More than 80 years ago, a woman in her youth wrote this passage in her letter and resolutely swallowed 30 sleeping pills and left this world that was exhausted.

"Oh, what a pity for me to die? But I'm still afraid of people's words."

html More than 180 years ago, a woman in her youth in her youth wrote this passage in her letter, resolutely swallowed 30 sleeping pills and left this world that made her exhausted.

After she left, 300,000 people came to Shanghai to see her off.

After she left, Mr. Lu Xun wrote in grief and anger when she was sick:

"But she has no fists and no courage, she is just making hard-working materials. She has been painted with a look of flowers on her face and cannot be washed."

She is the most popular " silent film movie queen" Ruan Lingyu .

In people's perception, Ruan Lingyu's suicide is often attributed to secular rumors.

But when we look at Ruan Lingyu's life trajectory, it is not difficult to find:

Even if there is a roar of malice in the world, what ultimately pushes her down the abyss is that she can never escape the cognitive constraints of inferiority and narrowness.

Underestimate yourself and lay the foundation for a lifetime of miserable

910, Ruan Lingyu was born in an ordinary working family in Shanghai. Despite the hardships, her parents still tried their best to give her the best life.

Therefore, Ruan Lingyu spent 5 years of carefree childhood.

Unfortunately, fate was unpredictable. Just when Ruan Lingyu was 6 years old, her father passed away due to overwork.

Only the lonely mother and daughter depend on each other for life.

Mother had no time to be sad, so she hurriedly took Ruan Lingyu to a wealthy family in the local area and became a servant.

It is not easy to live under someone else's roof. In order to make a living, my mother lived a cautious life. He taught Ruan Lingyu since childhood: to recognize her identity.

But the subtext Ruan Lingyu heard is that she is not worthy of others. This makes her always look down on herself when facing a passionate relationship.

Ruan Lingyu, who suffered from cold eyes, finally welcomed the first man in her life besides her father - Zhang Damin .

Zhang Damin, who fell in love with Ruan Lingyu at first sight, immediately pursued her fiercely.

He first learned about Ruan Lingyu's preferences from Ruan's mother, and then pretended to meet her by chance in the park. They even generously took out their pocket money to help the mother and daughter who were in dire straits in life.

Ruan Lingyu, who grew up in an environment of inferiority and loneliness since childhood, could not withstand this "goodness". She soon fell under the offensive of Zhang Damin's tender and sweet words.

But the love between a rich child and a servant's daughter was destined to be unrecognized in that era when the equality of the family was destined to be unrecognized.

When the relationship between them was heard by Zhang Damin's mother, Mrs. Zhang was furious and drove Ruan Lingyu and her daughter out of the Zhang family.

But how could Zhang Damin, who was young and rebellious, give up? He suggested that Ruan Lingyu move out with him to live together.

Ruan Lingyu was moved by Zhang Damin, who was not concerned about his family background, and immediately agreed to his request.

Later, in order to take care of the family, Ruan Lingyu took the initiative to drop out of school and became a housewife.

At this time, she absolutely could not have expected that this seemingly sweet love in front of her would bring endless disasters to her for the rest of her life.

Overestimate people's hearts and slides step by step to the abyss

After just starting to live together, Zhang Damin took Ruan Lingyu to dance, run horses and watch movies every day, and spoiled her to the sky.

But when the days began to become embarrassed and the freshness of love gradually faded, the nature of Zhang Damin's playboy was fully exposed.

Not only is he idle all day long, not enterprising, but he is also deeply involved in gambling and owes a lot of debts. What Ruan Lingyu couldn't accept was that Zhang Damin quickly lost her favor and enthusiasm for her shortly after living together. If something goes wrong, they will vent their anger on her mother and daughter.

Ruan Lingyu, who had already gained a foothold in the film and television industry, had long seen Zhang Damin's true face. She is financially independent, so she can break up at this time and stop the loss in time.

But thinking that the man in front of him once brought warmth to him, Ruan Lingyu not only did not leave him, but also tried to make Zhang Damin "a prodigal son turn back" with more efforts.

But what she didn't know was that Zhang Damin's insatiable greed was already beyond cure.

After squandering the hundreds of thousands of inherited inheritance, Zhang Damin regarded Ruan Lingyu as a money tree and threatened her countless times that she would announce the privacy of the two people to the newspapers without giving them money.

So, when Ruan Lingyu went around to make money by filming, Zhang Daming lost all her savings in the casino.

Later, in order to get more money, Zhang Damin ran to Ruan Lingyu's studio to make a fuss.

Ruan Lingyu couldn't bear it anymore, and she was completely disappointed and decided to escape.

932, Ruan Lingyu came to Hong Kong.

Here, she met the "Tea King" Tang Jishan . Afterwards, Tang Jishan started a crazy pursuit of Ruan Lingyu.

But this Tang Jishan is by no means a good person. Back then, he once kicked away Zhang Zhiyun, a known as China's No. 1 "Movie Queen", and was tired of it.

Therefore, many people advise Ruan Lingyu to stay away from this man.

But she always overestimates people's hearts, but she once again believed in the story of "the prodigal son looking back".

is exactly the same. When the freshness of love fades, when Ruan Lingyu is deeply trapped in the emotional entanglement with Zhang Damin, Tang Jishan quickly turns from her original affection to a sinister and perverted person.

Not only does he often linger in fireworks places, he also often beat Ruan Lingyu in the street.

Under Zhang Damin's entanglement and Tang Jishan's abuse, Ruan Lingyu was in pain.

It is said that the abyss has a bottom, but people's hearts are hard to predict.

Ruan Lingyu overestimates others again and again, and drags herself into a darker abyss again and again.

cannot perceive the darkness of people's hearts, and will only make us escape from the tiger's den and fall into the wolf's den.

Enjoy our whole life, we are all paying for our cognition

Although our love life is messy, the glory in our career also makes Ruan Lingyu feel a little relieved.

In less than 10 years of career, Ruan Lingyu has starred in more than 20 movies, leaving many classic images on the screen that are unforgettable.

But life cannot always be on the uphill road.

By 1935, with the rise of audio films, the popularity of silent films gradually diminished.

The once popular "silent film girl's queen" was stolen at once.

Ruan Lingyu, who was frustrated in love and career, only felt endless desolation and sorrow.

What made Ruan Lingyu even worse was that the lawsuit between Zhang Damin and Tang Jishan caused a storm in the city, which was bringing her into a bigger storm, and also putting the past she didn't want to look back on was tortured in public in the spotlight.

At the beginning, in order to get rid of Zhang Damin's entanglement, Ruan Lingyu accepted his unreasonable request after returning to Shanghai. Zhang Damin will be given 100 yuan per month for two years.

But Zhang Damin, who was used to squandering, asked Ruan Lingyu for more than 4 years of living expenses after losing all the money.

Tang Jishan was furious after hearing this and forbidden Ruan Lingyu from giving Zhang Damin another penny.

Unexpectedly, Zhang Damin, who was at the end of his journey, sued them in court with a complaint.

When Zhang Damin went to court, he secretly changed the matter, saying that Ruan Lingyu was his "wife", and also made public the relationship between Ruan Lingyu and her, as well as the daughter of a servant.

This incident is like a bombshell exploding in public opinion.

For a moment, major media rushed to report on the front pages. In order to attract attention, the titles are all extremely dirty words, portraying Ruan Lingyu as a romantic woman who is tied up with her and fragile...

Every report is like a sharp dagger, stabbing Ruan Lingyu's inferior and fragile heart.

And at the moment when she was most lost and helpless, Tang Jishan, who was disgraced, transferred all her anger to her in anger.

He started to punch and kick Ruan Lingyu at any time, and even deliberately used malicious reports in the newspaper to stimulate her.

In Ruan Lingyu's life, what she values ​​most are reputation, career and love.

Nowadays, love has left her bruised and suffered a Waterloo in her career. Even the reputation that she values ​​most in her life is already infamous.

She was desperate.

Since there is nothing worth remembering in this world, instead of living in a breath of breath, why not leave vigorously?

So, in the quiet night, she quietly bid farewell to this scarred world.

Someone summarized Ruan Lingyu's life like this:

"She spent her whole life interpreting the tragic life of others, but in the end, she played herself."

In her short 25 years of life, Ruan Lingyu has seen all the capriciousness of people's hearts and experienced the tortuous twists and turns of fate.

However, due to cognitive limitations, she was unable to change the direction of her destiny and dominate her life.

A person's destiny has actually been buried in his cognition.

Whether we are walking on the uphill road of life with our heads raised or walking on the downhill road with our heads bowed, we are paying for our cognition throughout our lives.

Only by walking in the world without underestimating yourself, overestimating people's hearts, and not giving up fighting against fate can we find our own happiness on the thorny and bumpy road of life.

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