suddenly clapped his hands and shouted in surprise, "Yes, it's you. Your mother showed me the photos before, and your eyes and nose are exactly the same."

"Ah, is that right?" Faced with the identification, I smiled awkwardly, and could only admit, "It should be me, auntie."

"Oh, it's such a coincidence. Your mother is still shopping with us there. Do you want to be with me?" Lin Yu enthusiastically invited me to join them.

What she didn't know was that it was not a coincidence at all, but an encounter that I fell into the trap, but even so, I was unwilling to join them.

"No, no, aunt, you have fun, I won't join in the fun."

Lin Yu smiled heartily: "Okay, that's it, Lao Li, her pumpkin soup is mine, I'll transfer the money to you together."

"Auntie, no need..." I hurriedly refused, but the other party didn't give him a chance at all.

Lin Yu waved his hand freely, "Hey, a few dollars, don't be polite with me, your mother and I have the best fit, her daughter is my daughter."

I nodded stiffly, obviously not able to deal with such occasions, so I can only thank her: "Thank you aunt."

"Small things, small things, come to my aunt's house to play next time." After that, Lin Yu left on her slim leather shoes, leaving only the squeaking sycamore leaves.

On the evening, my mother asked me when she got home, how did I go to the snack street today.

"I just want to go, why? I can't go yet." I held my breath in my heart, always feeling that my mother favored the one named Lin Yu in everything.

My mother stared at me, as if guessing my thoughts: "I usually don't want to go, but today I'm feeling a little bit more for the cup of pumpkin soup. It's really strange."

"What did Lin Yu tell you?"

"Auntie doesn't shout, it's rude." My mother packed up her clothes and threw a few of my pieces at me, "I'm so lazy to fold my clothes."

I curled my lips, thinking that my mother's temper is getting bigger and bigger, and I don't know if it's time for menopause, and I'll explode at a moment.

"By the way, Sister Lin Yu called you to go to her house for dinner, and said she wanted to introduce you to a blind date. Look, when there is time, I..." My mother changed her mind and started talking about something else.

"I won't go, don't introduce me, it's a headache, I'm going to sleep."

"Hey, you kid are too old..."

I quickly covered myself with the quilt and stopped listening to my mother's nagging, but I became bored with Lin Yu for no reason.

4

Three days later, my cold got better and my depressed mood improved. My mother and Lin Yu's affairs were gradually occupied by other things.

Until this day, when my mother was fighting for Lin Yu, I finally vented my inner dissatisfaction.

Because of the flexible and free working hours, I came back early that day. When I got home, my mother was not here, so I didn’t care much about it. After all, she was at home alone, so it was common for her to go out for a walk.

But just a few minutes after I sat down and rested, my neighbor next door hurriedly knocked on my door.

"Little girl, hurry up and go and have a look. Your mother is fighting with others!"

"Ah? What did you say? Where?"

"Just there is in the small garden, go and have a look."

I put on my coat and went out without changing the slippers. When I got there, I happened to see my mother and Lin Yu were fighting with a curly aunt.

"How could you be like shrews? You slapped someone in the face when you come up." My mother shouted.

"I want to call the police to arrest you, crazy woman, I'm really sick." Lin Yu cursed with her face covering her face.

Curly-haired aunt sneered: "Haha, you're so handsome. You'll call the police. Just as I told the police, how did you seduce me old man."

As soon as these words came out, everyone's eyes suddenly gathered on Lin Yu.

Lin Yu blushed: "What are you talking about? I seduced you old man, what evidence do you have?"

"So shameless. If you didn't have a single affair, why did he transfer money to you on your phone? You said, you shameless, you wear colorful clothes every day, just want to hook up with the old man? No wonder your husband and son don't want you, you deserve it..."

Lin Yu was stunned when he heard this, and my mother was very excited.

"What do you know, you are biting people in this mad dog..."

Seeing that the situation was about to be serious, I had to stop my mother: "Mom, what are you doing?"

My mother obviously beat me when she saw me, but I seemed to care more about Lin Yu's reaction. Seeing her obvious embarrassment, I became proud as if I was a villain.

"Why are you here?" My mother obviously didn't want me to participate, so she stopped talking and pulled me aside.

Curly-haired aunt seemed to be more excited and said with a sneer: "It's just right, let you young people see, don't imitate this woman, you still don't know how to check it out at this age."

Somehow, after Lin Yu saw me, his arrogance shrank by more than half, and hesitated for a long time without saying anything.

"You have nothing to say, shameless old woman." My mother was still trying to come forward to argue, but the curly-haired aunt rushed out with a quick glance, "What? You are not a good person, come with such a woman, I think you are also a hook-up..."

"What did you say..." I was about to speak for my mother, but Lin Yu, who had been silent next to me, suddenly burst out.

"Shut up your stinky mouth." Lin Yu rushed up and pulled the curly aunt's hair, and the battle was about to break out. My mother also went up to help, and I could only protect my mother, but I couldn't stop the explosive power of the Chinese women.

In the end, it was the neighborhood committee that came over and stopped this unexplained dispute.

After I stopped, I took my mother home, ignoring Lin Yu who wanted to speak but stopped, and her lonely figure.

"Mom, what's going on?" I asked my mother when I closed the door.

My mother's hair was still a little messy, and she looked at me with shame along her hair.

"It's just that woman talking nonsense. Sister Lin Yu just danced two dances with the old man. When she was caught, she just talked nonsense."

I sighed, and I still had resentment towards Lin Yu: "Forget it this time, don't interact with her in the future."

"This is not Lin Yu's business, why do you want this?" my mother whispered in a low voice.

"Look at you, since you met her, you have become less and less home. Now you still have a fight. I don't know what you will do next time. Anyway, don't interact with her again."

Mother suddenly got angry: "What do you know? Don't talk nonsense if you don't understand."

I had no choice in the face of my mother's preference: "I really gave you an ecstasy medicine. I won't care about something next time. It's really enough."

Mother seemed to defend something, but she held it in a hurry, leaving only a sigh in the end.

"You Aunt Lin Yu is a miserable person."

Since that day, my relationship with my mother has been inexplicably unexplained. She still does her own way, and I still treat you coldly, and even feels like I feel that I can't be strong.

But suddenly one day, Lin Yu appeared downstairs in my house. I wanted to pretend that I didn't see you going upstairs, but she spoke.

"Don't be angry with your mother. Your mother has been unhappy lately, and I feel uncomfortable when I look at it."

I contemptuously said in my heart: It's not because of you.

Lin Yu seemed to know what I thought in my heart: "It's all because of me, but I'm leaving soon, I just want to say something to you. "

I stopped going upstairs and turned to look at her.

"Your mother is also a hard-working life. If you have time, let her take a break and let her do what she likes. "

Although Lin Yu's words were reasonable, I was still covered by prejudice, thinking that she was a hypocritical person.

For some reason, after hearing Lin Yu's words that day, a strange feeling gradually rose in my heart, just like some sign, like the wind before the storm was about to come, which made me feel restless.

Mother quickly helped me answer the upset emotions.

Just four days after Lin Yu was looking for me, my mother did not go out again after dinner, but stayed at home to pack up the miscellaneous things like a long time ago.

"Mom, aren't you going out today? "

" Yes. "My mother was a little depressed and didn't say much.

has no origin, so I said, "Why don't we go out for a walk? "

5

Mother's wrinkles seemed to have a little more.

When I was walking beside her, I suddenly realized this problem.

Looking at her indifferent appearance, my intuition told me that it was related to Lin Yu.

"Uh, where is Aunt Lin Yu? "I spoke awkwardly.

Mother paused, looked ahead for a long time before saying to me, "Sister Lin Yu, she left and went back to her hometown. "

"Oh, that's the case, will she come back? "

" should not be possible. "My mother shook her head and said something I will never forget for life.

"She got cancer and was about to die. "

Square dance aunt with heavy makeup: I worked hard for half my life, but I only lived freely after I got cancer

The cold wind in autumn and winter suddenly blew the sycamore leaves on the roadside. The yellow leaves were flying in the air for a moment, and then the curtain came to an end.

I suddenly felt ashamed of myself, and the resentment that had been accumulating in my heart disappeared instantly, as if it had never existed.

My silence made my mother open the conversation. She continued: "When I first met her, her body was actually not good. Her face was not bloody at all, and she was getting thinner and thinner, but she didn't say anything. It was not until one time when she coughed up blood that she told me that she had only half a year. ”

Only in the statement my mother told me about Lin Yu’s life.

Lin Yu is from Jiangsu. She has been in the water business since she was a child. She lives a wealthy life. She just doesn’t like to study, so she didn’t continue when she was in junior high school. But later, the water business was not well managed, so she stopped doing it. Finally, she opened a grocery store and the whole family lived a tight life.

Nineteen-year-old Lin Yu met her later husband. The two got married and had a son, and she was still happy and happy. But fate never came to an end. A car accident took away the lives of her husband and son. That year, Lin Yu also wanted to die.

But her elderly parents became a gate for her to the underworld, and Lin Yu survived for them.

Just a year before she met her mother, Lin Yu's parents passed away, but she seemed to let go of her grief and prepared to spend the rest of her life well.

But a physical examination made her fall into the claws of fate again. She had lung cancer, and it was in the late stage.

After being stunned, Lin Yu sat in the corridor of the hospital and laughed. She said that her soul remained in the hospital at that moment.

Finally, she decided to live a freely life.

Lin Yu tried things that she never dared to try before, dyeing her hair, doing nails, and putting on makeup, and became the ostentatious look in everyone's eyes later. She was keen to discover delicious food and enjoy the last year of her life.

And lonely, she also began to make friends, and then she had a story with her mother.

"Last time she went to the hospital, the doctor said she had only more than two months. She chose to return to her hometown and even arranged her funeral. It was in the cemetery of her husband and her children."

I gradually frowned and kept thinking about the first meeting between Lin Yu and I. The cup of pumpkin soup that had carried my kindness made me feel like I was in my throat.

"Sister Lin Yu said that she had lived her whole life honestly, and she didn't do anything she wanted to do, but now she was about to die. She felt very sad. I couldn't stand it when I heard this, so I could accompany her wherever she wanted to go... Last time, it was because the woman's husband had received the kindness of Sister Lin Yu and returned the money she had borrowed secretly to her, but was misunderstood by his wife and was in vain."

At this point, I became the sinner in my heart and was unforgivable.

6

Lin Yu became my obsession. Even though my mother and I were as reconciled as before, I still felt something was wrong. The short clip of

and her staying with me still remembers it fresh, just like my mother's wrinkles that night, which made me feel resentful.

I dreamed again. This time I was a bystander, and the subjects of my observation were my mother and Lin Yu.

They danced together in the small garden, ate in the romantic and beautiful restaurant, and finally walked together on the avenue covered with sycamore leaves.

woke up from my dream. Before dawn, my thoughts began to float away again with my dream state.

I began to think about what my mother’s life was like?

also got married at the age of 19 and raised three children. Fortunately, he is in good health and filial to his children. He has two grandchildren and nephew, which is also considered a family of children and grandchildren.

But as Lin Yu said that day, my mother was also a hard worker.

My father treated her badly, which was a problem I realized only after I went to high school.

The father was arrogant and inferior. He despised his mother for her poor education and resented himself as a son-in-law, so he often blamed his mother for causing him to suffer for the rest of his life. After my second sister went to high school, my father was not doing his job properly and wanted to pursue his dreams, but he asked his mother for two hundred yuan. It was worth giving it to him, and not giving it to him would be another insult.

Several quarrels witnessed with my own eyes completely collapsed my father's grand image, and I began to hate why he treated his mother like this.

I also thought that if I could, I could exchange myself for another life for my mother, which was better than meeting my father. Of course, this is just a fool.

Later I asked my mother why she didn’t separate. My mother only said that the three of us siblings were too young and she couldn’t give up on us.

This lasts for most of my life. My elder brother and second sister have already started a family, and I have graduated from college.

But my mother was still working hard. The eldest brother started a planting business, and the mother followed him to help. The second sister gave birth, and the mother was also busy. Later, the eldest brother and sister-in-law had twins, and the mother never put down the bottle in her hand again.

And I also seem to be enjoying my mother's care with peace of mind. My mother is capable, so we are too lazy to do it.

I seem to understand where the boredom in my heart comes from, and it comes from my shackles for my mother. I always feel that she should live around us and support our family.

This perception makes me very sad, for my own thoughts and for my mother's life.

Maybe while accompanying Lin Yu, my mother seemed to see her own life trajectory, so she began to want to change.

7

One night, my mother and Lin Yu started a video call. Lin Yu in the

video no longer looks bright and bright. She put on her hat, her face turned pale, no longer had big red lips, and returned to her original appearance in life.

"How are you doing recently?" asked the mother.

Lin Yu smiled and said, "It's the same, I found a sanatorium. It's quite comfortable, but it hurts a little during treatment."

Mother sighed, my nose felt sour and my vision blurred.

"Hey, why are you sad? I'm just one step ahead of you. I'll be friends with you next time I meet you. "

Mother also smiled at Lin Yu in the video. Only I saw her hand trembling on her legs.

I squatted down and held that hand, and my mother was getting better.

"Lin Yu, my daughter and I bought some of the things you like here and send it to you tomorrow. "

"Oh, why are you paying for this money? I can't even eat..."

"Just keep it, it's nothing valuable. "

Lin Yu responded helplessly. After a while, a nurse came over and said that it was time for her to rest, so we hung up the phone.

never passed again.

A few days later, my mother received a return gift from Lin Yu, which was an overly beautiful skirt. I have seen it wearing Lin Yu, but I didn't expect it to be She gave it to her mother.

Mother caressed it gently, like a precious treasure.

Lin Yu is like a mirror of her mother's life. She tells the magnificence and struggle of life, and also shows another way of it.

"Mom, let's go to desserts on weekends, the one you have always wanted to try. "

" Yes. ” (original title: " Mother and Lin Yu ")

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