Read some stories every day app author: Qingxia Bonian| Reprinting is prohibited
1. Pulsing
Cuiling Standing in front of the window, looking at the wedding dress displayed inside, there were some faint stains on the wedding dress, the color was dim, not like the snow-white ones before, but Cuiling still liked it. Whenever there is no farm work, Cuiling would come to wait for her son to go to school in advance, just to stop for a moment in front of the window of the only wedding shop opposite the only school in the town.
It is said that the most beautiful moment for a woman to bloom in her life is to wear a pure white wedding dress and accept the attention of everyone, but Cui Ling declared wither before it blooms. Cuiling has 4 sisters above and 1 younger brother below. This sorting destined to be the most embarrassing existence. The sisters got married one after another, and the parents who sent their daughter to marry one after another gradually felt overwhelmed, not because of the sadness of parting, but just for the dowry in that scene.
When Cui Ling arrived, there was not much left, and the man's family was not rich. Cuiling still remembers that on the day of her wedding, there was no wedding dress, no wedding banquet, no bouquet, no balloons, only a shabby four-wheeled Santana with the word "Happy" and a crackling firecracker.
"Do you like it very much?" The sudden male voice from behind really scared Cuiling. Cuiling stroked her chest, and her frightened nerves finally calmed down. Looking up, the man in front of him looked clean and comfortable in a black T-shirt, black cropped pants, and a pair of white sneakers. Cui Ling looked at this outfit and remembered that her husband also had such clothes, and even showed off to her that it was fashion.
"Yeah." Cui Ling nodded, her face couldn't help but blush. This was the first time since she got married, she talked alone with a man of her age. On weekdays, there were always a large group of people in the village, and the parents were both poor.
The man turned his back to Cuiling and stared at the wedding dress in the window for a long time. "I have been here to pick up the children many times, and I can see you staring at the wedding dress in a daze. But I saw that the wedding dress is dusty. It should have been a long time since no one rented it. Isn't it a bit outdated?"
Cuiling heard this, and she felt embarrassed in her heart. She looked down at the short sleeves on her double-breasted body. It was bought for me by my husband before getting married, and it was the only one so far. It has been ten years since I washed it and washed it. If it weren't for the faint yellow color, I would have forgotten what it was originally. I am all outdated people, and I can’t even have a vision.
"But I like it." Ten years ago it was my dream, and ten years later it was my spiritual sustenance. Even if it was so outdated that it was disgusting, she still liked it, and she couldn't even see it.
received his son after school. The man pointed at the fruit shop not far from the school and said to Cuiling: "That is the shop I opened. If you don't dislike it, you can go and sit down at the door when the child is free from school."
Cuiling just nodded and said ok.
carried her son onto the electric car and drove in the opposite direction from home. The son pulled his mother's clothes and reminded him: "Mom, you went wrong. This is not the way home."
"Mom knows, please accompany your mother to buy new clothes." Cuiling didn't know what was wrong with her. In the past ten years, she rarely bought new clothes. Most of them were thrown to her if her sister wore old clothes or didn't want to wear. She was happy to wear them, after all, she didn't have to spend money on her own.
Walked into a fashionable clothing store. The waiter in the store greeted Cuiling warmly and gestured a white long-sleeved dress on her, praising her up and down. Cuiling also thought the skirt was very beautiful, but when she saw the price on the tag, Cuiling still pulled her son and ran away in panic.
2. Desire
At dinner time, Cuiling brought the freshly prepared soup. Most of the dishes on the table had been wiped out by her husband, and her son had eaten it and went to do his homework. Such dining table scenes are repeated every day, and Cuiling doesn't think there is anything else.
ate the cold rice bite by bite, and watched her husband finish the soup with big mouthfuls, rubbed the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, burped, and then went out, without even saying "I'm leaving."
The dining table with only one person left, Cui Ling suddenly had a bit boring taste.
The husband left again. Every day, when he asked him what he was doing, he always said arrogantly that he went to socialize. He is a welder, and he really thinks he is stupid. This village is just a big place, what can he hold on to? How much did he win or lose in gambling that night? He went to find a lady wherever he went. The next day, it was heard in his ears without saying a word. She couldn't help but want to hear it.
At night, Cuiling tossed and turned, remembered the wedding dress in the window, the man in the daytime, looked at the pendulum on the wall, and pointed the hand to 12 o'clock. The other side of the bed collapsed slightly. Cuiling knew that her husband was back, which was not bad, and she knew to go home.
After a moment, the husband's snoring sounds came to Cuiling's ears, with the faint smell of perfume. It's not necessary to keep the free wife, but he has to spend money to find the unclean lady. Cui Ling felt deeply ashamed for the first time and felt extremely disgusted with the man around her.
The next day Cui Ling got up early and finished the farm work she had to do for one day in the morning. I took a bath after boiling hot water at noon, and even took out the floral skirt that I had been reluctant to wear in the closet. This was the only clothes I could take. Sitting in front of the dressing table, it is actually a dressing table, it is just a shabby table and a cracked mirror. There is only a bottle of lying on the table and a comb with broken teeth.
Looking at the person in the mirror, he is only 30 years old. Because he has been doing farm work all year round, his skin is already rough as if he is 40 years old.
But looking closely, Cui Ling's facial features are extremely beautiful. You should know that ten years ago, when she was an unmarried girl, the young man who looked and figured in the village and asked her to break the threshold. But her father fell in love with her current husband, saying that he looked good and honest, and that the children he gave birth to in the future would definitely not look much different.
It has been ten years since the baby was born. After giving birth, the fat on the belly, the calluses on the hands were stacked layer by layer, and the delicate facial features were covered with rough skin. But looking at her husband, she is already pretty good, and she loves to dress up, she is more than enough to hook up with a 20-year-old girl.
Thinking of this, Cui Ling felt powerless and had to wipe the treasure over and over again on her face until her face was so sticky that it was full of oil.
When I arrived at the man's fruit shop, there was only a young couple in it. The man saw Cuiling, stared at her for a while, and said, "This skirt is very suitable for you and looks very good." Then he quickly got up and gave up his seat.
Cui Ling's face turned red, which was a compliment that even her husband had never had. The serious look gave Cui Ling a great sense of satisfaction.
The two started chatting together, and most of the time was Cui Ling quietly watching the man weighing fruits and looking for money. Cui Ling felt that this kind of getting along was wonderful, and she longed for her children to get later after school and longer.
The man told Cuiling that his wife ran away with the rich man, leaving only him and his under-term daughter. For eight years, he raised his daughter alone and lived on each other, but he didn't feel miserable.
Cui Ling suddenly felt that she was in the same sympathy as him. What is the difference between her husband and his wife? But one was that the person ran away and the other was that the heart ran away.
This sudden sense of happiness injected fresh spring water into Cuiling's originally dead heart, and the smile on her face found her belonging. The reason for living a good life every day is to be able to take a look at him and chat with him.
There were gradually more bottles and jars on the dressing table, and some colorful new clothes were added in the closet. The double-breasted short-sleeved one that he had never been reluctant to throw it away was lying quietly in the trash can.
These days, she began to worry about her rough skin, about which piece of clothing she would wear today, no longer wait for her husband's early departure and late return, and no longer feel sad about her husband's ignorance of herself. Cui Ling enjoys the changes from appearance to heart, but she also longs for more.
She is only 30 years old. She is a flowery age in a big city. She shouldn't live a life facing the loess and facing the sky here. Before meeting that man, she just thought it was her own life and should live as she wanted.But after meeting her, she felt that she shouldn't accept her fate, and she was qualified and worthy of living a good life.
In ten years, Cuiling had the idea of divorce for the first time.
3. Desperate
On this day, Cui Ling went to the man’s fruit shop as usual to sit. Since she had the idea of divorce that day, Cui Ling wanted to ask him several times what he thought and whether she would dislike her? Will you marry her? But it's hard to speak. What comes out before the words is a sense of shame. Such a problem makes Cuiling feel that she is eager to be a wife for others, which is a bit shameless and even more dissolute.
After all, Cuiling is just an elementary school culture, and her thoughts are very traditional under the influence of her rural parents. She is determined not to become that kind of debauchery, and will only make others look down upon her.
can't stand the inner torture, so Cuiling simply didn't worry and let it go. Cuiling has always believed in the principle that the ship reaches the bridge head is naturally straight, which has led to her ten-year marriage, facing such a husband, not as hard as others seem.
The bell rang. The man carefully picked a bag of oranges for her and asked her to take them home to eat. Cui Ling wanted to refuse, but saw that more and more parents gathered with their children. If the two of them pushed a bag of oranges around, those people still didn't know what to think after seeing it. Cuiling took the bag of oranges, and others would only think that she was here to buy oranges when she saw it.
After picking up the child, as soon as he arrived at the door of the house, he saw the villagers around the three floors of the inner and three floors of the outer floors of the inner and outer floors of the inner and outer floors of the inner and outer branches of the outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the outer and lower branches of the outer and lower branches of the outer and lower branches of the outer and lower branches of the inner and outer branches of the outer and lower branches of the outer and lower branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the outer and lower branches of the outer and lower branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the outer and lower branches of the outer and lower branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the inner and outer branches of the Cui Ling suddenly felt uneasy, something must have happened. The car at hand was not enough to park, so he let it lie on the ground, spreading the crowd layer by layer, and the looted yard was reflected in his eyes. The farm tools he worked were thrown into pieces. The fertilizer he bought yesterday was now spilling out, and the pots and pans were split.
Cui Ling's head buzzed, and she was completely confused. She just went to pick up her children. Why did her family get ruined like this?
At this moment, two sturdy men came out of the house, wearing black vests, and the exposed areas were covered with dragons. Cui Ling, who came to her senses, felt so trembling when she saw them like this, and even stuttered, "Who are you? Why did you smash my house like this?" The strong man in front of
looked at Cui Ling with contempt, and the iron stick in his hand shook intimidatingly, "Why? Humph, go and ask your Wang Yong (Cuiling's husband)." After that, he took out a piece of paper from his jeans pocket and threw it in front of Cui Ling. Cui Ling vaguely saw the two bold words on it: IOU.
"Tell Wang Yong that today is just a warning, and be careful of his dog legs if you don't pay back the money." After saying this, the two strong men turned around and left, and the village name at the door consciously made way for one thing, and the hooligans like this can hide as far as they can.
Cuiling trembledly picked up the piece of paper on the ground, and saw the numbers on the IOU, her face turned pale. The 9-year-old son pulled the corner of her clothes hard and cried. He was really frightened, but his other hand was still holding the bag of oranges that had just been thrown on the ground by Cuiling.
A sense of powerlessness hit Cui Ling's whole body, 100,000 yuan, the damn bastard actually owed 100,000 yuan outside. Five zeros circled in Cuiling's head, over and over again until they fell down.
The moment Cui Ling opened her eyes, she saw that it was already dark outside. "Cui Ling, you're awake, you're scared me to death. How about it? Are you feeling uncomfortable?" The person who spoke was a woman named Chen Fang, who was about the same age as Cui Ling. In terms of seniority, Cui Ling should call her sister-in-law. The two are usually very close, and she is also the only person Cui Ling can speak well in the village.
"Sister-in-law, I'm fine." He was obviously weak and looked as if he was dead.
are all women, so how could Chen Fang not know Cui Ling’s pain? She held Cui Ling’s hand and said with a sincere look: “Cui Ling, sister-in-law knows that you feel uncomfortable now. Don’t hold it in your feelings. If you want to cry, cry if you want to scold, scold that beast Wang Yong to death."
Cui Ling raised her head, her nose and tears mixed together, and said in a crying voice: "Sister-in-law, 100,000 yuan, what did you think of that Kill Qiandao... I usually can't bear to eat or wear it. I have been married for ten years, and the little money I saved in my passbook was digging out one by one. He doesn't care about his family, and he doesn't help the field, so I didn't say anything. But now... he is going to destroy the entire family. "
Cui Ling feels more and more aggrieved the more she thinks. Wang Yong is an electric welder. Although he earns a lot, what he really gives to Cui Ling is only enough for daily expenses. If Cui Ling had not bought a few acres of land in the village, the passbook at her family would probably be in single digits until now.
Chen Fang sighed. Cui Ling married into this village one year later than her, and Chen Fang saw the life she lived. "Girl, your hard sister knows it, but look at all the women in the village who come here like this. If you bear it, you will pass. "
Cuiling rubbed her tears with the corner of her clothes, looked at the dark sky outside the window, and seemed to have made some determination, "Sister-in-law, I don't want to live such a life anymore. I am only 30 years old, and there are still 60 or 70 years left in the future. I shouldn't have lost my life for the one who killed thousands of knives. "
Chen Fang smiled bitterly, as if mocking her innocence, "Whoever asks the women in the village for such a day? But if we are this fate, we have to accept it. Divorce is easy to say, but divorced women are even harder to live. Just the spit of others can drown you. I remember your second sister divorced two years ago. Do you ask her if she is having a good life? "
Divorce, how could Cui Ling not know that once a woman is labeled as a divorce in this small place, it is difficult for her to live a life of straightening up. Her second sister couldn't stand domestic violence and divorced and was discussed all day long. The bachelor in the village bullied her alone, and she slipped through the door and tried to take advantage of her in the middle of the night. She was frightened every night.
Chen Fang saw that her expression was a little loose, and continued, "Think about your son, he is from the old Wang family. If you divorce, you can't take her away. Do you have the heart to let a 9-year-old child lose his mother? Will Wang Yong stop looking for him in the future? It’s okay to find a good one. If you find a cruel person, will your son have a better life? If you have a stepmother, you will have a stepfather. Cuiling. We women live for children and husbands, so you can’t choose. "
Chen Fang said a few more words of comfort, Cuiling never said a word. It was not until Chen Fang left that Cuiling looked at her son beside her. He always pinched Cuiling's corner of his clothes, his eyes were a little red and swollen. The hand was always holding the bag of oranges. He glanced at Cuiling and slowly let go of the hand holding the corner of his clothes. The fat little hand took out an orange from the bag, peeled it cleanly and carefully, broke off a petal and sent it to Cuiling's mouth, and whispered: "Mom, eat it. "
Looking at his son who was so sensible that it makes people feel distressed. Cui Ling, who had just calmed down, cried in tears while holding her son.
At night, Cui Ling lay on the bed, staring at the pendulum on the wall, walking in a grid. When the needle was about 12 o'clock, the door outside made a sound, followed by the bedroom door, and a black shadow tiptoed to search for the drawer beside the bed.
"I still know I'm back. "
Wang Yong was shocked by this sudden voice. Usually, Dian Cuiling had already gone to bed, "Why didn't I know how to come back from my family? "The tough tone was mixed with a little guilty heart.
Cui Ling's tears fell instantly. Why? Why did he do something wrong and still be so righteous? The breath that Cui Ling had been holding in her heart has reached its limit now. She didn't care about who was clamoring for in the middle of the night. She pointed at Wang Yong and cried bitterly and said, "Wang Yong, touch your conscience, what did I have to let you down in the past ten years?
"I gave birth to a son for you. I have never let you interfere in the work in the fields and at home. Have I ever complained? Did I say something harsh? You are gambling outside and looking for women. Do you think I don't know? I just think you are unstable. As long as you don't make any excessive things, I don't want to worry about it. But now, you are a killer, 100,000 yuan, do you still have a conscience?"
Wang Yong was too lazy to pay attention to the crazy woman in front of him. He only knew that if he didn't pay back the money tomorrow, one of his legs would be impossible to save."Okay, it's midnight, howl, what's the joke, you're letting everyone in the village see me. Stop talking nonsense, give me the passbook."
Cui Ling was completely angry by his unhealthy words, and picked up the small stool next to her like crazy and smashed it at Wang Yong. (Original title: "Struggle", author: Qingxia Bonian. From: Read some stories every day APP Official account: dudiangushi, see more exciting)
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