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Why did he like a boy since childhood, is a boy next door five years older than her. He Yuan still remembers how beautiful his white shirt was in the sunshine that day, even though He Yuan was only six years old at that time and the boy named Ming was only 11.
He Yuan went out to help her mother make soy sauce that day, but when she came back, she dropped the soy sauce, and the glass was stuck on He Yuan's little arm. She screamed in pain. Just passing by, He Yuan was taken to the health room at the door, after the dressing, he bought soy sauce for the little girl, and sent He Yuan home.
In order to thank Ming at noon that day, and knowing that Ming's parents would not be able to come back to cook at noon, she left to eat at home at noon. He Yuan looked at Ming’s profile at that time, and a thought came into his head: “If he could be my husband while playing house, it would be great.”
Later, when He Yuan went to elementary school, Ming went to the same school. In middle school, I will eat at He Yuan's house tomorrow and tomorrow, guard her in school, and treat her as a sister. Then came high school, He Yuan graduated from elementary school, naturally separated. Once when He Yuan saw Ming pulling and pulling with a girl in the corridor, he felt a pain in his heart for no reason, but he didn't understand it for a few days. Ming felt a little inexplicable, and then He Yuan prevaricated: "Brother Ming, I have regarded you as an idol since I was a child, how can you fall in love early?" Her big watery eyes flashed suddenly, and she said aggrieved.
Ming found out that He Yuan has grown up now, and that little face is no longer naive and ridiculous. He actually already knows ignorantly what is love and what is puppet love.
was surprised and funny, and shaved her nose: "What nonsense, that girl is a little bit interesting to me, but my dream is to take Peking University entrance exams. How can I delay time in this kind of thing?" After
Hey, He Yuan is happy like a kid with candy. He used to like to play Audition, but now I don’t play it anymore. If I’m fine, I’ll study hard, or look at Heming’s photo in a daze, and sometimes search for information about Peking University. , I only think about Ming, just like he is the most important person in this life, and he doesn't care that the cart has already turned the cart before the horse.
After entering junior high school, Ming set out to prepare for the college entrance examination. At this time, He Yuan learned how excellent Ming is. The top three in the whole year, the school sports team track and field athletes, the looks are very attractive, and he is simply the cold-blooded prince charming in that high school. Not low-key but radiant.
And He Yuan is just the top student in the class at school. Other classmates mentioned that there is such a person, but it is far from the focus of the whole school's discussion. He Yuan understood the gap, and was a little bit lost, but then he thought about it again, what about the crazy bee wave butterfly that is around him now, his dream is unattainable, and the girl who can match him smoothly can't be found in that school. Come out a few.
Why is it safe to study, but she also pays great attention to her face and figure. Although she is still the ugly duckling wrapped in school uniform, at the graduation ceremony, she held the microphone in a white dress, which made many people realize that This is also a low-key star. He Yuan finally did it. She succeeded in becoming a figure in the school when she graduated.
Ming at this time has already entered his sophomore year, but he is not at Peking University, but at an institution in a province. He is still a few minutes away from Peking University. This is a regional issue and he is not to blame. Ming is a sunny boy. Although he has not fulfilled his wishes, he can still live up to the wind, and unsurprisingly, he has opened up his various attributes: handsome sunny, strong in research and study, wide-ranging interests, and helpful. Only one of these attributes can attract a large number of girls, not to mention that there are countless suitors and suggesters around boys who have these advantages. There are often rumors in the school that changing girlfriends twice in three days, in fact, from the perspective of Ming, he is only often "by boyfriend".
He Yuan occasionally surfs the Internet and sees a bunch of ambiguous messages under the clear space and feels very uncomfortable. But this aroused her fighting spirit. She wants to be admitted to that school, and she will succeed anyway. Although a college is not Tsinghua University, but it is not the top ten in the high school class. Z3z
He Yuan discovered after entering high school. High school and junior high school are completely different. It is simply a competition between top students and top students. Although they have worked hard, they still can’tWin the competition.
He even believed in such things as talent a little at this time. Some people have a good memory, some are smart, and some people can do it for a long time on a topic that can be completed in three hours... When she feels she is about to give up, she will look at Ming's photos.
On the eve of the college entrance examination, Ming was still in graduate school. Ming had talked about a girlfriend before, and soon separated. Ming is a person with mental and cleanliness. If the person you are looking for is a little inappropriate, and there is a little inconsistency between the outlook on life and values, Ming is not willing to continue.
When he discovered that eating a full meal in the real world is not important, but not starving to death is important, the butterflies that once threw on his side have already flown into the car of successful people outside the school, he felt a little lonely For the first time in my life, I felt a failure, so I thought of the reason, the innocent girl who just entered university.
obviously didn't know Heyuan's mind, but unfortunately he could only regard Heyuan as his sister, as a confidant, but not as a lover. It was a blasphemy to him, a blasphemy of the past. He was just lost. He was too tired to walk alone. He just wanted to find someone to talk to. He just wanted He Yuan to see his failure and choose others. He just told her a lot of things in his heart and expressed To his own cowardice. He thought he could use these to scare her away and drive her away, but he didn't want He Yuan to sink deeper and deeper.
He Yuan silently said to himself when he was a teenager: If bread and love can only choose one, I would rather starve to death in your arms.
clearly sees and accepts reality, but cannot accept a girl who is willing to inherit his spiritual world. He once advertised how noble his inner world was. When he fell into the dust, he could no longer ruthlessly destroy another person's dream.
said in his heart: I am afraid that you will see the real me.
He Yuan said in her heart: When I like it, it’s not the you in my heart. I understand, but why don’t you understand? The two of
played dumb puzzles for three full years, until He Yuan married the daughter of the teacher's family.
When He Yuan got married, Ming was putting up a full moon wine, and the two congratulated each other on the phone and were silent. He Yuan looked at the bouquet in his hand, and suddenly wanted to remove the upper ribbon to strangle him. "I worked so hard to be like you. I finally don’t need to humble myself in front of you. I finally have my own inner world. I can finally understand what you’re talking about. I know what you’re talking about. , I tried my best to cultivate myself and want to be your qualified wife... For more than ten years, but I can’t live with you for a day, then what is the meaning of this life.” Z3z
He Yuan finally restrained it, in his engineer She kept her elegant smile in front of her husband.
After marriage, why is it like a robot in family life, going to work step by step, going to get off work step by step, and behaved step by step, but at some point, she can't help but read the news, Moments, Weibo, Space, People On Rennet, all social networks, she can dig into his information. And he will never know that for her, Ming is the biggest pillar of her spiritual world. If Ming disappears, she may lose her faith and the meaning of living.
You said, I regard you as my faith, how much I have to love you... Will you die if you love me?
How many times, He Yuan cried silently in the middle of the night, would find a chance to travel alone, not the person next to my pillow who doesn't love me, but my body fell in love with you, but spiritually, what should I do if I believe in others? I don't want people who love me to be like me, nor can I love you as you love me. He Yuan was tortured crazy by herself.
Suddenly one day, He Yuan thought: "Since Ming and I are alive, there is still a chance to be together."
She continued to work hard. She knew that Ming had become a professor at a university and a person of social status. She began to be unwilling to be a small employee of a company, and began to climb up desperately, and it took two years to become the chief designer of the company. She began to fear that her figure would be out of shape, and she would not be worthy of being crazy with the students in school, so she also started exercising and buying skin care products at sky-high prices.
He Yuan’s husband persuaded her many times to let her not work so hard. But she didn't want to meet Ming ten years later, became afraid to see him, and became unworthy of him.
For people with obsessions, longing is like wine, the longer it gets, the more mellow it gets. She didn't intend to forget Ming, because she couldn't bear it at all.
He Yuan was already a mother of two children when he was forty years old, and his eldest son had already attended high school. She has shares in the company, and her income is several times that of the chief engineer's husband. Husband's body is not as good as before. For unknown reasons, he passed away at the age of 45. It's a coincidence that within a few years, Ming's wife also died in a car accident. At this time He Yuan and Ming seemed to have seen through the world and understood the impermanence of life. With the support of their children and family members, they finally came together. How does
think that after more than 30 years of waiting, it is worth it.
It is a pity that God always has eyes, and many unrighteous acts will kill itself. Why did
have been thinking too much in the past two decades and the stomach was not good at first, and soon gastric cancer became seriously ill, and finally could not eat. Before she died, Ming asked Ming to swear a heavy oath. The suicide note written a year ago could only be opened after her death was cremated. On the day when
died, Ming drank all night of wine, no one could persuade him. Ming's son was puzzled. He hadn't been like this when his mother died. How could this stepmother make him like this? The two have been together for less than two years. After
cremated He Yuan's body, Ming opened the suicide note.
Ming brother:
in the next life, won't you let me wait so long?
I don’t think you know yet, but you can guess something wrong. Your wife went to meet a female netizen selling skin care products, but I was actually looking for someone to design it. I deliberately asked her to be at that intersection and stunned an old pervert in the company at the company party. He must pass that intersection after get off work. In fact, I didn't expect to be successful at one time. I didn't expect to let her leave you so soon. As for my husband and I, his illness is the same as mine. In my expectation, of course his is more complicated because he eats more than me. Chronic harmful substances are no problem for one or two years, and there will always be results in ten or twenty years. Sure enough, we have all eaten our stomachs. When I get you, I think I will leave you.
Are you cold all over? I can understand that you must be thinking of me how scorpion-hearted, how abnormal. But I can't control myself. You told me a long time ago to let me let go of obsessions, but a sentence floated in my mind at that time: "If you can let go so easily, can it be called obsession?"
Forgive me, or continue to hate me, I don't care. I am a selfish person, and I can only love you selfishly in this life, even if I have to take my life.
I think, in this life, I finally have the opportunity to fulfill my promise. I think you who read the letter at this moment will remember that I starved to death in your arms...
Ming, in fact, we are all ugly, you I'm afraid I saw your ugliness, I saw it after all, I saw you turned into a lousy old man, saw you have a beer belly, saw you face the accusations of children and couldn't start. And my ugliness, I concealed it all my life, now you can finally see clearly. In this regard, none of us owes anyone anymore. In this life, I owe you a wife, and in the next life I will use me to pay you back; in this life I owe my husband a life, and I confessed and did it.
You have to live well, live with my thoughts. The reason why I say this is that I don’t want you to be too sad. I really hope you can hate me. You can live well because of disgusting that I don’t want to see me in the underworld , So I will be satisfied.
I don't know how long I can live, I just want to say, the moment I met you was lucky, every second you accompany me is my great happiness.
He Yuan
X year X month X day (early gastric cancer detected)
Then heard rumors, Ming was crazy, a good professor was crazy. Also, when He Yuan is dead, love or hate is meaningless, and there is no difference between being mad and not being mad. Life is righteous because of love, and the two loves are happy and envy everyone.
Why did you say: "I really love you..."
