"Going Inside, Settling Yourself" Author: Xu Zhuoyun​ In this section, let’s tell Mr. Xu Zhuoyun’s own story. Disabled Mr. Xu said that his difficulties began from birth. He was born with a disability, grew up in trouble, and left his hometown. Now he is in his 80s and is even mo

"Going in, settle yourself" Author: Xu Zhuoyun

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​In this section, let's talk about the story of Mr. Xu Zhuoyun .

Disabled

Mr. Xu said that his difficulties began from birth. He was born as a disabled person, grew up in trouble, and left his hometown. Now he is in his 80s, and he is even more ill and disabled. He is basically a paralyzed person. On weekdays, he can only hang him from the bed to an electric wheelchair by relying on the hospital bed and equipment on the bed, including an electric sling. The hospital set up a ward for Xu Zhuoyun at home, and medical staff come to visit him every week, and everyone is taking care of him as much as possible. This is probably the case now.

. The reason for this situation starts from when Xu Zhuoyun was born. Xu Zhuoyun and his younger brother are twins. Because his mother was sick, his muscles did not have enough nutrition during his fetus. He was born early at only more than six months old. Because of the distorted and misaligned bones and the nerves were pressed, he was born with a high degree of disability. Thanks to the doctors who taught him to understand modern medical knowledge at that time, he put him in a baby box to raise him, and he saved his life.

Because he is too young, the doctor suggested that he wait until he is seven or eight years old before he has surgery. However, when Xu Zhuoyun was seven or eight years old, the Anti-Japanese War had already exploded in full swing, and people were not even able to escape, so how could they have time to do surgery? So he had to drag it until he was twenty-eight years old and was studying at the University of Chicago , and he only had to cut five times to correct his feet, but he could only correct it to walk. When he was in his eighties, Xu Zhuoyun had to cut twice more because of spinal bone . Now, once again, his spine was in trouble, and even worse, he couldn't stand up.

spent the rest of his life in disability, and he looked at how unfortunate it was from the eyes of others, but Xu Zhuoyun said that it was naturally unfortunate, but he was also lucky. Fortunately, the doctor saved his life with the most advanced knowledge at that time. Fortunately, both his parents and siblings love him very much. His twin brother is like his hands, feet and eyes. When I was a child, every time my younger brother went out for a walk, he would come back and tell my brother that there were sparrows eating small insects on the tree, and the children outside were quarreling, and he even picked up his brother to go out to watch the fun together. Later, when my younger brother went to school, Xu Zhuoyun couldn't go to school. As soon as my younger brother came back from school, he told his brother what he saw and learned at school today.

This is something he has been grateful for throughout his life, but Xu Zhuoyun has understood since childhood that he must be independent and learn how to avoid being hugged or fed, and try to eat and move by himself. At that time, there were no auxiliary tools, so he sat on the small bamboo stool, pulled forward by himself, moving half an inch and half an inch, and then learned how to stand up slowly, and every pass was struggling. Back then, Xu Zhuoyun's mother always looked around with tears in her eyes. Although she was worried and wanted to stretch out her hand at any time, she always held back and let Mr. Xu struggle over.

Xu Zhuoyun grew up day by day. When he was the age to study, he did not go to junior high school and went directly to the first year of high school. The teachers at the school took good care of him, and his classmates and friends also took good care of him and were willing to help him.

Later, he went to university and went to the research institute, and the people who helped him were everywhere. When he was in , Chicago, the hospital performed surgery on him for free and did not charge a penny. Xu Zhuoyun sighed that although he was incomplete in this life, he received a lot of favors and protection and felt a lot of warmth. These are his luck and have enabled him to survive until today, so he is grateful and does not complain.

Born in distress

When Xu Zhuoyun was young, he caught the full outbreak of the Anti-Japanese War and grew up in war and disasters. At that time, his father transferred from military positions to civilian positions and supported the logistics work on the frontline in the war zone. The Xu family has been staying near the front line. When the Japanese come over, they often have to flee their families. It was near to several counties in Hubei, and it fled to Sichuan. Along the way, we witnessed countless disasters and deaths.

Xu Zhuoyun was eight or nine years old at that time.In the half year when I was in Wanxian, half of the county town was blown up and burned up. I couldn't sleep at night. Young and old were shrouded in the shadow of war and death. On the way to escape, hundreds of people squeezed into a boat, but at the critical moment, the compatriots asked the elderly, women and children to get on the boat first, and the strong man stayed behind. Those who can't squeeze into the big boat will take a small boat, and the small boat will row with the big boat, hoping to see their relatives again on the shore.

Those who have experienced war will never forget that memory, the ubiquitous fear and hunger of not having enough, and the whine of the wounded soldiers slowly dying without any cure. Some wounded soldiers' legs were cut off alive, and some wounded soldiers could only wash their wounds with sorghum wine. Whenever Xu Zhuoyun recalled the tragic scene at that time, he couldn't help but choke and cry.

war was on the verge of hunger. In order to solve the food for the military and civilians, his father asked the local security chief and his fellow villagers to plant sweet potatoes as much as possible on the cliff water. This allowed hundreds of thousands of refugees and thousands of people in the village to have food guarantees and survived the most difficult days.

Study further study

After the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, the civil war began again. The Xu family went to Taiwan. At that time, Xu Zhuoyun's father had retired and his family was penniless. The children went to school to study and the class was over at four o'clock in the afternoon. It was all due to luck to get a bowl of rice. There is not enough oil and salt, and the vegetables are boiled bean sprouts in white water.

Later, when Xu Zhuoyun became an adult, he went to the United States to study. I don’t know the words in the book, so I can only start by learning the language and adapt to this environment again. At that time, there were no books, so the classmates helped each other and everyone took turns copying and sharing a book. Tuition fees depend on public expenses and scholarships. If you don’t have enough living expenses, you can earn money by working. I endured a lot of hardships before I got used to it. However, even if they adapted, in a foreign country, Xu Zhuoyun said that they were always outsiders.

Now, recalling the hardships of the past, Mr. Xu said that the hardships that have endured are blessings, and difficulties are tests. He does not retreat in the face of difficulties, and does not be proud of himself if he survives them. If they have not experienced those hardships, they will not become tenacious and powerful.

Now, Xu Zhuoyun is 92 years old. He said that he is old, sick, disabled, and the doctor is just comforting him in a limited time and alleviating his pain. Mr. Xu's family was with him. His daughter-in-law learned acupuncture to relieve him of neuralgia and . His wife worked hard and meticulously. She had to get up in the middle of the night to see if he was sleeping soundly.

Xu Zhuoyun is very grateful for the love he received. He said that God has given him so much favor to help him overcome the difficulties of life. He must live his best, give back to the world, and do his best.