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“Xiaopeng’s mother is dead.”
“Ah? When? How did it happen?”
” People died in the room and were discovered for three or four days, and they died of evil.”
”What’s the reason for leaving?”
”Who knows? Without such a chattering person, I really feel uncomfortable. I always dreamed that she was living well for two days. "
" Fortunately, it was cool. Who found it first? She is really the most optimistic person I have ever met! "
" Guixiang discovered it and said that she hadn't seen her mother in the past two days, so she called Xiaopeng to ask if she had gone to his place? She said she didn't see her, but when she came back, she was like this. "
" I really can't believe it. She was chatting with her when she came home on National Day. It's only been more than a month. You and my dad want it. Pay attention to her health. "
" Who believes that she left unexpectedly? She is more energetic than a ghost. She is wearing and the things in the house are neatly tidy. She probably can't think about it. She is just showing off her strong words, knowing nothing or daring nothing. Xiaopeng is also useless. "
" It may be because she can see too clearly that she has no worries. At this age, she doesn't want to drag Xiaopeng down. Anyway, Xiaopeng is also married, although she is a son-in-law at home."
"It's not easy to be a son-in-law at the age of time. Xiaopeng was originally an unspoken person. This time he got married, and he forgot his mother after marrying his wife. His mother came to visit him and complained, and she cried a few times. Such a person was pitiful."
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This is a phone chat between Li Jing and her mother. After talking about these, the topic was quickly changed. After all, what happened to others was just a story, and it was over. After hanging up the phone, Li Jing still couldn't help but fall into deep thought. People are all faces, and people's hearts are always the most difficult to guess, like a bottomless abyss. Many times, she lost herself and lived in a confused way and beat her chest and stamped her feet.
Just like Li Jing said: Xiaopeng’s mother is the most optimistic person she has ever met. Is this really the case? It’s just that the appearance you see is like this. Can anyone understand a person? Optimism is sometimes a helpless move, a good way to escape when facing injustice and bumpy fate. Optimism does not mean strength and resilience, but also hides all pain and helplessness, ignore it, accumulates a certain volcanic eruption, just like Xiaopeng's mother's departure this time, unexpected but realistic.
(One) Nature!
Xiaopeng's mother is Chen Yufang. She was born in the early 1960s in a poor family in a poor era. Yufang is the third child and the only girl in the family, and there are three younger brothers below. The shortness carried in the genes, and the environment where you can't eat enough, the six children are not tall. Yufang is only about 1.53 or 4 meters tall, and it doesn't matter to girls, but the brothers will still suffer a little when asking for wives. It's lucky to survive.
The Chen family is really poor. The old couple are honest and honest. Their thin body is especially bullied in an era when it requires strength. They obey with their eyebrows and eyes. As the only girl in the family, Chen Yufang did not receive special pampering. Fortunately, she went to school for a few years and was not illiterate.
The dull and depressed family breeds various children, the dull and honesty in their appearance, or the bluffing and whispering, and the movement and stillness all show the unique inferiority of that era. Chen Yufang has been a chatterbox since childhood, and is also a child who loves to show off. She is swaying and lacks security. So she urgently wants to gain recognition and attention from the outside world. The harder she tries to grasp, the more she loses like quicksand and has nowhere to rest in her heart in the valley.
Chen Yufang's chatter is more like a kind of bluff and blind confidence. She lives in her own view of right and wrong, so she always tilts her head and argues with others stubbornly to prove her correctness. She has been beaten a lot for this and has no memory.
Fate always likes to tease people. Chen Yufang, who is eighteen years old, married a man from a new man from a different village in the same brigade, under the help of a matchmaker.The upstart is a very silent and pragmatic person. He doesn’t talk much or do more work. The couple has almost no common language to talk about, and they still get married and have children. One is talkative, stubborn, and the other is silent. The way to solve the problem is the upstart’s fist, which is very useful. In the first few years of marriage, Yufang was fisted a lot and became accustomed to it. After his son Xiaopeng went to elementary school, the tension between the couple eased a little. It’s just that the father’s silence and mother’s nagging have formed the dependent personality of Xiaopeng’s mother-in-law, and she likes to stick to her mother and talk about everything.
It is really helpless to have a flexible and fallactic mother. Just the so-called habits are good. Xiaopeng is used to being teased by people from the same village to "mama's baby", so he is a mother who is too "smart" and his son is often unpromising.
The less knowledge or experience a person is, the more addicted to the glory and glory he once thought was. Chen Yufang was too proud of her short study time, without regrets, only a boast like Xianglin Sao.
"I had very good grades in the years I went to school. Every teacher liked me very much. If my family was not poor, I would have been able to read more books. I have liked studying since I was a child." This is what Li Jing often heard Chen Yufang say when she was a child. She liked to visit her with her rice bowl, and chewing slowly for a bowl of rice longer than someone else's meal.
"Then you have such good grades, and you have to find a way to continue studying even if you fight to the death. I can't do it. I'm so stupid. I have never liked to go to school." Li Jing's mother said in a chat.
"After I didn't go to school, our Chinese teacher, I still remember being named Far J. Fen Jisheng. I went to my house a few times. My father was not willing to let go. My family was too poor. The three younger brothers below also wanted to go to school, and they forced me down from school. Until now, I resented my father." The spits flying everywhere, and the courageous spirit that recalled that made people respectful.
"Then you go underground to settle the score with your father, which will delay a college student in vain."
"If I continue to study, it will be fine if I take the college entrance examination. I really lay in bed for several days after I came back from school, and I didn't eat or drink."
"Then I got out of bed and had to eat and drink."
"Oh... I have to live."
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"I can't calculate these acres of fields and how many kilograms of rice are? How do you learn math in school?" Li Yufang saw someone chatting at the intersection, and couldn't help but lean over and interrupt.
"I haven't been to school." The interrupted said angrily.
"You can calculate it if you haven't been to school. This is common sense. Isn't that all?"
"Do you know what we are talking about? Listen to half of the time, just talk nonsense, go home to find the upstart."
"I love you wherever you are, what's your home?"
caused a group of people to roll their eyes and spread.
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is smarter. In this small village, no one can compare to Chen Yufang. He will never give up if he can't win. He especially likes gossip, pointing fingers at other people's housework, and wandering loudspeakers.
"Last night, Xiaomei and Chunsheng fought. The couple started to do it hard, and the things at home were thrown into pieces. Xiaomei's face was swollen, her hair was pulled off a large piece, Chunsheng's hand was cut, and the blood was sucked." Early in the morning, Chen Yufang came to Li Jing's house with her breakfast bowl and excited.
"Ai? I didn't hear the sound last night. Why did you fight? How do you know?"
"I happened to be there last night. Isn't it just for Xiaomei's younger brother. Xiaomei gave her brother 10,000 yuan and didn't tell Chunsheng. Chunsheng quarreled nervously after he knew it."
"Isn't anyone going to fight?"
"Oh my god, I can't hold on. I've been beaten a few times."
Then, Chen Yufang chatted with her feet and heels for more than an hour, and the breakfast bowl after eating was probably clumping and sticking.
A few days later, Li Jing's mother chatted with Xiaomei and talked about the fight, which made Xiaomei's teeth itchy.
"Isn't it all Yufang said that night? It was nothing, but it was over, and she kept fanning the flames. What's more than once, and the person who can't help is a bottomless pit, and she doesn't care about other people's faces at all. Her mouth, hey, there's nothing I can do, I don't care about my own family affairs, and the other people's housework is jumping and jumping in with energy."
"How did she know if your brother comes to borrow money? Time, you have to avoid her in everything you do. "
" Isn't she just a person who is crazy? She goes anywhere, and she runs seventeen or eighteen times a day, and her own affairs are messy. For such a woman, the upstart should beat her a few more times."
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Speaking of Chen Yufang's family after marriage, in addition to being beaten a few years earlier, she is still very proud in recent years. The upstart makes money outside like an old ox and is reluctant to eat and drink. When she went home during her break, Chen Yufang would give her some food and didn't have the heart to prepare sumptuous food at home. There are too many "entertainments" worth exploring in this small village. In addition to the New Year and the Festival, she has become accustomed to walking around with her rice bowls for three meals a day. The upstart had no complaints, after all, she was such a person, staying at home without a single one.
Son Xiaopeng has been naughty since he was a child, greedy and stuttering. After going to junior high school, he went home and went to the construction site to move bricks with his father. The two of them made money, so Chen Yufang was even more free and uncontrollable.
"Our refrigerator is still full. Last year's bacon, salted chicken, , and they don't eat it."
"If you don't cook, they are farts. The job of the upstart is so heavy, and you can't bear to eat it outside. You lazy woman don't cook it."
"You're fartful, I don't cook it. When I come back, I don't cook it. I don't cook it. I'm not cooked it. When I come back, I don't cook it. I'm not cooked it. I'm not cooked it. When I come back, I don't cook it. I'm too lazy to cook it. I buy some whatever I want on the street when I come back. Braised dishes are not expensive anyway. "
" They buy braised vegetables at the construction site for a tooth sacrifice, and when they come back, they ask them to buy braised vegetables? You are really, but it’s delicious at home."
"I don’t eat it, but I cook at home."
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" Her Xiaopeng is very selfish, and this kid is willing to eat it. He often buys braised vegetables and snacks on the construction site. No one can eat it. Even he can’t eat it. He can’t do anything about it." Li Jing’s father sighed.
"Maybe it's enough to marry a wife, someone will take care of it."
"Impossible."
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(II) Doom!
Days passed like water, Xiaopeng’s marriage and having children had long been put on the agenda, and the upstarts were anxious, and Chen Yufang always said, “What’s the use of being anxious? The fate has not come yet.”
"Second Aunt, I saw that there was no suitable girl to introduce me to Xiaopeng. It would be fine for girls from other places. Oh, hey, I'm so anxious. The little devil is not young anymore. I'm so stupid all day long."
"Young man still need to talk more. Let me see if there is a suitable one for Xiaopeng to pay attention to."
"Thank you, my second aunt, I'll give you a big red envelope in the future."
Newcomer asked you to meet people. It's really urgent. With his unremitting efforts, he finally helped Xiaopeng with a marriage. The girl's name is Qianfen, who comes from a remote area, five or six years younger than Xiaopeng, and is willing to talk to Xiaopeng.
In fact, the blind date steps are also fast. If you are interested in each other and once the bride price is settled, you will arrange the wedding. As for the relationship, you will have a slow talk after getting married.
Xiaopeng and Qianfen got married less than five months after they met. Chen Yufang became her mother-in-law all of a sudden. Qianfen has a good temper and is diligent. She got pregnant shortly after the wedding. Life is really prosperous!
Extreme happiness leads to sorrow, or is it jealous of God? When the family was still immersed in the joy of pregnancy, the upstart felt stomach discomfort and was as thin as a bamboo pole. He hurried back from the construction site to the hospital for examination. He didn't even have time to wait for the report and returned to the construction site to continue moving bricks. The result was gastric cancer . He was directly taken from the construction site to the hospital for treatment. The operation was very successful. Fortunately, it was not a serious problem. It was the upstart's biggest wish to see his grandson born.
"It's okay for gastric cancer. As long as you take good care of it, living for twenty or thirty years will not be a problem. My uncle has been having surgery for gastric cancer for more than twenty years. He either lives well or avoids food or is not tired."
"I haven't thought about it for twenty or thirty years. I'll be content to hear my grandson or granddaughter calling me grandpa."
This time, Chen Yufang still did her best to take care of the upstart. After all, it was a big deal and his wife was served very well.
Seeing Qianfen's birth approaching, the tragedy couldn't help but hold back the beauty of this family. Because of his temporary ignorance, the upstart took the wrong medicine and died before he was sent to the hospital. The accident caught the whole family off guard and had no choice but to cry or blame. More than a month after the funeral, it attracted the little grandson, Xiaohuzi.
People cannot be resurrected by death, and living people must live a good life now. Xiaopeng continued to move bricks on the construction site, and it was also a good time for the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law to take care of the children at home, although Qianfen complained more and more about Xiaopeng.
"Hey, Xiaopeng is such a dull man. He doesn't say a word. It's really tiring to live with such a person. His son doesn't bother or hug him."
"Honest people are like this. Isn't Li Jing's father the same? Just make money, think less, your mother-in-law is a little verbose, it's not bad for you."
"What's so good? Now that Hu Zi is older, she's worried less. She goes to the mahjong room to play cards whenever she has time. Xiaopeng rarely comes back and plays cards. I really can't stand it. ”
” Play cards occasionally for fun. ”
” Then you have to have time to spend with your wife and children. I see Xiaopeng and his mother are quite good at chatting, but when they see me, they become mute. ”
” He has come back few times and is not used to it. I am still a little afraid of Li Jing’s father after several years of marriage. ”
persuade people to reconcile whether to divorce. Marriage, people who have experienced it all have their own words to persuade others, but the people who are in the meantime are at work with various emotions.
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Children who can walk like to run around, so adults must follow their butts. A carelessness will lead to a tragedy. One day when Xiaohuzi was three years old, he was still swaying in front of him the previous second, but disappeared in the next second. He was so scared that his mother-in-law and daughter-in-law searched back and forth like jumping his feet. The sounds of "Huzi, Xiaohuzi..." sounded heartbreaking and became a sad call.
"It's amazing, here, come here, the child is falling into the pond."
The little tiger has floated on the water, crying, shouting, and cursing. Is it still too late to ask people to send them to the hospital? There was no sound. People say that it is because my grandfather and upstart who can't bear to leave his grandson, so he took him away. Another way to fulfill it? Nonsense, just an accident that was caught off guard.
"There are so many ponds at the door, and the two adults can't bear to watch a little ghost at home. Fortunately, Qianfen is also at home. If only Yufang was the only one, she would be scolded to death."
"So Yufang has always dared to shirk responsibility."
"The couple is still young, and they have another one, so they forgot that they have a little relationship with this little ghost."
talked a lot.
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The saddest one is definitely Qianfen. Huzi is her hand in hand and is also her only concern in this family. The day she lost Hu Zi, she sat at the door and chatted. Afterwards, she was always upset about her carelessness and was very dazed and swaying. In fact, the most needed care and comfort at this time, but Xiaopeng couldn't give it. Apart from being silent or looking for a mother, there was no more action. People's hearts, whether hard or soft, are always related to the people around them.
Half a year later, Qianfen said that she could not stay in this home. She saw Hu Zi with her eyes open and closed. She cried and shouted and laughed, as if she was in front of her but was out of reach. As a mother-in-law, Chen Yufang even cleared the conflict between her son and daughter-in-law, and had no intention of empathizing with the pain of losing her son as a woman. Time has not healed the pain, only endless despair remains.
"Yufang, please let Xiaopeng spend more time with Qianfen, and you can comfort her, don't show your face, or go to play cards."
"I'm not heartbroken by my grandson? She always ignores me, so I deserve her cold face? I'm sad too."
" You are not aware of the general idea. You are really good at your family. Qianfen has cried here several times. The green mountains left are not afraid of burning firewood. The children can have another child, but it will be difficult to find a wife if she loses her. "
" I can find my wife even if she is gone. I have spoiled her too much before. "
" Just do whatever you want, the words have come to this point. "
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Qianfen first took the excuse to go back to her parents' home. The divorce procedures were not completed, and there might be a trace of thoughts and expectations. However, Xiaopeng did not have any rescue measures. He still should eat, drink, look for his mother or mother. The mother and son are still talking, laughing and playing.
can't wait for any warmth. Two months later, Qianfen came back to complete the divorce procedures. It's really dusty. How many people sighed for them? Chen Yufang still had an indifferent attitude. Xiaopeng went out to work and was at home freely. No one dared to criticize her again. This is a story later. Qianfen, who returned to her hometown, soon got married again and gave birth to two children.
Half a year later, Chen Yufang's oral problems occurred.
"Yufang, don't you brush your teeth? Bad breath is too serious. "
" Have I brushed my teeth? I have ulcers in my mouth recently. "
" Your tone is too serious, it's amazing. "
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During that time, Chen Yufang was reminded of bad breath by many people. She had no choice but to go to the hospital for examination. She turned out to be an oral tumor. The county hospital could no longer treat it and had to go to the provincial capital hospital. She suffered a serious crime and was almost bone-lossed. Fortunately, there was still a treatment plan. She had nearly half of her teeth removed, and she spent nearly 100,000 yuan to eliminate disasters. After returning, Chen Yufang was even more open-minded and lived in a luxurious life. She didn't plant the fields anymore, and she relied on buying them. Anyway, her son Xiaopeng worked hard to make money to support her.
"I don't have the energy to work alone. Xiaopeng's daily wages are enough for me to eat for half a year. "
" You enjoy your happiness. "
" I have been walking around the gates of hell, can I still not think about it? "
(III) Helpless!
In those years, Chen Yufang lived a very free life, not worrying about everything, eating, drinking, playing cards, spending money, and the mother and son were in peace. Of course, someone came to Xiaopeng to match. Either the woman has children, or the woman’s requirements are too high, and she doesn’t work hard or negotiate. Xiaopeng is not in a hurry. It’s all Chen Yufang’s consideration and decision. She doesn’t want to find a daughter-in-law who is difficult to serve. She is very satisfied now.
In a blink of an eye, Xiaopeng is over forty years old. Children of her peers are all in junior high school and high school, and she doesn’t feel so worried. Ming was panicked and went to a local marriage agency alone, registered and paid the money. Four months later, he met a widowed woman. The woman had a daughter who was about to go to junior high school and was willing to get married and have another child. The only condition was to marry into the woman's house, that is, the family of her husband. She was considered a kind and kind person. As for whom the child they gave birth to, it was not so particular.
Chen Yufang was still a little dissatisfied after knowing this situation.
"You are going to make the Wang family lose their queen. You are a man who goes to the door of her dead man. Is it a joke? Our family has a building and a courtyard, so can't we come here to live? "
" cannot do it. "
"You go and talk to her, and you will have the heart to leave me, the old mother, at home? You said that it would be fine if you went to the woman's house to marry into the family, but I felt a knot in my heart when I went to the dead ghost's house. "
" Then do you have the heart to watch me play a bachelor for the rest of my life? Anyway, I agree with her request. "
" You have no conscience, your dad is still in peace. "
" That's his business. I just want to have a woman and a home now. "
"Is this your home? I miss a woman crazy, just do whatever you want. "
" is not considered my home. "
" In this way, Xiaopeng clashed with his mother for the first time. Not long after, the two of them simply held a banquet, moved the bed in a roll, and lived a comfortable life as a warm kang for his wife and children. They also took away most of the savings from these years. Of course, the family has been doing things over the years, and they rely on money to do things, and they have not saved much money. Looking at the empty home, Chen Yufang, who is over 60 years old, is still very disappointed.
"My son is married, and you don't have to worry about having children in the future. You old lady is easy to be an old lady."
"Well, your son has become someone else's door, you just smile behind your back."
"You are boring. What era is it? It's really congratulations. No matter what, Xiaopeng has become a family, you have made a wish. You are still afraid that your son will not support you. It's better to send you up the mountain in the future, but you can't control anything else."
"That's right, don't you feel sad? I'm so busy, money They are all caught. "
" This is called being able to live, so you can live your own life. Children and grandchildren have their own blessings. "
" That's all."
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After Xiaopeng got married, not only was his family empty, but it was also a matter of money. Chen Yufang had no pension security and income source. With a small amount of savings and gifts collected during the holidays, he could not starve to death in today's society, and at least he still had a house to live in, so Chen Yufang was still laughing and approaching wherever he was busy. He was not missed by the mahjong room.
After marrying his wife, I forgot my mother. Xiaopeng rarely comes back. He either goes to the construction site to move bricks or goes back to his own home. It took some time to get a child. Three years later, and when he reached middle age, he was particularly beloved, this villain from a difficult villain, and he was still a son. Chen Yufang had visited his grandson several times, and he seemed a little redundant and unfamiliar. He could speak so much that he could hardly speak when he arrived at Xiaopeng's new home and was disliked.
Although Chen Yufang's oral tumor has been cured, half of her mouth has been sagged and she rarely does cleaning and care, so clean people still dislike those who are close to her, let alone a clean newborn?
"I won't go to that house in the future. Then I'm not as good as a stranger. I don't even call me. Every time I go, I'll be too old. Xiaopeng looks like a dead body and says nothing. I'll spend the Chinese New Year and holidays alone. I have food and drink."
"You're not good. We'll be for the sake of our children and grandchildren in the whole life? Xiaopeng came to answer you or call you, and just go. It's bad if he breaks his face. He has to take care of his son's face."
"Why should I take care of his face? They live their lives, and I live mine."
"This is anger."
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loneliness? Sad? There are all, but I just don’t dare to face it, and of course I don’t have the ability to maintain my emotions. Life seems dull and hopeless. Although Chen Yufang still laughs, likes to join in the fun and talks, she is also aging and sloppy, stubborn on the surface and unable to penetrate the inside.
"This Chen Yufang is on the mahjong table every day, and the winner is not small."
"Now she doesn't care about the world, and no one can care about her. Why don't you play cards? If you don't have money, ask your son."
"My son has a family and a family, but he is not a big boss. How much money can he give? Such people are unconscious and only care about their own happiness."
"We are going to learn from her, and we have to suffer for their children all our lives. Look at her spreading her hands and legs with her legs raised, so cool."
"I can't be as timid as her, and I can't bear to play cards. Where can I run away from odd jobs faster than rabbits."
"So I deserve to be exhausted."
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In fact, since the New Year this year, Chen Yufang has never been to Xiaopeng's house. Xiaopeng only came back on Qingming Festival. It was about to be the end of the year again, and it was still deserted. I really didn't want to go there for the New Year again. It was embarrassing and awkward. Alas, it was really not as good as the home of Xiaopeng before. What kind of marriage should I get?
Xiaopeng came back from Qingming and gave Chen Yufang five hundred yuan. He has never given it again. The money is still enough for the time being. When he really has no money, he asked Xiaopeng for it, because he must support himself anyway. On a night when I couldn't sleep, Chen Yufang thought angrily while blowing her nose.
"It's not as good as a newcomer, die early and get born sooner."Chen Yufang even thought so, she was so unsatisfactory. Such a lively person is really lonely for a lifetime. Her parents have no ability to give love since childhood. After marriage, the upstart is also boring. Xiaopeng has a weak personality. She forgot her mother after marrying a wife, and her grandson is even more unfamiliar. She doesn't have much contact with her brothers, and their lives are also bad. She doesn't have friends. Although she has lived in this village for nearly fifty years, she is not popular or liked. The sorrow accumulated in her heart is afraid to touch or have nowhere to resolve, so she uses cards and liveliness to cover up.
. The last one that broke the camel's back The straw was a recurrence of Chen Yufang's oral tumor. During those days, he obviously felt an oral ulcer and was painful. He knew it was not good. He went back and forth several times to go to the city hospital for examination, but the result was a recurrence. The doctor estimated that the treatment cost would be about 100,000 yuan. Chen Yufang walked out of the hospital without saying anything. After returning home, he continued to joke, eat, drink, and play cards, as if nothing had happened.
On an unbearable night of pain, Chen Yufang shed tears all night. The next day, he found half a bottle of insecticide at home and stored it under the bed in the room. Clean up at home, wait When the pain came again, it came, and she decided to take it away. So in the middle of the night, she drank half a bottle of pesticides. Pain? Ferocious? The breath disappeared bit by bit. Regret? Regret? Everything was over.
When Xiaopeng opened the door, he saw his mother's miserable situation. It was obvious that he was drinking pesticides, but people wanted face. So after wiping, fiddling, and destroying the evidence, he found the relevant relatives, lied that he had fallen asleep and had left. As for how he left, there was no meaning. What was left for the living was to continue moving forward, open and honest, Frivolous and free.
Everyone has an abyss in their hearts, either big or small, far or near. Escape does not mean that they do not exist anymore. If you blindly ignore and retreat misfortune, one day it will open your bloody mouth to swallow us. Learn to face and talk sincerely, surrender to life, bow your head to others, and show weakness. It is no big deal. Walking into the abyss bit by bit, you will eventually reconcile with yourself and misfortune.
The thoughts hanging on the corner of your mouth are different from those deep in your heart, and the endings are also different. Life is not easy, let go.
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