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Driving home on National Day, when passing by the alley at the door of the house, I suddenly saw a familiar back.
Her back was bowed deeply, and she held a broken wooden stick in her hand, and she walked slowly in the middle of the road with a swaying left and right.
I recognized her at a glance. She was Grandma Fang who lived in the old house of the brigade headquarters at the alley entrance!
I stopped the car, rolled down the window, poked my head out and greeted her loudly. She didn't hear it, and she just lowered her head and walked forward.
I shouted again, and she hurriedly gave in to the roadside with her steps, then turned around and looked at me dullly.
She didn't recognize who I was.
I hurriedly reported to myself. She leaned her ears to the car window with her head tilted, but she still couldn't hear clearly. She waved her hand and walked away expressionlessly.
I went home in disappointment. When talking about this with my mother, she looked at the entrance of the alley and sighed, "You old grandma Fang is so worried (dialect, confused) and her ears are also memorized..."
Unexpectedly, she hasn't seen her for more than half a year, and she has become like this.
After dinner, I sat with my mother under the old elm tree in the courtyard and chatted. As I was chatting, the topic couldn't help but run to Grandma Fang again.
I heard from my mother that Grandma Fang has experienced all the sufferings of the world in her life.
Grandma Fang was born in 1930. When she was nineteen years old, she was defeated by her father to the landlord in our village.
The reason is unknown. It is said that it is because Grandma Fang's father got opium. When he got addicted to smoking, his family had no money, so he started to sell his daughter.
The old landlord saw that Grandma Fang looked beautiful and looked very diligent. The youngest son at home agreed to the age of starting a family.
Grandma Fang’s husband is an ignorant and irrational wanderer. Not only do I have idle time, but I also look for flowers and willows everywhere.
After the newlyweds, he passed the freshness of Grandma Fang and went out to have a happy life again.
When she was twenty-two years old, Grandma Fang gave birth to her first child for the Fang family. Poor this child, who had not lived in the world for a month, fell ill and left.
This incident hit Grandma a big blow. For a long time, she couldn't eat or sleep, and her hair fell down in large quantities.
At that time, the new China had just been established, and the once arrogant landlord family became a stinky fish and rotten shrimp that thousands of people pointed out. The family's life was so scary.
The old landlord is a very proud person. After parading one day, he couldn't bear it anymore. That night, after getting drunk, he ended his life with a rope in the bedroom.
The old landlord's wife, an old lady with small feet who is smaller than a rabbit, was scared by this.
Before the old landlord could be buried, she began to become crazy. She saw the stranger trembling and screaming loudly, especially if she could not see the rope, otherwise she would faint immediately.
continues to live with fear.
When she was twenty-eight years old, Grandma Fang gave birth to another boy. This year was 1958.
Poor a child who was born in vain, because he couldn't eat food, and on the winter night when he was one and a half years old, he slowly closed his eyes with his skinny bones.
The child was buried overnight by Grandma Fang's husband in a river in the north of the village.
At that time, Grandma Fang's mental state was almost broken. She always liked to sway around the river in the north of the village alone if she had something to do.
Once she saw someone, she grabbed someone's arm with anxiety and asked if she had seen her child. Therefore, everyone avoided her grandmother at that time. Once she saw her from afar, she would rather take a long way than meet her.
Grandma Fang's consciousness gradually returned to normal, when she was thirty-two years old. At that time, she was pregnant with another child on her belly.
In the same year, the commune organized everyone to dig the river together. During the lunch break, Grandma Fang's husband was wearing a straw hat and enjoying the cool air under a willow tree. When it was time to work, he called him unresponsive and took off the straw hat, but found that he was no longer angry.
This year, Grandma Fang was only 39 years old.
My mother's family members advised Grandma Fang to remarry, and her daughter was lame, and her mother-in-law was a lunatic who didn't even know how to snore and pee all day long. How could life be hopeful?
Grandma Fang refused all blind dates arranged by her parents' home. Close the door, three miserable women lived a hard life depend on each other.
is about to go out to work, so Grandma Fang locked her daughter and mother-in-law at home. In order not to make her daughter afraid, she also specially adopted a black wolf dog. wolf dog is very fierce and pounces on her body when she sees a stranger. When working in
, Grandma Fang tried her best. The production team leader has held more than once to praise Grandma Fang and gave her the title of "Iron Lady".
When my daughter was twenty years old, she married a teacher in the next village with a very decent dowry.
The man did not dislike her lameness, and the two lived a harmonious and beautiful life. Later, my daughter gave birth to a boy who was tall and strong. When she was sixteen, she was over 1.85 meters tall.
The second year after my daughter got married, the two old houses where Grandma Fang lived were washed down due to a heavy rain.
Later, the manager came forward and vacated an old house in the brigade headquarters and lent her. From then on, our two families lived in the same alley. Her "home" was at the end of the alley and my family was at the end of the alley.
Maybe it was because of the great efforts when I was young, Grandma Fang was plagued by various diseases in her later years.
In order to save money, she never wanted to go to the hospital. It was so painful that I couldn't stand it anymore, so I bit a rolling pin in my mouth and held a needle and thread wheel in my hand.
After a long time, the rolling pin is full of tooth marks, and the needle and thread wheels are grinding and shiny. These are the marks left by her struggle against the pain.
Later, my daughter sent her painkiller. If she had no choice, she would not want to eat it. Even if you take it, carefully break a pill in half, eat half, and wrap the other half tightly in a plastic bag.
Various diseases entangled the weak Grandma Fang like a vine. Slowly, she no longer walked easily and her eyes were so blurred that she couldn't see clearly.
Under seventy years old, her right hand began to shake uncontrollably. When serving soup, the soup often spilled the soup all over the table. When picking up food and eating, the chopsticks couldn't reach her mouth for a long time.
guarding the quiet courtyard, carrying a sick body, Grandma Fang lives alone and miserably.
Slowly, if Grandma Fang hadn't occasionally wandered around the street with a broken wooden stick, the village seemed to have forgotten that there was such a twilight old man in the village.
This is not the situation of Grandma Fang alone, and many elderly people in the village are like this.
When no one knows, Grandma Fang's ears are backed; when no one knows, her mind begins to feel tired. She became a dry old man who was almost a walking corpse, an irrelevant and dispensable old man.
I don’t know when it started, in the mouths of the villagers, she was no longer the “iron lady”, no longer the “grandma Fang” or “old lady Fang”, but became an “old family”.
Listen, it's cold and harsh. But after decades of shouting, the villagers have become accustomed to it. Even Grandma Fang herself had silently accepted the sharp knife inserted into her chest in her heart.
Mother told these stories about Grandma Fang intermittently. At this time, the moon had climbed up to the top of her head and spread a cool light to the quiet world.
looked at the alley. There was no one, only grass and insects were crying in a low voice, and I felt mixed feelings in my heart. When I returned to the bedroom and wrote this article, I unknowingly, the east was already faintly white.
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Sheng Ru Xiahua (pse name), female, from Shangqiu, Henan, Chinese teacher in middle school.
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