Recently I saw another topic about big cities and small counties. Maybe before National Day, I would still have reserved the answers to the topic, but after the week I went back to live on National Day, some things have long become unrecognizable to me. After growing up, I realiz

Recently I saw another topic about big cities and small counties. Maybe before National Day, I would still have reserved the answers to the topic, but after the week I went back to live on National Day, some things have long become unrecognizable to me. After growing up, I realized that I could not go back to many things in the past.

It has been six years since I left that small county town. In September 2016, it was my first time leaving home. Before that, I lived there for 19 years. During the 19 years, I left many beautiful memories. There are people I can’t let go of the most, and people who love me very much. This is a very important part of my life experience at the moment of twenty-five years. It occupied most of my life. I was born and raised there, and I left that place later when I was studying.

So after graduation, I had the idea of ​​going back countless times. If I graduated, it would be fine if I really went back, but after leaving that place for six years, when I went back again, I found that I was out of place with the life there. It seemed that it was difficult to adapt to and recognize that lifestyle. Some things were not the same, but maybe the feeling of loneliness after things changed!

I seem to be far away from that kind of life. After staying in a big city for a long time, I will inevitably yearn for the fireworks and comfort in a small county town. However, in a stable life, there are interpersonal relationships that you will never cope with, and values ​​that you will never recognize. The interpersonal relationships in a small county town are more complex and their thoughts are more limited. We will inevitably live in other people's words. There will always be people who use their so-called life experience to tell you what kind of choice is absolutely correct.

Big cities are different. Everyone is very busy. Everyone is trying to live their own lives well. Even if they find that there are many differences between people, they are more inclusive and accept it with a mutual understanding attitude. Unlike the single social relationship in small counties, everyone tries to preach to you through their half-birth life experiences. They always feel that a regular life is absolutely correct.

Their living circle is very narrow and the things they come into contact with are very limited, so it is difficult to understand everyone's different lives. That kind of single value is the real reason why I feel that I can't adapt to the life in a small county town. Maybe put aside them and put aside those so-called kind-hearted persuasion, maybe for me, a small county town is also a lifestyle that I want to try.

During the seven days of contact and getting along with them, it seemed that I had been in a very depressed state, because you both did not recognize each other's thoughts, but because the other was an elder, you could not express your thoughts. Even if you expressed it, you would only be regarded as an alien. In such a life, you would feel very depressed no matter how you thought about it. Later, I became more determined to not go back to live, but I would still have some nostalgia for that place in my heart. That was also the most important part of my entire growth experience, carrying my initial growth and most of my youth. I met some good friends there, which was the most meaningful one in all my social circles.

Maybe life in a small county town is not impossible to go back. It may be just that I simply don’t like being preached and don’t like the worldly style of the small county town. Many years later, I find it difficult to face and accept such a lifestyle again. It is roughly because I am used to being free alone. Everyone in a big city has a strong sense of boundaries. After work, everyone has their own living space. They can try different lifestyles and adhere to different hobbies. No one will use a single value to ask you. Even if you face areas that you are unfamiliar with and things you don’t recognize, you can still maintain enough kindness. Big cities are more inclusive than small county towns. Everyone can find a suitable way of survival in the life they like to the greatest extent.

After staying in a big city for a long time, the more you have the courage to face life actively, and no longer regard marriage as the only destination of life. Here, everyone is an independent existence. We can live in the way we like. The value of existence of each person is different, the value of life that wants to achieve is also different, the initial goals are different, and the final destination is also different, there is no need to use a marriage to bind our lives.

In the six years outside, I have been exposed to some different people and things, and some things, once I have compared them, I can tell whether it is good or bad. Three years of college have allowed me to see the diversity of in this world. Three years of work experience have allowed me to understand a bigger world. In these six years, too many stories have happened in my life, and the nostalgia for small counties is just an obsession with childhood. I often think that if my parents lived at home, would I have a more sense of home for that place? Maybe! Or maybe it's just a kind of self-deception.

is now more determined to live in a big city. Maybe one day in the future, I will retire and choose a second- and third-tier city to live in, but I should not return to my hometown. Many things in my bones are already out of place with the thoughts I have come into contact with outside over the years. For me, that place is only painful and a little bit of remembrance of old friends. In addition, I can't find a reason to go back. Maybe I still have a little nostalgia. Maybe there are some family and friends there, but for such a long life, I have to take the lead in taking responsibility for my life to the end.

In fact, as I get older, I understand that everyone can only live well for themselves once. In addition, many other things are fake. Sometimes I envy those friends who chose to live at home from the beginning. For them, the circle of life will always revolve around such a group of people. I have never seen the outside world, and I will not have too many expectations and unrealistic fantasies. Perhaps in my heart, I also yearn for such a life, and I will revolve around those familiar people for the rest of my life. Home is always a reliable and warm safe haven.

It may be because I have been outside alone for too long over the years, or I have passed the age when I need to be protected, I have some concerns, come a little late, and the absence of growth has to be made up for it for the rest of my life. What’s ridiculous is that some compensation can never be waited for. We finally become adults and finally have the right to choose. Why do we have to follow the advice of others and put ourselves in the fire again? I finally escaped such a life and never want to go back.

For me, a small county town is probably the last bit of warmth hidden in my heart. It was once a very warm place and the most important part of all memories. A big city is a new beginning, a new development in the future, a place where dreams set sail. What kind of person do I want to become in the future? This is all my hope. I will never go back and can’t go back. Some unforgettable experiences are enough to experience once. I can’t always use so-called obsessions to hurt myself. When it’s time to let go, I must learn to leave calmly.

Six years is enough, enough to say goodbye to a memory thoroughly. In the days ahead, I will return the focus of life to myself. I have repeatedly been unable to let go of one thing over the years. But for myself now, I have recognized the reality and understood that some roads can only be taken by myself. Be calm and be good to everyone. We are not qualified to complain about anything. Only by loving life, but for the long time, in all the days of my life, I must try my best to pursue the dreams I made when I was young. I have trapped myself in a cage for too long and forgot to struggle. Now I have finally seen a little light. Of course, I have to find a new outlet again. Maybe I will still be very nervous and confused when facing the future, but fortunately, the first step is to take courageously. I spent too much time echoing others in the previous decade. In the next time, I want to live a good and serious life for myself.