Chapter 1 Prelude to Adolescence
My surname is Qin, and my name is Huan. My name is Qin Huan. I grew up in the military dean.
may be influenced by family education or the innocence and kindness in my bones. I have hardly won any game I have played with my friends.
For example, when playing hide-and-cat, I was the one who got caught the most; when playing marbles, I always went home empty-handed with two pants pockets...
But I never admit defeat and participated, but I always lost more and won less. My friends played with me, and never had to consider what they suffered or what they were fooled, so they also liked to play with me.
Unconsciously, the happy childhood quietly passed away, and it was the sixth grade in a blink of an eye. A new girl came from
. She was very cute, with a round face and a doll head cut.
The teacher arranged for her to be at the same desk with me, and I was secretly happy.
I don’t know if it’s the puberty of adolescence. When she sat down next to me, I actually heard my heartbeat. Then a suffocation surged into my heart. It was a little uncomfortable, but my heart was clearly filled with joy.
This feeling made me enjoy it very much. Looking back now, this may be the first time I feel moved!
I didn't dare to talk to her in the first class, but my attention was all on her, as if my soul crawled out of my body and gently leaned on her.
Suddenly, the bell rang and pulled me back to reality. She turned her face and looked at me and said, "It's over."
She seemed to feel my absent-mindedness.
I smiled awkwardly.
"You didn't seem to pay attention to the lecture just now, did you?" She seemed to be talking to herself.
I stuttered a little: "No...no!"
She took the initiative to introduce: "My name is Ran Xiu, Ran Ran, the beautiful scenery, what is your name?"
I said: "My name is Qin Huan, Qin Shihuang Qin, Ode to Joy."
I found that everyone is very confident when telling others their names, which can eliminate all tension and timidity.
When I said this, I felt the heroism and courage I had never had before, and felt that my life was about to take off at this moment and start a new journey.
All this was brought to me by Ran Xiu, which increased my favorability for her a little.
From that day on, I have been looking forward to going to school every day, and I have endless things to say to Ran Xiu every day, and I have lived a fulfilling and confident life every day.
Ran Xiu told me that her father was a leader in another unit near the school.
I don’t know what the leader is, but I just feel that he should be a relatively large official, maybe equivalent to an official as big as the principal.
At that time, in my cognitive world, the principal was the supreme commander, and the principal was in charge of everything, and he could take care of my dad.
When I was in the fifth grade, my father transferred to a local unit and distinguished it from another house. So I took a bus to school, and her parents were also very busy and were not at home during the day, so we all ate in the school cafeteria at noon, so naturally we had more time to contact each other every day.
Until one day, I suddenly realized that everything had changed. The relationship between me and her seemed to have changed, but I couldn't tell where it changed. I could feel that it was indeed different from before.
Since I met her, there is no difference between me and her. I speak, laugh, and play without hesitation, and I will say wherever I think, but now I have more time to consider every word and act, although it is very short.
For example, when we were talking, we could stare into each other's eyes, but from when, she and I would deliberately avoid each other's eyes at some point, just as if it was an electric current, and we would be hurt when we touched it.
I remember it was about to graduate, and it should be May and I started wearing short-sleeved sleeves.
Once in class, my elbow accidentally hit her forearm. I felt a little cold and comfortable in my skin, but only 0.1 second, maybe less than 0.1 second, a warning appeared in my mind: "She is a girl, I can't stick to her!"
I instantly moved my arm away, and at the same time she also moved her arm gently, but at this moment, my inner alter ego was eager to get close to her again...
Every time I pretended to touch her unconsciously, and each time both sides separated subconsciously, which lasted for a few days.
In a class a few days later, I found that we had been stuck together for nearly one class naturally. This feeling has never happened before. The whole person is warm, neither dry nor wet, neither hot nor cold, just right, I was immersed in it and slowly enjoyed it.
I secretly looked at her. She was watching the teacher lecture attentively, but her eyes seemed a little dazed. It could be that she was also enjoying this pleasure she had never experienced before!
Suddenly, a sharp bell tone of get out of class interrupted my thoughts. I had never felt that the bell was so sharp that it had pierced my eardrums and my whole body exploded.
At almost at the same time, our whole body twitched. This is an instinctive reaction that people are concentrating on doing something and are suddenly interrupted.
Our eyes looked at each other for a moment, and then each quickly evacuated.
I got up and went to the bathroom, and after I came back, I felt much calmer.
On the way back to the classroom, I was thinking, how to test her and see if she was enjoying the pleasure she had never experienced before just now, just like me.
I asked her on purpose: "How do you solve the equation the teacher just mentioned?"
A red glow quickly appeared on her face, which was very beautiful, "I...I didn't understand." She was usually clever and stuttered.
forgot to explain it. Ran Xiu is a representative of mathematics class and is also good at Chinese. She usually speaks like a machine gun, but I can't even talk about her.
completely verified my guess. She felt pleasure, she entered puberty, and she also had her first spring heart.
I only thought about this at that time, and I didn’t have more in-depth ideas, nor did I have more knowledge reserves between men and women, but I developed a strong curiosity to explore the mystery between men and women.
I don’t remember which great man once said: Curiosity is the driving force for human progress.
From that day on, I have been improving every day.
I pay special attention to her every day, and I don’t mean to do it, I just can’t help but want to see her, listen to her voice, and know everything about her.
Hard work pays off, and I discovered another strange thing.
One morning, I came to the classroom as usual, sitting in my seat, staring at the door of the classroom, looking forward to Ran Xiu's appearance.
She came, wearing a white short-sleeved shirt on her upper body, a dark blue pleated skirt on her lower body, a pair of white sneakers on her feet, and a round and fair thigh. The thin blue veins and red blood vessels under her skin could be seen. Why is
round? Because she is a little fat, but I like it. I think it's just right, not fat at all, but feels more intimate.
read up again, hey! Why are there two little white rabbits beating up and down? I seem to know what it is, but I don’t seem to know. I feel the whole body is hot and I clearly hear my heartbeat.
She got closer and closer, and the little white rabbit became bigger and bigger, instantly covering my entire vision...
Just as I was confused, a slight coquettish voice came from my ear: "What are you looking at!"
I lowered my head embarrassedly: "No...no, I didn't see anything."
She sat down and touched my forearm with her elbow: "Sit down to the side a little."
I then realized that because I was immersed in my sight, my butt slightly left the seat, and my body leaned to the front right. After she sat down, she pressed her tightly with me.
I quickly sat upright, but my whole mind was full of the two little white rabbits. I couldn't help but look at her chest with squint eyes. Now there is no longer the beating just now, but it is rising and falling, and the frequency is very fast.
I racked my brains and searched for the storage of my brain. Similar scenes appeared in front of me...
finally found it, as if I had seen it on TV, swimsuit! Yes, it's a swimsuit!
Women wear clothes on the beach, only wrapping their chests and lower bodies, and there is very little fabric.
At that time, I had a question, why should I wrap them up? It seems that it is still tightly tied. I really want to take off the two straps on my shoulders and release the two little white rabbits. They should also want to come out and have some breathing. It's so frustrating.
I really want to unbutton Ran Xiu’s shirt and look at the two cute little white rabbits inside...
I can only think about it. I really don’t have the courage to unbutton a girl.
At the same time, I had a strong physiological reaction.
This physiological reaction is becoming more and more frequent recently. Every time it comes, I am afraid and expectant. What I am afraid of is that I always see Ran Xiu and feel this kind of reaction every time I see Ran Xiu, and I subconsciously feel a sense of guilt. What I hope is that it is indeed a pleasant feeling! It comes so strong and so direct that it cannot resist at all.
I felt hot all over and clearly heard my heartbeat.
A "evil" thought suddenly popped up in his mind.
"Ran Xiu, I think you are so cute!" I said softly.
Ran Xiu blushed slightly, not daring to look at me directly, and squeezed a small voice from the gap between her teeth that only I could hear: "Where is cute?"
At this moment, I finally understood what was different. Ran Xiu knew she was shy and no longer talked and laughed to me like before. Now she blushed from time to time.
I said with a smile, "The face is round, like a doll."
"Hate, I just say it if I think I am fat!" Ran Xiu pouted her little mouth, looking even more cute.
I hurriedly explained: "No, no, I really don't think you are fat. If you are called fat, the sows under the sky will hit the wall!"
"Puchi" sounded, and Ran Xiu covered her mouth and laughed out loud, laughing so happily and so proudly, making my heart drunk.
"How about I give you a nickname? Only the two of us know."
"Let's say it." Ran Xiu replied.
"Small, meat, ball." I said word by word.
Ran Xiu hit me hard with his elbow and said angrily: "You don't think I'm fat!"
I said: "It's really not! I just think you are very cute, beautiful, round, much better than those with sharp-mouthed monkey cheeks! Do you think it's not?"
Ran Xiu touched his face and said: "It seems to make some sense, but in fact I am still very satisfied with myself!"
got away with it, and I was secretly happy. In fact, "little meat ball" describes the two little white rabbits. I finally found a suitable word. I was so tired that I couldn't help but breathe a long sigh.
From then on, I often called her "Little Meatball", and she accepted it happily. It can be seen that she also liked this name that only belongs to us.
Time flies so fast, and it is the last day of the sixth grade end in the blink of an eye.
Only half a day of class was held this day. After lunch, the other students left. Ran Xiu and I seemed to have a tacit understanding and neither left.
The usually lively classroom suddenly became quiet and I was a little uncomfortable. Only Ran Xiu and I sat carefully in our seats, and we could hear a needle falling to the ground.
In such a huge classroom, the air seemed to have frozen. We didn't make any sound. Every breath of each other could hear it. There was also the rustling sound of leaves outside the window kissing and stroking their heartbeats, and the sound of my own heartbeat. Apart from that, there was no other sound.
We have never been alone, and this is the first time that a lonely man and a widow are living in the same room.
or Ran Xiu broke the silence and asked me in a low voice: "Do you want to go to another area in junior high school?"
I answered carefully: "Yes."
Before I finished speaking, she asked slightly anxiously: "Then won't we meet again in the future?"
I said helplessly: "I don't know."
I really didn't know if I could meet in the future, or I couldn't think of what would happen in the future.
I have never experienced parting. This is the first time. I feel so sad. I feel a little sad and a little panic in my heart. I don’t know if such an answer will be very sad, and I don’t know how to answer. More than 0 years later, we really met again, and it was so fanatical and so delicate...
While I was thinking about it, Ran Xiu took out a small red cloth bag from his schoolbag, which was probably half the size of his palm, with golden patterns embroidered on it, which was very delicate.
"This is the pearl necklace brought back from Zhejiang on a business trip, look!" As she said that, she handed the small cloth bag to my hand. I reached out to pick it up, and accidentally touched the back of her hand. A piece of soft skin was very smooth and soft. We immediately shrank back like an electric shock, almost not grasping the small cloth bag.
There is a Chinese knotted button on the small cloth bag. I put the small cloth bag on the table and carefully unbuttoned it.
I have never seen a pearl since I grew up so old.
I stretched out my index finger and thumb, gently pulled out the pearls from the small cloth bag, and what caught my eye was a string of pink and white beads. Strictly speaking, it should not be considered beads, because each of them has a little different shape, basically they are oval, just as big as a red bean, each one is uneven, and the color will be a little different from different angles.
At this time, Ran Xiu lowered his head and blushed and said in a low voice: "Can you put it on for me?"
I was stunned by this sudden question and thought to myself: Put it on? Where to put it on? I asked carefully: "Where to wear it?"
Ran Xiu lowered her head and pointed it on her neck. I suddenly realized that it might be too nervous. I was so stupid. Where else could I wear the necklace without wearing it on my neck.
The buckle of the necklace is very small. This is the first time I untied it. After several times of untied it, it slipped off from my hand. When I was anxious, I couldn't untied it. At this time, Ran Xiu silently picked up the necklace and broke it gently and untied it, and then handed it to my hand.
Her head was close to my chest, and I held the necklace tremblingly, and my hands were around her neck, but the two ends of the necklace could never be touched together, because I was afraid that my hands would touch her neck, and I was afraid that my hands would be raised too high, and the necklace would be tied to her neck. In addition, I was really nervous when I wore this for the first time and played with it. My hands were shaking. What's more, the first time I was with a girl, no, was the first goddess in my life so close. The more I couldn't hold it up, the more I leaned forward my head. Before I knew it, my face almost touched her ears, and my mouth was almost touching her neck. I could feel the breath from my mouth touching her neck and bounce back. A scent of fragrance penetrated into my nose and penetrated into my heart. I took a deep breath. What does this smell? It smells so good and comfortable, and my whole body is about to float up.
doesn't work, please calm yourself down.
Finally, with a "click", it was buttoned.
This is the first time I have worn a necklace for a girl. The first time I am so close to a girl, I will never forget it in my life!
Ran Xiu looked up at me: "Does it look good?"
I looked at her steadily. At this time, she was still wearing a white short-sleeved shirt, a dark blue pleated skirt, and white sneakers. Her face seemed to be rubbed with rouge, which made me suffocate.
At some point, two of her shirt buttons were unbuttoned, and the pink and white pearl necklace was sticking to the edge of the "little meat ball". My head was blank. I stared at it for two seconds. I swallowed and nodded constantly: "Good! Good-looking!"
Ran Xiu said softly: "You can take it down for me!"
"Ah!" I was a little confused. I finally put it on, and I want to take it down again?
Ran Xiu said coquettishly: "Please help me take it down!"
No matter what kind of man it is, no matter what period it is, he can't resist the gentle knife of a woman, and it will be slowly confirmed to you later.
I twitched my teeth and leaned closer to her neck. After picking up the necklace, I put my hand around her neck. In addition, after having experience, my courage became bigger. Ran Xiu did not avoid my hand. I finally clumsyly took off the necklace.
Ran Xiu took the necklace, put it in the pencil case, took out a pair of folding scissors from his schoolbag, gently picked up the silk thread of the necklace, and cut it off. Only the pearls fell into the pencil case made a crisp crackling sound. I then said in surprise, "Ah!"
She chose the largest one and handed it to me. I hurriedly stretched out my hands and held it in my palms, and looked at the unique pearl carefully. It became bigger and bigger, slowly occupied my entire field of vision, slowly showing Ran Xiu's face, full of tears.
At this moment, I suddenly heard a dull and dense ticking sound. Looking at the sound, small crystal clear water droplets dripped on Ran Xiu's blue pleated skirt like pearls with broken lines, and then scattered and ejected into the distance, which was very spectacular.
I raised my head and looked at Ran Xiu. Her eyes were red and her face was covered with tears.
She murmured, "This pearl is given to you. It is as crystal clear and flawless as me. You must save it."
At this time, my heart trembled, my nose was sour, and I didn't know what to say. I dragged my schoolbag out from under the desk, reached into my schoolbag and pulled out a homework book, tear off a piece of paper from the last page, carefully wrapped the pearls and put them in my schoolbag.
Ran Xiu slowly stood up, walked to the table next to him, and lay down flat. Because the table was short, her legs bent her knees, her soles were against the table, and her blue pleated skirt slid down to the base of her legs. Her white and tender thighs immediately appeared in front of me, inserted on the desk like two green onions.
I suddenly panicked and felt like I had made a mistake. At this time, I saw Ran Xiu gently closing his eyes, tears no longer flowing, and he looked very calm and enjoyable, as if he was looking forward to something.
The camera on the TV flashed in my mind. The heroine was lying on the bed, the hero was lying on her, slowly peeling her clothes, like peeling a lychee, revealing a white flesh color. Whenever I saw such a scene, adults would immediately rush to the TV, twist the knob, and say while changing channels, children can't watch these.
I have always had a question, since I can't watch it, why do I have to broadcast it on the TV? Why hasn't anyone invented a TV dedicated to children?
Why did Ran Xiu do this? Could she do what adults don’t want to do?
I'm a little scared, but I think Ran Xiu shouldn't do bad things.
I slowly moved to Ran Xiu, watching her white and round cheeks slowly turn redder and become redder, and my face also began to have a fever.
I seemed to have been clicked, and my whole body stood there blankly, my limbs were stiff and I couldn't move, and my head was blank.
Suddenly, there was nowhere to know where the courage came from, so I grabbed my schoolbag and flew out of the classroom like flying. I kept running, running, rushed out of the school gate, and ran to the road in one breath before stopping.
I know this is not good, but I don’t know what to do. Tears burst out without hesitation, wetting my collar.
I didn't take a ride and walked home staggeringly.I have forgotten what I thought about on the road, but now I clearly remember Ran Xiu's face full of tears. I have always remembered that so many years have passed, she has been in my heart, never erased, and has always been there.
After I escaped, Ran Xiu must be very sad, she must hate me very much.
Until we met again many years later, she gave me another answer.
Attachment: Based on the text of Tianya author Huang Daxian,
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