A year ago, Xiaoyou was going to interview and received encouragement from many strangers. She was very warm. Later, she applied for the job as she wished.
Xiao You was very happy at that time, thinking that life had undergone great changes and the door to the new world was open.
However, after only two months of work, Xiaoyou resigned.
Xiaoyou's family had two children, one in the third grade and the other two years old at that time.
After Xiaoyou went to work, my grandfather was responsible for taking care of the two children (this was also his own wish. He always hoped that Xiaoyou could go out to make money and he would take care of the children at home).
However, the grandfather cannot take care of the child well, and the child cannot handle any problems, he must call me, and he himself will even have fierce conflicts with the child.
Xiaoyou is often bombarded by him on the phone while he is busy at work or riding a bicycle after get off work, and is exhausted!
In life, grandpa was not good at housework and never had delicious food when he went home. During that period, it was really messy and the whole family was in pain.
There is no way, Xiaoyou finally resigned and returned to her family.
The family finally returned to its original cleanliness and tidy food. After school, the child had his mother to accompany him to tutor him. The grandfather went out for a walk and playing cards for nothing. The tense atmosphere at home disappeared.
However, after the second child went to kindergarten this year, he began to feel a little anxious. During the day, Xiaoyou had one or two hours of his free time, and always felt that if he didn't do something, he would feel like a waste of time.
Many media and public opinion always advocate that women must have their own career, but Xiao You also knows in her heart that if she can go out to work, her family will definitely be in chaos again. She could only consider part-time jobs or self-media, but she had no experience and had no way out in her difficult exploration.
Originally, Xiao You envied mothers for having work and leisure. Although she is still peaceful and happy now, she feels that she is doing something internally and feels that she should make herself better and stronger. It seems like a kind of consciousness that has been instilled since childhood. Women must be strong, born from suffering and dying from happiness, and enjoying happiness is like a sin.
Xiaoyou's husband also said that life doesn't always have meaning. Xiaoyou still feels like a fog in the moment. I hope that one day she can see herself clearly and see the future clearly, and be free in the true sense.
