remembers a song: There is a line in it called "I feel a little cold, and I haven't become smarter even after being injured." I was so blocked and suffocated, as if I was holding something in, but I couldn't spit it out, and I couldn't swallow it. , I often feel uncomfortable in my heart. I am a kind-hearted person, and the bad thing is what they call an honest person. I remember when I was a child, my grandma often said that I was stupid and honest, and that honest people have no heart or scheming. I woke up early today, and the first thing that popped into my mind was that my mother was in the advanced stage of AIDS and I quit my job to go back to be with her, but I was misunderstood as having some agenda. I have to admit that when I think about this, I burst into tears silently. sobbing. [Crying] I was deeply misunderstood. I have three sisters, one older and one younger. My mother was diagnosed with advanced esophageal cancer at the end of October 2015. The doctor said that if she misses the opportunity for surgery, she can only go home and wait... I went back and forth from Beijing to visit countless times. The last month my mother left was June 2016. That time I quit my job and went back to be with my mother. I didn’t expect anyone to say a word of thanks for your hard work, nor did I expect anyone to express gratitude. Me, I just want to spend more time with her. I can stay by her side at the end of her life without leaving too many regrets. But what I never dreamed of is that I want to go back and take care of the third sister. My brother quietly told my sister that I am so Being positive is because my mother gave me a lot of money, hahaha! So funny! I feel like this kind of person is such a fucking bastard. My mother often tells me on the phone in a hoarse voice that is hard to hear clearly, revealing that she really needs us back to accompany her, but she is too embarrassed to delay our earning money. This is not obvious. Do you need your children to go back and accompany you?My mother's life was hard and poor. She was often hungry when she was little by her grandparents. My grandmother often went out to beg for food and came back to feed the five sisters. Later, she married my father. My father was the dominant figure at home and was chauvinistic. My mother could only do I work as a farmer and raise pigs, and my dad collects the money from selling grain and pigs for a year. My mom usually has to ask my dad for pocket money when she goes to the market. My dad is born to be a selfish and stingy person. It’s so hard to ask dad for money every time. Maybe I was afraid of poverty in the past! They all wanted to find a sense of security. Later, my mother became so angry that she took out her ancestral skills of treating women. She would often charge some money to treat people. Basically, she didn’t spend any money on it, and she only had to work hard to earn a lot of money. She collects herbs from far away mountains and comes home to wash and dry them. My mother is naturally kind, smart, and kind to others. Many people come to my mother for medical treatment. She also does farm work during the day and stays up late at night to buy slippers at the market, so that she will not be without them. It’s pocket money. Since then, I haven’t asked my dad for a penny of pocket money. I probably saved about 10,000 when I got sick. When my mom finally died, my dad forced her to collect her money. Everything was settled. My mother refused to give my father the money at that time, saying that she still had a breath of life. If she didn't pay the money, my father would not buy my favorite stewed pig's trotters. The two of them were in a stalemate at home. My mother He called us and complained to us in person. When I went back, all my mother’s money would be given to my father. How could such a mother still have any money? I quit my job and got a monthly salary of more than 4,000 yuan to take care of my mother. Some people actually said that I missed my mother's money and it took me so long to go back because I had bad intentions. Every time I returned home, I gave my mother a thousand yuan and pinched it in her hand. Although my mother can't eat anything, I just want to give her comfort every time I go back. Alas, I just want to smile bitterly. When I hear this, I feel choked and blocked in my heart, and my heart aches! My mother's illness is the biggest pain in my heart. Every time I go back from Beijing, I see my father, who is in his 70s, rushing back and forth to several hospitals for my mother's illness, dragging his weak body to the county and to several hospitals in the city. His face is also sallow and haggard, and sometimes he wipes away tears secretly. I know that as a man, my father has never shed tears since I was a child. Now he must be in pain and suffering, and the pressure in his heart is not ordinary, so I also want to go back and replace my father, so that my father can feel more relaxed, because his health is also worrying! I felt heartbroken after seeing this, so I discussed with people around me in Beijing that I wanted to go back to take care of my mother and take care of my father. My lover at that time was really good and always supported me and encouraged me to go back. I resigned without hesitation and flew back to my mother. I never expected that there would be such a result. If I asked my mother for a penny, it can be said that I have always believed that everyone is watching everything they do, and everything they do is judged. There is reincarnation. No matter good or bad, there is cause and effect. God has its own arrangements. If you just be kind, stick to your heart and do your best. God will also take care of you. In life, good character is the bottom line of being a human being.At that time when I was taking care of my mother, my health was not up to par. Adenomyosis had been tormenting me for so many years. I felt chilly, weak, short of breath, and dizzy. Because I was often affected by emotions and running around, I fell ill again. I often suffered from bleeding. At that time The leukocyte is only 2.7, the red blood cell is only 85, think about it! It’s good that I managed to survive, especially at night after a long day, I almost felt like my body was almost paralyzed, and I always wanted to lie down in bed and sleep for a while, but my mother didn’t sleep, and I hardly saw her sleeping much, and she kept feeling uncomfortable, The esophageal cancer kept vomiting, and at night she asked me to help her walk around the gate. If she felt uncomfortable, I would hold her for a while, so that she could feel better mentally!
