After graduating in June 21, I was preparing for the postgraduate exam. I was supposed to take the exam in the first semester of my senior year, but for some reasons I did not prepare for the postgraduate exam until after graduation.
Unfortunately, my score in the 2022 postgraduate entrance examination was only a little above the national line, so I was not admitted. The moment I saw the results, I knew there was no hope for this year. I have also written in the previous article that my family asked me to take the exam again. Due to financial pressure, I originally planned to work for a few months before resigning to prepare for the exam, but everything did not go as planned.
I didn't find a suitable job for more than half a month. Then I went to work in a media company for about half a month. I found out that I was suspected of cheating, so I resigned decisively. Then I went to a braised food restaurant to try for a day, and the result was still the same. Not suitable.
More than a month has passed in circles, and it is almost July. My mother also told me to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination instead of looking for a job. Before I decided to go to a relative's house in Chengdu to prepare for the exam full-time, I had a fight with my dad because he thought I was unsettled and thinking all over the place. Sometimes I wanted to work, and sometimes I wanted to take the postgraduate entrance exam. If this continues, I might not be able to do well in both. !
For me, it’s because I feel that I have graduated and should earn my own money to buy reference books and the like. It’s really hard to ask them for money. And my dad’s intention is very clear now, that is, he wants me to prepare for the exam full-time, but he will not provide me with financial support, so I can only borrow money from others to buy books and courses.
Now I live in my uncle's house without any accommodation or living expenses. They both have to work during the day and are not at home. I cook at home and they buy the groceries. I am really grateful for their help to me, but it is a bit depressing to rely on others. I am a bit introverted by nature, and I am often cautious for fear of making others unhappy.
Because it was a borrowed money, it was not much, so I had to carefully calculate every penny and spend it. I wanted to buy a bag of milk powder after looking at it for a long time, but I still didn’t make up my mind to buy it.
World War II The postgraduate entrance examination will really put you under a lot of pressure, both financially and psychologically. In particular, people often ask me why I haven’t gone to work yet and why I still have to rely on my family for money. I have graduated from college and it’s time to go to work. I can’t just stay at home! I know that some relatives are really good for me and are worried that I can't find a job, but some people really just want to watch the joke.
It is now July, and there are still more than five months before the exam, but I have thought about giving up countless times. It would be much easier to just find a job than it is now, at least the psychological pressure would not be that great.
