Because in the blink of an eye, it has been three years since the epidemic, and now, it seems that we have seen the "dawn". But I discovered another fact: our good feelings are often the opposite.

seems to have a "flavor" and a feeling at this time today.

Because in the blink of an eye, it has been three years since the epidemic, and now, it seems that we have seen the "dawn".

But I discovered another fact: our good feelings are often the opposite.

2023.01.01 The first day of the new year

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In my records, time is an extremely important part. When recording each of my records, I will record the current specific time, which allows me to remain sensitive to the passage of time.

This kind of sensitivity often reminds me invisibly that I need to "be aware in time" to be worthy of this period of time, otherwise it will fly by, and at the same time, the things behind the corresponding events will sink into the "subconscious".

Looking at today's time [January 1, 2023], I don't feel much. After all, my time sensitivity is down to every minute and every second, not the end of the year or the beginning of the year.

On January 1, everyone is in the mood to welcome the New Year. At this time, we may not want to do all those repetitive things day after day.

These things make us feel tired and want to take a break and relax.

At this time, we are most likely to indulge in entertainment, such as watching movies.

At the same time, it is also the most difficult to keep improving, especially during the upcoming Spring Festival.

On the other hand, we wanted to do something "new".

Maybe you want to change something, or change your job, career, or track.

In short, I may feel that the past year has been a bit regretful, a bit boring and life has been boring day after day.

even feels like a walking dead, dawdling around.

wants to change, but is afraid of change, and is afraid of losing the "iron rice bowl" that is boring but at least can support the family.

changes are risky, involve a lot of uncertainty, and stress.

Therefore our resistance to change is a normal emotion.

But we are right to muddle along and hate ourselves.

All our subconscious emotions are often right.

• subconsciously knows that if you continue to mix, you will be eliminated sooner or later, and if you continue to mix, you will only become more degenerate and regretful;
• subconsciously also knows that if you make a change [such as resigning] rashly, the risk will be huge;

is stuck in a corner, what should I do?

The subconscious mind is right, we should not dawdle, and at the same time, we do not have to change the track to stop dawdling.

Essentially, dawdling has nothing to do with the track, because no matter which track we are on, there are ways of heaven worth exploring.

Just as I am "doing nothing" every day, I am completely at home, cooking, doing housework, spending time with Orange, and the upcoming year-end cleaning. I regard all these matters as my "career and work". I am always challenged to use the way of heaven to connect everything, and to maintain unity in every chore in life.

html In the past 2003 years, I have actually been quite ambitious. My eyes are always floating on those desires in the distance. I have never been so down-to-earth as I am now, lurking in life and savoring life carefully.

What makes me so down-to-earth this time is that I found that if I continue to float, I will continue to be lost and regret what I have done in the past.

I don’t want to regret it anymore, I don’t want to regret it anymore.

My long-term reflection and introspection made me deeply realize: "All the good feelings I had in the past were all self-deception." Moreover, I was quite shocked by the fact that I had been blocked for such a long time and with such talent.

Therefore, I have often been enveloped in a strong sense of regret recently,

and I found that this feeling is actually the most precious, because it is this strong sense of regret that drives me to improve. It reminds me that I must not slack off for a moment, must always maintain the awareness of self-examination, and cannot relax for a moment, otherwise I will definitely fall.

The last day of 2022

I was wrong for three years

In the past three years, I have had a default basic consciousness when writing articles: "Everything is under my control."

I often sound like I understand everything about human nature, because I consider myself an "expert."

This is a terrible basic awareness. I found that I had been obscured by this expert status for three years.

I even feel that I may continue to be wrong in this life.

• When I open my eyes to see the world, I am destined to be blinded by everything I see;
• When I prick up my ears to listen, I am destined to be blinded by everything I hear;

Therefore, I recently started coding deliberately:

I don’t believe in eyes, ears, mouth, especially consciousness.

I'm not saying this to be modest, it's just the way it is, and you must think I'm joking, or that I'm crazy.

Just take it as a joke for now.

When you stop treating it as a joke, maybe you will understand something.

2023, I would like to send this awareness to everyone: "I was wrong."